Can I play with madness?

Give me the sense to wonder
To wonder if I'm free
Give me a sense of wonder
To know I can be me
Give me the strength to hold my head up
Spit back in their face
Don't need no key to unlock this door
Gonna break down the walls
Break out of this bad place

[Chorus]
Can I play with madness?
The prophet stared at his crystal ball
Can I play with madness?
There's no vision there at all
Can I play with madness?
The prophet looked at me and laughed at me (ha ha) He said:
Can I play with madness?
He said you're blind, too blind to see

Said you're too blind to see

I screamed aloud to the old man
I said don't lie, don't say you don't know
I say you'll pay for this mischief
In this world or the next
Oh and then he fixed me with a freezing glance
And the hellfires raged in his eyes
He said you wanna know the truth son?
Lord, I'll tell you the truth
Your soul's gonna burn in a lake of fire

[Chorus]

Listen to me, said the prophet

[Chorus]

Can I play with madness?


-Iron Maiden, "Can I play with madness?"

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing in me

Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes (oh no)
There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon in me

[Chorus:]
Get up, come on get down with the sickness [x3]
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me

It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes (oh no)
The world is a scary place
Now that you've woken up the demon in me

[Chorus x2]

(And when I dream) [x4]
No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me
Why did you have to hit me like that, mommy?
Dont do it, you're hurting me
Why did you have to be such a bitch
Why don't you,
Why don't you fuck off and die
Why can't you just fuck off and die
Why can't you just leave here and die
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
FUCK YOU
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
How would you like to see how it feels mommy
Here it comes, get ready to die

[Chorus (last line changed to "Madness has now come over me")]


-Disturbed, "Down with the Sickness"

People and stupidity... sinonimos eternos. Oh, no, I shouldn't insult people who are naturally stupid, their stupidity has been genious in the past... BUT stupid people who are stupid because... they can... Oh, THOU SHALL BURN IN HELL SOMEDAY!

I know... The control freaks, the power-chain that goes from the biggest bug to the lowest scum... People just MUST pass on their bad KARMA so they feel accomplished even if it IS a way of procrastinating the inevitable! I thank you all, enslavers, as you have made out of me a strong oponnent and deep thinker. Thanks to all of you I strongly HATE and DESPISE the world today, and I see that there is absolutely NO HOPE for tomorrow. The golden years are past.

It was a bad to worst to nightmarishly endless day. Everyone was calling me-looking for me, and everyone was demanding and fighting, arguing and screaming. I am glad it is coming to an end... Why is it that politeness and plain proffessional behaviour just CAN't be? Am I the only one who believes in those old virtues? Damn!

I just want to pay bills... do what I wanna do and be left alone. It is AMAZING that the lesat u get in trouble the more trouble people send your way... I have this luck... a natural ability of being hated just because I am... me... God KNOWS it is NOT easy being me... Demanding me expects the best from me and it is tiresome when I must fail myself because of people and their stupidity interfering with my outcomes...

El guerrero de luz cree, tiene fe... y da sin esperar a cambio... Endless dreaming of hope and truth and rightfulness and justice... I should have been born in the Arthurian Era...

Breathe

Scream

Just... Be.

10-4

Aguadilla.Configuring computers...
Nice touch. One of the ladies gave me a gift for no reason: a red dragon incense burner. That was cute. Kodak moment.
And Candi got me a mirror wand so I can reach the back of computers without having to move things... Thoughtful. :)

Bought milk and cherios... I guess the milk-allergy is on hold so YAY!

Still broke...

Still wishing for many things...

Still hungry...

Still the Lady of the Lake, so BEWARE!!!!

Read Vero's blog for a while. Liked her. Would like to listen to the bands music... Damn, wish I could go to Lazers every Thursday! Sniff, sniff...
I will do the goth pub over here aunq sea lo ultimo q haga, lo último q hagaaaaaaaaaaa!
Just wait after the wedding... Hey, I will need a new hobby after that... Heheheh

... that and returning to college to get the doc's and earn more respect/ rule the world/...

Whatever, this place is hot... better run back to my cave which is cold, dark and cozy...
Yup, still no phone... and seems it will take a month... But... I WILL SURVIVE!!!! DAMNIT!!!

10-4
10-4

Thursday.
Extremadamente cansada. Tired. Dead. Walking corpse. This line of business is gonna kill me... Ok, installed many computers yesterday, went to Aguadilla in the afternoon, and started configuring them today... plus gotta go again to Aguadilla in the afternoon... Plus must go to Aguadila tomorrow the whole day.

My head is spinning and its fading fast...

Saturday and Sunday... The days that go so fast I can't even realize'em, or see'em.

