Back from the grave?

So this is Xmas…

What can I say… These days have been filled with so much contradiction. Everything being so bitter-sweet, everything being a mix of it all. Family behaving as the strangers they are… Friends teleporting every now and then… My dearest being his lovely self all the time… But somehow, deep inside, something seems so sad about it all… The puzzle is never truly completed… There is always something there to remind me…

Mother and auntie are quite disrupted since granny was taken to the hospital two days before Xmas. She had to stay there in intensive care. Her operation was performed yesterday, and took from 5pm to 8pm. The way that modern science try to elongate the inevitable is amazingly pointless… From what people that visited her today said, she was quite happy with everyone, talking a lot… She seemed to be doing better. As I arrived at 7pm, my aunt was in tears because my mother had told her that the doctors just said that granny is in a coma and that all they can do is give her medication to ease the pain… And that’s it. They found a tumor that evidently is malign… She already had cancer in her ovaries thanks to which all her reproductive system had been cast out, and obviously tht wasn’t enough. There was never proper care. Granny did all she could under the circumstances, most of the time not eating at all and expecting medicines to work wonders on an empty stomach. Can’t say that her children took any care whatsoever to make her well. Her son only appeared and called to get the little cents she had… Her daughter couldn’t care less… No food, no paying attention to her complaints, no time… So granny lived the life of a ghost, being remembered only when and if needed.

I cannot say that it all has been different with me. As I already said, my family is synonym of perfect strangers… I can only feel for two people who have always been there showing me unconditionality: my aunt and my uncle. And believe me, their way of showing their love is very hectic… and quite aloof. I am not emotional with whom is in no way attached to me. I may be emphatic… but some people have done so many things along the way that you cannot help but think why should you be compassionate. It is human to wonder such things in such a raw way… and wrong. Our Lord wants us to forgive and forget, and do unto others as you want others to do unto you. And we should cultivate a selfless spirit, being humane and just and fair… It is so hard to follow such teachings when you already have a perception that is backed up with truth… All I can do then is trying to stay neutral… And then I seem so emotionless. No. I just prepare myself to react being a problem solver because I know that things will come in such a way that everyone else will be lost in momentary emotions and noone will be able to actually think or make decisions. The story of my life… I bet my aunt thinks that just because I simply took a bath and locked myself up in my bedroom I am completely ignoring the situation about granny. She must be thinking of all the mistakes she made while raising me, because she created such a monster completely devoid of feelings… Someone who doesn’t follow the expected traditional “ay bandito” talk. I may feel my heart in a knot, but what else can I do… I lament the whole situation. I lament that the people that seem to be concerned are the ones that only wanted to get money from her… My cousin and his wife, my uncle from Florida, even my mother… All of them close to granny on a day by day basis… allof them taking her lifeforce and then showing the world such deep concern… Hypocrites. And they shall be remembered as the ones who cared… I wish it would be so. My belief is so tarnished thanks to so many reality checls…

And so, granny lays in bed waiting for science to give up and for the Reaper to finally take her to a better world. It moves me… But I think that the way she lives in this world is not truly living. Being enclosed in a bubble… erm, house… 24/7… No distractions, no human touch, no purpose… Is that better than being in a coffin? Seeing the cruelty layed on her husband, whose daughter put on a human shelter… erm, elder house… Seeing reality as her own daughter wouldn’t spend time with her for any reason… Seeing the news everyday, a world that is darker by the second, hopeless by a thought… I wonder if love ever reached that heart. I wonder if only once love filled a moment, an action, a smile… because everything I’ve seen is that they all reacted to get something… None of them ever did something out of selfless care. I wonder if she married my grandfather because of an illusion, or because of status. I wonder if she had her children out of true desire or simply because she had to fill the role that society imposses on married women… I wonder if there have ever been a hug just because, a kiss just because, a reching out just because… I wonder so many things… And it all saddens me. This material world that we all try so hard to survive in… how worthless it is! How empty and filthy and shallow and careless it is! And how come so many live their lives to get it all, and they do get it all… and then they find out they may have everything, but nothing can buy a warm hug, a sincere smile, the sweetness of true love…

For whom the bell tolls… Soon, it tolls for all of us soon enough. In the meanwhile, the dreaded silence, the long hours, the wait… The question is: What are you going to do with the time that you’ve cheated from Death? What are you going to do to really live?

So this is Xmas…

Friday: The Xmas gathering at midday at work SUCKED. And I was driven with a strong desire to simply go away from the place… I took the afternoon off, with the aid of my mage I took my small tree and the door garland and placed them in my car. Went to take auntie to the bank, to the grocery place… And then back home I finished putting up lights and stuff. Just as I was going to bed Groundel called, but I sticked with my plan… I was too tired, and wanted to sleep some because the mage wanted to go to the movies at midnight. So… I woke up to my mage’s tune. He arrived a bit later than I expected, and I knew that we would not make it… He had gone to his den to change and make himself ravishing… but the price was missing the movie… Oh, well… He decided to take us to Rincon, and we went there… Nothing to see, all was bad… I guess it was one of those days in which you really want to go out but there is absolutely nowhere to go. Ended up gathering provisions and crashing browsing the net… Cést la vie!

Saturday: Awakened by Michael, who asked if I was gonna do the mission… Oh, yes, I am… but why wake me up before midday, damnit! Well… Went to take Groundel and his stuff back to Lady Death’s den. Big fight because he doesn’t get he has to slow down a bit in life because of his foot… which is not cured completely. In the end, got wet twice (thought I would get sick) and left him at the mall because he was gonna meet some friends… I kept his necessary stuff (bandages & gifts) and tried to calm myself after such a bad tide… So many things to do, so said my list… I was quite upset because of all the people in the street… the rain… situations… The mage took me around, first to eat, then to make sure things were fine, then to wonder why I torture myself so much… then to take me away from this place… and so we ended up in Aguadilla. Nothing deep, just walked around and then we came back… Admiring the few lights that were lit this year… I was quite tired, feeling quite crappy, convinced I was sick… so went home early, and quite sad.

Sunday: Laundry… Gathering stuff to sell… The usual. Auntie told me about granny’s operation due on Tuesday. It all seemed a normal procedure so I really didn’t worry much… Went by the mages den before nightfall. Munchkin already was flapping around her new Dora plush doll, seems Santa was a bit early that day… Munchkin’s mom being in bitchy mode leading to mage being upset. Since it was the night before Xmas, church offers the Rooster Mass LOL So… Went to Groundel’s place to give him his bandages and things he bought the day before. Invited him to accompany us, and he was bored enough to say yes. Lady Death also went with us, after a mandatory change of attire (from sultry vixen to village virgin… Who knew? LMFAO!!!) The church didn’t crumble down at Groundel’s arrival. The mage was still upset, but the happy place and the drama evolving made the night interesting enough for him to dismiss his woes. From the moment I sat, I spotted a woman and an old guy and I told the mage “That is my mother”. He said nah… I mentioned the same to Groundel and he satarted ducking “Your mother! Where? Where!” LOL… Communion showed the mage that I was right… And the hilarious thing was that I was so concerned and it was actually my mother who looked at us as if we were ghosts or the four riders of the Apocalypse… Anyway… The priest never ceases to surprise us, this time he added FX to the ceremony. Everything was planned so as he blessed the altar, all Xmas lights would come up in the church and figures would move. That was lovely! Father Edwin is white and nerdy and proud of it. Yup, he’s one of us. :) As mass finished, there was the long line to kiss baby Jesus, and so we passed by my mother whom I saluted, followed by the mage and LadyDeath. I savored the moment saying “Oh, and over there in that corner is Groundel”… LOL So I sent the minion of Discord to him… I know he just loved that. They were giving asopao and juice outside church, but it was after midnight and we were all tired, so we went away fast. Delivered Groundel and Lady Death (hope that they both had a good time… in a way, this was a special silent night, Holy night). Stayed at the mage’s den for some food and went home… Of course I invited him over. So, as we arrived (and I was disappointed that auntie was sleeping) I turned on all lights and gave the mage Santa’s delivery. We stayed outside talking a lot until it was just too cold for me to bear it. And so, he vanished in the mists… Don’t you just love magic?

Monday: Woke up around midday. Fuss about mommy coming with her friend to eat at auntie’s, so I simply had breakfast and flew away to the mage’s den… with Xena Season 2 in my hands… Watched some episodes, went to get Groundel to take him to Michael’s house so he would get his insulina and in the way he got dinner for all. The mage and Michael seemed to get along well. After nightfall, we all went away… delivered Groundel and back to the mage;s den for more Xena mayhem. Yay! There were chapters that I actually have never seen… Who knew?


Tuesday: First thing in the morning went to take the mage in a paying bills spree. Afterwards found some gifts for some special kids, and went to pick Groundel so we would visit Raven and her children. Spent the afternoon over there, Groundel being quite busy putting together the raft of the lost boys from Neverland. Time went fast, Groundel invited a hearthy fishy dinner, and then I delivered the half orc into Michael’s realm of cards so I could go home to navigate ebay. Found some needful goodies after a long search, as well as the right inspiration for some garments. The mage’s mom will take care of actually making them, soon enough.And so, the mage appeared and the witching hour took us further into the lands of ebay… LOL I was falling asleep, so he left… to keep on with a quest…

Wednesday: The mage sent me a message, he found the missing place where the keepers of the rings lay. Yay! That quest is almost over… Picked up Groundel to go paint some at my house. Spent the whole afternoon priming walls… By nightfall I was too beat. Delivered Groundel, met Raven.. Came home, to find the ghastly news about granny… And so, I’m waiting for the mage to teleport and hold me tight. No news… Clock keeps ticking… I’m tired and sleepy. Life goes on…

Thursday: What's up for tomorrow? Need to go to the lab when I wake up, at 10am must go with the mage and his mom to get the stuff for the wedding, need to take auntie to see granny at 1pm, need to take Groundel to the mall in search for a shoe after 2pm… I foresee a long stressful day full of drama… Whatever. Everything in its right place, as God wills.

2006 has been a year of deep changes, bitter battles, high achievements and mournful losses. It marked my life forever, in every way. May 2007 be more merciful and kind…

10-4

Just 4 more hours...

until Xmas break...

