2005... Not so many important things happenned, but at least some did. Life is not so bad, although being alive and truly living are different things. That's the point I've been trying to get stamped into stubborn people's minds. I intend to live even if no one agrees with what I want. I am quick to try pleasing everyone's wishes, but genie wants some time for herself as well, time to pamper herself and do everything she always wanted to do besides saving the world from human stupidity and being the eternal paladin.

This year I made many balancing acts to get my dream house. Well, it is in the country side, it is far enough but close enough, it has a nice view towards the mountains in one side and towards the ocean in the back side, it has 2 floors, and it has plenty of ground so people at least stay away and I can complete my "ranch" dreams someday. The place is not new, and has plenty of work in progress... I wanted to move in right away but that cannot be. I have to fix many things and arrange many things to my taste and I know it's better to do it all before I move in because that way I am certain things will be done... The problem is that it will take longer than I expected because of the cash flow... but as a saying says "Don't run and don't stop, if you don't stop you will get there". It will end up a haven for my kitties, a haven for gaming and a place I can truly call home... Good things come to those who wait.

Things at work wont get better and didnt get worse. I want a career change that is very stuck because now I need a letter from my university that says that the courses I have are equivalent to a Human Resourses Master... I started my MBA when there was no specializations, so my MBA was a generic Management thing. I have both HR and Marketing courses, but people do not want to read and want to make lives miserable. I know how RUM works, and it is not likely that they will make the letter... I will try to get it, though... no battle worst than the one you didnt fight. And I am very good at the arts of war... hope that the outcome is at least encouraging.

Things at home aint worst than what they have always been. Since I started living at auntie's I returned to being 15 years old... Oh, I feel so young I can weep! It is a bit of an anoyance... sometimes a lot... but I guess it is not so bad after all. My kitties are happier than I thought they would be, and little by little I'm improving the house so at least something makes auntie happy.

Things in matters of love are shady, more than usual. I feel my heart has been surrounded with a thorned strand... No, it's not a sacred heart, but I guess I know how Jesus must have felt at humanity's cruel heartlessness. I still have no road to follow. I have lost belief in all kinds of words and expect only actions. So, actions it is... Try breathing life into a corpse. Lestat would be so proud!

Things inside of me are fine. I am in love with my brain, with my thoughts, with my spirit... I am the kid that grew up to discover that she is still the kid... only wiser... I will never stop looking for wonder, or flying kites in my dreams. The important things in life are invisible to the eyes. And once again The Little Prince strikes back, another year ever since I discovered him back in 9th grade... I visit him yearly ever since... And always a new lesson blooms. Hail The Little Prince!

I am grateful for the special people that surround me, namely Groundel, LightShadow, Lucinda, Joe, Coriolis, Auntie, Lulu, Zordak, El Calvo, and Trilogy. May the new year bring you bliss, peace and love.

In case I am not around the cyberworld, Happy New Year!!!

10-4

MERRY XMAS TO ALL! Even to old grouches who don’t believe on it ;)

Got nice gifts from family and friends, got a nice typical salty dinner courtesy of auntie, saw various movies:
Madagascar: Hilarious! Loved the penguins! Love the rodents! A bit too short for my taste, but cool anyway.
Frankenstein: An attempt for a mini-series that is another good idea with a bad execution. Too slow… and not complete… Don’t waste your time with this.
Sky High: Don’t miss Linda Carter saying she is no Wonder Woman… Right!
Fantastic Four: Though it would be completely useless, but no… McMahon as DrDoom was perfect. Although Sue didn’t look like Sue at all… same for Richards… it was ok. Surprised me… entertaining.

Small gathering on Friday night to go watch King Kong. Lucinda went with her hubby, and so they joines Lightshadow, Groundel and me. Small moment of fright as Ladymex passed by with her offspring… but she turned to avoid us. Finally she got the hint. Yay! Anyway… The evening had no casualties and was fun. Lucinda ended up crying a river, guess she didn’t heard that the monkey died… Oh, well… ;)

Coriolis bored, leaving singing messages in my home phone… Oh, boy… Well, we’ll see if he really passes by on Monday. I am so tired of promises… Then again, he didn’t promise… Oh, I am soooo foolish!

Well… Keep on tuned…

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Early at my house to make phone calls. No luck yet with Retiro, so I foresee the check thing will be for Jan. Not my fault, will have the phone bill to prove it. :(

Dripping dripping drowning dripping... The dripping in the bath is getting me crazy. Need to get a plumber to take care of all water issues... by mid-Jan... Right now not even a cent to spend... Eeeck!

Will ask Joe Carpenter to take out the closets and any other wood stuff. Want no wood in here, unless it is caoba. No termites, please. Maybe will do some tiling next week as well... This week or what is left of it should be an ode to lazyness... sort off... Put the primer at auntie's so gotta paint maybe tomorrow morning if I'm in the mood...

May see Tril this afternoon. I feel bored and I won't spend another whole day here waiting for a phone call that won't happen. It's like waiting for the repair of auntie's phone... It just won't happen until next year maybe... Happy happy joy joy... Eeeck!

Still an Anti-Chilli's/Anti-Ponderosa girl. People, chill... I gotta be the Grinch or Scrooge... Someone has to do it... And it is in my bones. Deal with it! It's the season to be spooky, shalalalala-lala-lala!

Mood: Make a wild guess. Maybe I'll like Xmas better if I had the spirit within, but my spirit is out and it only enjoys Halloween to the fullest. Xmas is all about gifts and outings to spend money, and getting things overpriced, and people crowding up and pushing you around and having an excuse to curse you with a smile. Blah! I hate crowds, I hate taking part of a lie (after all, baby Jesus was born between March-May, not in December), I hate people being double face (we all know they aint so merry and that they pretend to care but they just want you to fail at everything to pick up the spoils of war)... A beautiful life... Maybe a long time ago, in a galaxy far away... where people actually took the time to make their gifts and instruct values and feelings to their siblings... I wish I live in another time, but no... Here I am... In the land of confussion, in a land with no values, no heart, no core, no true joy... a land that delights on ignoring problems and celebrating stupidity, beer and half-naked chicks. Lovely land...

My homeland died horribly, and instead this accursed clone has taken over... Gentle portorricans have been turned into headless chickens in human bodies... Damned world... And its funny to see what they write as "what the 2006 will bring to us", writing about the stars saying that so many bad things will happen... Hello! Wake up! Of course bad things will happen... its a logical consequence of global carelessness. Trees keep on being cut, the Amazon Jungle keeps vanishing. Glaciers keep melting... Well, duh! Earthquakes will strike, weather will be insane... Logical things that are consequence of what the "intelligent" animal of this planet does best: Screw everything it touches for the sake of so-called civilization and evolution.

I believe in fighting and making a difference. It just seems there is no point. The few fighters are branded as geek anarchists that try going against all odds and literally die trying. The deep lessons left by Mother Theresa and Princess Diana in matters of giving selflessly were lessons of a one day application... People look at them, say its a pity, and move on. While people decide which game system should they buy, or which cellular has the best features, or which iPod looks cooler there are children dying because they couldnt get even just a spoonful of rice. Mention this, and people say its a pity, and they keep on their mindless consumerism because it doesn't inmediately touch them... Mention that you are not talking of Africa, but of this piece of land we call Island of Enchantment... and they wont believe it. Personally, I wont get a $500 buck system, not even a $130 system. People keep wasting money investing on their children's lack of imagination... and creating monsters that don't really get the value of money. Instead of giving a one day play and food and toys for kids, try donating time, volunteering... That's what true Xmas is all about... a gift that comes from the heart and lasts a whole year or a lifetime... There is a difference between wants and needs. Place it in a balance and realize that most wants are not even close to needs, and that after you fulfill your needs you can help others do the same... and in the way, get the greatest of your wants.

Ok... That's as deep as I can go today. I'm outta here.

To all friends and foes: Merry Xmas. May all of you get exactly what every one of you deserves! :)

And to pick up the spirit... here goes... cheers!


" T'was the night before Christmas - Old Santa was pissed.
He cussed out the elves and threw down his list.
Miserable little brats, ungrateful little jerks.
I have a good mind to scrap the whole works.
I've busted my ass for damn near a year.
Instead of "Thanks Santa" - what do I hear?
The old lady bitches cause I work late at night...
The elves want more money - The reindeer all fight.
Rudolph got drunk and goosed all the maids.
Donner is pregnant and Vixen has AIDS.
And just when I thought that things would get better,
Those assholes from IRS sent me a letter.
They say I owe taxes - if that ain't damn funny.
Who the hell ever sent Santa Claus any money?
And the kids these days - they all are the pits.
They want the impossible ...Those mean little shits.
I spent a whole year making wagons and sleds,
Assembling dolls...Their arms, legs and heads,
I made a ton of yoyo's - No request for them...
They want computers and robots...they think I'm IBM.
Flying through the air...dodging the trees,
Falling down chimneys and skinning my knees.

I'm quitting this job...there's just no enjoyment.
I'll sit on my fat ass and draw unemployment.
There's no Christmas this year...now you know the reason...
I found me a blonde. I'm going SOUTH for the season"

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Absolutely anoyed and mad. No phone at auntie's (still, the Big old fart wont grant that wish... talking about the big old Xmas guy)... People looking for me as if I were not gonna pay... Last night the contractor's sister gave me a reminder visit along with 4 people who got out of their car in a not so friendly way... WTF? If she thought I would be intimidated, sorry. I just got soooo pissed because I dont like shows at auntie's... How can I give any money if the stupid inspector from Retiro wont show up? And that's something the contractor knew... Until she gives the go and I go to SJ to sign papers and get the check there is nothing else I can do... And I keep calling Retiro and no one answers me... But they call to my work and now today a coworker woke me up at home to tell me they were looking for me... Great. BTW, the inspector was suppossed to pass by last Thu and get this over with, she didnt. She left a note at Retiro saying she didnt found the house... But gee, she didnt call either and I waited for her the whole friggin day... Thanks to that the effect of people who want money and whom I cant get it turns into overwhelming and eeeck!

