A Year about to End

... Ahem...

What can I say? This year was something very very DIFFERENT. It was the BEST of times, it was the WORST of times... Yup, that's how to describe it...

The BEST:
Marrying the Mage & Deedee's birth. In my whole life, and that is 34 years, I have never been as happy as when these two events collided against me. Not even when I graduated with my MBA in hand... Yup, THAT much happiness!

The WORST:
Deedee's hospitalization because of lung failure, and possible outcome of SMA Type1... Which will lead to some life changing events in the future... for all of us. The drama has been taxing, heartbreaking, unnerving and simply a live-action horror movie. And this, followed by Groundel's constant hospitalizations thanks to the foot-that-wont-heal. By now I know all the hospitals in the area, and it is NOT a nice thing to know by heart, true story.

So... The Mage and I hold on to our belief, and we prepare ourselves for a very rocky road ahead of us... We believe Deedee will heal her lungs, the waiting game is the worst part. Anything can make or brake us. Bad sleeping, erratic nerves... The uncertainty of news, the getting better 3 steps ahead to get worst 6 steps back is really REALLY hurting... But we hang in there. Deedee wants to stay with us, we want her home... And if she is to live with SMA so be it, we will do everything within our power to fight that illness and give her as much time as she can have of happiness, love, warmth, thrill, adventure... you name it.

Seven months, one year... Ten... Forty... It is not quantity but quality. Many men die, not many men REALLY live. And we will make sure that whatever is the number of her stay in this rotten planet, she will REALLY live. She already KNOWS the love of her favorite slaves... parents... you name it. She KNOWS she made a big difference in our lives, and she KNOWS she will make a big difference... period. She is here with a great purpose ahead of her. And we are to be the facilitators... the guardians... the action-starters. It all began with us, and it will not stop. Things will be difficult and will test all our wits and our courage... But we will look back and laugh. Because in the end, we will win. Together, as we are now... The DeeVa, the Mage and the Witch.

And besides the family core of the three of us, the extended family that shows us we are not alone and gives us courage as well lives on...

Groundel has a strange link with our DeeVa, seems he is her magical familiar... And he cares a lot for her. It has been hard for him being in the hospital, knowing all that's been going on with DeeVa and beeing able to do nothing but stand on the sideways praying... wishing... believing... I was able to give him a picture of DeeVa taken on Xmas day, so at least he can see her. Our funny mischievous Deedee...

LightShadow has been deeply involved, granting her time and support daily. She has been a model of a godmother and a very good friend to the Mage and me, and to Groundel. Her presence inspires certainty, tranquility and action. To all of us.

Coriolis have not been around physically but has been here in spirit, calling all the time, lending an ear and words and good thoughts and prayers... Much needed... Much appreciated. Always sharing the joys and the sorrows in black and white. Complicated, and I wouldnt have it any other way.

L. and Karah have also been of great support, even if they are beyond the seas... Who knows, maybe we'll get to meet sooner than we think! So many wheels are turning at the same time!

The surprises that Christmas dragged along were from my work, where one person (Onis) has been constantly calling to know what's going on, and another four (Marta, Xionara, Raquel & Sylvia) have dropped by leaving some details in the way...

And last but not least, Raven made a brief apparition if only by email, but a useful one. Thanks for the references.

So, let this year end taking away all that is BAD, and let the new year bring on plenty of nourishment for all that is GOOD.

I raise my glass of wine and wish you all PEACE, LOVE, PROSPERITY, COURAGE and much HAPPINESS for the new year. May GOD bring much BLESSINGS to your LIFE!

10-4

PS: Deedee's latest update in her blog: A Little Mage in The Family

Merry Blues

... Joyful sadness

It is all bittersweet. Celebrations, lights, knowing that it’s just 2 days for Xmas… Oh, we all made many plans for Deedee’s first Xmas. I wanted to take her to the lighting of our church, LS wanted to take her to the Siervas de Maria lighting, and we were to have a family gathering on Xmas eve… I guess we will have a celebration even if it is quiet. After all, it is about God’s birth… But the sadness of knowing Deedee is in the hospital and we cannot even get her in our arms is just too much… Her latest news, here in her blog, A little Mage in the Family: The sound of music.

All in all, it is better that she stays for a long time, if it means her healing completely. Her lungs need to get healthy and strong… We know what must be done… That it is hard, yup… It is. That it breaks our hearts all the way, yup. That too. This is the time for family, and although we are not together physically, we are together in spirit. We miss her, all the time, in everything we do. Just 4 hours a day to enjoy her presence, touching her little fingers and loosing ourselves in her eyes… is not enough… How can it be enough!

The Mage and I both have made some arrangements at work, hope it all ends ok. Whatever. Not thinking too much about that right now, more important things to take care of.

About Groundel… The forecast for him is 43 days in the hospital, if not more. He’s got bone infection and one kidney is very sore, so he’ll have more tests. So… Xmas, New year and Three Kings Day are kinda off-limits for him… I also know he’s been worried sick about baby…

All this drama is getting to be too much. Very draining. Very tiresome. But… We all will pull trough. Yup, together through the good, the bad and the ugly. With help from the Divine, courage, will and faith… and help from a few good friends…

10-4

Baby holds on...

and Texas Weeps

Baby holds on. She got a new tube in her chest to drain her faster... And still wakes up ready for songs. More on her blog, A Little Mage In the Family: Another Day

In Texas, Maria Luisa's mom died. An old, fierce Cuban with many stories to tell, she battled diabetes and many other things for long. Now she rests in peace, as she knew the love of her family and now she knows the might of God.

10-4

UPDATES and then some

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The winner of the heartless-coldest-meanest comment of the day: “Para que quede vegetal major que se muera”. Comments that REALLY pisses you off, and then they wonder why you say nothing to the so-called “immediate family”. Well, you-know-who-u-are, my girl has no brain damage thank God, but if she had it would make no difference because I love her. But I understand, it is a word that you simply cannot acknowledge in your dictionary if it is not glued to monetary gain. I believe in true love, a concept that you cannot even start to grasp, a concept that my husband shares with me as well. Our child is a gift, the greatest gift that we were granted. And all that matters is the joy she brings into our life, the light we see in her eyes. If you think it is a burden, ANYTHING for YOU is a burden… Then simply “Apaga el televisor”, or go ahead and change the channel. We don’t need people who even dare to throw comments like this without knowing anything about what is going on.

I had to get that off my chest, as I was completely appalled and outraged by such statement. I wonder if I had been born with anything “unexpected” if I would have been left to die because I didn’t meet the expectations…

So… Rollercoaster of feelings, of people, of many things… That said… Deedee is stable within the circumstances. Still draining her lungs. But, as I had said to everyone, she had no flu. The X-Rays showed she had no sickness or pneumonia. Just liquid, that right now is being drained little by little. The tube she had in her nose was removed, leaving on the one in her mouth, her chest and the monitoring wires. She needs more time to heal, so results arrive, so things move on. I believe she wants to be with us, she feels the love… and she will stay. I hope that by next week she leaves intensive care and is put in a room… And I expect her home to open her Three-Kings Day gifts. Details on Deedee's recent whereabouts are in her blog under Holding On

Thanks to everyone who has called, written, text-messaged and visited. The support is very much needed and very much welcomed. The Mage and I are trying our best to stay cool, be happy and positive around Deedee , and to keep the faith… And all of you have fueled our hopes.

In other news, Groundel’s pressure is a bit high, and now he also has been diagnosed with bad kidneys. He’s still at the hospital, room 458. Please call him, it is lonely up there in that far away place! Besides, that’s why he put up a phone! Duh!

I’ve got a small cold due to all the running in and out of hospitals… Blah! Just what I needed… But big deal, the show must go on, and it will!

10-4

PS: They requested blood donations for Deirdre, she's blood type O positive. I cannot donate because I'm diabetic so if anyone else can, you are more than welcomed to do so! The blood donation center is at the building just at Mayaguez Emporium's side (Santander Plaza), in front of Centro Médico (BANCO DE SANGRE 787-834-6099)

HOSPITAL WOES

... Baby is sick...

Deedee is in the hospital, was taken to ER on Monday night and then in a rushed ambulance to the San Antonio Hospital. She is in intensive care right now. Her lungs were filled with liquid, and then they collapse yesterday early in the morning. She's battling the odds... So you prayers and good vibes are very much needed so she keeps her will to stay. We need her so much... We are running out of options in matters of what to do... Hope God grant us a miracle this Xmas.

More about DeeVa's hospitalization & details in her blog's newest entry, God wants another angel

Groundel is still hospitalized as well, his stay in Bella Vista will be beyond Xmas for sure.

DRAMA! DRAMA!

We love drama...

This weekend was quite hectic… All the conmotion began on Friday…

FRIDAY: DeeVa’s Ped Appoinment, Groundel’s Doc Appointment and mandatory chores
DeeVa has me worried with her lack of kicking and normal movement, checking the list for milestones she has not reached any concerned with her legs or raising her head. Also her right side seems a bit more raised than her left side, her struggle with drool seems non-stop heading towards 24/7 monitoring to make certain that she doesn’t choke and her 4th month is just around the corner so she will need to get her vaccine shots. Enough reasons to visit the ped. Daddy took her into this adventure. I took the afternoon off to go into nanny duty as Groundel was in a doctor’s appointment and so couldn’t take care of baby.

So, I met the Mage in the City of Hills. We had lunch together (awww) and I took baby. The ped gave a note so we can see a neurologist in Ponce to run tests to make sure DeeVa is fine. Everything else (drooling, raised chest) is normal and should just be monitored. Fine… Now I need to get the date for the neuro visit… Without good tires and overall car crisis, I better get it for after the Holidays…

Groundel called me up to pick him. He had some news as well… The doc wanted to hospitalize him in BellaVista so his foot could be treated by the wound center, so it finally seals. Good thing, about time the doc did something proactive, it’s been more than a year and Groundel needs to have a healed foot so he can get the eye operation and get a job… And then check up his hearing loss problem (yup, he is THAT defective… no pun intented! LOL). Bad thing… Who’s gonna take care of DeeVa while he’s in the hospital. A BIG headache begins…

Anyway… The Vangie Delivery made it, and I finally straigtened up the Citi account… which left me completely broke for Xmas… How lovely… Arrived at home with an empty pocket and a bit worried about both DeeVa & Groundel’s wherabouts… The big old jolly guy left three packages under the tree for DeeVa, in Vangie’s name… not to open until Xmas! Presents! More presents! Buahahahhahahah :P LightShadow passed by to visit, and so I put Perfume, Scent of a Woman… Hmmm… I love foreign movies… This was entertaining, maybe if it didn’t have the comic punchlines I would have liked it better… But that is the horror/gore/spooky freak in me talking. I can see the vampire subtleties… but the whole nose thing was too toony for my taste… It was fun, though.