Yes, today is the last day at work before the Xmas closing. We will be off until Jan9 thanks to all the Holiday celebrations we have in this forsaken isle: Xmas day on the 25th, New Year, Three Kings Day on the 6th and to top the cake with icing it will be a local holiday on the 8th thanks to the birth of Eugenio María de Hostos. Of course, the party goes on with the octavitas after 3 Kings Day, but that is another story... Gee, I wonder where the reputation of 'ricans being party animals come from... Capital of rum and high rating on vices... Gotta be sooooo proud of this little isle's party outlook...

Me, I'm taking two garbage bags so I fill it up with the little Xmas tree I put up in my office and the round garland in the door. No, ain't gonna dispose of them, I actually put them to celebrate Jesus birth (gee, what an innovative idea in such a commercialized land!)... I'll take them to auntie's home, in case I have no time to put the big tree over there. My little one is classy, colorful and lovely and so, it deserves to have two more weeks of life. Wheeeeeee, o algo.

Yesterday was the administrative side lunch at Franco. The food was selected for us, and we had to pay almost 8 dollars... for food that to my understanding was not so great. And yes I have eaten at better places, for the record, since it seems people believe I have been a cheap ass all my life. Ever since I was little my uncle took me and my aunt to expensive restaurants, so yes I know about good food... And those were the times of quality and quantity at heavenly prices. These days things you get for 8 dollars are quite crappy... I rather have two chicken crisps and a yogurt at our favorite's red haired lassie's fastfood. With 3 dollars I kill the one who attacks without mercy and I don't stay hungry. I dislike spending so much in food when there are other needs... I dislike how people use these gatherings as masquerades to see who is better than who... But that's me.

Today is the whole Administration and Services lunch, courtesy of the bosses. It will be here in our conference and will be the usual thing... Pork ham, rice and gandures, tembleque and a refreshment... Maybe some typical music... Maybe some games... The mandatory gift exchange (which I decided not to participate as last year, since the first 3 years I actually got no gift). Will try taking the afternoon off since dear auntie wants to celebrate her weekly ritual of bank-grocery today... at evening... a friday on Xmas weekend... Ugh! Double take of ugh for me!

So... Have some plans with the mage tonight and may have some necessary things to do tomorrow... If any of you kiddies need me call me up. And naughty or nice, I am a 3 Kings Day gift giver, so expect only good wishes on the 25th. LOL Yes, I kinda like supporting our true root traditions... Sadly, almost no one else do.

Don't let the Old Red Fat Guy bite you!

10-4

Up and down...

round and round...

Today… A rollercoaster of emotions and feelings… Happyness thanks to my mage’s messages, and outrage thanks to all situations at work… which simply translate to nothing… translating again to staleness, immobility, been tied up inside a car’s trunk waiting for someone to throw the car in the deeper end of the sea… Those who don’t expect much of life get what they want. Since I expect everything of life, and work towards it, I get nothing. And the worst thing you can do to someone who has so much desire to do things is to simply push her inside a dark room and forget she exists. Nothing more to expect in here, nothing else to look forward to. Frustration turned into a hopelessness filled with anger… because no matter what I do or how well I do things, no matter how much one surpasses the norm… one cannot grow.

So I want to leave… And just yesterday an industry layoff 800 people in Cabo Rojo… Industries keep closing. Talented people with BAs and MBAs keep getting off the island to search better luck in Uncle Sam’s territory… What is to become of this society where people are mostly uninterested in progress, where the government keep allowing industries to go away thanks to lack of incentives and stupid useless taxes that in the end are not used for the island’s sake… where younglings keep killing themselves off because of drugs… where the good die alone and in misery, and the bad rule and take all the money and laughs in your face… I can’t stay with crossed arms doing nothing, witnessing insanity and recklessness… Am I to become another statistic of the ones that choose to leave this place because the shit stinks too much? Am I to go and never turn back, because the first to turn their backs to me where family and friends and then government and hypocrites?

This is a land of unsurpassed beauty, and as every Eden there is a curse… Humans… Damn humans that get some luck and want more and more at the expense of anything and anyone, and who will stop at nothing to accomplish those means. Our leaders direct blind sheep that only care about 3 reasons of weight: red, green and blue. Any portorro knows the meaning of these colors… hallowed birds that forecast the end of reason and the doom of progress and equity. Political divisions divide my land in an irreparable way. It is the way that keeps the dumb even dumber, that gives a razzle dazzle to make people believe that leaders are working for the people while masquerading their thefts…And even if they are unmasked, actions mean nothing… colors are the only reason for validation, for power… Colors! No matter the education… no matter the insight… Just colors…

I am fed up with all this. Working in government has left q bitter taste in my mouth… It has been a time where I have rot in an office and where people have confined me to alienation because I actually look forward to earning a living doing the unthinkable… actually working. Frustrated… Angry… Bitter… Merry Xmas to me.

Take work away from me, and then you take away my woes. Personal life is blissfully surreal… Finally that jigsaw puzzle has been solved… The mage cast a powerful spell when he came back from the lands of mists… The soundness and certainty of it all is the greatest gift I could have wished for… If all this has been possible, then something can be done about work… I know that everything has been falling in place, little by little. Time has been diligent and swift and very kind. I ask only for the piece that could make everything perfect… I believe it can be so. I hope it doesn’t take me away from my homeland… But I am realistic in my thoughts and things are going from bad to worst in this Island of Paradise… Let the best option come to me as everything else has… I believe, miracles happen all the time in the most unexpected ways...

So… Sad but happy but hysterical but mad… Oh yes, always the mad witch.

10-4

I'm comin out!

... (ombliguito)

So... The merryness of Xmas is not too evident, but hey... shit happens. I still have not been able to put up the tree at my house and at auntie's house... I may take the one at work, put it in a trash bag and take it home so at least there is something merry in the house... LOL Much bitchiness coming from auntie these days... because everything is my fault. The luck of being the only one there to blame... Whatever.

Got a card from my father with a much appreciated and needed gift. Now the cisterna is a certain thing. Wheeeeeeeeeee! Been taking food to eat dinner at Michael's and spend a bit of time with the ogre. And the mage has been teleporting to my office so at least he gets to see me in daylight... Pass the BBQ. Tomorrow will be a lunchtime activity at Franco... piggy bank must break some... And on Friday they will do a small Xmas gathering at lunch as well... Geesh... Work is such a fun place... Disney, eat your heart out!

ABOUT FRIENDS

The doctor seems happy with the way Groundel is recperating. He has muscle tissue covering what was a hole... Pictures in his Groundel's Fotolog Yeah, it is taking shape. And you cannot see the bone and everything else that was quite raw and obvious before.

Coriolis attacked by the blues, but hanging on. Like all, things pass... Be certain that everything either good or bad must pass. And it all is for the better.

Can't say much about Raven, she's been busy and missing in action. Heard that she might have some days off work... Should try planning something, a Xmas gathering o algo.

LightShadow with only a seminar to graduate, amen to that. The big plan will come together, Hannibal said it. :)

Popu, don't stop taking care of that foot. Glad that you finally got a lair to call your own, nothing like ultimate peace and quiet!

LadyDeath, stay away from white! What's on your Santa wishlist?

And finally, Zordak... Being his thoughtful, kind self... Always making me feel as the queen I am. He's pulling some things together, and all for the best. He never ceases to surprise me, and amaze me...

ABOUT ME

Life: Busy. Too much to do, too little time. Plotting and planning and viewing alternatives for the main event. And plotting and being spontaneus about going around... The noise of people in shopping mode and the city jams are quite annoying... Finding myself in wanderlust through the woodlands listening to Native American Indian music...

Feelings: Soundness, certainty... A bit sad. Much happy. Much optimistic. Much blessed. Good things come to those who wait, and to those who are nice all year round... Sooner or later (or like in this case, much later) there is a big reward... The Grinch cannot take that away.

Well... Not into a deep Xmas spirit, but enough to at least wish you all many blessings, above all peace of mind and quietness in your hearts...

10-4

Of time past...

(how poetic)LOL

Friday: Went to pick up Groundel so we waited at auntie’s until the mage arrived from work to go see Eragon. Hmm… What can I say about the movie? Too fast, no character development and too much “Use the Force Luke”. The acting was terrible, the only interesting thing in the movie was the different shots of the city within the waterfall… And the dragoness sucked. Start by analyzing WHY an egg would look like a Tylenol caplet… They could have done so much better… Seems directors don’t get that there were two periods: Before LotR and After LotR. And “after” demands more attention to detail and plots, not trying to feed a vein with hog food.

Saturday: Was in a bad mood for seeing people, so as soon as I got together with the mage I asked him to boldly go were noone has gone before… o algo… LOL We took the scenic route, to Arecibo and back, through Utuado went to visit Caguana by chance (native Indians ceremonial park…sort of, what is left of it…). Passed by Lares and San Sebastián and got in time for church… It was a good long day. The journey was delightful, so much green and crowdless roads while listening to native American Indian music… The flutes are quite enthralling.

Sunday: Woke up too early for my taste… Cleaned up the kitties room, had to run to get some litter trash bags and return asap… Stayed with the kids while dying my hair, slept a little nap… And finally got out of aunties to meet the mage at night. Bad became just the right amount of great, and so the tale ends happily ever after. Wheeeeeee, or something. Back home, went to sleep quite fast… No message from the ogre, I wonder how things went with his endeavour…

Monday: At work… This should be last week before the 2 weeks shutdown… Yay! Well, we all hope that will come true, at least I know I need a longer break to forget about this cursed place for a while…

This seems interesting for a small read: The Tripple A's of a Great Relationship No pun intended ;)

LadyDeath: Oh, never use Same... It is a bad imitation of what sugar should taste like, plus it is also bad for the body. Trust Splenda, it tastes better and has no long-term side effects. All in all, keep on with the sweets. Have you thought about selling diabetic sweets? That's a great niche, especially here!

10-4

Twilight of the Giants...

o algo...

Tuesday: After a conversation at midday the brilliant idea of asking something to an old DM triggered many emotions… At night, the mage had already taken some steps a bit too fast. Well… Shit happens. At least no harm done, so far…I think that she is playing dumb when she asked what he wanted to tell her… My two cents. Coriolis gave some insight to my clouded thoughts… guess I need some evil thoughts to burst my bubbles. I believe in change and can still fall into naivety… I must be very much aware that some people enjoy evil acts… I have been witness to that since forever. And I should expect anything by now… Whatever. If she plays dumb, hey, that can work.