Besides that, nothing else of much worth... Say Anthony yesterday, went to see Aeon Flux... BTW, as I suspected, that movie is great as a rental, not for the Big Screen.

Narnia... Ah, Narnia... Delightful. Now I can believe in all those creatures that speak but that I wondered how... Gotta love the Phoenix. Gotta love the Witch. Gotta worship the Lion (Alex, there is your treat for the holidays... Mufasa eat your heart out). Animals with human voices were flawless. Even the wolves were perfect.

So what's left of it all? King Kong... T-rexes... Blondes in distress... Read it all at Aintitcoolnews.com

Me, trying to entertain myself with lovely ants... Waiting for calls that doesn't happen... Found the treasure for Einstein, so now is the quest for little Barbie's treasure... Groundel taking care of that business.

Making some plans, just SOME because most don't happen and so I am trying to avoid the planning business completely.

So, if the inspector shows her ass up here before Fri, I may get to get the check on Fri... if not it will be a business for next year because of the government holidays shutdown...

Whatever. Tired. Pissed. Anoyed... What's so new about it all?

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Yay! Nerdy nerd! Nerdy nerd! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! And all because I know a Vulcan and some Dungeons... Who knew? ;)

First day of vacation... Intoxicated with Clorox. Lovely.

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Preparing everything for my departure at work, namely backups, backups, backups... Same old problems, same old deaf ears at the offices in SJ. Thank God for compensatory time and vacation time... Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Well, the lady from Retiro is suppossed to pass by the house tomorrow to check it up. Hopefully all will be fine so I have the money for the contractor within this week. He work slow but certain, and the job was perfect. Love the stairs, very private now. Will try working on the bathroom so at least that is done by next week. Will try using the help of a friend that has experience with tiles. We'll see the outcome! Gotta paint with primer on Fri what is left of auntie's so later on she can paint whatever she wants to paint. Weekend and next week will be cleaning mayhem-fun at my house, anyone who wanna help is invited to do so.

Kitties very healthy and kicking. I dont know what my life would be without them. They are the only ones who understand me so well: sleep, play, and eat, the most important things in life.

Eeeck! Gotta go back to work!

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Awful days gone, awful days ahead... Awful day today... Yay! Nauseus, hate feeling this way, couldn't even have breakfast, guess I'll have to turn vegetarian or something... Ugh! One more day and out until next year, out of here, cursed place, out of the plastic people with plastic smiles and plastic hearts... Out to be all by myself, yay, what a happy thought... Much to do, not much money to accomplish all goals just some basics, and not much desire to do everything I have to do but everything I wish to do... Sims having the time of their lives, wish I were one. Me, still in the struggle between being human or the daughter of Lloth. It's so shitty being half-breed... No matter what you do, you don't feel complete, you don't feel that good... Wrong era to live in... Reggaetón at every corner, people dressing as drag kings and pimps... (not even drag queens, those dress really nice actually)... The time of drugs, sex, violence, anarchism, death... Ugh! How about reincarnation and living the life of Crocky... Then again a stupid guy would try hunting me... Supper! Would be nice to listen to some waltzes and dance the night away while dancing to that beat, under the moonlight, near a lovely lake that's not filled up with corpses or memories of them... Would be nice to actually smell the fresh grass and not the weed people... Would be nice to smile from the heart and not just to keep plastic people within their plastic worlds... Keep on dreaming of living in a perfect world... I'm a romantic after all. Who knew?

Do I stress you out
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I don't want to dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Do I wear you out
You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker

And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around...all around
Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this?

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need know is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man
a place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice...
-Alanis Morissette, All I really want

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Well, on Thu night went to the grad place to check it out after all... Loved the place. Reminded me of Little House on The Prairie. Met with LightShadow afterwards... We were suppossed to see Rent but as my usual luck, it was no longer showing... So, we went to see NightWatch. Eeeeeeck! Cross Neil Gaiman with Mortal Kombat video games and a bit of Thundercats (just a bit). Stupid movie. I though it would be original or attention grasping... Unworthy of the big screen. God, this year has been dissapointment after dissapointment... I hope King Kong and Narnia saves the year... Narnia! Narnia! Gosh, can't wait for that one!

The weekend went too fast. On Saturday finished up the scratching walls project. They are ready for paint… That would be another story. Went to Lucinda’s place since it was her birthday. I could gather no one since everyone had something better to do. Whatever. The important thing is I went with Groundel, we brought her cake, we singed along and at least for a few minutes she did something else than house work. Now Diego is into fishing, and Barbie is speaking nonstop.

On Sunday went early in the morning to deliver (finally) the pressure machine. Went to my house and things are almost finished. The wall looks great. The directional light fixtures are awesome. Eating at auntie’s and caught most of the Walt Disney Holidays preparations show. It was great, showing how they prepare every decoration on all the theme parks. Loved the tree of Animal Kingdom! And the gingerbread house. Well, afterwards, went to get another fixture, this one for the stairs… And rented 2 movies that sucked badly. And then to sleep.

The Devil’s Rejects: Same line of nudity and mindlessness of the 1st movie… The gore was not as gorish as the first one, though… Poor in every way. Hated it.

The Skeleton Key: Another good idea, another bad execution… The site was perfect, but one could actually foresee what was coming. Not creative, maybe a bit more research on the hoodoo matter would have given it a lift…

Had a bad dream. In the dream I left my cats under the care of a friend. I went to get them back, but he didn’t have them. He complained they were too many cats and it was too much work so he gave them to some of his friends so they took care of them. I was pissed and wanted to get them inmediately. He said that it was late and I should wait until the next day and closed the door. I was mad at the idea, then another friend told me he knew where the cats were. So we went to the place. I knocked at the door and this ultimate bitch answered, one of my nemesis… Looking around I saw an old cage completely unkept. A starved to the bone Kali was there, full of fleas. I was enraged by the whole thing, demanding to know where were the others. The lady said they were around that they kept coming and going. Spotted what I thought would be Roxy, turned out it was Roxy’s head. As I picked up the head I spotted Set outside, under a car. I screamed his name, and he tried to run away, but I caught him. He was half bald everywere, seemingly covered with sarna and with hot water bruises. And he was also starving to death. I started demanding to know where Kyonne, Cyric and Michita were, and there was no answer. By the look on their faces nothing pretty happenned to them. I woke up almost throwing up. Had to run to my kitties room to make sure they were there and alive and well. They were all sleeping in the twin bed, and looked up as I entered the room. Sat there watching them and caressing them and crying. You can take anything from me, but my kitties… they are who I love the most. The though of loosing just one makes me insane. Couldn’t sleep the rest of the night, having the image of the so called Kbron in my mind… Of all of them, Setito is the worst behaved, but I love him as well and wish him no harm. Don’t know why I dreamed such a thing… But it stirred me up.

Another working week… At least this one will be short. I’ll start vacations on the 15th, and it ends next year at the 9th…

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You must understand how the touch of your hand
Makes my pulse react
That it's only the thrill of boy meeting girl
Opposites attract
It's physical
Only logical
You must try to ignore that it means more than that

What's love got to do, got to do with it
What's love but a second hand emotion
What's love got to do, got to do with it
Who needs a heart when a heart can be broken

It may seem to you that i'm acting confused
When you're close to me
If i tend to look dazed i've read it someplace
I've got cause to be
There's a name for it
There's a phrase that fits
But whatever the reason you do it for me

What's love got to do, got to do with it
What's love but a second hand emotion
What's love got to do, got to do with it
Who needs a heart when a heart can be broken

I've been taking on a new direction
But i have to say
I've been thinking about my own protection
It scares me to feel this way

What's love got to do, got to do with it
What's love but a sweet old fashioned notion
What's love got to do, got to do with it
Who needs a heart when a heart can be broken

-Tina Turner, What's love gotta do with it

Rainy day. A bit tired and sad, but life goes on. Waiting for transportation to go to Aguadilla, if none appears I'll have to go by myself… Yay. Besides that, had an appointment to see the facilities of a small church to decorate for a graduation in May. But I'm canceling until Monday, I'm tired and cranky so not a good day for beig too much of a social butterfly. Thinking of maybe going to see Rent at night… Whatever happens. Watching old net pics, thinking too much… planning like crazy… LOL Daydreams, nightmares, whatever they may be called…

I'm off to see the wizard, the wonderful wizard of Oz…

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Today is Dec 7, 2005. A year ago, a good friend had a very unfortunate event that lead to death. She had preclampsia and that got worst with her asthma and high blood pressure. The doctors saved her baby, but were unable to save her. After a blood transfusion something went wrong and her brain died. The next day, Dec 8, by midday, her husband asked the doctors to turn off the machine that kept her body alive. A kid, a newborn, and a husband were left behind, along with all the people that she took care and was responsible for in matters of medication, preparing food, doctors appointments, and all that without mentioning work. The whole thing was unexpected and a great blow to those who valued her immensely. I want to take a moment to let the world know a bit about who was Betsynet.

Betsy was the only person I could call friend at San Juan's work office. She called me everyday, to update me on things about work and to see how I was doing. In her busy schedule she always had time for me, and she always remembered the little things. I met her when I started working at ARV in SJ, she was the secretary of the MIS director… so not oddly enough, she ran the complete office. A flawless commander, she gave out orders to everyone, from the big boss to the cleaning crew. She made sure that job tickets were taken care of, that messages reached their destiny, that our overtime counted in matters of paycheck, as well as she always tried to create a family-environment full of small gatherings just because. Her attitude was always cheerful, even if she had to go in the middle of the morning to pick up her son and take him to emergency because he had an asthma attack… or even if she had to baby-sit her mom at the hospital the night before. In an office of lost & found, she always knew where everything was, and she always performed her duty at more than her best. She was polite and nice to those she didn't like, thinking that they were that way because of their own problems and issues. She didn't waste time on gossip, she had a life to live.