SATURDAY: Laundry, Laundry & more Laundry, plus The Golden Compass
I got up early in the morning to try and put together the mess in the house… Right… Put up Chicago while I had breakfast, to get the feminist spirit pumping and so to get awake and energized… Last Thursday the drivers from work made their good deed of the month by stopping at my house and bringing the washing machine up to the second floor. Yay! Finally, after all these months of going for laundry service… I will be able to do the unthinkable at home: wash clothing (because this last week there has also been water in the house, miracles do happen).

Anyway… Chicago finished, I do some laundry, and I put on Number23 while cutting some fabric to FINALLY do the curtains for the bedroom closet (that fabric has been running around for more than 6 months...) so the stuff is neatly hidden from sight. The Number 23 movie didn’t grasp my attention, only actually watched the last half hour and it all was rubbish… The Mage had to work, so he floated away… Groundel was taken by his aliens for dinner and a movie… and I kept on doing laundry the whole afternoon. By nightfall I took a bath and put up Number23 to see if I could actually watch the movie…

Groundel arrived, got two phone calls and the baby awoke… So, I took those as omens of just forgetting about the movie (since it was crap anyway). The Mage arrived before midnight, so me decided to go see a movie instead of going to the scheduled parranda of this week. So, Golden Compass it was… It is an entertaining movie. Loved the bear (with Gandalf’s voice), absolutely loved the witches and the gypsies. The only thing that is turning out to be a real pain is the new trend of doing trilogies… The movie doesn’t fail to leave a good hook with many side adventures for two sequels… All in all, it feeds the fantasy vein… Always something I can’t turn away from.

SUNDAY: MariaIsabel’s Baptism & Groundel’s Hospital Stay
We arrived at 2:30am from the movie, to wake up at 8:00am and get ready so we could be on time at church by 11:00am. It was MariaIsabel’s baptism and we were not gonna miss it! I dislike the San Benito church, the impersonality of the priests there… It was funny the “swapping” of babies (my sister and her hubby were godparents of the godparent’s baby). After that, we went Chinese before the Mage went away… Then I delivered Groundel to the hospital and waited until mid afternoon for the lovely service in there…

Left ER because the emergency room was getting filled with too many coughing people and cannot risk baby getting sick. Stopped at auntie’s to deliver the news on everything… She wants to take care of baby, but I know she can’t. Being 85 is a base… Baby is heavy, already 14.7 pounds… It is difficult for me to lift her, now imagine auntie who has a bad arm due to one of her falls…

So… Made the last stop at my sister’s home. They were already serving dinner, so I made good timing to fill the belly. Stayed until nightfall… took some cake for the Mage and FINALLY went home… Baby had not slept in the whole day, so she fall asleep as soon as she touched the bed. The Mage arrived as I found some funny Thundercats videos, and we were up until midnight. I fall asleep as soon as I hit the bed…

MONDAY:Groundel's Hospital Update, Work & Babysitting Waking up is hard to do… especially when you really REALLY need the sleep… Gotta hate duty… A spider greeted me in the staircase… Made it to work and I already asked for this week’s afternoons off. I know Groundel will be there all week long… probably Xmas week and probably New Year’s week… (sight). The Mage will have next week free, and I will have the other one free, so we got bebysitting covered for the next three weeks… If the hospital stay of our many is longer, then we will need to take special measures… and the Mage will have to ask for a 3rd shift if possible. It all sucks, but there is nothing else that we can do…
I also called the Ponce neurologist to get a date, and I was given Jan25th. Bad in a way, I expected a closer date, but I know days will fly because of Xmas break. The emotion and excitement never stops…

LightShadow passed by to check on Groundel and she told me he’s still in Bella Vista’s ER (Camilla #15), has not been placed in a room, and the doc has not seen him yet. Great… So nothing much about that matter… Wait… She just called again with an update! They will take him to the upper floors to clean his leg and prepare it for treatment… I don’t think Groundel is in Kansas anymore… That means taking away dead tissue from the leg, tearing it with a sharp razor string by string, cell by cell, until there is no bad skin cells left… no more, NO MORE!!! BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

Ok… Next!

So far, nothing else has brought wonder to the day. Hopefully will get to rest some today… If such a thing is possible. Cannot say that I live a dull life, though…

10-4

Work woes...

or more of the same shit...

Back at work… Just 3 days and I just remembered why I wanted a career change so badly… Trying to do something about it on the inside… Hope it works somehow, because if not next year will be the last one filled with this insanity. Talking the talk, following procedures, being a good and polite player. Let’s see if patience can actually help complete the masterplan…

At home, everything is quiet and flowing. Flowing... Rain has made a nice pool in front of the stairs and a broken tube has made sure it raised to more than an inch... Who wanna throw in the fishes?

Groundel is babysittig on afternoons as the Mage has to go to work. I arrive and the Little Witch expects the mandatory attention… And then sleep, or try some…

The Mage is also jobhunting, so if anyone knows of anything within the Mayaguez-SanGerman radious please, please, please let us know. He needs to get out of the Umbrella Corp. before he gets the T-virus.

Me… I’ve already got a headache… Was throwing a friggin cable “con los idiotas mirando” and been putting together some loose ends in matters of making people at work happy… Yesterday was helping a director write a letter in English, and at the end of it we included her credentials, where we work… and somehow it was like a happy lightning hit us: That sounds important… Wait… It IS important! What we do here IS important. A pity that the same organization won’t see it…

Well… Yesterday I almost met Madre Teresa… I got out for work and since it was raining all night the floor was wet, and that plus the bad tires that my car has led to my car getting stuck trying to go uphill, sliding towards the side… I managed to control it half an inch before it actually fall downhill… Nice scare to liven up the day making me wide awake. It rushed plenty of energy through me, true story.

Since the game was aborted on Saturday, went with the Mage & Deedee to see El Calvo. He was doing his mandatory every-year-is-springtime-cleaning spree. Woah! We stayed until almost 10pm! So many updates, so little time! He also lend us some movies so we have something to fill into the evenings: Premonition, Perfume, Hannibal Rising, Number 23, among others. So war we’ve seen only Premonition… a very predictable, slow and uneventful movie starring Charmed’s McMahon… Gosh! That guy has plenty of bad luck when it comes to his movies! His role as DrDoom sucked so much thanks to bad, bad writing… And this infidel hubby in Premonition followed that sucky tradition…

Last week we also saw 1408. I expected more hardcore horror or thriller… Not scary, and a bit weak for my taste. I think it is a lovely ghost story in which a child makes her parents reconnect thanks to her memory…

The next excitement of the week, getting eyeframes for the Mage at midday… Hope he has foodie ready. And gotta take Deedee to the ped on Friday, something in her chest bothers me… plus the never-ending baba is too weird, even for me.

Hope I get to see The Golden Compass and Sweenie… Is that too much to ask for?

10-4

20 days to go

Ho!Ho!Ho!

So… December arrived… actually it kinda landed on us by mid-August based on the media but who cares… The financial deficit of the isle keeps on going up, as well as the never ending buying behavior of the ‘ricans. Plastic money and more embrollo, nothing like a good Ho! Hmmm…

So what’s up in the Lands of Mist? Well, Anthill is the same… Rainy afternoons, cold nights and sunny mornings. Traffic keeps building up at the entrance of the small citadel due to the never-ending construction… Nothing different… And the Comatose City (aka Lady Sultan of the West aka City of Pure Waters yeah right)… Holidays leading to stupid people in midday frenzy heading towards the mass-hypnotic-will-bending superstores… Ugly traffic by 3:30pm, and this is NOT metro area… Ugh!

FAMILY:
There is a rumor of someone going to the states for good with hubby dearest… Hmmm… Giving away pets and preparing the ship for high waters. Interesting, just don’t forget responsibilities like… erm… your daddy who is put away in storage waiting for the reaper? Sheesh! I foresee a storm is coming…

So, in other news, Marisa is cuter by the second, so AuntNita should be very happy and proud. Haven’t heard much of the TexasCrew…

I sent a message in Thanksgiving to some chosen ones. The mage and I decided to celebrate Thanksgiving in our home, so we took the ZombieCrew and my AuntieDearest to Anthill for food and drink. The afternoon went quite fast, and there was no bloodshed (oh, nothing is perfect). Loved the turkey, loved the pie, and absolutely loved the company of my favorite spellcaster… Grrrrr….

DeeVa is doing just fine. Now following the steps of a pirate as Captain Babbossa, leaving a lovely trail in everything. She’s got a doctor’s appointment after the 17th, when she’ll become 4 months old.

The Mage has been a bit more time in the house, doing some surprising things, making me smile and getting down and dirty with the uvas playeras. Hope that his thinking leaps go deep, rooting truth and will inside his brain. Muah!

FRIENDS:
Coriolis has been more missing in action than usual… Seems he’s got a premature menopause or something… HOPE THAT THIS NEXT WEEKEND THERE IS A GAME, DAMNIT!

LightShadow & Lynnette went to Rome and did what Romans do… Literally! At the Colisseum! Oh, you gotta hate them!!!

Karah sent DeeVa a lovely blanket. Thank-u-very-much!

Groundel has been playing and chilling and completing the “cupones”circle. He’ll attend a bone scan next Friday and has another doctor’s appointment next week.