I need a "Rest of my Life" vacation...

Ok, LADIES on my ohso-called bridal party: LISTEN UP!

These are the dresses from which I will select the one for the Maid of Honor and one for the 3 bridesmaids. For each dress you will need 2 scarves as from them a small/shorty short bolero style jacket will be made, so the arms and shoulders and back are covered for church.

The royal blue bolero will have long length arms, tight at the biceps, then a ruffle from the bottom. Inside the ruffle, another one in contrasting white satin. The idea is a bell sleeve, sort of.

The last dress has the RIGHT combination: royal blue/ white. Please picture the other dresses with this same color scheme: all royal blue, details in white, underskirt in white.



I NEED you ALL to resend me your measurements as well as COMMON garment size. Thanks in advance.

It's Thursday... Yesterday had to go to SJ to attend a meeting... Arrived with a nice back-shoulder-neck pain... Today I am setting up a computer lab, 12 PC's... Help? None. And after the hardware comes cabling and then setting up Cris2... So, that's the fun thing for the next couple of days at work... After the lab, 32 more PC's to setup individually. Fun, fun.

Coriolis gave me a nice necklace of Fire Resistance that he got in Mexico... I hope it has no side effects... :P It has a nice writing embroidered on the back, BLAZE. That was a lovely thing to write. For those who DOESN't know, Blaze was my second character in Spelljammer. Captain Blaze Darkstream Singlestar, High Quill of Brihaspati. She was known for her knack of using the vorpal to slice up enemies' cojones. LOL Literally. Somehow, I always got 20 on the die whenever I needed it... She was really lucky... I played her for a long time, so the people around me called me Blaze anytime... The Golden Years... Awwwwwwww...

So, now back to work, back to reality...

Oh, before I forget... LADIES! There was a bridesmaid clothing change, so lookout for emails.
Buahahahahahah... I love my hobby... ;)

10-4

CONGRATS TO DADDY!
Zordak finally got a hold on me yesterday, and sent me a pic of lovely Amanda Nichole. Daddy's little lass is 7 months old. Zordak and BloodyMary should be very proud! :))


Baby Amy...

Okkkkk, so... Ya me estoy hartando de cartas estúpidas... Hoy recibí notificación de la financiera del carro, que si no pago 2 meses de atraso me lo quitan... De todas las cosas, hay 2 que SIEMPRE están al dia: El carro y la casa. So, esa fue la "sacá por el techo" del día, pues al revisar la libreta de pagos, voilá! Hasta marzo está todo pago, y tengo hasta el 16 de abril para pagar abril... El lunes llamaré para insultarlos.

GOOD FRIDAY

Pilate then had Jesus taken away and scourged; and after this, the soldiers twisted some thorns into a crown and put it on his head and dressed him in a purple robe. They kept coming up to him and saying, 'Hail, king of the Jews!' and slapping him in the face. Pilate came outside again and said to them, 'Look, I am going to bring him out to you to let you see that I find no case against him.

The chief priests and the guards shouted, 'Crucify him! Crucify him!'

Pilate said, 'Take him yourselves and crucify him: I find no case against him.'

The Jews replied, 'We have a Law, and according to that Law he ought to be put to death, because he has claimed to be the Son of God.' ...

They [the soldiers] then took charge of Jesus, and carrying his own cross he went out to the Place of the Skull, or as it is called in Hebrew, Golgatha, where they crucified him with two others, one on either side, Jesus being in the middle ...When the sol-diers had finished crucifying Jesus they took his clothing and divided it into four shares, one for each soldier. His undergarment was seamless, woven in one piece from neck to hem; so they said to one another, 'Instead of tearing it, let's throw dice to decide who is to have it.' In this way the words of scripture were fulfilled: They divide my garments among them and cast lots for my clothes. That is what the soldiers did.

Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother and his mother's sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary of Magdela. Seeing his mother and the disciple whom he loved standing near her, Jesus said to his mother, 'Woman, this is your son.' Then to the disciple he said, 'This is your mother.' And from that hour the disciple took her into his home.

After this, Jesus knew that everything had now been completed and, so that the scripture should be completely fulfilled, he said: I am thirsty. Ajar full of wine stood there; so putting a sponge in the wine on a hyssop stick, they held it up to his mouth.

After Jesus had taken the wine, he said, 'It is fulfilled'; and bowing his head he gave up the spirit.

--John 19:1ff

I guess I had two cakes that year... counting with no cake today...
Ah! The 7 fat cows...

Whatever. I'm not sick (Alas!), I am still my creative crazy self, and you guys love me, so... No more whining!