After I was transferred to Mayaguez I though she would join all those people that claim to be friends but after a while of distance simply cool off… Not her. Every morning she had a moment to call, even if she had no jobs for me. In time I could tell things became really stressing over there because of her confidences. People who were nice turned into jerks. Everyone was fighting a cold war, and she was left in the middle of it because of her sensitive position. Nevertheless, in the middle of it all, she did her job, did not double cross anyone, gave good advise even to those jerks who did everything to get her off her position. At work the common harassing environment became worst everyday, since all that people could do was screw her life up since she could not be taken off her duty because she did a perfect job. Evidently, that continual screwing up her daily life had a toll in her. She married a guy that she had been going out with for a time, the event was short and sweet, and very nice. It was one of her happiest moments.

Betsy and Tony were made for each other, he loved her child, and they constantly took time off to travel throughout the island getting to know each of its prettiest corners, as well as to travel to the states. She once went to Salem and brought me a charcoal drawing from the witches' museum. I can say with no doubts that the time she spent with Tony and her son was well spent, she lived her life to the fullest. And she found the time to be kind and of service to everyone around her. In several occasions I stayed at her home in order to attend meetings and trainings at SJ. I always felt I was staying with family. Her latest project, finally getting a house of their own, came true. The last year she spent making improvements in order to have an at home office for her husband and a room for the new addition to the family. And at work, her pregnancy was not an obstacle for her doing her best, and for people screwing her life even further.

The time of her baby shower came, and they did a small gathering to celebrate it. It has been a Saturday. I could not attend because of my car, I could not travel that far. Next Monday I called to ask how was everything and I was given the news that she was in the hospital. No one told me it was something serious. The next day she died.

Betsy always thought of every problem "Que se joda!" She did her things and didn't really care about anyone else's opinion. A good daughter, a good mother, a devoted wife, a good friend… She gave me a taste of how life should be, that anything can be accomplished, and that you better take charge of things now because tomorrow may be too late. She died young, but she truly lived. Not everyone can say that. She did all the things she wanted to, she worked at a profession she liked, and she found true love and kept it. She brought a smile to anyone around her, and hope to anyone who was sad or tired. She made you feel important even if you had done nothing at all.
Betsynet: You are missed every hour, everyday. A whole year has passed, and your absence has demonstrated to many that you were invaluable and irreplaceable. May you enjoy a last laugh when you look down towards us. Thanks for all your lessons, my friend. RIP.

Yesterday had to go at 10:30am from work. I had a big pain that wouldn’t go away and I knew it would last the whole day. I was right. Throwing up followed as soon as I got home. Three times. Awful. Tried resting. Today I am not feeling so good, but auntie woke me up anyway saying I had to go work… Being sick is no excuse to stay home. WTF?! I hate this… So, back in my office… I supposse that if I get bad again I will just sleep in the floor since its no use trying going home to rest. Happy happy joy joy.

Groundel went to the WIA thing and they scheduled some things for him. Hopefully that is the kind of help he needed to get a job. As Madonna said many times: "We'll see"

10-4

At work. Another boring day… So far nothing of big interest… The elevator is not working as usual and the going up to the 4th floor through the stairs is a killer… But I guess it was not as bad as with some old people who got dizzy out of it. :(

Yesterday Gruendel had a Star Wars game in Sabana Grande. He called me at work to let me know. The day passed by him and I guess he forgot he promised to go to Gestión Unica on Monday… and to CUE. He's fast to make promises without really meaning them… Whatever… I only wished he REALLY were interested in studying (which he is not) and that he gave a little more of himself to the quest of getting a job (if he doesn't get it by Dec-Jan I don't think he ever will… It's been more than 4 months and nothing…). Lack of motivation if it is not game-related…

Tril called before my going out of work time, so I asked him to go with me to deliver something in Hormigueros. He had nothing to do (hmmm, another lazy ass) so he agreed. So, I tryed giving back the machine that a co-worker lend me, but she wasn't home. Hurray, hurray… Gave Tril a trip to the house and inspected what has been done so far… Stairs almost closed, electricity still a work in progress, no light fixtures installed so far. The tree is kinda eating the balcony up, gotta trim it and put some venom on the weeds so they stop harrassing the house… Whatever.

Back home... With the kitties reading Christopher Lowell's books and then to sleep. My eyes are still bothering me… I know something is giving me allergy… Seems I'm not the only one with that, Lucinda can't even talk because of her seasonal flu.

I feel sad. Everything around me seems so stale and blah. I wish I could make a big change in every way, but what's the point… We are but pawns that amuses God's will.

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On this past weekend:
- Another episode of My Phone is Still Dead.
-Rented Unleashed and Land of the Dead. Both were entertaining... Although I still think Jet Li's best performance is as Kato, and Land of the Dead ended up with stolen scenes from Shaun of the Dead (chained zombies for fun) and the classic mall scene... Whatever.
- Basically stranded at aunties playing Sim's 2. Made a family made up by Sara, Angel, Maria and Joe... Four very different people, living in the same house... I'm trying to see what happens when things stop being polite and start getting real... The Real World, Mayaguez. LOL
-Yesterday, from 1pm to 7pm... putting the Xmas tree. Wheeeeeee. Pretty pretty pretty

Nothing further. Waiting for Narnia and Aeon Flux. And hoping for vacations soon... Work keeps on sucking. At least this year is the first time a boss gives me a detail, the boss from SJ sent an iceman globe. That was cute. :)

10-4

You try to do something nice, a little detail of sorts, and somehow you get punished for it by destiny's fickleness… It just proves my theory of at work be a bulldog because you do not get paid to be friendly.

The day has been slow… Now the power supply of my laptop is dead, meaning I will have no means to access the net at home. Things keep getting better and better… I even got a complain about why I haven't left feedback. Lightning may strike on me if I get outside…

Too pissed to actually go into deeper thoughts…

And an errata comes to life: I have no complains about my friends, they are the best people I could want around me. My complains go to the other side, meaning relationship and eternal flames. So, my friends I love the same, Joe. Don't you dare to doubt that! (Only Kodak moment of the day, promise).

This weekend… I made a list of plans, but I am feeling bad enough to just cancel everything and stay on bed until Monday. Whatever…

10-4

It is so ironic when people tell you what to do as if you knew nothing of things or life… I was just commenting to a coworker about the things I want to be: event coordinator, painting artist… He began giving me samples of people that could help me focus on ideas… creative people. I was thinking what the fuck? And that’s the shame… What people see as creative is not. I smiled politely and just said “I have done scenographies, I write stories and tales, I paint ever since being 5 years old, I write poems, and speeches, and plays… I have just the right contacts for an event coordination business, I can do a whole advertising campaign… I have developed 3 business plans… I can’t do things right now.” And all he said was that I was afraid of taking the first step, blah blah… (sight) How about this: I am not afraid of anything, I just can’t right now. But I have a plan, and I have deadlines for myself… I just need to be patient about some things. I can’t count on my spare time after work because (ding, ding, ding!) I have no spare time…

I’m in charge of making my aunt’s house livable again, because there is no one else to do so, period… and because all I am today I owe to her… So even if I complain because it’s no piece of cake, I know I am the only one that can help on that matter.

I also have the construction and improvement of the house in Hormigueros… I will love the outcome, but I know the way is bumpy and hard because I have no sources to fund the projects and so I have to wait, gather the small amounts until I have the complete amounts to pay off each stage… not easy at all… I can’t expect auntie to sponsor me when she can barely sponsor herself, and no one else has the extra income to use me as a hobby. It’s ok… My vision for my house will be completed by the end of next year, at least on the inside... That much is certain… I just don’t know how much I can cope with all the holes in the road, and the broken bridges…

I also want to go back to studying, although I am not certain yet if I will do another master, this time in Painting and Photography, or if I will go for the doctorate of International Business, Social Work or Psychology… In any event, that will take place in August. By then I should be more stabilized in matters of location and time… I can’t study in my present location… I get stressed just by being there.

In the middle of all that I created a schedule of all the travels I want to accomplish for the next 10 years. I want to be able to say that I have traveled the world. I want to expose myself to different cultures and ideas, and learn from the experience. England, New Zealand, Russia, China, Thailand, Australia, Egypt… I want to be there. I don’t know where I’ll get the funding, but I will do it. It is one of my greatest dreams.

I want to jump start a painting career, but I need a portfolio of less than 3 years and at least 25 paintings in order to be taken seriously. And that is the plan from January to June… So I can go to the Culture Institute and get an artist license so they grant some benefits like cheaper materials, and exposure via mall festivals and the like. With that I can get a gallery in San Juan to represent me, so I get the proper exposure when I cannot represent myself. With that I can also go to the city central government and offer my services as muralist… But I need a solid recent portfolio… Until that is done, it’s all about dreaming my life’s greatest dream. It is in schedule… I just have to wait a bit…

I want to have a part time as event coordinator, but first everything else in my life must be in order so I can count on my spare time… so I have the focus and creative juices working in the right direction. When I am moved into the new house, when I have my portfolio, when I begin studying and I’m certain of the right amount of hours I can dedicate to such a task, then I can think of developing this kind of business. I give it one more year, not too long a time if you put things in perspective. And then I will be able to juggle one event each month, so they turn out great.