Wednesday: Afternoon off. Stopped by the mage’s den, then went on to take auntie to the cursed bank and to do the grocery endeavor. Got a message from the orc asking if I wanted pollo, but since the date was already sorted asked him for a raincheck for next day. Went with the mage to dine some fancy fishy… the buttler made us feel so special, he really earned his tip! :P Visited our place to figure nothing new has been done so far thanks to the constant rain. Actually went to sleep by 10pm… I was falling asleep as I talked…

Thursday: Morning at Aguadilla, afternoon at my office, night at Michael’s and LadyDeath’s. She made some arroz con dulce and delivered to some people. It was good enough, just a hint: Splenda and sugar don’t mix. It should be either one taste or another… Adventures of the Palate! On the next… Geraldo! Browsing some fed jobs and some local gov jobs… Felt the urge to go. If only every job offer I read would not seem so pathetic… And if only they were not in the Metro Area…

Friday: Presentation of the demo site for one of the branches, they like, me happy. Midday went with two burritos and nice phone company. Coming back actually got a yahoo im from LadyRyoko… Talk about ghosts reappearing! I guess that news took flight and by now are burning every corner… So, ask if any questions... freely and unafraid. So I’m guessing that finally Trilogy knows for sure. Hopefully things will simply stay as they are. No drama. No troubles. The mage and I do not need any kind of misbehavior from anyone but ourselves. Hopefully will watch Eragon tonight.

10-4

Reverie!

About Bdays and cats and people...

I am deeply sorry to announce that Eiji, Lady Death’s kitty, passed away last night. She had leukemia, and had grown weaker by the day… She will be sorely missed.

Another B-day passed, on Dec 10th... Happy B-DAY RAVEN!!!

Some trouble in Neverland, thanks to some differences of opinions that cannot be easily overcome… But… There is ALWAYS a way. It is all a big pity that people won’t give in to tolerance and reach some middle points. I wish that the different groups that makes up our daily lives would forget about the past and embrace what is now… without distortions of any kind… without misunderstandings… with open communication… I have always disliked the failure to address things to the face and the willingness they all have for doing things behind one’s back. Of all the people, only two speak directly to me even if what they have to say will anger me… and they are Coriolis and Zordak. Everyone else hit around the bush, and they go around it so much that they get lost in the way. Silence is omission, and that is why it is a fault as big as a lie. I believe that if you have something to say, you should just say it. Trust is the main ingredient among friends, and an acceptance of the whole is the cherry of the sundae… We are not clones. We are meant to be different, in every way… And it is beautiful when different cultures, minds, beliefs, opinions, characters and humans can band together for one common goal: Really living.

Once upon a time unlikely people met by chance’s desire to be creative… too creative. Somehow the small snow ball became a big ball of shit that covered us all. We all took sides, separated for good… or for bad… Truth went buried in the process, buried by hate and anger and fear… The Dark Side reigned without boundaries. Now, more than 15 years later, feelings of unease linger… I know who I was for them, and what I will always be. I am very realistic in what to expect from people. I know what they were for me, how deeply I cared and how deeply they backstabbed me. Right here, right now, I feel nothing. As time passed by I even dared to manage a hello and a smile, and they turned their faces. As time passed I realized my so-called hate turned to pity, because I began seeing them as the little people who were troubled because of life’s accidents, because not everyone can survive a battle without scars. Through it all there are lists of bad things that were targeted towards me, things I did not deserve. But I know how they all twisted the truth to make it their own truth… and how some that called themselves my friends became the first ones to encourage such things, such lies. The ball of shit landed on all… No problem for me, it was easy to clean off because I had done nothing bad towards anyone. Indeed, all I tried to do was them understand that we could have worked so well as a tribe of outcasts… that each of us had a defined purpose… that we should not cannibalize ourselves but work for us all… Throw pearls to pigs… They will loose them or eat them. So sad… because those people impacted my life so much, and even if it was in the beginning I did looked up to them. I guess that was the early lesson that I still don’t acknowledge: Get used to disappointment. I don’t need them. I have some fond memories of them all… I have too many bad memories, but choose to let it stay as that. As years pass, you understand that you waste much time in petty fights, in petty beliefs… Big bangs that happen out of meaningless things… And then you understand that the most important thing was surviving… and those who survived with you. Not every man has truly lived…

What an intermission in my history… What a gap in the Matrix… The years of Dungeons and Dragons shall always be one of the fondest memories… I was changed forever. I met the ones who mattered most in my life, for better or for worst. And childhood friends were tested as well… Some failed. Some survived… One childhood friend always remains to remind me of who I was, who I dreamt to be… She always inspired me, made me keep hope. Through ups and downs, through rise and fall… a constant warmth, a giving smile. It’s been 20 years, and although life has been harsh and unkind to her, she still has that giving smile that I admire so much. Many things have come between us, many people of the wrong kind… many misunderstandings due to lack of communication and bountiful assumptions. But somehow she managed to always be there, even if Titanic sank she survived… even if a cataclysm tore the lands apart, she survived. And so far, the fondness and friendship has survived as well… although things are never as I want them to be. I learned the way of the tribe but somehow I am always forced to dismiss it… People regard friends as people. The very few I call my friends are my family. For people I have no right to ask or expect anything, for me I am always responsible for my tribe… my chosen family. For people I worry too much, and I am so controlling… For me, if I don’t worry and move to find answers no one else will. Always clashing perspectives… I wish they could grasp reality in a different way, but their own reality clutters their sight so much they have even lost sight of their fondest dreams… and in that chaos, in the half-truths, in the silent omissions… it all pushes me away… I’ve fought the currents for long, to get to them… It is time they face them for a change. I am tired. I am disappointed. I am hurt. My tribe has forsaken me by choice. It saddens me deeply.

The world keeps spinning, and we all shall meet again… somehow, somewhere. The question is: Who grew up? Who hasn’t? Who holds grudges? Who savors life? Who is true? Who lives a lie? Who is your truest ally? Who is your truest foe? No truth is absolute, but deceit always carries heavy burdens... As of here and now I find solace and strength and courage in my mage. But it doesn’t mean that I forget… or that I ignore… or that I don’t know… I wish I could share the bliss that we bring to each other with the people that matter… It gets tiresome finding so many obstacles… nothing is ever easy… Let go of the evil that is done to you, write it in sand… And keep the good that is done to you, write it in stone… Are we all tough enough?

10-4

Busy bees...

Another weekend that came easy and went easy… Of the myriad of things to do only a few could be done… We are not masters of time, and it is betraying us badly.

SATURDAY

Woke up early and went on to get my eyeglasses… but found they had a defect on the lenses, so had to leave them… They should be ready by Thursday. After that, went on with the mage to get some needful things and big bags of chicken. So… Delivered one bag of chicken to Groundel, delivered the second to the Keeper, and finally went to auntie’s so we could get the A/C and TV so we would get it to our soon-to-be home. On the way, Coriolis called asking where were we… We were to eat something before heading to Hormigueros and so Coriolis appeared to share a few words. Being the comfortable whore he is, when asked to help deliver the A/C he vanished. So much for having muscles… Anyway… Arrived home under the rain, and we kinda unloaded my car… We put the Xmas tree and its décor on the second floor but left the A/C on the first. I could not help the mage bring it up and I didn’t want him to die or something. So… Wrote on the walls so the McGyver guy will know where the ceiling leaks are, and where I want the A/C… We went to Walmart to gather kitty stuff, and then to eat something before mass.

Arrived at church. Before the mass, the priest came to us and joked around with the mage… basically telling him to say “Amen”and not to bite him. I found it hilarious that the priest had a Twilight Zone t-shirt underneath his ceremonial attire. So… The mass went on, and the mage expected to follow my lead when the time arrived… Little did he suspect that the priest would call him alone, announcing his first communion to everyone. I wanted to laugh so badly, since I knew how ackward the moment was for him, he hates being in the spotlight. He walked back to the seat quite serious. Well, I admit I was quite happy and proud of him. A small step for men… The priest was quite in a good mood, later on asking people to give an applause to him. Then he also gave the blessing to a married couple that was celebrating their 33 years… He mused what a life long sentence! And then after blessing he asked for an applause after stating “lets give it for the newlyweds!”. Yes, this priest is quite a happy funny guy… And it is ironic that most of the time he is sick and in pain… But he changes completely when at mass. And at the end, kids always go to him for a blessing. After mass he congratulated the mage and told him to go celebrate… Well… Duh! LOL

We planned going to the theater but since the mage got two movies we simply crashed at his den and watched Phantom of the Opera. I fell in love with that movie when it came out, actually renting it 3 times… A nice way to celebrate, o algo.

SUNDAY

Woke up before midday, and went on to do the laundry and clean up my bedroom. The whole thing took me until almost 5:00pm… Again, the kitties where left for later. Groundel arrived around that time, and so stayed for a while. We had a bit of fun over the net, helped him give a facelift to his MySpace profile, and when the mage arrived we all went to eat something. After we delivered him to Michael’s home, went with the mage to see Apocalypto. The movie had breathtaking attention to detail. They made history quite gruesome and realistic, for that is the way things were… Found it a bit long due to the constant runs… and actually the movie was two hours, not so much… But besides that, it was nicely done.

Arrived at home at midnight, to find that I left the keysin my bedroom… After some moments of despair, the mage went over the house and knocked at the ceiling. That got my aunts attention so she finally opened up… LOL I know she must have had quite a scare…

Today… Will be working on the CAME site… The director needs it for this week, so I will humor her. So… Foresee a busy day.

10-4

B-day!

and then some...

Monday brought LadyDeath’s birthday, so… HAPPY B-DAY!!! LOL Groundel contacted me in the afternoon so we could gather in the night at Lady Death’s home to at least share a dinner. Would have brought cake if I had known they had none, but Groundel still has communication issues… Always the ogre in his blood… Whatever. The mage manifested himself near midnight. And the guy working at our house passed by to give updatesand info. So far, so good. There may be a slight chance that all basics are done by the end of year… Yay!

Tuesday... Spent the whole day working on the intranet site... Took auntie to the grocery store and browsed a sucky home magazine. The mage arrived in time as I was beginning to fall asleep...

Today I should work on the CAME site. The director wants something for next week, so I'll see if I can do something decent as a demo. Tomorrow I have to wake up early to get the bus to SJ, got the interview for the counseling studies thinguie. Wish me success!