PETS:
Coriolis: Just read about the little bitch, so my condolescences. Yes, we can weep more for animals than for humans… It’s not their fault we make their lives miserable…

Kitties still happy and kicking, waiting for Xmas eve so they get their special treats…

WITCH:
Me, will begin working next Monday… Yay… I know what awaits… All this time out of the flow of the real world has been both a breath of fresh air and a taste of acid. I definitively found out I am NOT a stay-at-home person. I hate housechores, cannot stand the monotony of being there day by day, night by night. Better to pay for whatever… But if the going gets tough I definitively give face and some punches as bonus. Has anything changed? Amount of available time to do anything… yes. Lines of thought and lifestyle… no. I’m too old to change, know myself too well, and perhaps this whole new experience as a mommy was what was left in the to-do list that doesn’t includes traveling. So far, so good. Looking forward to make changes at work or elsewhere if possible. I foresee two more responsibilities falling over my shoulders… but whatever… I know what lies ahead… For now, everything makes sense within the chaos, the mage and the little devilette are sweet and the world keeps turning tides in our favor little by little, one by one…

Oh, went to see BEOWULF. We know the story, so no surprises there… The CGI was ok, not as stunning as 300 but ok… Loved Beowulf, Loved the Mother of Monsters. Light entertainment that brings a smile and fills the eyes with candy.

So… Ho! Ho! Ho! 20 days to go! To naughty and nice alike… Merry Xmas, and goodnight! :P
10-4

Chickens, knives and pizza!!!

...
Last weekend was the comeback of our dear Coriolis as the Arabian Adventures DM we love (for those ignorant to it, the world is Al-Quadym). Although the mage and I were just witnessing the insanity, Groundel and the Ponce Zombies were quite entertained and satisfied. It was hilarious watching the DM and the ogre interact… hopefully some will take the hints. This weekend gaming could not be achieved, but maybe next week things will provide for it. I will use my beloved Kymill and the mage will try giving new life to his corsair/shair.

In the meanwhile, Groundel is throwing a modest Forgotten Realms capaign to the mage and me. The mage created a wemic ranger, and I am using dearly beloved Nizzré (priestess of Eilistraee). Main problem is playing after 10:30 pm, as I get offline into La-la-land… Yeah, I’m a creature of habit, and I gotta try getting back to my 6-10 schedule so I have no problems when I go back to work in December. But, besides that, the Mage is quite excited with his character (finally, gaming!!!).

Last week was also the Mage’s birthday. Since the occasion took place in the bellybutton of the week, the celebration was quiet. At least he got some zombies his way, as he is a zombie addict. Besides the usual, he has been working on the weekend and so praising the Umbrella Corporation… But hopefully the weekend warrior theme won’t last long… Almost no time to actually enjoy the company of family is not time that can be recuperated, and it has no price tag… So… Weekends should be back.

Auntie is trying to get into the modern lane but splatting herself in the way… She needs an ID for everything and has none… Next week is the quest for getting her a Voting ID. Groundel needs one as well for the welfare, and I will also get it for the heck of it.

LightShadow (who has become a Corporate Bitch that would make Stacey & Clinton from WNTW proud!) has been around during the week, brought American Psycho for our entertainment. She will be traveling to the Old World on the week of the 16th… what a way to celebrate Turkey Day! Wheee or something. :P

Deedee is learning to rise her arms or at least aim the middle-way. She keeps on the chatty babble and the interest in Tyra’s shows.

Me… Been making the house more cozy and liveable. Bleached a bit my lovely mane, but needs more blonde before I can attack it with my beloved red. Really into ANTM, Heroes and the fashion stuff of TLC as usual. And heating up BBQ wings to get what hunger wants… Oh, the excitement! LOL Planning a small Turkey gathering, and looking forward to putting many many lights outside for Deedee’s first Xmas! The mage has been taking advantage of the pizza specials, and I have become quite thirsty thanks to the high levels of salt that they feature... Blah!

If I keep hearing the chickens song I will have a rampage fit!!! I mean it!!!

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HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Two demonettes, one gothic zombie and a pirate... Hope you all had a fun Hallowed Day!

New Baby Arrival at 1:00pm! And then some

... Yay!

Sister gave birth today at 1:00pm a baby girl named María Isabel. Another big girl, weighted 8something and was 20 inches long. So send good karma to the newest mommy in the family! :D

So, what's been going on? Baby stuff mostly... Vaccines, baptism, new birth... Sheesh! Now babies are the only fancy news, or so it seems... Now DeeVa has spiritual parents... Groundel & LightShadow... Should I fear? :P

Coriolis MAY be throwing game starting this weekend... HOPEFULLY, if no more stars keep aligning so he can't do so... Groundel and the Mage are in the gaming list, and the two guys from Ponce may or may not appear.

I have no idea if there is bad weather or something, just that lovely wind is blowing at night in Anthill... I just hate that my bedroom is oppossite its course, it is the warmest room in RoseRed... so the light bill thanks to the AC wont be going down anytime soon...

Groundel is staying with us at RoseRed and has already felt the wrath of aballardes and crazy ants... He's got a doctor's appointment tomorrow, and hopefully will be in the way towards complete recovery within the next two months. There is a masterplan that he can follow so the neverending loops stop... Hopefully this time things will go smoothly.

An old nice and naughty witch from Florida has been summoning me and the orc to get some answers. O am glad she's alive and well, and with glee I would like to give her a punch in the head! Woman, get out of the destructive relationship circle! You are so beautiful, you have a kid, you have a job, you have a life! You don't need a latin asshole to rule your life putting himself first, humiliating you and playing around. Come on! Wake up! Stop being a victim! You are worth more than that!

Yesterday was LightShadow's b-day, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY little stinger!!! Yup, our mild mannered soon to be discovered diva is a scorpio... Already given a hint to make everyone drool, will she accept the dare to look almost like Aeon Flux and go for it? (tension mfx please). Hopefully will be able to do some sort of ritual to celebrate her step towards the grey stone during the weekend :D

Wanna see Elizabeth The Golden Years, 30 Days of Night, and (why deny it) Saw4. Will definitively like to finish watching Resident Evil Apocalypse...

Want the blood to return to my hair, so maybe Halloween will be perfect for a Bloody Mary. Thinking of doing something else, but don't know if I should keep my hair long or chop it manga style... Choices, choices... I just know that by now braids are really boring me...

Pica-pica is in the air, bills keep coming, Deeva keeps demanding, work starts withing a month and a week, ghosts keep on being ghostly, friends have been friendly-er and I am really wondering about some people with some backgrounds that may have been overrated...

Raven keeps running from her hits, a big shame after such a long storyline... She still thinks little of herself, and I had always thought so high in contrast to that. What is the point of words without action? A lesson she still has to learn. I am to decide who is useful around me, if I ever used such a term... I am too much of a do-it-yourselfer, so in my case that doesn't apply. I share life, I share time and I share caring. I help as long as I can, going to some extremes that most may think stupid from me... I preech trust, loyalty, faith, love... I do all of those. No double side, as anyone who knows me can tell without thinking twice about it.

Years have taught me to stop being quiet and say things to your face... Brooding on ideas and points of view is a waste of time. I only wish people would let me decide for myself when my point of view is center stage, not try russian-roulette and make decitions for me. When I do and say things about a matter that targets soemone close to me, I have every right to do so because I have put my whole life into a honest labor of friendship and love. I am extreme, yes... all or nothing... very truthfull and blunt. That's why most people don't like me. When I fuss with or about someone, being unpolite is not an issue... Call it tough love. Someone who knows where you come from should know better... should know why some words should be said because they matter, should not doubt your genuine feelings and interest on daily stupid events... Enough said.

Got nice red devilish horns for some Halloween kitty pics, maybe for DeeVa. O may don my dear daily costume, or become a devilette for a change... Gotta see in which mood I'm in on the witching day...

The Mage... keeps pushing buttons in his witty way, keeps on being thoughtful and kind, keeps on picking up the pieces left by long days and even longer nights. Always bringing a smile to my face, neverending hope to my heart. He's making me go soft... Damnit!

10-4

Deirdre's Baptism...

Tomorrow at 2:00PM


WHERE?
Our Lady of Fatima Church, Parcelas Castillo C-2, Mayaguez

WHEN?
Tomorrow October 21st at 2:00 PM

RECEPTION?
There will be a small gathering at auntie's house after the ceremony at church... Yup, I just want cake! Cakeeeeeee!

GODMOTHER: LightShadow the Stigmata Bleeding Elf
GODFATHER: Groundel the Ugly Ogre

Hope to see ya!

10-4

Summing it up...

blah, blah and some coo's

Some hybernation at Anthill due to lack of funds. Some mandatory visits to doctors, to familiars and to Church. Some catching up with old favorites, crafts and new favorites (for some reason I am very hooked on ANTM and of course JLU). Taking care of Diva, cleaning the house and taking care of Diva again... La-la-la...

Christening of Diva should be in November, official date shall be disclosed soon.

10-4

Happy UnHalloween!!!!

o algo... LOL

Oh! We went to see STARDUST two Saturdays ago! Loved the movie! More than what I expected, you gotta love DeNiro! :D

Last week:
-Pediatrician on Friday, Diva is fine and now weights a wooping 12.02 pounds and has a height of 22 inches... Groundel went with us, later on to a shopping adventure as well. Gotta get that LF-octopus for Diva maybe for Xmas...

-Baby Shower of my sister on last Sunday. Many people, MANY people from her hubby's family, me from her side. She should deliver around Nov 1, but I'm thinking that it will be a witchy girl. Her name is Maria Isabel, btw

Monday: Attack of the spooky spiders... Seems they are getting ready for Halloween too...

Tuesday: Quick trip to get kitties food at night. Fortunately the mage had the time after lunch off, so he was home early to help me complete the task...

Looking for a baptism attire for Diva... Expect it to be on October 21st. Also looking for her 1st Halloween costume... And her vaccine shots are due next 17th.

Me, thinking of dying my hair but looking for a different haircut. Still afraid of short hair... Sorted some pictures, photo albums organized, assigning things to propper places, and going insane in RoseRed as I cannot do much thanks to money matters and Diva's crying. May have a Christening gathering after the ceremony, and a small Halloween thinguie the week after to at least dress up this year.

Coriolis attempted a game start (good shot, hopefully we will all gather SOON!). LightShadow still a corporate client service zombie slave. Groundel lightening up a bit at least with Diva (Wow, he makes her smile... and she DOESNT smile!). Cook called to let me know a coworker will donate something for Diva... And I guess Raven is nevermore (pun deliberately intended). Gotta see what ElCalvo is up to...

So Diva sleeps, kitties are no longer hungry and everything is peaceful and quiet in Anthill... and Neverland...