I have not discarded the idea of teaching painting on weekends. I will have the space to do so, and the investment on cubicles and seats and materials will not be so overpowering. But then again, I must wait a year… until I am well established in my home.

So… I have the plans, I have the dates, I have the talents, I have the creativity, and I have the will… I know what I must do and how to do it. But it all gets slowdown because I have no godfather in terms of money, so I must do everything myself, little by little, with just the right amount of sacrifices. I know where I am heading. It is just frustrating having to sit down and wait because right now there is nothing else I can’t do… It’s all about timing. Opportunity always misses my door… Hopefully it will knock at my door… Soon enough…

And in the middle of all the chaos of what I want to do and achieve in my life, the emotions and feelings of failure due to living a life doing what I hate is… discouraging… to say the least. I thought by now I would have achieved a stable dream job, would have a stable mate, would have a stable little family… But it all has come to ashes. I must endure in this job I hate because there are no other options for now. I have no mate, I definitively don’t have a family and I’m seriously pondering if I really want one after all… I am not what most men want, and the only men that understand my way of thinking are gay. After 30 no one approaches you because of who you are but because of what they can get out of you. I have tried to open myself to new friends, but that has proved a terrible mistake as they only want one thing and I am not interested. I find the only people that honestly likes being around me are the ones I have known for more than 10 years, and that is the reason why I seemingly rotate around them at all times. They are the ones that were there when I was nothing, when I had achieved nothing… and they are the ones that are still there, believing in me. No love can be greater than the love they have given me. And yet, something is missing… I feel empty no matter how much I try to make things right. I feel that love has left my heart forever. And that is a terrible belief in itself… I feel my time for love is past. Seems I will always be the best friend for everyone who loves me, but nothing else… because of themselves and because of me.

How to understand everything… Here I am back at the beginning… In a cold office, trying to ignore the pressures of coworkers, the pressures of home and the pressures of my own. Only the good die young… Now I know why.

10-4

The week has been basically uneventful. I'm feeling down but coping with it. Work-home-feelings, all suck. Gotta get a turtle so I can at least water it.

No phone yet. PRT didnt appear on Tuesday, left a note on Wed with Tue's date and are suppossed to pass in Fri. Last chance for them, it's been 5 weeks and if they don't go fix it I'll report them to the Ombusman. Why can't things be nice and easy?

Bought lamps on Tue and got them to the house yeasterday. I still need two pairs for outside-upstairs and below, one for living room and one for dining room... Guess those will have to wait until January... I also need 3 metal doors, two for upstairs and one for downstairs entrance. Another wish for Feb maybe? Unless Santa acnowledges I've been such a good girl... Whatever.

10-4

Saturday and hopefully within 3 more days the phone line will be restored at auntie's so I'll be part of civilization again... This all has been sucky enough. Anyway, Pavo day was a great "playing couch potato" day. Watched plenty of TLC's and TNT programming... Revisited Scrooged, Ghostbusters, and Jumanji. Oldies but goodies. Jumanji has nothing to envy from Zathura, it is a jewel that was bright enough on its time and keeps on being entertaining, fun and timeless. Anyway... Thursday went away fast enough.

Friday... I woke up late, and basically spent the rest of the morning washing clothing. In the afternoon tended to my dearly beloved kitties, looked for a stupid 3-way light switch that seems to be from stone age since it is available nowhere... got sick so every guava-pastelillo that I ate went down the sink... that was awfull!!! And finally, watched the Sims2... until around 10pm... One can really get hooked in that game, damnit!

Today... Still on the quest for the 3-way light switch... No success on that adventure... Got a business dress for work which I instantly loved because it looks like a cross between a trench coat and a dress... And wanted to get a pretty suede-spiderweb dress at HT but restrained myself from it... yes Im still regretting not getting it but I am trying to be realistic... I have nowhere to go, so why get a dressy dress that will stay on a closet... Logical... But I loved that friggin dress, damnit! :(

So, finally stepped at my so-called home to see what they have done so far (slow but in progress). Checked messages and seems Coriolis is the only one used to talking with my answering machine so he's the only one that doesn't mind leaving messages... Checked my mail and it was full of junk... No one loves me no more... :( Oh, well... Everyone is busy, and family can do wonders to take one's time... This place has howling mad wind! It is breezy and loud! Love it! But must go... Need to eat something, and then some... ;)

Back to work on Monday. So, try finding me at my office, kiddies...

10-4

Hello! Today is Wednesday, today is Wednesday... Wednesday sooouuuppp, Tuesday green beans, Monday bread & butter... Happy happy children...
Ok, I'll cut the crap (and for anyone out there wondering, yes, crap is the word of the day)... Here's what's been going on in my so-called "free days of leisure and enjoyment"

- Newsflash people: I still have no phone. Meaning I am incomunicated. Meaning if you want to see me or talk to me you gotta visit me at auntie's. Meaning no Internet unless I travel all the way to Ant-land to use the friggin phone in a house with no electricity or seats... Meaning it all sucks!

-Friday: Homey evening after a boring day at work. Making plans for Turkey week... Long plans... Long days ahead...

-Saturday: I have no idea what went on on Saturday... Oh, wait... I went to see my doc and get the monthly prescription... And by 5 I finally got the tickets for Harry Potter 4. Amen. The movie was ok, expected more clashing drama and some blood, but they still go for making the series kid friendly... All in all, loved the dragons (I am biased, I have a dragon fetish)...

-Sunday:Well, the idea was to get things that were in the garage and definitively in the middle and put them in the isolated room at auntie's... So that was the work during the morning. In the afternoon I took the lamps for my house and some tiles and stuff and delivered all at Ant-land. Then went to a co-worker's home to get a water pressure machine that she lend me so I could do my assignment for Turkey week: Auntie's celing & garage clean up and painting... Well, that favor has been a blessing.

-Monday:Early bird tried to catch the worm... But getting the clorox kinda took a bit of the morning because of the traffic... Grrrr... Up in auntie's ceiling, cleaned the worst side of it that was leaking terribly. Figured that I can get down the stairs if I close my eyes and pray (for those who don't know, I am terrified of heights). Since the pressure machine ran out of oil I had to go to work because I have no phone and needed to ask the owner just which oil it needed to work... Lovely, they see my face and they start asking for solutions for problems... I had to run out of the place... So, visited Walmart to get kitties food and oil, and more clorox... Lovely evening... At night LighShadow managed to pass by and say hi to the kitties. Yay! Social points went two bars up. I'm such a lucky Sim...

-Tuesday: Early bird kinda got the worm... The whole day was spent using the fated water pressure machine so the garage's ceiling of auntie's house was cleaned. The idea was getting rid off cracking paint... All the neighbors took turns to evaluate the masterpiece (and to find out if the pressure machine was mine to borrow it... as usual)... At night, took Groundel to exchange old games for Sims2 (addiction ahead!) and since we were just in time, we squeezed Domino. Now that was entertainment! The movie room at the theater was changed just for our pleasure (sarcasm) and not only we could watch no upcoming movies shorts, but the movies began and the lights were on for 15 minutes, plus the sound was fucked up. When they finally put everything together (around 25 minutes after the movie began) I looked around and we were the only asswipes in the room watching the movie... Well, we were having fun critisizing everything, so big deal... The people of the theater even asked us if the air was ok or too cold... LOL Rrrrrrrrrrright! (BTW, loved Domino. For those who know me from behind... ermm... way back... she is just like Huntress, my first character of my own... So yes, I digged the movie).

-Wednesday: Up in the ceiling again. Early bird got the worm, finished washing the ceiling and put some sealer on the ceiling... oh, what a feeeeeeling! The sun was high, the neighbors kept monitoring all my moves and basically hurried so I wouldnt deal with their crap (ding, ding, ding!). It's afternoon and I am at Ant-land finally getting a scoop on other people's lives and the like... Will get the Turkey dinner at night, and then home for a well deserved loooooogaleer sleep!

So, basically it all has been no fun, work work work, getting early and going to bed beat... Tomorrow I'll be an official couch potato and hopefully will enjoy the What not to Wear episodes. On Friday... I guess I'll just go to Home Depot in the afternoon, to get primer... no busy plans. On Saturday hopefully will master the Sims2... On Sunday, and if there is no rain, will do a recoat of the ceiling sealer and put the primer in the garage. The weather will decide...

No doves for Coriolis, no words from Tril, Joe with tummy trouble, LightShadow playing mom of the month, Groundel breaking his back, NoName missng in action.

That's all folks!

Happy Thanksgiving Day! Remember to thank God for all the good things He grants us, and that we take for granted everyday!

10-4

Well, the movie outing turned out to be a fiasco… I had high expectations in matter of seeing the movie, and when I arrived the tickets were sold out… for the day… I was so pissed! Well… the best next thing was finding a place to dine, so we finally went to El Quijote and enjoyed digging in. Then chinese ice-cream to end up the food journey.

The bill for light at auntie's was high as I expected, so that’s an addition to the monthly expenses… She keeps bitching about it, as if I were not going to pay for it… Delightful. The kitties need a change of litter, so that will be arranged for tomorrow morning, gotta get the litter today. I expect to take auntie to the grocery store since mommy dearest is sick. Happy happy joy joy… So, I'll end up waking up early tomorrow to do all those things. I need the afternoon to try getting tickets for Harry Potter, and depending on the tinme of the movie trying to get the stuff from the garage to the small room in the back of the house. Hopefully I'll get the pressure water machine on Sunday so I can get down to business on Monday… Don't know how the weekend will actually turn out, but seems it is already full.

Still no phone at home. I am sooooo upset about that! 21 days without browsing the net peacefully at home… And not being able totalk to anyone when I need it… It is the pits.