Coriolis with a special mission… (You know what). Raven lurking around in the shadows. And ghosts tripping, tossing and turning… Macarena!

10-4

Hectic, fully loaded!!!

And some sleep...Amen!

It was a long weekend… Friday night I basically went home and went to sleep by 8pm… Have a remote memory of the mage calling, since I kept on sleeping. I even missed the morning appointment since there was a power outage and the clock resetted itself… Woke up by 10am. So… Decided to do what I should have done the day before…

Groundel had asked me to get him some medical stuff, so went to the pharmacy to get it all. After the pharmacy went to try finding a plastic box, a small quest since most were priced above $5 and I wouldn’t pay that much… Finally found the perfect box for $2… Wheee o algo. Since I couldn’t find the mage, went on to Michael’s home. At first there was noone, and when I was about to turn around and go away a car arrived with the 4 musketeers… Delivered the stuff, including a small mouse that sings a silly Xmas song… Finally reached the mage by phone, and went to pick him up so we could eat something… On the way to his den, the leather place was open so I bought some brown leather for the old chandelier that needed some fixing up… It should look cool when I do the DIY project… Anyway… Stayed at the den until nightfall, then went home to prepare ourselves for the main event: the mage’s corporate party.

Well… After some procrastination we finally went on to San Germán. We arrived around 9:30pm, and there was no parking space at the place, so we were sent to the company’s parking lot where a shuttle was coming and going. The party was a bit dead, the music choice sucked badly… The food was ok, and the frappe was supper. After a while at the ground floor, we decided to search for a table so we went up. At what can be called the 3rd floor we found the perfect spot. Just when we gave up and decided to go because the party was too boring, some indoors fireworks exploded. That was a cool and lovely fire hazard… nevermind that… people definitively didn’t as they got closer to the source of the fireworks… STUPID. Oh, well… A group made an entrance, and in my opinion they were the best entertainment of the night. Typical, some bomba and plena can liven up anything. They were outstanding… And they presented Manny Manuel, who played afterwards… Ugh! That’s when we left. I dislike that guy… and he was in charge of the rest of the night. So… It was around 2am when we arrived home. Did I mentioned that we both had to wake up at 6:30am on Sunday? Well… what a plan… Logged in to check some mail and 4am arrived. Went to sleep, and the mage woke me up at 6:20am… Creatures of the night should never go into the sunlight…

Sunday morning… early morning… We arrived at PabloXI and the whole closure prenup began officially at 8am. The first conference was cool, of course it was made by Velez Arocho… who had to take a flight by 10am but took the time to be there. The guy doesn’t cease to amaze me. From that, the other conferences kept going downhill… I was too drained and too sleepy and they were too repetitive and too boring. Finally, mass and the end of it all. Visited my doctor to get a prescription and gathered bread and juice for today. By 8pm left the mage at his home and went on to mine, to sign off by 9pm. Finally… Sleep… That was delightful.

Today, the day has gone slowly… Got a call from the guy that is doing things in my house, he’s almost finished with the doors and ceiling sealing stuff and was asking if I needed anything else done in cement. That has been the excitement of the morning… So… Tired, but not sleepy. Next weekend should be putting-up-Xmas-trees weekend… That should be fun.

Later kiddies…

10-4

News, news, news

Just a FYI, so no one gets lost… or stays behind!

ABOUT GROUNDEL:

At Michael’s home, kinda stranded in there for now… At least there is a big TV with a big comfy couch… That’s the life… LOL The home care company began their job yesterday. The head nurse went to give her evaluation and change the diapers… ermm… bandages from the foot. He’s gotta keep the leg raised, walk as little as possible. I FINALLY got to see the wound… It is closing up. I saw only muscles and cel tissue, no arteries or bone or icky stuff showing… Looks like apiece of raw ham… Cool. The nurse said that the doctor did a good job giving Groundel a clean, even cut… and that it is healing nicely. For those of you interested, the boy has a prepaid celphone, so you may call him at (787) 464-6840. He’s got long hours of boredom ahead during the weekdays, so any help on that matter is deeply appreciated. I took his papers to the university, and that is rolling. They told me that he has nothing to worry about, since he is a special case because of the sickness matter he will get a complete down status so he doesn’t have to pay anything this semester. Amen to that. Gotta see if either me or Lady Death get his papers to the Social Security so he gets financial help for his dissability. Also, gotta see if we can get the car permit for handicapped so whenever he is a passenger he gets the easy spots. A cousin of his is getting the transportation for the Hormigueros thing. So… Slowly, it is all coming together. He should go to Vocational Rehabilitation so he gets help with getting a prothesis, and so he gets financial aid if he wants to finish studying or something… they can do a lot if he lets them… if he actually gets interested in progressing.

ABOUT FRIENDS:

Coriolis seems busy this week… surrounded by stupidity as usual.

Raven called me the other day telling me about her dad and his obsession with the painting that I did for him… Gosh! From Father’s Day until now, and the guy keeps going on his awe for the thing… He’s got too much time on his hands… LOL The new thing about me giving it hidden messages or something is hilarious. Why would I do that when it was 3-4am and I was panting in uncontious mode? Was my subcontious speaking? Allegedly, there is a man hidden underneath and a woman… Go ahead and try your best to find them, if you are bored enough. Camuy Caverns: a.k.a. Place for Dead People? ;)

LadyDeath seems to be preparing so she comtinues studying in January. I hope so, and if that is the case GOOD, very very good. Do not waste time.


ABOUT THE MAGE:

Well, yesterday he missed work because he fall asleep. Is that the new syndrome in the western area? LOL Hopefully that will not have adverse effects. Everything else is as peachy as can be… Trying to find out details and who can make the Castlevania white suit… Thinking and dreaming and planning and putting together lots of stuff in his mind. Gotta love the elven candor… Tomorrow morning is the church Communion thing, and at night is the J&J party. Sunday starts early at 7:30am for the whole day closure workshop of the pre-mat courses… Zombiefyed mage on a dish… On the next Geraldo!

ABOUT ME:

At week’s end, amen. I need to rest, but I will whine another day. The weekend will be quite full… But hopefully is the last one that will be so hectic and rushed. Have not been able to put Xmas décor on my house or on auntie’s house… That will be next week’s job. I did put some décor at my office… a nice little Xmas tree on my desk, and candycanes and season’s mints on the door… It looks happy. I was not gonna do any decoration at work, but realized that after all God has been good to me so I better celebrate his birth. Yes, weird thought… Who knows… Maybe Xmas will get to be a happy celebration for me after so many years of mourning it… Plans for next year? Two important things… Marrying the mage is the most important, life changing event... due on the first half of the year. The second should be going back to college during August-October, either for a Master in Counseling, or in Industrial Psychology, or a Doctorate in Business. Nothing else beyond those two main stones… Like I need more… Well… Actually, I wouldn’t mind FINALLY going to the Horror Nights… But that is another story…

I feel things are falling in place, little by little. After the big storm came the big calm… and it is not the eye of the hurricane, but a calm that is marked by bliss and neverending peace. Who knew… I feel empowered and blessed. Nothing can stop me now… Well… All I need now is some time to SLEEP! Please? Just an hour? Some minutes? Anything? Hmm?

10-4

On the fast track

... Fasten your seatbelts! LOL

Another week that is simply going away as fast as it can… Yesterday the mage didn’t have work in the night, so when I came out of work he invited me for dinner. That was nice, feels as if we were playing an adult’s game or something… :P

We checked out the house and found out that the windows guy has actually been working there. The fence doors look good, the adaptation taking the old ones that were laying around was really well done. Only the screens and the screen doors from upstairs to actually complete that Phase1. Don’t know if he began the ceiling thing, but hope he will. Gotta ask him if he can also do the window edging and a hole for the A/C. Hopefully it all won’t get over $1,500.

Little by little tasks are being completed. And I simply love it when a plan comes together…

Today… Gotta attend a reunion at the conference room during the morning… And gotta ask for permission to go out in the afternoon so I go to the university to give them Groundel’s papers. Hopefully will actually be sleeping by 6pm… If there are no further disruptions in the Force…

10-4

Para variar un poco...

Solo un poco...

So... Last night was at a pharmacy during whee hours of the morning after visiting Groundel, delivering a small meal and then pickig up my doctor's pill order. What I slept was not enough, so waking up early was followed by being sick. So I guess that was an omen, o algo. As the day passed at least I found some time to actually share some minutes with the mage. Got a battery for his Blazer, food, my birth certificate and two other papers I needed to get.Later on got the good news that Groundel was getting out of the hospital (finally) and that he had the paperwork for his university... So, got the papers, got his prescriptions and delivered them to him, and then went home.

My plan was to sleep a while, but found that I was quite awake, so... Just browsed the net. LightShadow was the guest star on todays episode, and that was quite cool... It is always nice to share time with people that follow your thoughts wavelenght.

Not much else going on...

10-4

What dreams have been...

A reminisce of the past few days…

Saturday 18th SICKBAY 101 Spent the whole day hibernating in my bed… Could not stand the light. The mage passed by and took me to the pharmacy to get some meds for my allergy/cold thinguie… Went back to my bed as soon as I was in my homy ground.

Sunday 19th SICKBAY 102 More sleeping, more meds, more pain… Same old, same old. Not in the mood for people or for anything at all… Just laying in bed, in darkness… It was nice while it lasted. I guess that in reality it was a body-break… my body making me stop and simply rest and sleep it all out. So much for that… what I slept and rested on this weekend was more than drained by the week ahead…

Monday 20th Still in sick mode. I really have no idea of what happened this day… Sheesh! That codeine medicine really screws you up!

