The crypt has been cold and mossy... The air within the dephts remains hard to breath. Still living, eyes closed within the tomb but with high awareness... Dreams searching for the continuum and perhaps a sweet and sour solace. The sound of my own breath give way to silent murmurs coming from earth's hold. What is it? When will be time? For the centuries pass by and rising seems an aloof desire. Not even the need to feed gives will to the body... Once again the gentle slumber and its dream cradle suffice to fulfill the need... Body can wait, ancient and eternal it is. Dormant, silence and murmurs give way to the images that flash in a blur and gives way to confussion , wonder and pain. Alas! No need to brood on the imagery... Pointless torment...

Here I am, the immortal questioning Fate... questioning the Endless and claiming the glory paid with blood... Insanity holding on, grasping the web of thoughts and reality and mist and betrayal... Humans waste themselves, a cattle that should be ignored if only for survival of us... kindred... And we may even crave their waste...

Silent lingering... The cold walls rise and give back the echo, the craving, the mirage...

I am to sleep some more, numb my senses to the human world and wait for the time when retribution will become us, will become my own, will impale my senses and allow a savoring of extinct old blood and rebirthing new elixir of life.

Fading murmurs echo the plea that so many souls repeat, from ancient tongues to newest child...

Silent stir...

10-4

So I'm getting in touch with my writing skills, which I have neglected for months. Need to hurry and try finishing up at least the firts five chapters of the WoN tale and put together the Cutlass Tales. A job in itself.
Finding out about the doctorate programs available at RUM and UIA. It will be either counseling or international business.
Will let go of the AIO endeavour. Must go forward, no backwards... expensive mistake.
Severed unfinished ties and jobs. Focus on rearrangement of what I must fulfill in the next 3 years.
I'm tired, sad... Doing the best I can to meet deadlines at work... Taking all my strenght and mind effort... Trying not to take things personally. Hoping this last time I'll truly get the permanency on Oct so my plans start rolling...
I need a good vacation. Trying to plan for that, rying to focus the resources so I can arrange someting, even if it is a trip to Isla de Gilligan, damnit! May be taking some days off to breathe in breathe out, but that will be on Oct most likely... Got to leave the 2 weeks off for Dec or Jan... if I dont change plans for next summer (which seems the sensible thing to do)...
Getting info on second floors... and on apartments and townhouses.
Getting info on the spots around the isle which are ruins or have a castle-like quality.
Letting imagination fly thanks to my characters... to writing and to playing.
Getting info on the gothic stuff I want and how to get it... Oh, masterplans alert!
Sleeping 10+ hours daily, and still feeling I need more... Work consuming me...

Urge to be creative... Urge to paint and set loose the Artiste forever... Ah... With only a million I could do wonders... Dream on.

I have been aloof and quiet, plots and masterplans inside my mind... Saw el Calvo and Lucinda during the weekend... but I have been with a permanent bad temper. So I've tried to be quiet and give no opinions. Spoke with AVO, barely... Whatever. We should be friends now, hopefully that statement is right. I would hate to see him vanish from Avalon. Haven't gone to the movies after watching The Medallion... Finally saw Chicago, and Harry Potter I in Spanish... that was not so bad... Saw Two Towers 2 more times, so its the 5th view of that masterpiece. Still looking for the Sound of Music.

Thats all for now!

10-7

Alive
Survivor
Dreamer
Endless hope
Alien
Alienated
Fearless
Stubborn
Annoyed
Dissappointed
Trustful
Courageous
Believing
Exploring
Enjoying
Desecrating
Blessing
Loosing
Understanding
Laughing
Summoning
Sadness
Writing
Webs
Spinning
Torture
Strengt
Fight
Working
Challenge
Playing
Discovery
Beginning

The game of Life is on. :)

10-4

Adversity is another way to measure the greatness of individuals. I never had a crisis that didn't make me stronger.

- Lou Holtz