I'm mad at everyone right now… Maybe it is the full moon, maybe it's my innate bitchyness. Whatever. I don't feel like having too many people around… It's gonna be a long day…

10-4

Week of thought, introspection, evaluation, creation... Has been slow at work, with plenty of spare time for dwelling into the darkest recesses of the mind... Sort of...

Work: They will be doing a play for some homeless children as a holiday gift of sorts. I will stay away from it. I always get the last call to improvise on decoration and the like, and although I dislike praise I just get no thanks... Let the hyenas take the play and fit it up their ass-ets.

Home improvement (not the show). The contractor told me they should finish this week... I hope the arches and stairs are done by Sat and all that is left to do is the wiring. I'll see what I can do about the bathroom next week. I'm also planning to get a water machine to clean auntie's ceiling and then throw the ceiling treatment... Next week looks sooo promising... I hope I can clear one of the garage so I can do some painting of the walls as well... Auntie's house needs major TLC, too much humidity creates fungus, and it looks ugly in the ceiling and the paint is cracking badly... I also have to do some major cleaning of my small "kitties" room. The paint job I did there is comletely lost... So gotta make some re-do's.

Not much news on the people... Hopefully I'll get to see Harry Potter tonight. Will try to call LightShadow and Groundel... Coriolis is sick, ok... not sick as you think perverts, sick as in flu-drowsy-ewww sick... Hope you get better, pal! Tril has major issues to deal with, in his head... but that ain't no new... news...

Me: Tired, sad, thinking a little, thinking too much, trying to get a webdesign job done because I need the cash badly... trying to see a positive side of working here although the only good things are the free holidays... I should think that at least I have a job... Hopefully everything else will come in time.

10-4

Well, the quest for the little device that holds the vase of hurricane lamps still goes on… Seems I will actually have to get the lamps and break them in order to get the little thing that I need to set up the wooden chandelier with the vase touch… Whatever…

Yesterday the hunt for the little lamp thing was a waste of time and effort… Went home emptyhanded… Painted the two bronze chandeliers with a black matte paint I got just for kicks. Need to get another paint for touch ups. Late at night auntie told me Tril had called in the afternoon… I don’t get it, it seems the phone works only for him and Coriolis… The phone is still dead… (sight) Go figure…

Today I arrived late at work even after I went off my house at 7:15 am… A whole hour in the stupid traffic thanks to the AAA broken tube a.k.a. broken street mayhem… Cars were not moving… People was really pissed… That should have been fixed over the weekend… Why can’t they work at night? Don’t they realize working early in the morning of a weekday leads to chaos? This government and its drawbacks… Well, the whole government is a mess… I’m still waiting for the light shutdowmn in my house and nothing… Guess they need an engraved invitation…

To try lifting up my spirits I put on the small Xmas tree that I have, added some big lights from my Xmas tree from home (since I wont be able to actually prepare it this year), and some of the old but lovely red and golden lace… Also wrapped big lights on the door’s deco so at least I have two cheerful points in my office. Guess the Xmas express begins at my door… Right! No elves coming my way, not even a Legolas! Kinda pisses me off, but big fat old fart says he’s the master and he keeps all elves to himself… He’s so gay!

Midday. Checked my sales and seems everything goes, but the pink skirt… LOL Oh, well, pinky pink will be posted again if it has no luck… Someone out there must be desperate for a Pepto Bismol skirt, I just know it!

Lucinda and her offsprings are doing ok, alive and kicking. Lightshadow busy as always. Coriolis missing in Colombia. Trilogy desperately seeking someone. Groundel becoming Picasso. Joe playing dead. And ex-house owner very happy since I finally gave her what I owed… One less bill, 4 more to go.

Ain’t life grand? Kill them all!

10-4

Equinodermos
equinodermos
equinodermos han de ir
en los oceanos
y anchos mares
tocando el fondo hasta el fiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnn!

;)

Thursday: Boring day, lazy day at work... Working on a revamp for my Artiste 7 Techie site so it looks more mature, sort of... (Yes Lucinda, so I get rid of the bathroom look) LOL Went with LightShadow and Groundel to see Zathura. Loved it! See it! Not as bad as you may expect! Will make you understand the simple things in life are the greatest things in life... Of course, I already KNEW that! Oh, and I just cannot wait for Harry Potter and NARNIA! Narnia... the surprise hit of this Xmas, you'll see! :P

Friday: Woke up early to get to Guánica... My car needed a fix and Lulu's hubby made the fix real. Wheeeeee! No more weird dry sound coming from underneath the car! I'm very broke but hope that a webdesign job comes true for the Turkey weekend... If that is so, I may straighten the accounts and make true the statement "Peace on Earth"...

Saturday: The plan was to wake up and go to Aurea's house to help her paint. Well... had to go get shipping material to go to the post office and mail things I have sold (my first international transaction! Wheeeee!), and then to the Mall... Big mistake! Traffic was not moving and had to take the scenic road (via Joyuda/Cabo Rojo) to reach the friggin mall... Then to the doc to get the much needed recipes... Then to my house to see the home improvement still unfolding... Loking good... Next week the hard labor should end, the light dilemma still going... AEE SUCKS! 3 weeks and still have not appeared to turn off the light thief that the ex-owners had! Damnit!!! Anyway... Since I do have a working phone in here (and water, finally... as a matter of fact too much water as the pipe had a big hole... and the 1st floor was flooded...) I checked the Ebay stuff and my people's blogs... So now that I feel less internet impaired, I shall depart to get the kitties food... Since my marbete is expired I better be home by 6, too many policeman fishies around.

Tomorrow I shall try getting what I need to complete the lamps I'll use... or at least most of them... and some cloth for a shade... and to leave the lamps upstairs in the house...

Have fun, kiddies!

10-4

BOY: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red
roses?
GIRL: Will he offer me his mouth?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his teeth?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his jaws?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his hunger?
B: Yes.
G: Again, will he offer me his hunger?
B: YES.
G: And will he starve without me?
B: YES.
G: And does he love me?
B: Yes.
G: Yes.
B: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?
G: Yes.
B: I bet you to say that to all the boys.

It was a hot summer night and the beach was burning
There was fog crawling over the sand
When I listen to your heart I hear the whole world turning
I see the shooting stars
Falling through your trembling hands
You were licking your lips and your lipstick shining
I was dying just to ask for a taste
We were lying together in a silver lining
By the light of the moon
You know there's not another moment
Not another moment
Not another moment to waste

You hold me so close that my knees grow weak
But my soul is flying high above the ground
I'm trying to speak but no matter what I do
I just can't seem to make any sound

And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you

Now my body is shaking like a wave on the water
And I guess that I'm beginning to grin
Oooh, we're finally alone and we can do what we want to
The night is young
And ain't no one gonna know where you
No one gonna know where you
No one's gonna know where you've been
You were licking your lips and your lipstick shining
I was dying just to ask for a taste
We were lying together in a silver lining
By the light of the moon
You know there's not another moment
Not another moment
Not another moment to waste

And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you

- Meatloaf, You took the words right outta my mouth

Weekend passed leaving not such a big visible trace in my life... Just leaving some sidenotes on other people's lives... Saturday was the Big Speech day for someone. On Sunday went with LightShadow and Groundel to see Legend of Zorro. Loved the movie, Catherine and Antonio rule! I foresee a Son of Zorro movie... LOL

At work been throwing cables and moving equipment and configuring computers. Boring stuff that leaves me drained.

At home, auntie the same but cooking good. Kyonnenne is learning to fetch the ball and leave it in my feet (yay for the smart kittie).

Feeling sad but hopeful, tired but optimistic, jaded but still dreaming...

When you're a young man, down and out
You really need someone to help you out
It looks like life or death is your only choice
It's really hard to see
The forest for the trees
The forest for the trees

And when you get angry and everything's black or white
You should know that it isn't that simple, no one's always right
You know that youre life it worth living
You gotta start taking if no one else is giving

And if you're not afraid to open your eyes
You may be pleasantly surprised
Things are never as bad as they seem
You just gotta learn to see
The forest for the trees

So if you need somebody, tell them please
If you want someone, get up off your knees
Things are never as bad as they seem
You just gotta learn to see
The forest for the trees