Tuesday 21th CAR BLUES and HAPPY FEET The day were my starter almost died and where the mage cracked up, o algo. The day began really early, as I had many things in my agenda… but when I got to my car to actually get off the house it wouldn’t start. After almost 15 minutes of troubleshooting the engine, it had mercy on my pitiful attempts and finally started up. Went to pick up the mage so he would tell me where I could find an electro-mechanic to solve my car’s problem… So, left the car in the middle of a city’s car place and walked the walk towards a hearty breakfast. It occurred to me that I actually had an eye doctor appointment so I went with the change of script and went to the eye doctor… Good news is my eyes are ok, less astigmatism than the usual and same nearsightedness… Went on to the bank, the mage performed some magic tricks and so back to the car place, where Ravy was happy after a new change… From there to pay the month’s loans and to take auntie to her bank and to grocery hunt. After arriving almost at night, lunch. The mage took me to see Happy Feet and yes, it is a happy movie indeed… Well, happy in matters of music, a bit moody about the being an outsider fact… which got to us in some ways… not so bad, mind you. So, the mage took me for a small trek through Joyuda finishing up in our house. After a while doing what we do best, talking and talking and talking, I remembered my cel was in silent mode. Realized that I had 10 missing calls from Groundel, so landed at the hospital at midnight with a healthy treat. The half-orc seemed to cheer up a bit…

Wednesday 22th IT WAS THE DAY BEFORE THANKSGIVING… And all through the house was madness… Ugh! Got up in time to get the special bandages for Groundel, find out where in blazes is the home where they are keeping my grandfather and visit him, and had lunch with the mage. Went to get some lights and check some prices, and got a salad for the half-orc. Visited Groundel in the afternoon, watched X-Files & Charmed and some comedies. At home, checked some auctions, waited for the mage to arrive… And soon it was past midnight. Since I got a small toy, a brand new iPod, that I kept on checking and tweaking it until 5am… yes, I was stressed because somehow I put it in German… nevermind THAT… so, yup, went to sleep at that time.

Thursday 23rd THANKSGIVING DAY The day that turkeys all over the world fear… Well, in my case, not only turkeys… By 8:00am there were noises in the house… I knew, my greatest fear, the worst nightmare… People visiting and staying for the whole freakin’ day… Mommy, her bf, my granny… enough people to put me in an insane bad mood. Went out of my bedroom by midday, as I needed breakfast. By 2pm I was out of the house. My plan was to go to see the mage, but since he warned me that he was playing I decided I was in a bad enough mood to get in rampage mode so instead took some turkey day goodies to Groundel. Stayed at the hospital the whole afternoon. One of Groundel’s friends passed by and made the evening funny-er. Got a call from the mage around dinner time, he had gone to get me at my house but I was not there and my family was still dwelling on it… Ugh! Well, the mage arrived at the hospital, we stayed a bit more then flew away to his house to have an actual Thanksgiving dinner. Raven made a phone apparition (wheeee!), and then we crashed. While watching The Break-Up, my father called to give his Thanksgiving greeting. It was nice hearing from him and from his wife. Hate the fact that he thinks that my dear family is so united and that I am the ne that doesn’t look for them… My dear sister doesn’t call me, and I simply got tired of more than 25 years of following & looking for other people’s asses. If they want to see me and share time with me, let them come. If someone doesn’t call me up or look for me, then that someone is very unimportant in my life.

Friday 24th BLACK FRIDAY The day of killing sprees and more… Went with the mage to his communion prep course, so the morning passed away fast. She gave him green light to go ahead and talk with the priest to get his First Communion. Met the Munchkin and her mom so the mage would fulfill his duty and spend some time with the kid by the way. He seemed surprised that the Oni and me actually were talking without trying to kill each other for a long time, while he played with Mandy. See? We can be civil… Sometimes… LOL From there we went to get some food and to check some house improvement stuff in Cabo Rojo. Went to get some yummy ice-cream and to our house so we delivered the few things we got. From there we rented two movies. Went to have dinner at my house, and there it was a What Not to Wear marathon… Oh, dear… So… We went to visit Groundel, kept watching WntW while torturing him… then to dwell in a pharmacy for while since I was in browsing mode and Coriolis called… He said he would be around my hometown on Saturday, so we kinda made plans for the day… Hmph… Finally, we went to the mage’s den and watched Last Holiday. Funny and lighthearted, loved it. Arrived home at 1am, and couldn’t go to sleep right away because my room was such a big mess… Cleaned up and by 4am finally went on to rest… in peace.

Saturday 25th EMPEROR’s CLOTHING DAY Woke up by midday because of the sound of my lovely cel. Coriolis stated he would be at the mall, eating breakfast. U-hum… Sure… Right. So… Dressed up, ate, went to get the mage… And Coriolis vanished from our lives… I’m still waiting for his returning my calls… Went with the mage to the mall, and did our long search for the right attire for his special event on Saturday night (company party). Of course, indulged ourselves with food and some clothing that was simply irresistible. After walking the walk, went on to get a coffee brake and then to church. By 9pm got a salad for the half-orc, and delivered the goodies at the hospital. Groundel was watching the Goonies so we watched until it finished. Finally arrived at the den to watch An American Haunting (yes, quite predictable… but it was ok in a way…). Went home, and this time I was actually sleeping by 2:30am… A big improvement in matters of catching z’s.

Sunday 26th COUPLE”S COUNSELING 106 FINISHED So… Woke up pretty early, before midday actually… to do the laundry. Got a call from Lady Death as a veterinary emergency counseling… Hope Egy gets better. Anyway, my grandmother called saying some people visited and were heading my auntie’s way. Ugh! I despise people that never go home and that suddenly get the urge to bother one… Family… Yeah, right… Groundel called, spoke some with him, but had to hang up to at least take a bath and get semi-decent. Not that I stopped doing the laundry… that task took me more than 4 hours… Yup, 3 weeks without doing that kinda catches up with you… The people arrived, I guess I made a bad first impression since I actually ignored them and kept working… Called up the mage to give him my day-so-far update… Then the girls decided they wanted to see the cats so I had to stop what I was dong and show my kids. After that the visit turned surprisingly delightful. The older girl has 6 cats, and keeps pics of them in her cel… So I am not so insane about keeping my 8 cats… LOL Cool. After some sharing of kitty anecdotes, it was time for them to leave. The girls mom had some sharing of her own about the cats and some fishes she has… in the meanwhile everyone was on the car about to leave her. Anyway, said our goodbyes and ta-da! Went to eat a yogurt since I was starting to shake… 5 hours since breakfast and no food or drink whatsoever does that evil trick to me. Waiting for dinner went to check auctions, took another bath and got dressed up. The mage arrived by 7pm to pick me up so we went to our final Sunday meeting with the old couple that is supposed to be teaching us how to succeed in marriage… as if that were something teachable… (sight) Anyway, the last meeting was faster than the others, and I took some pics for the scrapbook. Next week shall be the closure of the PreNup course… Yup, next Sunday it will be non-stop fun since 7:30 am to 5:00 pm… Longest, most annoying part is over and out. Amen. After that we went to get coffee and a sandwich, and felt like making it a movie night. Saw Casino Royale… which was surprisingly ok… Just ditch the idea of who James Bond is and let a Terminator do the tasks… Whatever. Was in the mood for action so didn’t care much about it being almost an anti-classic-Bond film… Prequel… Yeah, I guess… Marriage? A death sentence screamed loud and clear. Pretty long, went out after midnight… Got four missing calls from Groundel so that meant he was really hungry… Got him a salad, visited him and stayed until 1:30am. The mage delivered me home. I prepared a package that I must mail, and finally went into my bed by 3:00am. Lovely, huh?

Monday 27th UNCLE MACHETE’s B-DAY!!! So… Here I am, back at work… No biggies so far… Hope that I kinda made a nice record of past events… More to come. So far I cannot say I have been bored… And I am definitively living by the motto that I should tattoo in my back “I’ll sleep when I die”. Gotta get some wide masking tape for the package I must mail… Gotta deliver the movies… If Lady Death doesn’t find a lift then that adds up to the must do list when I get off work… Should deliver a salad to Groundel and most definitively will go to sleep as soon as I get home. I feel drained!!! Coriolis called, his crappy cel didn't get my calls or messages... Figures... Happenned other times... So, pissed at him mode is off. For now...

So… We are officially in Xmas… Things are looking good from my side of the mountain, and Neverland has turned into quite a busy place. I am pissed at some attitudes from people, but I guess that’s what friends are for… Nevermind that, you take the good and you take the bad… But the bad can STILL piss you off! The mage and I keep things sizzling, not a big effort, quite a delight. Still, we both get quite disappointed at our acquaintances, because somehow we put so much importance to them and we are just a casualty in their lives… It sucks. But that is life. And at least we have each other. And in the end, that is all that matters now. The rest is just icing of the cake. We are both grateful at all the blessings that have been bestowed on us, and we hope we can share with others the joy and happiness we’ve come to know.

December creeping on us... Wedding stuff to do... Stress shall begin with the new year, but big deal. We are both pretty involved in everything we do. Need to get some paperwork done. Need to conplete the house's main projects to make it a feasible place for a gathering. Hopefully that will be taken care of this week. Depending on how much the ceiling-fence thing cost then the cistern is next. Hope it all turns out good. Should get most papers during December... I'm wondering about the Confirmation but that is another story to be taken care of... Need to get the dispense from the local nearby church... Need to get the pre-nup agreement on January or February. And need to design the invitations and decide wether or not there will be an official reception... And whether or not we will travel somewhere. We both have a full schedule ahead. Lovely. Busy. Just as I like it.

Make your own ending… True story.

10-4

Sick

... para variar...

Sore throat, freezing to death, runny nose, right ear bothering me, body pain… I guess I have the flu… Guessing… Ugh! Of course… I’ll have a whole week as freebie from work and so I must get sick. It is destiny. It is also my body saying “I need rest DAMNIT”. It’s been more than 3 months since my last cold, so I guess it’s not so bad… I wanted to stay home, I feel beyond lousy and tired and drained… My eyes hurt and my head is spinning so I’m fading fast… No tiki gods around…

Got an ipod, so one wish came true. Not too much into techie stuff, but plenty into music stuff. I need music to do everything, so I’m starting small… Let’s see if I get addicted to it.

Finally received the box of 500+ pictures that I sent to Canada for developing almost 6 months ago… It was a heavy box. Guess I’ll have plenty for scrapbooking therapy…

At midday should be the pavo celebration… Yay, free food! I wish people would actually use the moment to thank God for everything good and bad, but I know most are in just for the joda and drinks… Whatever…

The mage should meet Heroina for his 3rd installment of the holy kind… I wonder how many classes he needs to take. I wonder if he’s actually getting the prayers… LOL Priests and mages don’t mix too well… But you gotta admit that a cleric/mage is the best character you can make… Well, it’s my favorite class combination, so yes, the DM is very biased… :P

TGIF… Groundel may get the news that he can go home… He spoke with Michael and should be getting shelter at Michael’s place until his mother’s leg is cured and there is no risk of bacteria. Or until he gets the skin wrap and it heals. Or until he decides to get into a plane. Whatever comes first.

