Finally got my medication, so no more blurredness in my sight... LOL Only the happy pills left to get... Hopefully I will pay a visit to Lucinda tomorrow night to get them... They are really expensive! Yikes!!! But they are a necessary evil for me, for now... Medicated necessary evil, thank you! Hmph!
Paid a visit to Trilogy today. Since I was in thinking mode due to the lack of happy pills for the last 3 days I kinda was gloomy and doomy... I have so many questions unanswered... I have so many ghosts and doubts... Better to be blindfolded and gaged... I do know that the last couple of weeks have been almost perfect, and that must count for something... He has issues, I have issues... So, until the issues get solved this is the best we can do... not a bad thing, really... It is funny that we are actually dating... we never dated... ;P Maybe that's were the getting to know some facts take life... It is a good change that we are giving each other a position we kinda never did before... I just wish that there were flips and fireworks and special effects that showed and convinced me flawlessly that he is true in all his words and actions... But I do know that convincing me will take a long while, lots of effort and plenty of patience... Hope he thinks we are worth it... Hope he gains my faith in him... Hope he gets out of the shell and into action, grasping a life he left uncontious for so many years now... Only time will tell...
Was in a beyond ogre mood during the morning... I still cannot use my spells to make the broom and the mop due the work by themselves, and the little princess (who is the only who doesn't work and has 70% free time in her life) just sleeps, go "study"(more like goes to check out the cute guys at school), keeps following Fabio's ass, and only do things when you actually point them out to her in a mean way... I am kind and polite, but don't get me on ogre mood BECAUSE it is CERTAIN you will not like the consequences. I hold grudges for long, especially when I see that things are NOT right. Responsability is a word of many deep meanings, and it's about time the little princess LEARNS it. This is the REAL world. Here you must DO things for yourself, you must EARN what you have (be it money or just plain RESPECT). Being with that asswipe of Fabio daily is a definitive no-no... I don't get it, why go to the effort of doing the right thing when she just doesn't give a damn fuck about it? Heck, if I had known she was gonna go to Fabios home EVERYDAY afterschool, and weekends, until sometime in the night, I would not have told her to stay at my home because it is kinda STUPID. Since the guy is gonna be your personal driver and everything, heck, go live with him! You have demonstrated so far you have no self-respect, no true self-esteem, no love for your self, no dignity, and a very skewed sense of right and wrong. Ah, yeah, the niuyorican look doesn't help any case either...
Roxie ventured out of the bathroom, and has stayed underneath the bed the whole day... I guess she was feeling lonely and forgotten... Now at least she hears and sees voices and people... :)
Groundel helped me clean-up the place. He also made a super-delicious berry shake, old Fruizzle style... :) Great way to close Elections Day... ;) He has been helpful and thoughtful all these days. I know it is hard for him to try being nice at least, so kudos to that. Of course, he's playing non-stop...
Feeling... a bit blue, a bit pink, lots of yellow-bricked-roads... But as Gloria Gaynor said "I will survive".
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