-Huey Lewis & the News, Forest for the trees

Just killing lunchtime... Stolen from Vero... :P

Ultimate Survey (377 questions long)
time started: 12:08
full name: Vierna Darguth
nickname(s): Kymill
birthday: April
where were you born: Mayaguez. PR
zodiac sign: Aries
height: 5'5"
weight: 220
hair color: orange-red
eye color: brown with golden freckles
shoe size: 11
ring size: 10
skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.): latino white skin
blood type: no idea
grade: Business Mayor
GPA: 3.25
siblings: 8 kitties
tattoos: thundercats in tribal... I wish
piercings: 3 on each ear
hobbies: roleplaying games, painting, writing, webdesign
favorite
color: red
food: mofongo
candy: amaretto ice cream
type of cheese: swiss
pizza topping: onions and pepperoni
salad dressing: vinagreta
sandwich: Meson special
cereal: Corn Flakes
fruit: Grapefruit and Strawberries
vegetable: Quimbombó
berry: Strawberry
cake: Carrot
book: Interview with the Vampire
movie: Lord of the Rings Trilogy
magazine: Realms of Fantasy
newspaper: ewww, all are sucky in here
tv show: Xena: Warrior Princess and Beauty & the Beast
website: www.upcominghorrormovies.com
radio station: fidelity, alpha
font: chaucer
cartoon character: Captain Herlock
artist (painter): Royo
actor: Johny Depp
actress: Nicole Kidman
cd: Siouxie and the Banshees
song: Until the last beat of my heart
music group: No Doubt
music type: Old school rock, heavy metal, goth, ambience
day of the week: Friday
month: October
season: Fall
holiday: Halloween
shampoo: Head & Shoulders
conditioner: Nexus
number: 13
phrase: We are all mad here... A dream to some but a nightmare to others!
store: Borders
weather: Dark and cold as if to rain but no rain
restaurant: Fudrockers
channel: Animal Planet & TLC
teacher: Pabón
weekend activity: Movies and visiting el calvo
hangout: El calvo's place
house color: white and violet
sport to watch: ice skating and weightlifting
sport to play: weightlifting
animal: FELINES
flower: black rose
guy's name: Vincent and Andrew
girl's name: Vierna and Deirdre
board game: chess
party game: twister
story from childhood: El Principito
body part: brain
have you ever
been on a train: yes, hated it
been on a plane: yes, not so bad at times
been in a car accident: no, God protect me
caused a car accident: small one that barely counts
run into a wall: no, thats too stupid
burned a potato chip: I dont cook, haha!
almost burned the house down: 3 times, thats why I dont cook
smoked: never, nasty habit!
been drunk: never, only drink wine and on certain occations
been high: never, another nasty habit
broken the law: never, Im a lawfull good
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes): never, arstists need to eat
kissed someone of the opposite sex: yes
kissed someone of the same sex: yes
frenched an animal: WTF! NO!
made out: yes
had cyber sex: no
gotten engaged: yes
had an online relationship: yes
been rejected by a crush: yes
loved: yes
made yourself cry to get out of trouble: no
cried in public: once or twice
cried over a movie: hmmm... maybe?
fallen asleep in a movie theater: yup
given someone a bath: aha
been to a boarding school: nop
been home-schooled: nop
lost a valuable item: yes
bungee jumped: nop
skied: nop
met the president: ewww
met a celebrity: nop
gotten a cavity: yup
shopped at abercrombie & fitch: nop
made a prank call: nop
skipped school: nop too lawful good
faked sick to get out of school: nop I loved school
purchased something that you knew didn't fit: nop
climbed a tree: nop
fallen from a tree: nop
broken a bone: nop
sprained anything: nop
passed out: nop
made yourself pass out: nop
been to disney world: yup, 2 times
been to a theme park (not disney): yup
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative): 3 times
made a model volcano (working model): nop
made a clover leaf with your tounge: nop
past
what did you do yesterday: work and sleep
memory you miss the most: being happy
memory you want to forget: being happy
something you regretted after it was done: I never regret
the last
song you heard: Donde estan los ladrones
cd you bought: dont remember!
thing you said: Buen provecho
time you cried: last night
movie seen in a theater: Saw2
thing you ate: Spaghetti & meatballs
person who called: phone guy
nail polish shade worn: black
time you showered: morning
person who complimented you: Groundel
at this moment
what are you listening to: servers humming madly
what are you wearing: jeans, grey shirt
what are you thinking: gotta do something wild or burst!
what are you scared of most: lonelyness
how many people are on your buddy list: dont check messengers no more
future
occupation: Events coorndinator and webdesigner
marriage site: www.foreverscrewed.com
honeymoon: Egypt
place to live: The deep end of the ocean
kids: not until I'm 45 years old
car: 4Runner
what are you doing tomorrow: checking my car
do you think george bush will be reelected: hell no
will there be a wwIII: certainly
will politics ever be truthful: never
will humanity snuff itself out: maybe
can the gov. be changed: yes, but the options suck
friends
best friend: Coriolis
funniest: Groundel
silliest: LightShadow
loudest: Trilogy
quietest: Groundel
craziest: Trilogy
calmest: Coriolis
skinniest: LightShadow
best secret keeper: Lucinda
worst secret keeper: n/a
the one you have but don't want: LadyMex
smartest: Coriolis
preppiest: Coriolis
peppiest: n\a
most hyper: Marie
hottest: Coriolis
weirdest: Trilogy
biggest pervert: Joe
most annyoing: Trilogy
shyest: Zordak
most religious: LadyMex
do you believe in
heaven: yes
hell: yes
angels: yes
devil: yes
god: yes
buddha: yes
aliens: yes
ghosts: yes
spirit (soul): yes
soulmates: yes
reincarnation: yes
love at first sight: no
karma: yes
love in general: yes
luck: yes
yourself: YES
crush
who and when was your first crush: Trilogy, 16 years ago
any now: no crushes, thank you
a celebrity crush: Vincent?
who do you want to be with right now: nobody
whos number do you want: nobody
who do you want to kiss: right now, nobody deserves it
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex: lack of faith and truth
if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be: hmmm
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you: Ice Queen
first thing noticed about the opposite sex: eyes and butt
what do you look for personality-wise: intelligent, understanding, truthful, open
biggest turn on: the mind
biggest turn off: street talk
something thay weat that turns you on: leather
something they wear that turns you off: depends
the most romantic thing you want to happen to you: engagement that totally surprises me
the most romantic thing that has happened to you: ahhhh... sincerely, nothing
what do you wear on a coffee date: I dont date
is it right to flirt if you're taken: no
is cyber cheating: yes
are eyes the passegeway to the soul: yes
who would you like to take to the prom: by that time, Trilogy
do you want to hug somebody right now: no
do you know what an aphrodisiac is: certainly
describe
mellow: serene
melancholy: me
the perfect date: dinner, movie, sightseeing
the perfect mate: intelligent, open, truthful, worships me
how m&m's are made: wont melt in your hands or in your shirt! :P
why manhole covers are round: duh!
one or the other
coke/pepsi: coke
sprite/7-up: 7up
boxers/briefs: briefs
gold/silver: silver
vanilla/chocolate: choco
flowers/candy: candy
book/magazine: book
tv/radio: tv
glass half empty/half full: half full
democrat/republican: neither
colored pencils/markers: markers
coffee/tea: both
sun/moon: moon
day/night: night
hot/cold: both
dog/cat: cat
button/zipper: zipper
cotton/feather pillow: feathers
blue/purple: purple
plumber/trashman: plumber
jeans/shorts: shorts
long distance relationship/none: none
mechanical/regular pencil: mech
matt/ben: Ben Kenobi?
that 70's show/simpsons: neither
kelso/eric: none
donna/jackie: none
bart/lisa: none
romeo/juliet: none
romantic comedy/thriller: thriller
nsync/bsb: none
peanut butter/jelly: jelly
waffles/pancakes: pancakes
letter/email: email
florida/california: fl
pizza/burgers: both
hat/visor: neither
football/rugby: neither
iceskating/blading: neither
movie at home/in theater: both
first thing you think of when you hear
yellow: submarine
red lipstick: monroe
socks: life
cowtipping: whatever
moulin rouge: like a virgin
greenland: irish
iceland: bears
harry potter: magic
red: hair
blackberry: pie
rose: red
rooster: virus
taxes: ewww
bill clinton: sucks
whipped cream: yummy
george w. bush: sucks
lollipops: yummy
dreams: come true
love: never dies
guys: suck
south park: bitch
boy bands: 80s
pengiuns: cute
girls: can do anything
thong: sexy
death: becomes me
spoons: soup
junk mail: sucks
dairy: cow
panties: laundry
your father: working
pizza: big one
britney spears: sucks
vitamin: inositol
are you
happy: nop
sad: yes
religious: yes
bitchy: yes
crazy: yes
messy: nop
mad: yes
slacker: no
nerd: yes
bookworm: yes
jock: no
preppy: no
selfish: no
giving: yes
obsessive: yes
violent: yes
calm: no
peaceful: no
mellow: yes
eccentric: yes
caring: yes
untrustworthy: no
loyal: yes
patriotic: no
perverted: maybe
colorful: yes
artistic: yes
miscellanoues
what color is your jacket: black
do you shave: yup
where: in the bathtub
what color is your razor: white
what size is your bed: full
what color crayon would you be: red
what are the last four digits of you phone number: 1941
feelings on abortion: it should be banned
how lond does it take you to shower: 15 min
what does your screenname mean: strong matron drow on the edge of insanity
thoughts on blonde pop stars in general: airheads
who so you trust the most: coriolis
is cussing a necessity in life: no
how about coffee: yes
is the world screwed: yes
what something you cant live without: coffee
what time did you fall asleep: 10pm
know what 69 means: yup
how about 143: nop
can you live without a microwave: no
what do think about death: restful
where and when do you want to be married: in a castle sometime before I die
do you want to drop out of school: never
why is the sky blue: gods will
what is a good trait about yourself: honest, helpful, quickwitted
what do you always think about: being happy
what is wrong with your school: high society pricks
what is right with your school: used to teach
how do you react to change: change as well
do you talk to yourself: yep
what is your opinion on love: love is the air we breathe, all we need is love
can you afford to lose weight: yes
what color would you dye your hair: red red red red red red
best thing anyones told you: always a woman
what is your reaction to you're hot: take it with a smile
does being psycho appeal to you: yup
if you wrote a book, what would it be about: horror of my psychotic life
what would you change your name to: Vierna or Deirdre


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This week has gone very fast. I have been overloaded with work, with plenty of stress business and nonbusiness related. Yesterday had to do some cabling, thanks to which i am feeling trashy today... Yup, I feel trafa... LOL Whatever... Everything sucks these days... Seems there is something wrong with my car, which I'll have to check up tomorrow morning. I also need to get a battery charger and a set of batteries for the digicam in order to use it for some late sales I'm trying to perform... I need money ASAP especially if now the car plans to try dying on me... It's one after another... I kinda completed the payment for the house's exowner. Now I need to get cash to pay two more things, plus the car's check-up. And of course, no one can help with that (sight). I dunno if everything has been a good idea, or just a bad idea gone rotten. I dunno... I only know that I am going insane, and people are not helping that matter...

Damn thirsty.