10-4

One thing down!

99 to go...

So... the week has been hectic, days keep flying away...

SUNDAY: Coriolis B-day... Not that it could be celebrated at all (para variar). The string of bad events included my car's rear leaking water heavily, my glasses breaking, the washing machine not spinning so I had to finish every item by hand, getting home to some annoyances... Long, draining day. Next!

MONDAY: Tired, monitoring the bathroom progress... obeying Deedee's comands... Ugh! Long, LONG day!

TUESDAY: Picked up Groundel early in the morning so I could do a bit more in the day... Went to WIC, to auntie's, to the Town Center, home to check the bathroom job, got some cleaning stuff at the nearby shopping center, delivered Groundel, bought food for the Mage, delivered the food, and made it home... Amen! Long day that left me comepletely drained.

WEDNESDAY: Slept a bit almost until 10am... Just watched TV, responded to all pf Deedee's demands, and tried sleeping in the afyernoon after taking some allergy medicine... LightShadow passed by to visit us... Oh, and she delivered food! Real food! Oh, yes, milk and Cheerios are ok but kinda lack in taste... Thank-u!!!

THURSDAY: Went to pick up Groundel, who invited to lunch and later on helped with some upholstering. Played some old LP's (yup, you read well... La Pandilla, Chespirito, amd other of my childhood favorites...), cooked something to feed the Mage, delivered Groundel, delivered the food, and got home for some serious Deedee time.

FRIDAY: The bathroom was FINALLY finished today, and the windows were FINALLY drilled... Amen. Gotta cleanup with some clorox in the weekend to dispose of the dust and yucky stuff. Gotta get a toilet seat and the half-bent shower curtain tube... And somewhere along the way see if he electrician can come light up the cabinet... But it should be at least usable by Sunday. I'm happy there's no more flowers in there!

WEEKEND PLANS: Tonight will hopefully see Halloween so I can actually talk about it... Will also try finishing Hairspray (found it boring)... So, tomorrow we will (maybe) finally go and see Stardust, and with any luck actually get to play some AlQuadym if Coriolis shows up... On Sunday we shall cleanup the blue bath, finish the sofa, and hopefully rest a bit more... Oh, and get the date for the baby's Christening reunion, so it can finally be done maybe in October's 1st or 2nd week...

Got a doctor's appointment on Monday, and another on Thursday... More excitement for the weeks ahead, yipee...

Anyone up to dressing up for Halloween? Yeah, think about it now so you actually do so when the week arrives. I wanna do something... Next year I hope I can finally go to the Horror Nights! Even as a weekend horror getaway...

10-4

Letter to an insect

...

It is funny when insects try to make comebacks to bite, and they don't really have much arguments.

Lady Death:

You live in EL CARAJO, so spare me your drama. Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one. You don't like mine, don't read it. Your lazy ass gave me enough proof of what to expect from you, who you are and how small your mind and aspirations are. You wanted a man to carry YOU around as a little pampered princess, you got him and that's great... Just beware of showing off your true colors so easily, life has a nice way of coming back at you.

Spare me your martyr speech: You have made no sacrifices, you make choices based on convenience. This from the same person that vented of how much she cared about her brother, about how she would take care of him no matter what... It was easy saying that when he was in a hospital, with your family as an audience. But it has been me all this time who has taken care of him, because I care. You gave a roof because your family gave you no other choice... And the roof is not yours anyway... thanks to your mother's disability you got a good apartment, and absentmindedly let go of it. Now the roof which is not your house, really, belongs to someone on whom you depend for everything... So much for being so independent, so much for venting so much brain, so much skill, so much smarts...

You waste youth, you waste a degree that you got for nothing (as you are not even interested in working), and in the shit you are in you drag your mother and Steve without taking them into account in anything. Bravo! It will be interesting to see when you wake up an smell the coffee...

Steve is a burden for you? He has never been a burden for me. He is family to me. While you gave blah blah, I did many sacrifices for him. And still do. I offered my house, it is HIM who has a problem with Anthony and so HE declined, so you know what to do with your words. If you have PMS or are having a bad day, take your shit on someone else, not on someone who even helped you giving you shelter, food, good advice, and even clothing... and you dared to bite badly. For hating hypocrites, you are damn good at being one.

La-la-la

Tales from Anthill

...

Wednesday had my first official drive alone with Deedee... Went to visit Groundel at the far away place that holds his new dwelling... And I mean it, it's far away! How to screw up someone's life... Lovely...

Thursday spent the whole day at home, felt too tired... the usual.

Friday had a visit from my sister. She's 33 weeks pregnant, expecting by Nov 1. she's gonna have a lottle witch, the irony! That date would have been perfect for Deedee... Oh, well...

Contractor still in the making of the bathroom... Las baterías Energizer duran, y duran...

Don't know if there will be a first game this weekend. I just know that tomorrow is Coriolis birthday, so WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Happy B-day, kbronzote! :P

Y la aldea sigue ahí...

10-4

In & Out

...

Hectic days, chaotic nights, days flying by, some frustration, some awe, some elation, some marvel... The week in rock:
- May baptize Deedee next Saturday, if all stars align properly
- RoseRed still under construction. Thanks to that I'm with constant allergy and runny nose. Hoping it's not a cold, but it adds up badly to my feeling-loke-crap status
- Not much time to do anything, just help Deedee, and try sleeping in the breaks
- Grandmothers very happy in the end
- Groundel still grounded somewhere in City-of-Hills... Being trying to call him to no avail...
- Coriolis got a roof done, still not satisfied (duh)...
- The Mage starts working today... That's great financially speaking. And it's the pits for me, he seems to be a great calming factor on Deedee... Let's hope I survive this crashing-in week
- The Mage also has a Statistics test tomorrow, please send good karma his way!
- Me... Just being me. Same old same old, with high stress factors and lack of rest... Dont need to be at my lovely job to keep up the feeling... But underneath the grumpyness and curses, it is all fuzzy and blisful at least within. Home is where the heart is, and turns out that between the Mage and Deedee it is a perfect home. It is all a constant clash of thoughts, and I do miss my old way of living (you can take the mistress out of the darkness but you can't take the darkness out of the mistress)... I wish the mage would get into the darkside, but that's not him. And I respect his ways even if they bother me. Me, I wish I could have a way to share my line of thought without being dramatic, but that's me... The show goes on.

10-4

Lightspeed...

zoom in, zoom out

Days pass faster than a speeding bullet... In the meanwhile, the day passes slowly at night and so-so when the sun is burning. Updates:

FAMILY

Auntie going back to her basic bipolar self... One day she hates me, and the next she loves me. Whatever. We lasted one week under her roof after the Cesarean... I don't know what was so irritating: Me, the baby, the mage, a combination of all... Whatever. So When the second week began we moved to Anthill, which is istill under construction but... well... better to go up and down stairs than to be screamed at 24/7... Visited auntie during the week and she seemed happy. Ok... Who's filming this movie? Hmph?

Mommy's b-day was on the 24th, so we passed by for some minutes to say hi and show Deirdre off. During last week she left a little gift for Deedee at auntie's, she passed by the same day we left home. We may pass by today to give her a wedding picture that FINALLY arrived.

The Mage: As a daddy he is thrilled, happy and very busy, facing sleepless nights and busy days. My hero! :X Trying to keep college classes at bay, but still looking for a statistics calculator... He needs one for his Statistics II class, desperately!

Deedee: Little Deirdre sleeps almost each 4 hours, enjoys keeping us awake at 1:00 am and at 4:30 am... Got her ears poerced last Wednesday, so now she has red laser beams on the sides. Sporty onesies on weekdays, Sunday dressed as a DIVA! Yay!

FRIENDS

Coriolis still climbing the corporate ladder at least in theory... Friends in high places (make it impressed friends) may turn the tide for him... Fingers crossed, he busts his ass at work, so he deserves the cash. He has been the voice of the real world all these days. At least someone besides the mage brightens my day!

Groundel lost in translation in the Ciudad de las Lomas... His new dwelling has crappy celular reception and so we are facing serious communication woes. Hopefully I'll be able to pass by when I get better and I can actually drive.

LightShadow sending disturbing news about spiders invading texas, o algo. LOL Working girl is the main Fantastic Four female of honor. Yay!

Cook's birthday was last Wednesday, and I knew nothing about it. Gotta figure out what to do for her, she's been too nice and helpful. today she is in the capital, so whatever has to wait for a weekday.

HOME

RoseRed still has a bathroom in the making... All tiles are down, now only to wait for the guy to put them up. Finally got the white toilet, and we figured out the cistern throws water upstairs, only to the shower. Also, the water from the A/C somehow is getting to the first floor, and it damaged a bit one of the diningroom's chairs... Gotta get some barnish polythinguie to fix the damage... The ceiling fans are FINALLY up, ome of the antique chandelliers is up, only the kitchen rack, and addition, and the outdoor lights to go. Whee o algo.

ME

Feeling isolated from reality and the world. Sad about not having Groundel around, missing him terribly. All these days have been for visiting doctors, getting paperwork done, and staying at home trying to keep up with baby. Tired, grumpy, frustrated, achy. The C-section scar is healing well outside, but giving some pains from the inside... Slowly going back to my old self, amen. Angry at times, mad almost 24/7... The usual. Maybe it all has an enhancement of the so-called "baby blues"...

The mage has been on charge of most things... taking care of me, of Deedee, of house chores, of food... He looks exhausted most of the time. His help is deeply appreciated. Not every male in this island would do all he has been doing ever since Deedee arrived... and even before. I am glad he is at my side, even if sometimes his over-protective mature gets to independent me... Love is true.

So... Clouds arrived as usual, thunder is heard and heralds heavy rain (as it happens everyday in the afternoon here in Anthill). So that also means i must leave the cyber-realm once more because I don't want to fry the PC. So... Later, kiddies!

10-4

BIRTH...

a week later...

Been out of my house, with no internet, no connection with the world... And will be that way until perhaps next weekend. It all depends on what is achieved in RoseRed during next week, and how the gash in my belly heals.