Nothing of further interest… Wanna see Happy Feet, maybe tomorrow if my sickness doesn’t eat me up... I shall DO something in my Thanksgiving week, even if it’s the last thing I do… THE LAST THING I DO! (Y la aldea sigue ahí)

10-4

Ooh, ooh, ooh,
People are talkin', talkin' 'bout people,
I hear them whisper, you won't believe it.
They think we're lovers kept under cover,
I just ignore it but they keep sayin' we...
Laugh just a little too loud,
Stand just a little too close,
We stare just a little too long.
Maybe they're seein', somethin' we don't darlin'.

Let's give 'em somethin' to talk about
(Somethin' to talk about)
Let's give 'em somethin' to talk about
(Somethin' to talk about)
Let's give 'em somethin' to talk about
How about love?

I feel so foolish, I never noticed
You act so nervous, could you be fallin' for me?
It took the rumor to make me wonder,
Now I'm convinced that I'm goin' under.
Thinkin' 'bout you every day,
Dreamin' 'bout you every night.
I'm hopin' that you feel the same way,
Now that we know it, let's really show it darlin'.

Let's give 'em somethin' to talk about
(Somethin' to talk about)
A little mystery to figure out
(Somethin' to talk about)
Let's give 'em somethin' to talk about
How about love?

Let's give 'em somethin' to talk about babe,
A little mystery to figure out.
Let's give 'em somethin' to talk about,
How about love? Ooh...

Listen to 'em baby
(Somethin' to talk about)
A little mystery won't hurt 'em
(Somethin' to talk about)

Let's give 'em somethin' to talk
How about our love, love, love, love
Whoowhoo mmmm hey oohh whoowhoo

About love, love, love, love
How about they talk about it? uh huh
Talk about love...

-Bonnie Raitt, Something to talk about

Wishlist

for the old red and white bearded guy...

Wednesday: At my office. My diet-milleage was returned to me because of many errors (how strange) and more reports that must be filed (and created and given birth to… Ugh!), so spent the whole afternoon on that endeavour… Went to get my monthly groceries so I stop the fast-food addiction at least until Xmas… Not healthy and getting expensive-r by the second… The tax monster finally landed on Neverland and every little human is very afraid… Was too beat to get to the hospital, but did talked to Groundel on the phone for almost an hour before catching serious Z’s… The mage teleported home and so we saluted the new day. Back to Morpheus lands…

Thursday: Today I arrived in time to be a hero and make a PC work… just a change of battery… Wheeeee, o algo. Ermm… Figuring out new reports and trying to keep mself from falling asleep on the kb…

Just made a wishlist of sorts, thinking why not… Maybe I’ll get lucky playing the lotto… What I wish Santa would deliver this Xmas?

• a black 4gb ipod with the car thinguie and the stereo speaker thinguie
• a cistern for the house
• a nice orthopedic queen bed
• corsets, corsets and more corsets
• boots, boots and more boots
• Corpse Bride thinguies
• Emily Strange thinguies with cats depictions
• Egyptian or Hindu items for the house
• Movie posters from the old monsters classics (Dracula, Frankie, Creature Black Lagoon)
• Neon stuff
• Glow in the Dark stuff
• Jem & the Holograms memorabilia
• Catwalk Kitties dolls (yes, I collect them SO WHAT?)
• Thundercats DVD collection
• Season 1 & 2 of Carnivale on DVD
• Captain Herlock original TV series on DVD
• Hellraiser DVD 6-movies collection
• Xena: Warrior Princess season 1&2 on DVD
• Hercules: Legendary Journeys Seasons 1-6 on DVD
• Peace and love to humankind…

So, after dwelling on wishes and taxes, must return to the real world. Groundel needs to meet a social worker so he gets some answers for some problems, but that is on the go… The doctor should get the results from the bone scan between today and tomorrow. Will he stay another week at the hotel…erm… hospital? It’s been 16 days, and seems longer… So far, so good. He is bearing with things… Even got a date with a nurse… :P

My people: Coriolis seems happy enough. Raven has been making calls and getting stuff done for Groundel. She is still wondering if she will go or not to the land of uncle Sam… I think it is the best choice to improve the boy’s situation, even the guy from the conference told me so. LadyDeath painting and playing nurse for Iggy, la gatita cagona, who was sterilized a week ago. No word from NoName and Gaby. Kara’s baby growing by the minute and looking happy. Zordak will play social butterfly on Saturday, and keeps on being his lovely self.

Me: Waiting for the counselor’s thinguie. Need to know if I will get into the program, if not then I will simply fill the papers to begin the PhD, period. One or the other… But whatever I gotta do, the moment is now… Job sucking as usual, but not so bad… trying to be a bit positive about it all. Been told about an activity for a children’s orphanage in Xmas… don’t know if I will get into it, depends on my mood after Thanksgiving. Everything else in life seems and feel a bit ethereal… hate waiting for people to do their thing… But, whatever. Will try priming & painting the house next week, at least on the outside. And will try making the inside a bit shapelier. Feeling a bit melancholic, but balancing it out with high doses of hope and happiness thanks to the local caster of spells.

10-4

News break

...

You take the good, you take the bad… Very,very VERY tired. Just want a vacation in a far away island where all I can do is hibernate in an A/C room for at least 3 days… My undead state is not so advanced, so I do feel things, you know? Ugh!

Yesterday at Aguadilla… Formatted, installed, updated… Damn computers had plenty of my attention…

Groundel will have a bone scan today. That will decide the fate of his hospital vacation. A social worker is supposed to pass by to see if she can help figure out what to do with him so he actually recovers before the skin wrap… Right now he can easily get any bacteria from anything around him with that exposed wound, and going back to his mom’s home is a hindrance because she has celulitis and that rises the chance he will get an infection again. Hopefully and ideally the social worker can find a recovery home for him, o algo. Fingers crossed.

Coriolis excited about cake testing… Finding out information on that matter… Good job, Kyonnenne…

Zordak demonstrating what he’s made of… and so he keeps on delighting me with so many good surprises.

I am tired… did I mention that? Drained… Been moody and sad these last days, thanks to warp zones through memory lane… Wish I could do more on certain matters, but can’t… Hope that honesty and faith and goodness prevail in a world of chaos and evil.

10-4

Hospitals and dragons...

yeah right...

Groundel still at the hospital. His attitude is not so bad, and the doctors say that his condition is improving… No infection in the rest of his foot, and the bone is healing, amen. They cut more than what I expected, the heavy bandages that were used at first gave the impression that they only cut the finger’s base… Now that the bandages are light one can see it is actually half the foot… I have seen many things at work, day by day I see cases like that… I may not work directly with handicapped people, but I provide assistance to the counselors’ information systems, and somehow I have the information and knowledge about such things… Yet, watching this happen to one of my best friends have been really tough. Especially since I know that no one listened to me when I warned them… As usual… So, another week at the hospital… Better to be safe than sorry. I hope that lessons have been learned and that Groundel will take the reins of his life, for once… He can do many things if only he believed in himself…

I took Vangie to the airport on Saturday early in the morning, before dawn. Saturday was a bit of a useless day, and I guess that personal stress is manifesting in complete lack of patience… Whatever… Sunday was filled with work: kitties litterboxes changed and laundry, mass and then the course meeting, and then taking some food to Groundel… Days need more hours… I need more rest… But seems sleep is a luxury that only the rich and famous can take…

Me… feeling beyond tired, beyond many things… A bit disappointed at some people, a bit hopeful about some situations, and completely grateful about my better half… He has been my strength in all these trying days… and my deepest inspiration to go on.

Back to work… Can’t wait for next week… I really don’t feel like being here in my office at all…

10-4

Accident and flashes

...

What an ugly, disturbing way to begin the day… Had to take a long route to arrive at work, since there was an ugly accident in the main road. A woman and a child were crossing the street and a car hit the woman sending her 50 feet away. Another car got the child and push him more than a 100 feet away… The first car stopped but the second ran away.

Groundel called me to warn me about the traffic, but I was already there… I didn’t took the main bottleneck, I figured I rather go the long way through Joyuda since it would be the same time and at least I wouldn’t get more stress… At least the boss said anyone coming from that way could sign as arriving on time. A humanized boss? Wow.

Yesterday went to give service at Aguadilla. The day went fast, and I gathered info for my own paperwork. Came back ASAP so I got some burritos and arrived home on time for LadyDeath and UncleSpider to take an old fridge that I kept for emergencies… After they went away, the iron fence would not close and ended up beating it into place… So my trapecio is definitively there… Ugh! Went to gather goodies for Groundel, and hibernated a bit at the hospital watching Everybody Loves Raymond and Friends… The mage arrived, went home and stayed until 1am speaking nonsense ranging from El Chavo to Zandra Zaiter teaches Ortografía…Long story… Happiness overdose, o algo…

So… Today the mage should go meet Heroina… True story. The accident news ruined my mood but life goes on… Sort of. Should try sleeping some after work since me and the mage will take Vangie to the airport at 2am. Midnight adventures… LOL Oh, well… He is the official driver because he’s such a buho. Tomorrow morning I should try bringing my car to the electro-mechanic to fix the starter… but don’t know if I will actually wake up… I feel drained to the core… And the cats desperately need a kitty litter change… Ahhhhhhh!

Groundel doctors say that he should be out by Monday, but that the tissue operation will be in around a month by an ambulatory procedure. I don’t get it… It is a big open wound and it can get infected easily if not closed… Sending him home like that is not a very smart move… Vangie will question that in the hospital today. Hopefully good news come out of it.

Coriolis and Raven have been missing in action. Cat ate your tongue?

Me… As I said… Tired, completely drained. I need a long sleep of at least 12 hours… These last two weeks have taken the best of me. Until now I have not been sick, but if I don’t rest ASAP, I will get to the red zone. Besides the physical demand… Happy, positive, hopeful, a bit annoyed, a bit moody. Neverland sucks… but hey, it’s home.

10-4

Seven days...

and seven nights

Ok… Finally I find the time to sit down and think about all the things that were done these last couple of days. I took a one-week vacation because I needed rest… And somehow that seems the last thing in my to-do list… The “I’ll sleep when I die” motto grows stronger with each passing day. So… Here are the main events that shaped each day… Seven days… All of them filled with drama, suspense, thrills, tears, hope, horror, sleepiness, comedy, love, and plenty of tests on willpower.