10-4

Ok, so here is the briefing for fateful last week:

The phone is dead at home, again… This has been a completely sucky weekend, and seems that it wont get better anytime sooner…

Tuesday: Took the afternoon off to accomplish some official personal dealings. Light, water, phone… Let’s see the outcome…

Wednesday: Work has been busy, too busy. In the afternoon the director asked me if I wanted to go to the trip to Carolina. I thought “so someone cancelled?” and after thinking about it for an hour I decided to go… After all, the work I wanted to complete could not e completed because the people would be at the activity… And I thought I deserved to relax and enjoy the show (especially since it was a rarity that for the first time in some years I have not been part of the making of the show committee). So I said yes to the invitation. I went home early so I would sleep… A foolish attempt to rest, I actually fall asleep after 11pm.

Thursday: Activity at Carolina’s theater. Voyage from Mayaguez started at 5am. The morning trip was bad. The hyenas from work have no manners, and they were laughing and dancing reggaeton nonstop. I thought that they just needed to be high because of the play that they were gonna be into… The “producer” specifyed no stops, but we ended up making many because the hyenas needed coffee. We arrived to the place on time, my plan was to go into the theater and watch the show… I am so naïve. The “producer” gave me a video camera and a digicam so I would be the videographer of the play… Ugh! And the nightmare went on… The activity began, and I was happy playing with the zoom and recording the main things… and just when it was Mayaguez turn the camera stopped recording. I was warned about low battery and checked and even plugged into a wall to make the friggin thing work, but nothing… I discovered it was not the battery who died on me, but the tape. And the “producer” had given me no spare tape. So I kept on taking pictures, until I changed the disk and the second disk gave an error. I tried taking it out and it wouldn’t… The metal part got stuck. So there ended my bright career as camera woman and photographer… I started feeling bad, as I knew what would happen… When the activity finished I went to the camerino to pack the cameras and grab my purse. The “producer” arrived eagerly to get the tape and you can imagine the look when I told her that the tape died on me… From that point on, she mentioned 4 times that for a next activity they needed a videographer and a photographer. Like I didn’t get what she meant… I breathed in and out, and as we all gathered in the van everyone was arguing about where to go eat. They didn’t wanted fast food and they were clueless about places with nice meals. Someone volunteered me as the person to ask since I had lived in Carolina… And my thoughts drifted between frustration and anger because if they didn’t like the place that I pointed out I was gonna be the one to blame for another thing… Ugh! So… I suggested a restaurant, we went and the stay was almost fouled because the outer side of the place was in restoration and the waiting time for the staff preparing the tables took a bit long… Hello! A table for 30! And then they asked that the service should be billed individually, which they said no inmediately and then a yes followed as everyone threatened to go! Luckily the food was great, so no complaints about that. Then another bad thing, as I noticed one of my coworkers crying. I tried to find out what was wrong… The hyenas made an attack on her and her hubby defended them instead of her… Oh, how very typical of men! So the next 5 minutes were spent on feminist bonding (trying to make her smile). After I payed my bill, I was offered to travel in another van with less people, but I thought that two of my coworkers would feel bad if I did that and so I stayed in the original van... BIG MISTAKE! The hyenas were drunk and so they were in worst behavior, even dancing reggaeton in the director’s face. I got migraine because of the music and their sing-along… But of course I let them know I was pissed… I cannot hide my feelings, I am too transparent. So… after many other stops to get even more coffee, we arrived at Mayaguez almost at 9pm. Yup, I saw the night of the day before, dawn and dusk… and the night of the current day. I was beyond angry, beyond pissed and with a killer headache…

Friday: The day was a bit busy but I kinda managed to at least smile a bit… At midday went to get the check from the apartment’s deposit and they didn’t gave me the complete amount. They claimed I had not paid the light bill, plus they didn’t pay back the amount for the beeper. I was pissed, because I counted on that money to pay the contractor… I had to complete the $700 I paid him and that was a big ouch… I need to see how I get the cars license payment and the finance monthly pay… Not easy… Broke… But dealing with it… I must make an inventory of things to sell and…ummm.. sell! After work I just went home. Groundel was on the rainy way so picked him up. At home I logged into the net, since it was raining I thought I was not going out. As I checked mail, LightShadow appeared. Upon her request, we went to watch Saw2. Not so bad, not so good either. Where is the element of surprise? Why people just seem to forget that THAT is key in a suspense/horror movie? But overall it didn’t went so bad… Went home and savored some Boot Camp and What Not to Wear ( my 2 favorite shows ). Sleeping by 2am.

Saturday: Woke up by midday. Spent the whole day at home, watching AP and TLC… Did a bit of scrapbooking… Tried to get a hold on Lucinda but she was not home… Had a bad argument with Groundel. Besides that, boring ultra long day… I was puzzled at no calls, and realized it all had to do with the phone line… It is dead… How nice for this weekend… Needed to speak with Coriolis but no phone. So I guess tomorrow’s game at Ponce is a no-no for me since I have no way to communicate… Misery loves company and surprises…

Halloween is on Monday, and seems I wont be able to celebrate my favorite holiday… Its my curse I guess…

The weekend... I kinda wrote something about it, but could not post it because I had no phone... The happiest weekend of the year, and I couldnt talk to anyone... Grrr... Wanted to go to Ponce on the weekend and couldn't... Wanted to check some sites and ebay and couldn't... It plainly sucked...

On Friday, saw Saw2. although it was not bad, it was not good either... Linear in its storyline, knowing who is the Jigsaw eliminates the tension of finding out who is he... less mistery... The ending with the new Jigsaw is kinda... stupid... but of course, they need an excuse for a Saw3. The deaths were cool, not too creative but cool. The idea was awesome... the delivery was a bit weak... I expect too much of movies these days... I guess that's why I'm turning to oldies and foreign, American movies are too predictable and have lost its charm...

Yesterday spent the afternoon watching Pirates of the Caribbean. Always lighthearted but nice to watch, love Captain Sparrow to death! XOXOXOXO

Today, wanted to disguise in my normal violet velvet ren dress, but since I had to go to Aguadilla and must throw some cables in the afternoon that would not have been too practical... I guess that the Halloween spirit will try to come to me after work... Whatever... it's not like for me the whole year is not Halloween... ;)

Anyway... Gotta go back to duty... If anyone out there can, PLEASE REPORT MY AUNT's PHONE! I am isolated ever since Saturday! And without internet! Now, THAT is creepy!

Enjoy things that bump in the night!

10-4

Happy Halloween to all! And to all, a fright night! ;)

" Hello – remember me?"
" Who's there "
" I've got your number "
"Oh no! "
" I'm back to haunt you, ha ha ha ha ha "

Its Friday night – so creepy outside
its is thundering and lightning
There's nobody home – cause I'm all alone
its scary and its frightening

The sound of shoes – a shadow that moves
something odd is tic tac ticking
Someone's in here – I'm so full of fear
the telephone is ringing

Now I can see you - oh no please no
Now I can touch you - oh god please go
I am right here now - oh please tell me where
Ha ha ha ha - I'm in a nightmare
You better run I'm back to haunt you down

Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming

Hell broke out – on this Friday night
Zombies passing deadly
My Candyman – from Bounty land
is coming here to get me

Now I can see you - oh no please no
Now I can touch you oh god please go
I am right here now oh please tell me were
Ha ha ha ha - I'm in a nightmare
You better run - I'm back to haunt you down

Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming

Halloween……

-Aqua, Halloween

Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night toss and turn and dream of what I need

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life

Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There's someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life

Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach Like the fire in my blood

I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life

-Jennifer Saunders, Holding out for a hero

I don't believe in trouble I don't believe in pain
I don't believe there's nothing left but running here again
I don't believe in promise I don't believe in chance
I don't believe you can resist the things that make no sense
I don't believe in silence cos silence seems so slow
I don't believe in energy the tension is too low
I don't believe in panic I don't believe in fear
I don't believe in prophecies so don't waste any tears
I don't believe reality would be the way it should
But I believe in fantasy the future's understood
I don't believe in history I don't believe in truth
I don't believe that's destiny or someone to accuse

I believe, I believe!!!

I don't believe in trouble I don't believe in pain
I don't believe there's nothing left but running here again
I don't believe in promise I don't believe in chance
I don't believe you can resist the things that make no sense
I don't believe in silence cos silence seems so slow
I don't believe in energy the tension is too low
I don't believe in panic I don't believe in fear
I don't believe in prophecies so don't waste any tears
I believe!!!

I want you to try, try to needing to know why, why
No kidding, no sin, sin No running, no win, win
I believe!!!

No angels, no girls, girls
No memories, no Gods, Gods
No rockets, no heat, heat
No chocolate, no sweet, sweet
I believe!!!

I want you to try, try
to needing to know why, why
No kidding, no sin, sin
No running, no win, win
No angels, no girls, girls
No memories, no Gods, Gods
No rockets, no heat, heat
No chocolate, no sweet, sweet

No feeling, no secrets... The silence you feel...
which hides you from the real...
I want you to try, try needing to know why, why
why, why, why... why... why...

I believe, I believe!!!

-Run Lola Run, Franka Potente, Believe

At RUM during the moning. Updated all 7 pc's and antivius on them. Midday, and things got a bit complicated... To AEE, so the electrical wire that is alive in the house will be killed soon... Then to AAA to find out I needed escrituras to get the water connected... To AEELA to get the loan to pay the ex-owner... Home to get the escrituras, then to AAA to explain things and get the water connection job ticket and pay the deposit... Then to get the tiles I didnt get on Sat... Then to make a spare key of my office key because I lost the original along with my ID... Then to the Post Office to find out if the check arrived (which didn't because this is the International Screw Me week)...

Yes it was a busy day... Another busy day... I am exhausted! Signing off really early so I get some batteries recharged...