Well, last Friday I had the Cesarean that brought Deirdre, the NEW DIVA, into this world. Stayed in the hospital until Monday, when they finally released me... Been confined to a crowded room at Auntie's, at least the A/C and pillows have been cozy... Actually it's more like the mage has made it all cozy and bearable... Little deirdre is not so little... She didnt look like a larva when she came into the world, but as a 4 weeks baby... so imagine... No wrinkles, no weird shapes... She came out as you see babies been born in movies. So, the girl definitively looks very much like mommy, that's quite spooky! No, I didn't clone me! Up until now her eyes look greyish, let's see to what color they turn after a few more weeks... She's lovely, and already has become more atuned with daddy...

Have seen most of my lovely crewmates, with some unexpected additions. Groundel, Lightshadow & Coriolis went to visit me in the hospital. The mage's mom & sisters went by, as well as my mother and auntie. And Cook 7 Cook, two coworkers, visited on Sunday. During the week Coriolis have kept me entertained by phone, Groundel has tried to make contact with the few minutes he has, LS visited yeaterday and even my sister appeared on Wednesday night. Got a card from Vangie and a card from my father (A babyshower card... erm... a bit late? Oh, whatever, not that Deedee had one anyway...). And today finally finished the baby's inscription.

So... Next Monday got a gyn appointment to take away the stitches, gotta go to WIC and my medical plan, and gotta visit the pediatrician on Wednesday. In the house, the bathroom upstairs is in process... and the electrician is suppossed to go on Monday to start his work. My car also misbehaved last week, so had to repair some of it yesterday... Money came in, money went away as easily... The usual...

Tomorrow is the mage's Confirmation at 7pm. Gotta find out when are baptisms performed.

Baby is happy, locking, not letting daddy sleep at nights, not letting mommy rest by day, and utilizing charming spells to get her way... Me... Feeling quite crappy after the whole experience, but at the same time quite happy because me, the mage, and little Deirdre all together make a beautiful mix for a happy and blissful family and home.

Thanks to all of you who have been the supporting cast for so long, and still keep on standing at our side!

10-4

Storm in the horizon...

and Deirdre's birth NEXT FRIDAY! (2 days from NOW)

Yup... Will hybernate at the Concepción Hospital on Friday 17th so Deirdre's birth can be induced, hopefully without a Cesarean (the place is located at the famed Ciudad de las Lomas. Lovely! That's one of my favorite cities within Macondo). Up until now, everything is fine, just the doctor thinking it's time to bring Deirdre into this world because of the high-risk yadda yadda. Don't want a humongous baby that will force an operation, wanna give it a chance to come into the world naturally... If possible. So... Expect baby Deirdre by Friday night or Saturday... Yay! A Leo! I love it when a plan comes together!

A storm-hurricane-whatever is in view, so there is also a storm watch in the isle... It is expected to pass by the South of the isle on Saturday... Happy happy joy joy... Deirdre had to bring chaos nearby... Sheesh! Hopefully we will only get some rain, but those things are unpredictable... so everyone must prepare for a hurricane (and the news said it is cathegory 2).

I wanted to see Stardust... Oh, well...

The mage is quite excited and quite nervous. I am glad that in 2 days I'll be able to actually breathe! Everything is going fast... as usual with us. Gotta fasten the seatbelts!

10-4

Rough edges

...

Crappy slow weekend. Friday was entertaining, at least. Went with Groundel and LightShadow to eat at a local pizza place, indulging myself with a nice mofongo with real meat and veggie soup. Yummy! Went to bed as soon as I got home. The mage woke me up after midnight, so I caught a glimpse of WhatNotToWear and AModelLife.

On Saturday the windows guy appeared and finished up issues with concrete and other windows problems. Went with the mage to eat out, to my favorite grilled chicken place. After a hearty lunch, we went to see Rush Hour 3. (Umm, a nice rental... really). I foresee this shall be my last movie outing, didn't felt too well afterwards. Nauseous, tired and very drained. Waited in the car while the mage got some necessary kitty stuff. Called Groundel and then organized the cel's contact list... We finally arrived home after 8pm. Watched Bone Collector… sort of… I found it was boring enough to make me very sleepy.

On Sunday I was feeling bad enough, and didn't felt like getting out of the house. So, it was basically a “be a couch potato” day. The mage brought the munchkin for a while, then delivered her home. We had dinner while watching First Contact, and then to bed.

Today, getting up was beyond being a drag… Arrived a bit late at work, not that anyone minded… Not much to do here, anyway… Entertained myself trying to see if an interesting job post appears… but no luck on that matter. I’ll seriously start a job hunt in September. I would prefer changing the agency so I don’t loose the time that I’ve been working in government, but… chances, chances… And if I get a nice job offer from the private sector, enhanced by a career change, then c’est la vie! I need to get experience supervising or being a manager. Either that, or getting a work-at-home job.

Coriolis should be moving his kabooze in Las Vegas. Well, actually he should be enjoying a training, and maybe moving his kabooze at night. LOL Whatever. Hope he survives the heat.

LightShadow began her new job today, hopefully her eye thing will get better in the process. That one needs a week in a zen spa on the Far East, disconnected from civilization, family and cats so she gets total and complete rejuvanation. Well, at least she has an Italy thing around the corner, that should count as a retreat of sorts... :P

Groundel will stay for another week "home alone", sort of... He'll soon be moving with everyone else to San Germán. He finally got his medical card, but needs to get an updated ID to get the food card... So that's a new story... He needed to find a way to get to BellaVista for completing his foot treatment, but has found no way to get there... no car, no money... so, "la aldea sigue ahí"... And with me in my current situation, my taxi services cannot be utilized for the next 2 months at least... I warned him to get things done fast, but he got sluggish. Now, more time has to pass...

Feeling: Very tired, a bit sad, a bit concerned, a bit worried, very sleepy, somewhat annoyed. Stupid remarks from people, stupid obvious observations… I just want Friday to be here! Oh, the beauty of being out of this place for 4 months! I know I won’t be bored at home, new challenges lay ahead. Now, if only I could stop being driven mad by circunstance and some people being scatterbrained... I am completely hessitant and even scared of having to rely on some to do things I know I better do myself for peace of mind... The lack of common sense is a sickness that spreads far and wide. Being forced to trust simply because I cannot do things is quite unnerving... I feel I'm in a straightjacket, inside a sealed room surrounded by water, in a capsule inside a cavern that lays under an active volcano. So much for the ideal of feeling warm and fuzzy and thrilled and protected... Surprise, surprise...

What a carnivale...

10-4

Is there a ghast in the house?

Free energy drains!

At RoseRed... Completely drained and tired. Yesterday couldn’t attend work because I had a mild fever, plus the last three nights have been sleepless thanks to the little one’s weight and movements. I made it to the office today, but I feel crappy-er by the second. The weather will also be quite bad, so the afternoon will be invaded by more rain… Just as the past days. Not too good if you are on the road…

During the late afternoon LightShadow & Groundel passed by, bringing Monthy Python… Ok, so at least they were entertained. It’s common knowledge I don’t like it, so I just ignore it and do something else. I was already scrapbooking when they arrived, so kept on with that while they laughed their pants off. At least it was fun having some human interaction. With each day that passes it is less that I can actually move, driving is becoming quite a drag, and all I feel like doing is being in bed sleeping. Deirdre’s weight kills me whenever I stand. God… And two more weeks to go… no wonder the doctor wants me to work until one more… It is now and I cannot handle it well… Sheesh! Kitties are not misbehaving much. Soon they will be free to roam the house, I need the room to setup the nursery. But… the window must be finished, I need to get a pet door and the kitty fence outside must be secured. Soon enough…

Coriolis called, and as usual he has the most unique anecdotes… This time, circumstance made him meet Daddy Yankee’s production staff. Thanks to giving directions, he ended up meeting some people even from Primer Impacto. He was surprised that Daddy Yankee had no bouncers, and was actually traveling with his brother and sister. He was asked if he wanted to take a picture with DY, of course he declined. Party Pooper! LOL Oh, well… Fans should send letters to Coriolis so he actually agrees to be in a video, going “hasta abajo”. :P

The Mage got two classes for this semester. Seems that all the credits update left him with 6 classes that he must take (because of so many curriculum changes). Let’s see how he handles those two… If he is successful, he should try taking the other four next semester to get it all over with. But THAT is another story…

So… Let’s see just how much I stand being here in the office… Already feeling crappy and nauseous… Ugh!

10-4

The Latest Briefing...

decoded...

Saturday: The windows-A/C guy came in at 8:15am…so up we went… The mage helped him and so around 1pm all was mostly done. The mage also took the ceiling fan down so we could go exchange it. We actually FINALLY got out of the house around 4pm, under the rain. We made it on time to the hardware store, exchanged the fan to see if it really had a motor failure and went to eat at the Chinese place… MOFONGO RULES! Coriolis called, burning off some steam about the last hours of his lovely family vacation… Oh well, either they screw up at the beginning, at the middle or in the end… Families do that as a rule of thumb. Anyway… All the while I had not been feeling well, woke up with nausea and dizziness that lasted the whole day… So, the mage picked up some movies and off we went… home. Sort of watched Music & Lyrics, and Norbit. I say sort off, because I was just laying there in the reclining chair, traveling through dimensions and coming back to follow the plot, sort of. Yup, lousy beginning, lousy ending… I just wanted to sleep. Amen.

Sunday: Went to check out some necessary goodies at Capri, and heavy rain kept me stranded until mid-afternoon. Tried reaching the mage but his cel was dead… So, improvised an umbrella and off I went to the car, and to auntie’s. And here is where the common sense woes begin… at least for me…

Auntie was upset because she had almost nothing in her fridge, even no food for the lovebirds. My mother now just passes by to deliver her monthly social security check, and leaves without taking her anywhere because she has “things to do”. Things to do… She retired years ago, and all she does is follow up constantly a stupid family tree project, hoard newspapers from anyone she knows and taking her new hubby to the mall, to eat and to the midnight hospital stroll. She doesn’t REALLY do much… She would go insane with actual work and chores. And it is quite a big bother that she cannot take two hours of her precious time to take auntie to get her groceries… I’ve told auntie MANY times (a constant fight) why she doesn’t simply call me? She says she doesn’t want to bother me, because she knows I have obligations and too much to do. Geesh! Like watching her starve to death will make me feel better! I get so mad at it… instead of waiting for my mother she should just call me. All I ask is that she does a day ahead, so I can actually accommodate things… If I make time to take Groundel to his appointments, damn, I think I can do the same for her. Isn’t that logical? Ugh! COMMON SENSE! No rocket science, mind you…

So… When rain was over, went back home. I looked in the back of the house to check if by any chance Raven had left the window screens she owed me… Yup, they were there… along with other things that were soaked to the core. Ermm… Along with the house key. I have no idea when she left all that stuff in there (Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Sunday?), but I don’t know… I think common sense once again took a vacation o algo… If you have a key, and items that maybe shouldn’t get wet, maybe you should have opened the house (no rottweilers yet!) leave things inside, close the door and slip the key under the door… But ok, let’s say for the sake of argument that someone was REALLY in a hurry… Was it so hard to make a quick call and say “ I left some things plus the screens in the back. Check them.”. No need to talk too much, just to the point. But, the same problem comes back as usual, it is too difficult to communicate or to dial a number. I can get stupid chain messages, but no time to send messages about real important stuff. Brain damage? The consequences of midlife crisis? Hunger? I don’t know… But the lack of common sense strikes back… Why it is SO difficult to do what should be done, period? COMMON SENSE! Not rocket science! Again! (Sight).