Wednesday: The first day of November, the Day of All Saints… And I was almost shedding as my nerves were a wreck at the hospital. Sti’s amputation was performed early in the afternoon. Vangie, his aunt, had decided to fly here at nighttime… so she should be in the hospital in the wee hours of the morning…

Thursday: At the airport at 3am. We picked up Vangie, who had a sound travel, and delivered her at the hospital. During the morning we took Zordak’s truck to the mechanic. Left him at work on the way back. Went to the hospital for a while, then went home to write a bit... The mage summoned me earlier, as he was out from work a bit earlier, so I picked him up. Back to the hospital until around 2am.

Friday: During the morning, and although a bit zombifyed, went with the mage to meet Heroína and give a bit of moral support at his first prep course. The lady seems very nice and makes things interesting, I found she went on a quick pace. I had no idea that he didn’t really knew the prayers, and we have to work on that. For next meeting he should go with the little booklet I have from my 1st communion. Had some lunch with the mage, and he delivered me at home, so I would rest while he went to work. In reality, that was the least thing I did… between cleaning up my room and doing the laundry nighttime fall upon me, and the mage arrived a bit earlier. So, we went to see The Prestige. The movie was so-so… Very slow… Too slow… I almost fall asleep. We went to the hospital, and I was too sleepy to stay awake so stayed until 1:30am.

Saturday: Called up Groundel at the hospital. Now he has a phone so he ain’t so lonely in that cold room, the phone number is 787-834-0101 x 2316. Met with the mage at home, where he arrived with a pick-up truck. We moved my big furniture from auntie’s house to the second floor in my house. We went to my grandmother’s and picked up the living room and dining room from her second floor… That was left on my house’s first floor. The whole ordeal took around 6 hours. We were all beat at night.

Sunday: Remember, remember the 5th of November… Ermm… Whatever… Woke up early since the Couple’s Mass was at 11am. So, picked up the mage and to the church… The mass lasted for more than 2 hours thanks to the special effects and the special features of the courses… Afterwards, we went to get some kitty food and do some window shopping (yes, controlled environment syndrome as the heat in the sunny day was a bit overpowering). Between mindflyers and tentamorts, an essay about tentacles and all its uses unfolded. Funny… Next! Went for a while to the hospital to check up on the ogre.

Monday: Woke up early to take auntie to the bank. By midday the mage had his Munchkin with him, and I arrived in time to deliver her. He was upset he didn’t really spent time with her, so after some advice on his tone and words, he went to ask for taking the girl on his birthday. No problem, amen! So, next stop Yauco. We went to get his truck at the mechanic, and then to eat at my favorite BBQ chicken place… Went to my house to deliver three flamboyanes that were not so happy after a change of environment at auntie’s… and finally went to the mage’s den to leave his car (no sense in traveling around separated…) At night, passed by the church to meet the priest. Mass felt very right, and the kitty kept jumping at the altar and the benches… A kitty friendly church… What else can I ask for? The priest met us and did his routine interview. He seemed satisfied with our answers… Is this all a test? Hmm? Finally, a date was set. He also asked about the couple’s courses and was pleased we are on the way of finishing them. We need a permission/dispense from the Asunción church, the couple’s course signed papers, and my communion/confirmation papers as well as a copy of our birth certificates. And as the priet explained, 10 days before the wedding we need to go to the Unidad to get the state’s wedding papers and do the blood test required for it. So we should be gathering the paperwork in the next 3 weeks… And so, we passed by the hospital for the daily report on the orc’s condition.

Tuesday: Zordak’s b-day. I woke up fairly early, around 9am. Tried updating and editing some pics and got some inspiration to write some as well… The mage let me know he would be hanging out with Munchkin to the playplace. I was not feeling in the mood for too much noise, so stayed at home finishing up some pics. Had problems loading Groundel’s pics, so called him up to get some info… During the afternoon, finally reached the mage’s home. We celebrated quietly within the boundaries of the den. Got him a piece of chocolate cake, placed a lit candle, and singed along a la Monroe… which he seemed to like very much. I wonder which wish he wished for… So, watching Dora and the Terminator vs Robocop flicks on the net… And some Xena flicks… sue me… We delivered Munchkin, who was out by nightfall. So, we got some food and crashed at the den… We were not in the mood to see more people. All these past days have been too eventful and we’ve had almost no time to actually breathe… Everything is going fast, and Groundel’s accident filled our schedule, and tore apart my nerves… Interesting discussion about the different flavors for wedding cakes, reality show hosted by Coriolis… Then a heated discussion about bachelor’s/bachelorette’s outing… again, hosted by Coriolis. Anyway, we watched Monster House at night, and then I went home. Half an hour later the mage summoned me, as I had left my breakfast for the week in his den… So, he delivered it all (thank the gods for teleports!). And so, time to sleep…

Wednesday: And so, here I am at my office. I still have all the spiderwebs around… May get them off during the afternoon. I need to go to Aguadilla, perhaps tomorrow… Today I’m feeling lazy and zoned out. Gotta try meeting Vangie after I get off work. And of course, visit the stranded orc. Until then, gotta figure out what will I have for lunch… I am damn hungry!

Plans for the rest of the year? Well, I need to take my car to the mechanic on Saturday morning, the starter is misbehaving… Donations are welcome! LOL On Monday the doors guy should pass by to do some work on the doors and to fix the stairs fountain… Will try using the Thanksgiving week to paint the interior, get the furniture that is scattered at aunties and at granny’s, and put things together So little by little things are getting done and taking shape… With the Xmas bonus I should finally be able to get a cistern for the house. We’ll start the outdoors cleaning/painting on Xmas vacation. We both like lilac and white, so the house should be painted in those colors… I want to get roses and trinitarias for the front yard… And caimitos and starfruits for the back yard. I know that in the end I may smoke my first cigar and simply say “I love it when a plan comes together”. Everything is falling into place, by its own weight. Nothing hastened, pushed or pulled.

Sweeeeeeeeeeeet!!!

10-4

Que sonido tan triste cuando se acaba...

Last day of my small vacation break…

Eventful days, no doubt about that. At the hospital, at the den, going here and there thanks to our cars misbehaving… Short on money, but long hopes and dreams… What has been up?

Groundel: Doing better by the minute. Although stranded to bed for a while, his skin looks healthy and his eyes reflect a peace I have not seen in a very VERY long time. His immediate family giving him lots of support. I hope the next three months go away fast, so he begins the rehab process which will show what he’s really made of.

Coriolis: Enjoying that he’ll be next year’s official Godfather… Wow! Two weddings and a Christening perhaps? LOL You are a softie under a rugged skin… Awwwww…

Raven: Planning a permanent family getaway so things with her Sharkboy gets better… The best environment and treatment for him is in Uncle Sam’s realms, so go for it without second thoughts. This island has still much to grow and change… and that seems a far and away dream…

Zordak: Today is the mage’s Birthday! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Hoping all his dreams are coming true… And wishing the best for him, for he deserves it.

Me: Tired. Furniture moves on last Saturday left my back in bad shape… On the run like a chiken… trying my best to be there for those who need me. I’m finding strength in unlikely places… At peace within, at peace with all that has been going on. Very happy with personal outcomes, very certain and grounded maybe for the first time in my life.

OFFICIAL NEWS:

Zordak and the Witch should get hitched on Sunday, April 8th 2007 at 4pm.

For those who follow the holidays, that is Easter Day… So, blue and pink bunnies should be line dancing on the prairie and pixies should be throwing showers of flowers at our path… For those who know me, that is also my b-day (wheeee, o algo). And for those close to the mage, that is also his baptism date. Somehow the date seems right, because of all the things that gives meaning to it… and we both look for meaning in everything we do.

So… Over and out.

10-4

No saint, no devil

Vangie's presence has been very important for Groundel's ordeal. Not only because of the emotional support, but because she KNOWS how things should go in a hospital. She has maybe too much experience dealing with such matters, and so she knows what to say, what to ask, how to react and the like. That is something I don't know how to do, but that is learned along the way.

LadyDeath has been at his side, I know, but it is not a matter of who is there but what may be or was in his mind. I am not blood family for Groundel, but I know him as no one else but perhaps Vangie may know... There is too much shit that hit the fan in the past, and it all gives way to feelings of hurt, guilt, whatever... Many what if's on his side and on his family's side.

I am a stranger in a strange land. I just happenned to be a stranger that knew him for 15 years and that shared 8 years or his life as his girlfriend/betrothed/wife, you name it. Although his family has been around, in his mind they have been asteroids that passed by and that pushed him away. Now things may be different, but remember that years of hurt are not erased instantly... especially in his mind. Many lessons must be learned, many things must be forgiven, and many things must be understood. Only love can allow union on trying times. May real love push all the asteroids towards Groundel's planet, so you all crash into him and stay... changing his life completely for the better... as I couldn't succeed.

No, LadyDeath, you are not taken for granted... You have much to learn about many things, and it is a process... You need to grow up now more than ever. You are his sister, and it is great that finally you see that he needs you, and why. You've had glimpses of who Groundel is. He needs plenty of love, always has. I can only think based on the last 8 years of his life with me and around me. I was his everything, his world. I witnessed his pain from his grandmother's death, and throughout the years saw how only Vangie had been very open to him as family. Everyone else had been ideas he tried to be fond of, but that were quite ethereal. He lacked family love, and such he manifested to me constantly... And so I know that my presence helps him in a different way. I give him strength, safety and guidance. I don't think I am an absolute in his life, but I am a big influence, and when he fears I am the one he turns to. Love me, hate me... I can't be devoted to him because of circumstance. And it tears me apart, because I love him deeply. But that was a choice he made for me a long time ago. I know where my boundaries must be. So be it. It is time for you and your mother to get to know him, little by little, as you never have.

I am quite tired. All these days I’ve had an infection of my own, bearing with it had been testing my patience and mood and emotions. Somehow, the mage has been able to cope... He always surprises me with much needed kindness. I am completely drained…

Anyway… Life goes on. And Neverland will never be the same again.

10-4

Sleep? Rest? Vacation? Hah!