BORN ON THIS DAY:

Buddha, founder of Buddhism (563 BC)

Harvey Cushing, brain surgeon (1869)

Sonja Henie, ice skater and actor (1912)

David Rittenhouse, clockmaker, mathematician, and astronomer (1732)

Jim "Catfish" Hunter, baseball player (1946)

Viv, Artiste and Techie... yup, me! (1973)


ON THIS DAY IN HISTORY:


1652: Cape Town in South Africa is founded by Jan van Riebeeck as a supply post for the Dutch East India Company.

1973: Spanish painter and sculptor Pablo Picasso dies at his villa in France at age 91.

1974: In Atlanta, Georgia, baseball great Hank Aaron hits his 715th career home run, breaking the record previously held by Babe Ruth.

1990: Ryan White, the U.S. teenager whose battle with AIDS promoted public understanding of the disease, dies at 18.

1992: Yasir Arafat, leader of the Palestine Liberation Organization (PLO), survives a plane crash in the Sahara Desert; the plane's three crew members perished.


ABOUT ARIES:
Aries (astrology), the first sign of the zodiac, symbolized by the ram. People whose birthdays fall between March 21 and April 19 are said to be born under the sun sign of Aries. According to astrologers, Aries, a fire sign, is ruled by the planet Mars.

Astrologers believe that Arians have assertive, pioneering, competitive, and courageous natures. Arians are said to have strong senses of self, and to frequently be selfish. Arians tend to behave in headstrong, impulsive, sometimes foolhardy ways. Although they anger quickly, they get over their anger quickly and do not hold grudges. Astrologers consider many Arians to be natural athletes and to be drawn to physical activity.

Because of the sign's association with the planet Mars (named for the ancient Roman god of war), people born under it are said to like danger and risk. According to astrologers, adventure appeals to Arians, and their natural gift for plunging into projects and activities with gusto can make them successful leaders and good at motivating others. Professions associated with Aries include medicine, especially surgery; the military; manufacturing, especially involving metal or heavy machinery; sports; carpentry; and engineering.


ANOTHER HOROSCOPE:
Aries
March 20 - April 18

"Dear Aries, you're looking forward to making a fresh new start. Your intellect is working in harmony with your intuition. Your mind is clearer and more focused than it once was, and you're thinking in terms of expanding your horizons and creating new career opportunities for yourself. You're feeling passionate about life, ready to face just about anything. The only challenge I see right now is that you need to remain grounded in reality. "

Hmmm... At least closer to my reality... LOL


"You may find that your love life feels a little like walking through sticky toffee. The position of the heavenly bodies means that you are not sure what to make of the signals you are receiving from your sweetheart. They could be interpreted either way, which is making you very insecure. Perhaps it would be better if you stopped trying, and for the time being concentrate on having fun. "

Riiiiiiight...

"Some rather disturbing dreams could leave you with uncomfortable apprehensions that you don't understand. Write down your dreams, then try to analyze the symbols. You'll probably find that these dreams are only emotional detritus from the past. Today you could seek escape from the real world by reading or watching thrillers, or you might want to try a new pastime, which is unusual and perhaps risky. Be careful! Don't limit yourself, but don't get reckless."

What a stupid horoscope...

Thursday, April 8th
6:00 AM
I WAS BORN!

So, HAPPY BIRTHADY TO MEEEEEEE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEE
HAPPY BDAY, HAPPY BDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEE!
YIIIPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

BTW, I HAVE NO PHONE, lovely PRTC disconnected me yesterday... So, no phone, no internet chatting nights, no blah blah until I can pay... Jajajah, that's something...

Hate being off cyberspace!

In the meantime, communicate via emails to my lovely hivequeen2000@yahoo.com or to v_rivera_pr@yahoo.com.

This birthday sucks...

Work was slow, sort of. I was gonna take this week free but since last week's sickness I wanted to install computers before everything piled up... Big deal... Anyway could not do anything because now there was a change of plans from the computer's headquarters. So... I was left playing Inspector Gadget on a program mystery, solved it... Tomorrow to Aguadilla, they will have some munchies... Buahahahahahah.

Will take Wed-Thu free, plus next Mon and Tue. Gotta do the taxes, gotta do the masks and the charriots. And gotta clean up. The kitties have been havoking lately. LOL

Sunday, sunday... Cats jumping in my head, cats opening the closet, cats breaking a glass, cats running in circles, cats dancing in the moonlight... CATS!!!

Yes, they woke me up, several times... Grrrrrr

Saturday... stii sick but better... looking for some ebay deals... getting a grasp of real things... A big no shredded nothingness, but I guess the seriousness of it has faded away. More focus on my goals now... Ghosts beware!