So… The mage arrived at 7pm, as I had foreseen, and after trying to communicate some issues, we finally simply watched Dejavu. Another sort-of-watched… That kind of movie doesn’t interest me too much, plus it was predictable, cliché, and I was too tired. Thank God for a nice windy climate… Sleep was instant and a bliss.

Monday: Had fetal monitoring in the morning, gathering of a lab test, and gynecologist appointment. Everything is ok, no contractions showed up, lab was negative. The doctor told me, though, that since I’m high risk he can’t let me work after week 39 begins, so that means next week is my last week before starting the maternity leave. I wanted to stay until the last minute, but I guess it’s for the best. It is a hassle to get to work on time, during mornings I just want to sleep… Went to the dollar store to check the issue about the ATM double charge, and that was solved. Weeeeee! Finally, headed home to wait for the windows guy so he would keep working. Afterwards wanted to scrapbook some, but there was a light outage so... stayed resting on the couch… thinking how to solve so many mazes… At 9pm the light came back, so I just took a bath and went to sleep…

Today: At work. Still in filling frenzy, want to leave everything clear and neat. The morning is slowly passing away, and making me quite drwsy and sleepy in the process… Maybe it is best to actually accept the doctor’s decision without fighting it, being here is starting to be quite a drag... Got a mild headache that seems to be increasing, and cannot bend to lay down my head for a small nap. Just feel like sleeping, period. Gotta take auntie to the supermarket after work… will stop at the finance place to pay and then head to her place. Hopefully it all will be done by 6pm, I just wanna go take a bath and hibernate in bed… The draining process increases by the minute.

So… The good, the bad and the ugly keep being the same in Neverland. RoseRed has been quiet as it seems she likes the attention… I feel sad about so many things… but I know the answers will be thrown at my feet… and the new destiny that will come from it all shall be the best stage in the movie about my life. Laugh even if your heart breaks, there is no use for tears within Macondo… And make things happen.

10-4

Friday!

I'm in love...

Last night completed the first page of a new scrapbook: Our Story. Many blank pages ahead, but all will be filled slowly and thoughtfully. Been a long while since my last scrapbooking frenzy, when I completed the albums for Groundel. Still, now I should make a few additions that include his hospital pictures. That will come soon enough. In the meantime, focusing on the one gathering the story of The Mage & The Witch. It should be a warmup for making the Wedding & Honeymoon album, followed by Deirdre's album. Step by step... One by one...

Today is a very special day. Half a year has passed since The Mage & the Witch said I do... Many things have happenned, but one truth remains certain: We belong.

Work has been quite dull. Still getting gifts from people who couldn't make it to the baby shower (erm, what shower?). Some forgot, others were confused about the date, others were told of a change of place, everyone expected to be called for RSVP. Well... Shit happens.

Maybe after the birth I will have some will to at least summon a gathering to celebrate Deirdre. Maybe. Probably by October, though... I've been planning on celebrating Halloween forever, and always something happens... Last year we were to dress up, then Groundel's hospitalization happenned. So, I'll say no more so the date is not jinxed.

Nauseous... tired... sleepy... Wanting to do much, but with no will to do so. Maybe tomorrow while the A/C is placed in a rightful place I will actually try doing the stuffing for the furniture down below... Long story. So at least that looks done.

Gotta figure many things out...

I'll skip work on Monday due to the prenatal monitoring, and a gyn appointment. Hopefully he'll give me the letter I need for the maternity leave. I'll be in Week 37, so paperwork and preparations must be made.

Coriolis will be back from his travel tomorrow... roasted. LOL Oh, at his work they will force him to go in a business trip to Las Vegas after next week. Damn, the poor guy... So many sacrifices for the sake of business... He should not complain, he somehow leads a lucky life.

Me... I am lucky in the Spiritual Plane. Prime material is always playing jokes on me... Or making things too difficult, or too stressful, or too uphill. It would be nice if change hit me with good fortune for a change... Take RoseRed. I thought actually being able to get it was a blessing, but after two years of struggling to fix all its bad things it is very obvious it was a bad decition to buy it. I'm not convinced I should stick with it... Maybe selling is the best option after all... I had many ideas and plans for RoseRed, but having no one to help completing the projects and knowing no good contractors has taken away all the home improvement charm. I've becomed quite indebted thanks to trying to fix things, and it all seems fruitless and not worth it. If things could get done, if at least I could see the basic things finished! I guess an apartment with 4 rooms would have made me happier... if I had only known...

No point on whinning too much about it right now... Maybe in two years the nightmarish den will actually become a nice, warm home. Maybe something good will happen in the end... I wanted to have basic things done by Deirdre's arrival, but that is definitively out of the question. And I know how complicated things will get... How can one enjoy the ride with such stormy weather? (Sight...) Well... At least I know that the Mage and I feed our souls constantly. We live a good life, caring for everyone that surrounds us. We do have many blessings, there are so many without half of what we have... or with much material gain but an empty life. We are not empty. We have goals, dreams, inspiration and will. Plus we have each other. It should count for something. I just wish we could smell the roses more often... All work and no play is a complete waste of life.

Anyway... It's Friday... Don't feel like doing much, just wanna breeze a bit...
10-4


I don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday I don't care about you
it's friday I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...

I don't care if monday's black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it's friday I'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it's friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...

Dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you eat in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's friday
I'm in love

-The Cure, Friday I'm in Love

Loony days

... (Misty nights)

Monday & Tuesday were long days at work… Seating in a non-ergonomic chair, not being able to bend for a nap even if I’m falling to pieces is the pits… Not having much to do is completely boring… Wednesday didn’t make it. Got up late, and then couldn’t walk much because of sleeping on my right side… it hinders my right leg… So the “penguin”walk was short and uneasy. Put in order the pictures that arrived a week ago, and gathered the scrapbooking stuff to begin a Witch & Mage scrapbook. At sunset LightShadow and Groundel teleported to my den, bringing both company and a movie, The Machinist. The mage arrived at his usual almost-witching hour, this time with another gift from a co-worker, an electric/battery operated breast pump. It was nice to feel happy vibes from him at such end of day hours… I wish I could stay awake to actually share more thoughts and words with him, but… our schedules are the pits. We will survive, though... It is true, things COULD be worst…

WORK: Now they did something at the Source that leaves the satellite supporting cast without any administrator rights… So my only question is: What the HELL are we supposed to do now in the frickin office? I mean… The little things we could do is the little things we can no longer do… I foresee a centralization of the support at the Source, and that’s gonna be so lovely… I need to change from this department, I am tired of the crap. Either that, or start fresh elsewhere. I guess we all know what I’ll be doing during my maternity leave…

HOME: Still a WIP with the completion of basic construction… Hopefully A/C and kitty window will be completed on Saturday. Hopefully… No word from the electrician… So downstairs got only 2 working lights, a fan to be dismounted so it can be changed, a fan to be tubed and wired, a chandelier mocking me and a kitchen rack eating dust… And upper bath still untouched and still in the process of being a bigger mess. At least the front jungle of weeds has been poisoned, needs a second hand on that matter… As well as the back needs some dosis of weedkiller as well. Need to do the holes for the palmitas, and to get some flowesr to liven things up… but that is another story…

FRIENDS: Hopefully Coriolis finally got his messages… he hasn’t called so I guess so. Groundel still has not been able to go to Bellavista and should attend doctor’s appointment tomorrow… LS will start her new job very soon, so positive karma sent her way. Cook got a car transmission scare, Cock still bothering with his Xbox woes… Raven got her money and have not resurrected ever since.

The MAGE: Still trying to get a complete evaluation of his transcript. The curriculum changed, and based on it he only has to take one class… and another one if he wants to get rid off an F (which I strongly advise he does…). All in all, I don’t think he’ll have a problem graduating next May. It will be fun to celebrate that. And then, hopefully, he can actually find a job with better pay and better working hours! It’s the best way to get back quality time, and make true memories. These days have been a rollercoaster in the emotions department, but it is always refreshing to see how he gets up and smiles again… always the positive elf… And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

The WITCH: Bothered to the core by what’s going on with the work thing, bothered to the core by the penguin walking, bothered by the belly pressure, slightly bothered by nausea… Gravity is showing its power, making me too tired, period. I don’t feel I’ll be able to keep up coming to work after next week… Moving and walking bothers too much. But I can’t simply stay at home… better be bothered in the office where anyone could take me to a hospital if needed, than alone at home where if I start birthing symptoms I have to wait for the Mage to arrive from wherever… Honestly I think that is the only worry I have about the whole birthing thing… Everything else I know will be fine.

So… The mists of Ravenloft keep wrapping Anthill every afternoon, displaying a beautiful full moon at night… Listen to the children of the night… They howl for you!