... Some eclectic days… Playing nurse has not been easy, the test on the will and nerves has not been funny at all. The worst is the waiting, the uselessness that you feel…

On Tuesday I was at my 2nd day in training, at the SJ site, when I got a call from LadyDeath by 10am. Groundel had been taken to the hospital in ambulance on the whee hours of the morning, and they were talking about amputation as the severity of his illness was quite evident. What started as a knot in my throat ended up as a mindless wreck of tears. I became quite desperate knowing I was so far and could do nothing to be at Groundel’s side… Then a beacon of light enlightened me and I called Raven… and by chance, she happened to be in SJ as well. Coriolis was going to meet me at lunchtime, and so he took me to the meeting point. Coming down back to my hometown was quite a long, long journey… I only knew that knowing Groundel as I do, he must have been so terrified… I know he’s a big mouth but a coward at heart… And it killed me to think he might be all alone through this thing. I was too desperate to arrive, and at the same time to scared of arriving due to what I could find… The what if’s are the killers.

When I arrived I was surprised to find that besides LadyDeath there were also Papo and Michael. Surprised and relieved. He was on the operations room, and came out soon enough… The doctor drained the foot’s infection (most of it) and it would be a matter of taking care of the foot’s reaction to it all… When he was taken fron the recuperation area to his room, the first face he saw was Michaels face… LOL It was hilarious how Michael started an hour of stand up comedy that lifted all of our spirits. Very well, yes, laughter is the best medicine. When Groundel was set in his assigned room, I began a list of things to get… And Zordak arrived… Just in time, as usual. So, we left LadyDeath watching over Groundel, and went on to look for some necessary evils that Groundel would need… Came back after shopping, and so we were around until 10:30pm. Groundel liked the dinosaur I got him to keep him company the rest of the night… And so we dropped off LadyDeath at her home… She looked quite beat and sad.

Wednesday morning started with me getting up at 9am… so all the plans that I had went kinda down the drain… (Somehow I expected to get up early as in 7am… Oh, well… Wishful thinking). Went to get the mage, and LadyDeath called me at 10am to tell me that the doctor had checked and scheduled an operation to amputate Groundel’s toes. Just the toes? Hmmm… The thought crossed my mind before sleeping last night… What he had that was really bad and that looked rotten were the toes… I had thought that THAT is what needed to get off his body… So, once again, my thoughts come true as if they had been a premonition. Always the witch… So, went to the hospital with Zordak, and later on he left for work.

I am glad the worst part is over. By 2:00pm the doctor said the operation was a success. The toes on Groundel’s right foot had to be cut off due to the extensive infection that they had, so a spread of the infection was prevented. Now he has to stay taking antibiotics, and if things run smoothly then this ordeal will be over. The operation was quite fast, an hour or so. We didn’t saw it coming when the doctor came out and simply said it was over and it was a success. LadyDeath had been there from early in the morning, so I stayed the afternoon shift, will do so until around 11pm.

LadyDeath stay from 10:00pm to 2:30am, she went with us to pick up Vangie at 3:00 am at Aguadilla’s airport, so by 3:30am Vangie was able to see Groundel and feel relieved. I am very happy that she came, because her presence is very important for Groundel… she’s like a mother for him, she raised him. The hysterical feeling I had yesterday was the same hysterical feeling she had last night and today… I relate much to her… We both have common sense.

So… I went to bed around 4am… Slept until 10something, when I got a call from LadyDeath... I fought sleep for a small while, called Lulú to check with her if her hubby was openned... Ermm... His place, not him... Went to get the mage, so he would follow so we would take his truck to the mechanic at Yauco. From there, delivered him at San Germán, went to the doctor at Hormigueros and got to Mayaguez in time t check the Post Office and the pharmacy. By 5:00pm went to the hospital to check on Groundel. LadyDeath arrived just after the Volcar combo arrived as well. So, laughs for the little people for a while. Vangie called me saying she would not go to the night shift so she would sleep, so I will do the night shift... No problem. Gimme a computer and I'm happy.

Many plans to complete before doomsday… On Friday morning I need to go to the lab to run some tests, then go with the mage to an appointment with Heroína, and finally see if I go to AEELA to get a loan ASAP. I expect the mage to take my car, so I stay stranded at home, sleeping. Night shift at the hospital so Groundel is not alone... Sleep from 5am to 11am...

Saturday, by midday, we should move the furniture from my grandmother’s house to my house, and from my aunt’s if possible. Will prepare bombs in our house, and hopefully we will crash at the mage's den for a while.

Sunday at 11am is the Couple’s Mass at the El Salvador church. Afternoon for Mandy and night reunion with the “matrimonio acogedor”…

No plans for Monday or Tuesday yet… but it will be Zordak’s birthday on the 7th, and so we may manage a disappearance act of two days… Fingers crossed.

Feeling: Tired, hopeful, sad, driven… loved… and blessed.

10-4

Groundel at Hospital

News Flash

For anyone interested, Groundel had an operation and will be staying at the Perea Hospital, room 216. We are trying to save his leg, donations welcomed ;) They did a procedure yesterday to take away all the fluids, peeling away all dead rotting icky stinky flesh from his right foot. We are also trying to raise his spirits (which were pretty dead, but hey... believe...) and make him understand he has to get better for his own sake.

So, Halloween night was awful... The real spooks are NOT fun, you know?

10-4

Headaches

and Hospitals

Friday night, Groundel was back to the hospital. Shivers, fever, bad leg. The usual by now… LadyDeath stayed with him, and they were out by 2am. At least he looked more alive, he had been saying too much bull… funny waking dreams o algo…

Yesterday was a movie night. Rented Black Dahlia and LakeHouse. Black Dahlia was quite a big disappointment… The only cool thing was the musical videos featuring dismembered body parts, the two leatherface wannabe’s and the psyco-school girl… dancing to 40’s grooves. Besides that… crappy crappy crappy. LakeHouse, a good movie I already talked about a month ago or so… It saved the night, true story.

Today… Feeling lazy. Watching Monsters Inc… The mandatory date with the married couple is tonight, and afterwards should rush to bed… Gotta wake up at 4am to be at work site at 5am… Training in San Juan from 8am to 4pm… So I expect to arrive by 8pm… That will be the schedule for Monday and Tuesday… But, never fear… Nothing shall ruin the Halloween’s nightmares! Tuesday night, witches and succubies and warlocks and vampires unite!

10-4

Pain and SAW

... good idea, bad execution...

Last night was busy, as usual… I am still sleepy & tired as usual…
Guess that is building up and will implode next week, you’ll see…

Saw SawIII last night… Not so bad, not so good, at least it has a plot (opposite Texas Chainsaw Masacre which had none)… The ending was quite blah but well… what can I expect… Not that it is a very original concept… But sadly nothing else worth seeing at the theaters…

Groundel doing so-so… still with fever and the leg in pain…

Coriolis in training. At least he seems to be having fun.

Lucinda and her gang will be off to the beach for a weekend family getaway... Good luck! ;)

Zordak driving Miss V around, being very patient.

Me? Well… Eyes bothering, migraine, tired as hell, and counting. Want to take my vacation days, still waiting for an answer… Ahhhhhhhhh! I just wanna get the heck outta here! (Breathe in-breathe out).

Plans? Foggering my house, maybe some light on the issues, maybe moving some furniture… We’ll see how the weekend unfolds…

10-4

Can I PLAY

with MADNESS

Give me the sense to wonder
To wonder if I'm free
Give me a sense of wonder
To know I can be me
Give me the strenght to hold my head up
Spit back in their face
Don't need no key to unlock this door
Gonna break down the walls
Break out of this bad place

Can I play with madness - the prophet started at his crystal ball
Can I play with madness - there's no vision there at all
Can I play with madness - the prophet looked and he laught at me
Can I play with madness - he said you're blind too blind to see

I screamed aloud to the old man
I said don't lie don't say you don't know
I say you'll pay for your mischief
In this world or the next
Oh and then he fixed me with a freesing glance
And the hell fires raged in his eyes
He said do you want to knowthe truth son
- I'll tell you the truth
Your soul's gonna burn in the lake of fire

Can I play with madness - the prophet started at his crystal ball
Can I play with madness - there's no vision there at all
Can I play with madness - the prophet looked and he laught at me
Can I play with madness - he said you're blind too blind to see

Can I play with madness - the prophet started at his crystal ball
Can I play with madness - there's no vision there at all
Can I play with madness - the prophet looked and he laught at me
Can I play with madness - he said you're blind too blind to see

-Iron Maiden, Can I play with madness

Cars, legs, and Cthulhu

o algo... LOL Too many events, too little time…

Tuesday: The mage’s broom broke down and so it was the quest for a mechanic… We went to the cock’s place (that’s the name of the garage… no pun intended), left the car there, went on with paying off things and trying to find the time to actually rest.

Wednesday: No water at work meant that I was off my office by midday. So… Took the mage to do lunch and then delivered him at his slave center… work… Went on to take my aunt in her paycheck frenzy at the grocery… Arrived in time before sunset, so took some plants that I was to deliver to Lady Death and… delivered them… Duh! Groundel didn’t look so good… well, he never does… So, the three of us went to hunt for food. Wanted to see a movie but nothing caught our interest. Delivered the kids and went home… Just when I was in the middle of watching a TV show after almost 4 months of not doing so, got a call from Groundel… His leg got really bad, and so I had to take him to the hospital… There came the comedy flick about my husband… Tadaaaaaaaa! And then I flew away to get the mage at his work… Awake until midnight, waiting for a hospital call but nothing… Big headache and much sleep.iness so went home…

Today… Got a call from LadyDeath. Groundel stayed at the hospital all night long and right before I go to work he was thrown from the hospital. Que mal…Picked them up, and so they are safe and sound at their home… sort of. The leg looks bad, but at leat it is not like cooked ham.

Still on the making of… The day began running fast… Now at work, arrived almost late… Had to wear my contacts again since I couldn’t go to an eye doctor yesterday… which suck, I hate wearing them because I feel them bothering me all the time… But it’s either that or migraine for wearing sunglasses that have a very outdated prescription… Ugh!

Will the car be ready today? Will everything be alright? Are there blue bunnies in the prairie? Will there ever be a Xena movie? Will I ever get a vacation date? Will Coriolis ever go get the Caparra thing? So many questions! So little answers!

Tired. On the edge of burning out. But… the show goes on…

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