10-4

Okay, you babes of jazz. Let's pick up the pace.
Let's shake the blues away. Let's make the parties
longer. Let's make the skirts shorter and shorter.
Let's make the music hotter. Let's all go to hell
in a fast car and KEEP IT HOT!

-Chicago, Nowadays

Long, long, LONG day at work. Made 8 service tickets and the fringe of a banner... don't ask... Very VERY drained and tired... An hour is all it takes to make me want to run off... but DUTY calls (and need for cash). Afterwards, two small chandelliers arrived, so at least the bedrooms will have light. Wheeeee! Then the album stuff and visiting orcish lands for comfort.

Back home... Kitties misbehaved a bit throwing a terracota can from the highest place of the bookshelf to the bed... Luckyly it fall in the bed... all the sand splashed on bed and floor...

They can be unnerving, but my kitties are more than just pets... They understand me, they are my companions and friends... They love me and I love them back... Its a simple relationship that shows in many intrincate ways.

Tired. Will sleep early... Long week ahead...

10-4

PS: Happy Birthday to LightShadow! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I thought I had enough of pain, that I was trough with feeling pain and that my heart had gone steady and strong and even cold. I was wrong. Today I have felt a pain within me that has no description and no boundaries. Sudden, unexpected, swift, deadly… I have learned I still have tears to shed, and my ability to love left me… If I had a sword through my heart before, now it is no more… because the sword was taken away with the entire heart, after moving it sideways within my flesh, making sure that no trace of warm blood was left… As the shower of daggers ripped me open, I found my strength to stand leaving me. I held the doorframe trying to not fall, as my spirit went out of my body… I listened speechless… I couldn’t find inner force to make myself angry and reply, as I would normally do.

There is no point to words. There is only near-sightness and selfishness and an unreasonable jealousy that cannot allow any ray of hope, or any truth… He is fixed on the same idea, the same viewpoint, the same thoughts, which are not reality, which are not true… How can I compete with all he has quilted in his brain? What can I say to things, actions and words that hurt much without a point? He dares to doubt me in every way, and without any reason. And all I gave him was truth and dreams and all the love I had. This is it. This is the point of no return. This is where he chose to kill my heart and stop it all, even if it drives him insane, even if it is the worst mistake he knows he’s making. His desperation within his irrational ways leads him. Nothing else to do. I feel… Is that a consolation in itself? I still feel… After more than 15 years, I still feel…

What lies ahead... just around the riverbend? Now, that song made so much sense... And foretold so much change...

10-4

What I love most about rivers is:
You can't step in the same river twice
The water's always changing, always flowing...

But people, I guess, can't live like that
We all must pay a price
To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing
What's around the riverbend
Waiting, just around the riverbend

I look once more
Just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore
Where the gulls fly free
Don't know what for
What I dream the day might send
Jut around the riverbend
For me
Coming for me

I feel it there beyond those trees
Or right behind these waterfalls
Can I ignore that sound of distant drumming
For a handsome sturdy husband
Who builds handsome sturdy walls
And never dreams that something might be coming?
Just around the riverbend
Just around the riverbend

I look once more
Just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore
Somewhere past the sea
Don't know what for ...
Why do all my dreams extend
Just around the riverbend?
Just around the riverbend ...

Should I choose the smoothest curve
Steady as the beating drum?
Should I marry Kocoum?
Is all my dreaming at an end?
Or do you still wait for me, Dream Giver...
Just around the riverbend?

-Pocahontas, Just around the riverbend

What did I do yesterday? I honestly can't recall... I think I've been watching Animal Cops and What Not to Wear and Trading Spaces... overdose of Animal Planet and TLC...

Today, the adventurers gathered at point A and so we went to point B to gather a package, but since it had not arrived we went to point C and then D. Point E was crowded but we managed to pass through the villagers unnoticed... our cloaking device works wonders! The borderline was full of insight and cats... We gathered information and went on to scout for valuables and fleur-de-liz items that would certainly please the Queen. No luck with the valuables, at least the big boss should appreciate the knowledge... nothing like being able to expand an ongoing plan. We went over dwarves and villagers once more, and with ease snatched our carriage and returned to point A so one of the crew could find means to reach point F. After a break another stop was made from point A to G, then back.

Dorothy has reached Kansas. The bird has landed. Pocahontas was a fool. And Mulan will be tomorrow's treat.

10-4

Corpse Bride. Loved it. Emily, the perfect name after my own... LOL Emily Strange, Emily Rose, and now this Emily... The animation was nice, the story predictable but ok, and absolutely loved the ending with the butterflies. Tim Burton is a genious. I still don't know WHY people say that Big Fish was not a strong story... I think it was... I loved it. It moved me, and THAT doesnt happen everyday. Whatever...

Invaded by the Credit Card abducters. Had to cancel mine because of many transactions coming from Neverland... WTF. Struggling with barely there money and now this... Woe always invites strangers for free and for unreasonable fun... That was the suckiest moment of the day.

Seems the gov will take some land from some people and turn it into the place for a train that will take tourists to the Caves of Cofresí Pirate and will link that place to Boquerón resort... Funny thing is that the lands are on sale and some people (house developers) were to buy it, and the sellers didnt mention that fact... You know the government... they take whatever they want whenever... But I must admit that the idea of a train linking those places is very alluring to me. I just hope they have security for cars, so the thing about car vandalism or getting stolen as in the Tren Urbano doesnt have a second chapter over here...

Saw the apartment owner and a check should be on my way tomorrow afternoon... Need it for the bath tiles, the waterproof glue and the sink-toilet set.

Friday morning will take auntie to her Disneyland... the grocery store and the post office. Gotta call the contractor to see if I should call the people of AAA and AEE. By midday I'll visit my house to see what's up and take some measurements. Gottta go to AEELA as well, to try getting the loan to pay the lady that sold me the house although paperwork will have to wait until next week... Its at my office...). May visit Lucinda at night, been a looong while since I last saw her ( and she was not in a good mood).

**************** Music Box playing in the background... *****
**************** Imagination... Its free, use it! ***********

"Hey, hey, hey ,hey
Ohhh...

Won't you come see about me?
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love's strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down

Will you recognise me?
Call my name or walk on by
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey
Ohhhh.....

Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security

Don't you forget about me
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Going to take you apart
I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
When you walk away

Or will you walk away?
Will you walk on by?
Come on - call my name
Will you all my name?

I say :
La la la...
When you walk on by...
And you call my name...
-Simple Minds, Dont u forget about me"

Dedicated to all my friends out there, although I don't talk to you regularly or see you regularly you are all regularly on my mind and on my heart.
Coriolis, Zordak, Lucinda, No Name, Groundel, Joe, LightShadow, LaSombra, Taz, Bubu, Rimmer, Lulú, El Calvo, Tetazo-Lady, Tribu de Texas... and late Mayra and Betsy who are both watching my back from Heaven...

********** End of Kodak moment ****************
********** back to regular schedule ****************

Thought of going to old San Juan on Saturday, but the weather broadcast foretells plenty of rain. So it may not be such a wise idea... And my budget is below the red line. Thinking that its best to leave that for next week... Still, don't know... Oh, and I almost forgot, the blue tiles arrive Sat afternoon... Eeeck!

Tired and blue... The usual. When will this provincial life will change...

Everyday... (yup, watch out... it's another musical score!)

"Little town, It's a quiet village
Ev'ry day Like the one before
Little town, Full of little people
Waking up to say: Bonjour!Bonjour!
Bonjour! Bonjour! Bonjour!

There goes the baker with his tray, like always
The same old bread and rolls to sell
Ev'ry morning just the same
Since the morning that we came
To this poor provincial town

Baker:Good Morning, Belle!
Belle:Good morning, Monsieur.
Baker:And where are you off to, today?
Belle:The bookshop. I just finished the most wonderful story
About a beanstalk and an ogre and a -
Baker:That's nice. Marie! The baguettes!Hurry up!
Townsfolk:Look there she goes that girl is strange, no question
Dazed and distracted, can't you tell?
Woman:Never part of any crowd
Man:'Cause her head's up on some cloud
Townsfolk:No denying she's a funny girl that Belle
Man I:Bonjour!
Woman I:Good day!
Man I:How is your fam'ly?
Woman 2:Bonjour!
Man 2:Good day!
Woman 2:How is your wife?
Woman 3:I need six eggs!
Woman 4:That's too expensive!
Belle:There must be more than this provincial life!

Bookseller:Ah, Belle.
Belle:Good morning, sir. I've come to return the book I borrowed.
Bookseller:Finished already?
Belle:Oh, I couldn't put it down. Have you got anything new?
Bookseller: Not since yesterday.
Belle:That's all right. I'll borrow . . . . this one!
Bookseller: That one? But you've read it twice!
Belle:Well, it's my favorite! Far off places, daring swordfights, magic spells, a prince in disguise -
Bookseller:If you like it all that much, it's yours!
Belle:But sir!
Bookseller:I insist.
Belle:Thank you. Thank you very much!

Townsfolk:Look there she goes that girl is so peculiar
I wonder if she's feeling well
With a dreamy, far-off look, And her nose stuck in a book
What a puzzle to the rest of us is Belle

Belle:Oh, isn't this amazing? It's my fav'rite part because --- you'll see
Here's where she meets Prince Charming, But she won't discover that it's him 'til chapter three!

Woman:Now it's no wonder that her name means "Beauty"
Her looks have got no parallel
Shopkeeper:But behind that fair facade I'm afraid she's rather odd
Man:Very diff'rent from the rest of us
Townsfolk:She's nothing like the rest of us
Yes, diff'rent from the rest of us is Belle!"

-Beauty and the Beast

There must be more than this provincial life! Just the way to sum up all my feelings... 32, and still believing in fairy tales...

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