10-4

WAITING GAME

... (seated, just in case)

A whole week passed away, rotting, dying… some was done, much was not… People have a knack of not appearing when they say they will even knowing that they are offering a service and you will pay… Ugh! I am so sick of all the house hauntings! I thought that during my free week I would be able to get all main things done, but no… Everything turns out as a big disappointment and I am fed up with so much stress about it. Entering the phase of “I don’t care”… well, at least in a fathomless way, since there is nothing I can actually do to change things…

The windows/A/C guy said he would pass by on Wednesday to complete his shares… We’ll see. The electrician shines because of his absence… and he left his job quite incomplete, meaning I only have two working lights downstairs… The breaking of the upper bathroom tiles is indefinite limbo… Everything is a mess, bundles here and there… Kitties upset and meowing constantly… I just wanted to put things together to at least be able to have some decent spaces and not have to worry about anything else but the labor ahead… but all must be stressful… It is my curse…

The mage should try getting his classes before the 1st of August. Hope he does, he needs to put his stuff together to help the “moving forward” process in life…

Coriolis seems to be having a good time at the Dominican Republic. At least someone is having fun. He is luckier than he visualizes… Half of what he’s got could make my life so easy… But, no one sees the wonders they have, just the bad things and the flaws on everyday life. Human nature.

Raven still flying around but making no sound landings. She called on Friday because Coriolis left her a message indicating his leaving her stuff at my house… The window screens were a good excuse to start a limited conversation, but don’t think that I’m at ease with everything. Just accept consequences gracefully because like it or not YOU were the one in charge so it all was YOUR responsability! Running away and avoiding people is a repeating behavior that is not acceptable from an adult.I don't work on assumptions. Actions speak louder than good intentions, and an honest apology goes a long way. I'm still waiting for the one that belongs to the godmother being an hour late for my wedding...

Groundel has been chilling… Seems content with his fate of living at the City of Hills with his lovely family. I hope that at least his having a sound definitive space helps his stability issues, as well as his healing issues. He still needs to focus a bit more on what he needs to do, about the cupones and about healing his foot. My taxi service is coming to an end soon, so the next two weeks will be his last chances for getting my help… After I go into labor, things will be very difficult in that matter for at least a whole month. So I hope the half-orc gets the point and moves his ass!

Last week saw The SIMPSONS… Laughed a little, but it lacked some things I expected, such as more irony and more references to other movies… It is a definitive rental, not worthy of the big screen… But these days, where so many crappy movies make it… Well, enough said!

Look for STARDUST, seems a good movie… along with the GOLDEN COMPASS, and the sequel of Elizabeth… ELIZABETH: GOLDEN AGE. Oh, and of course, RESIDENT EVIL: EXTINCTION.

So... The whole world is at an end, I keep playing the waiting game even if I hate it, and life goes on... How do I feel? Tired... Very tired. I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but the problem is a tunnel with no end... That is so common in the Underdark! Reality keeps biting badly, there is some hope for gaming weekends after labor, but for now that is just gossip... Me, vomiting everything (still), feeling dazed and overheated... Not sleeping soundly thanks to a heavy watermelon stuck in my belly... And everything making me sick. At least WNtW and the mage's TLC soothe the bitterness...

10-4

Communications interrupted...

the endless joys...

Oh, it's so nice from the systems... Something happenned and there has been no cel or phone communication for the whole afternoon... Couldn't do the fetal monitoring because I needed an original pescription from the doctor... Last week I was told I didn't need it... So yes, the week is getting lousier by the second... Came home... the window guy appeared and I have ben going up and down the stairs getting things for him... since he brought no materials to work. Did I mentioned I'm supposed to be resting in peace and quiet? Now my back hurts, a cat bit me because she got scared and I feel nauseous and drained. Things get better by the second...

Groundel's b-day is tomorrow, so in case I don't see him: Happy B-day!!!! Coriolis being ilumminated, Raven been mising in action, LightShadow sailing through new seas. The mage will work tonight beyond midnight... Happy happy joy joy... Me... the crappyness never ends.

10-4

Pissed? Me? Nah!

(what a concept)

So... It is Sunday. The sun came out to shine over my wicked house, and peace and harmony strike back as they should… But the series of unfortunate events from the last week has left a bitter aftertaste. One thing is having emotional flips due to pregnancy raging hormone changes, another thing is when the emotional flips come from people’s lack of consideration. I should be at a blissful, loving home, surrounded by serenity and loving support. Rip off that mask. My life has never been about bliss or happiness or even being contempt. Every rose has not one but many thorns. And do not get me wrong, I would give my life for my roses… but damn, they sting so hard! And there is so much one can take…

About yesterday's baby shower... It didn't happen. Details here... Rosered: A place for a Baby Shower flop.

Beneath my rage and anger and disappointment there is no contempt, there is no settling for puny pieces of what should be… Why is it that the simple things are the ones I cannot have? One moment of joy seems the prize of an endless ethereal quest. It is ok, I can handle anything… I am a fearless warrioress after all… But what happens when the deepest wounds come from the close friends you have… because they carelessly toss your heart to the floor and feast on its blood? I don’t know what to think… how to feel… I value actions over intentions, truth over white lies. I know what lays beneath the flesh and bones of my few acquaintances… And it is quite hurtful that it seems they know nothing about me, about what makes me happy, about what is important to me. No one and nothing makes me cry, but yesterday I did. Yesterday was for me one of the darkest days in many years… Everyone, willingly or carelessly or unknowingly, sunk me deeper in a pit of thorns. Why? It shall remain a mystery.

There are no answers given to me… I guess that was the big surprise after all… You don’t do things like that. People over 30 years old cannot do what a group of teenagers can? People over 30 cannot put aside their differences and work together without egos, being responsible for accepting doing something? Gimme a break. Adults… Right. But it certainly was not one person’s fault. It was everyone’s fault. Each one showed off their Achiles talon. And in the end, it was also my fault for not doing what I always do when I want something… simply doing it myself.

These last days have been a journey that revealed many things… About life, about people, about friends… Everyone is eager to put blames but no one takes responsibility for the broken glass… Groundel mentioned to me today that I should have expected what happened yesterday because I know all the people involved… and they did what they always do. So it was my fault for believing pigs could fly… Loving, encouraging Groundel… always being himself. But he has a point after all. Coriolis will always be himself, Raven will always be herself, and LightShadow will be herself too. Of this trio, the less selfish is LighShadow, who is always trying her best to keeps things happy, always the mediator… But Coriolis and Raven… and even Groundel (sight)… I rather make no comments…

A scorpion asked a swan to take him across a lake for he needed to reach the other side and couldn’t swim. Other animals had said no, but the swan saw no threat in helping him since she figured out that he would not harm her as he needed the ride. And so, the scorpion got on the swan, and she began swimming across the lake… A few moments later, as the swan made a sudden movement to avoid entangling herself in some vines, the scorpion sting her. The swan’s last words were “What have you done? I was helping you cross the lake! Now we will both drown!”. And the scorpion answered “I am sorry, I didn’t mean it. It’s what I do”.

My deepest sympathies to the mage, for he was the target of many attacks in the last couple of days… Some he REALLY deserved, but some he did not. I am truly sorry... I know it all has also been very VERY stressful to you too... And still, you are there for me. Thank you, for everything. I love you, always.

10-4

Mayhem, chaos...

Kali must be proud...

Friday… What a week of ups and downs. By now, I feel nothing, I will just let it all go with the flow. I am tired and sad and moody. What has been done so far is for my own mental peace and healing, not to please anyone. I hope the mage understands that… I am blended with my environment. So… I hope that the changes allow for the inner diva to be restfull and happy. Hope the electrician appears somewhere in translation… and that the A/C & bathroom renovation guy makes an entrance next week… Just want everything in its right place so I can focus on the baby that is coming soon… maybe sooner than expected…

BabyShower crew being chaotic, erratic and not too clever. Last week, and still family members have not heard from the baby shower… which is TOMORROW. My only comment about it: WTF? Two months were not enough to contact family and friends… only co-workers… Things that makes you go hmm… I still have to witness the insanity to get to any conclusions… I know the basics on ech person, pro’s and con’s, and mixing them all ain’t so pretty… But I honestly thought they could work things out together. Maybe it all has been a nicely played charade to really REALLY surprise me with an outstanding performance… God, I still have endless hope for some people and situations… Should I know better? (Drums FX)

Popu is having a foot surgery today. Best wishes on that, hope that your new bionic implant will work wonders and let you run the extra mile! To a safe recovery!

Feeling crappy. Went to the lab this morning, so the whole day has been screwed by the fasting test… Got migraine that adds up to the stress of tomorrow’s event… But, relax, release… Maybe it will all end in a Hairspray/HarryPotter double feature combo… and so, things will be oh-so happy in Neverland… Nausea that doesn’t end, heartburn, hungry but can’t eat, upset, angry, frustrated, paranoic, disappointed, mad, angry, upset, moody, worried and oh-so-tired… So, what’s new?

Hurricanes? Earthquakes? Natural DIsasters?

Try Baby Showers!

LOL Yup, pun intended. ;P

We've got two baby showers so far, one left to finish that cycle. Hope that the crew makes it to the shore without dead bodies or abandoning the ship... It has been interesting witnessing the dinamics of Captain Barbossa, Captain Emeraldas and Captain Kitty. We all know what almost happenned to the Black Pearl... LOL

The mage had a baby shower last Thursday night at the Umbrella Co. Thanks to that much peace of mind came into our lives, as the baby won't go around naked and will have a cozy place to sleep at our bedside. And the cake was yummy!

Talked with the mage's handyman friend, and he'll do the A/C & windows installations, and the upper bathroom renovation. He'll also try to do something about the ceiling leak and the broken water pipe... Hopefully during my free week. Got a plumber number just in case, and also contacted the electrician so he puts up the lamps & ceiling fans I bought... and maybe also repair some of the wicked switches in RoseRed.

Spent Saturday getting stuff at the hardware store, light fixtures, bathroom tiles, bathroom cabinet combo, ceiling fans... Only the white toilet is missing from the list, gotta get it next week. Small grocery shopping.

Sunday, LightShadow, Groundel, Raven, the Orc and the kids where at home in the afternoon, and moved all the heavy things to the second floor. The ladies did tidy up the kitties room, the guys played and everything had a flow. As the mage arrived at sunset, all had been moved to a proper place, so he primed the floor getting it ready for the next day...

Monday, Raven passed by during the morning, so we spent the whole day painting inside the house. She had to leave at sunset, and I finished off painting the floor at the foyer and small balcony. Was quite dead when the mage arrived...

Tuesday morning went to the hospital for the NST that I should now do weekly. Got contractions at long intervals, mild but they should make me wary. If anything happens, gotta run to the border really REALLY fast. During the afternoon, they threw me a Baby Shower at work... Pirate Hello Kitty & Pirate Keroppi hosted the event. The emergency "conference" was hilarious. And more useful goodies to make Deirdre very, very happy.

Today had planned to do the lab test, but got up a bit late so went straight to work. Will do the test tomorrow morning... Gotta get some wood when I get off work, and a ceiling fan. And some thinguies I will need to make the hospital bag. Hopefully I wont fall asleep in the way... I feel so tired!

10-4

TGIF

... Hopefully...

Since good and positive news are very rare, I saw this and decided it was a nice way to start a long weekend... Who knows, It can happen to any of us, if we are in the right place at the right time...

Pizza Hut waitress gets $10,000 tip!

In other news... Today there was the Earthquake and Tsunami conference from the FEMA guys. It was basically all I already know... but it was a nice review. There may be a serious intent to create an emergency response crew at work, and that has always interested me... Maybe I could get into that to make things more fruitful? We'll see... Since maternity leave is around the corner, that and a sign language course seems like wishful thinking... But the powers may be at work after all...

This will also be "fixing roads" weekend... Today the main #2 road will be closed from Hormigueros to San germán, and between today and Monday the main road leading to Ponce will be closed as well due to repairs... Alternate routes should be available, just prepare yourself for the traffic jams...

Seems there will be some sort of baby shower intent at work. Caught people in the middle of some things yesterday and today. Trying not to spoil it for them... I wonder how it is that no one else noticed the weird things... Or maybe they pretended not to see, just as I am doing... Who knows...

Need a plumber, looking for one. Anyone knows a good cheap one? Somebody? ANYBODY?

Will try getting basic stuff tomorrow morning, groceries and needful things so the house works roll. And then Harry Potter and church... Gotta at least put things in place this weekend, between Sunday and Monday, the baby shower is next week...

Next Monday is a free day, and the mage told me he had called the cable company and they said they would pass on monday... I'll also try to see if the A/C guy can pass on Monday afternoon to put the friggin thing where it should be... I NEED A PLUMBER!

10-4

Disclaimer

...

No, I didn't spend the weekend reading Enigma or OVNI. No, I'm not supersticious. Yes, I like cabritos and ovejos. No, I don't like horses, just some centaurs. Yes, still into Thundercats and Xena. No, don't care about politics but can give inteligent opinions about it. No, I don't believe war is the ultimate answer to everyone's problems... it adds to them. No, I don't intend to be Mother Theresa not even close to her... She is a rolemodel that made a difference using ways I would never use... I am not patient and I get ANGERED (agered, well, yes, that too :P) too easily... Plus she believed in a better world and I believe a better world would come after the anhilitation of humans, true destroyers of Nature and EartMother. No, I am not pessimistic, I am realistic. Yes, everything has me pissed off. No, I was never a Menudo fan. Yes, I enjoy fairy tales, especially the original unedited uncut original versions which taught lessons crudely and rudely. And yes, I do have the famous It's a Small World LP with the song sang by children in all languages from the world... so what?

At work... Will take Groundel to Anthill at midday. Will go to the loan place after work... Will go home and ponder how ovejos and kitties will work together for the best interest of sanity.

10-4

MESSY DAWNS

... of the dead?

Friday… Work was slow. During the morning we got a Hurricane conference that gave some insight on the wrong things to do or the bad places to be during a hurricane… like… gee, this island is so safe… Contractors keep tearing mountains apart, building houses in flooding zones and near the chores… Who cares about nature when profit is in sight? Anyway… Almost fall asleep during the afternoon. Waited for the mage to arrive after work, so we could fly off to eat something and to see Transformers.

TRANSFORMERS: I expected this to be trash. So… I was proven wrong. Entertaining linear storyline, believable FX, they managed to keep the essence of the original cartoons bringing it to the new generation. So, old schoolers and new gen should come out satisfied. BTW, Hugo Weaving is the voice of Megatron, now THAT’s cool!

Saturday… long blah day. Many plans, none completed. The mage had work at midmorning, so I went to Auntie’s Place… The plan was to wash clothing and cleanup my car but since I have a cloud of bad luck lingering over me… there was no water. So… Ate something, read the newspaper, and went home early in the afternoon. To my surprise the mage had arrived early from work, so after trying refreshing myself we went to Walmart to get some needful kitty stuff, and a drill. Nothing, he bought almost nothing, and the bill was around a hundred! It’s becoming impossible simply to live. Everything is so overpriced! (Sight…) We made it to the chicken place, and then we headed home. Night was falling, and the radio gave some insight on some news that are not so good and that somehow have NOT been properly transmitted to the people…

THE BAD NEWS:
ARECIBO: We all know that the Radio-Telescope in Arecibo will be closing around 2010 because of lack of funding… Many ideas to make it a private business… Well, there was so much outrage at first, but somehow things grew quiet, and with the political environment here people loose focus on important things. Well, while no one pays attention, in the Barrio Esperanza has begun a nuclear site construction. There is a government project named Sleight of HAND (High-Altitude Nuclear something) making nuclear experiments on the ionosphere and space, and they are utilizing the radio-telescope technology for that… Arecibo was chosen because of the Radio-Telescope, and because of its closeness to the water deposits (which includes the whole north coast of the island thanks to the reefs and floor conditions given specifically in there… And as you all know, nuclear energy needs water…) Scientists from all over the world are already on site, experiments have been conducted without puclic knowledge, as usual…

EL YUNQUE: Little has been known about the governor of PR signing an approval legalizing US bio-experiments within the depths of El Yunque. The director of the forest denies everything, but the law-act exists, recently signed by the governor. It has always been known that although they say El Yunque is open to the public, there are restricted areas… Now even further. Both flora and fauna can be irreversibly damaged, legally. And it seems that no one gives a damn about it…

COMING HOME FROM WAR: Soldiers returning home from the stupid Irak war have not been properly tested or taken care of… Most seem fine, but when they begin feeling ill and they get medical aid, they have high concentrations of Uranium radiation. Over there, Uranium is used to damage weapons of the opponent… so every soldier is exposed to that radiation. Also, people wounded at battle that have come home because they should not be in the field have reported that they have been summoned back to the field… their doctors have been pressed by the military to sign papers stating they are fine when they are not (if your hand is damaged how in blazes will you handle a rifle or any weapon?!). People don’t want to go to this war, and the military is desperate to get victims…ermm… soldiers, no matter what. Have you seen the lovely campaigns targeted towards Latin-American younglings? It is very ironic that they want the so-called minorities to defend the Land of the Free… like PuertoRicans… But when it comes to giving us statehood they want nothing to do with us because we are a pest for them. Younglings need to open their eyes before they willingly enroll in the military… Yes, there are many benefits… But are you very aware you will be spreading some children’s brains in the floor thanks to the weapon you use? Are you aware you will be killing women and children and innocent bystanders just because they are there? Are you aware of the denial of basic human rights that goes on? When these soldiers come back, they may look fine but their minds will never be the same. Let us NOT forget the Vietnam Veterans, who have been basically forgotten… who went to a senseless war for nothing. Let us NOT forget the 65th Infantery, were ignorant young PuertoRicans were taught simply to point and shoot and then they were placed in the most dangerous place, raw meat for the enemy’s delight… almost no survivors.

ENVIRONMENTAL MANIPULATION EXPERIMENTS: Conducted daily at so-called wastelands… Experiments trying to control the forces of weather and nature (hurricanes, tornadoes, lightning), that have radiation, and that are performed just at the source of the so-called “Sahara Dust” that keeps coming to the island, raising respiratory illnesses… This Sahara Dust is a very new thing, that didn’t exist before, and that now keeps reapering almost weekly covering the whole island. It transports particles that cause damage. People are adviced to stay indoors if they are allergic or have astma… If you wear contact lenses you should not wear them out in the open when the dust is around as it affects them. So… A simple dust? I don’t think so… But no one seems to care enough to actually do real research about it… That, or its classified information… But then again, the feds have always turned X-Files into reality. THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE.

POLUTED BEACHES, now EVEN CANA GORDA!: Gosh, my favorite beach and thank God I have not gone there. The percent of bacteria required as safe is 35%. Cana Gorda had 215% last weekend, and has been branded not safe. So, following all the reports, CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHICH BEACH IS NOT POLLUTED IN THIS FREAKIN ISLE? Because even Combate fell in that cathegory last month… Illegal unsanitary discharges especially from industries keep happening, and the law is not forceful enough to actually prevent it…

What will become of this place, once called Island of Enchantment… It is so sad witnessing the slow destruction of Paradise, the slow destruction of a place that is so small and yet with so much diversity in weather, flora and fauna. And worst, our identity as proud, honest working caring people with a unique culture and lovely traditions has been completely lost. There are many ways of enslaving, not necessarily by force… Keep people ignorant, sell false ideas and let the herd jump in the same place following the shepherd that seems to want their wellbeing, and who keeps bringing all its sheep to the slaughter. 50% of the people here only stays in school until 8th grade. That means most don’t know how to write and read. On this century, THAT is scary. But education brings on the key to deep thoughts, and that is what the government does not want. Sadly. So… People have no ability or desire to be outraged by what is going on, prices keep rising, the cost of living is ridiculous, the land keeps being ravaged, an earthquake/tsunami is on the horizon, a nuclear plant will finish the pollution that already buries us, and mutants shall rise on El Yunque (or zombies… who knows…The Umbrella Co. is a lovely allegory of reality). And we all thought the grey aliens were the enemy of humanity… Think again, Bob!

Anyway... Sunday… As the mage went to see his Munchkin, I went to do the laundry (this time with some luck). Cleanup the car, picked up Groundel and went home. The mage rented some movies, so we spent the night watching John Tucker Must Dies and Dead Silence. I liked both, nice rentals, one full of laughs and one with some classic moments of suspense (although revisiting oldies like Pupetmaster… but it seems that was the idea based on the making of… BTW Absolutely loved the actress/diva who played Mary Shaw!).

Nothing done in the house, for some variety in life… And by now, I don’t care. I’m tired, exhausted, fed up about it and tied up to do anything anytime soon… Whatever. The pitirres keep talking in the mornings, and the lazy cool-cat keep getting shade from the cars…

Life goes on…

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