Today… Well, mostly I just paid some bills, checked the PO and spent some time with Trilogy. There was a costume contest at his school, and of course he got dressed for the occasion… Took a pic of him in his Possessed Mickey the Mage attire, which I posted in my fotolog. That was weird… LOL But I cannot expect any less of him… One day without arguing! Wow! Ok, so there was a full moon, maybe THAT was the reason why… Weird things happen during a full moon… ;) Anyway… Finally got the black shimmery glossy cape I wanted for Halloween. This year I’ll celebrate and go Trick-or-Treating… Letting the kid out to have some fun, after all it is my last day of vacation! :P I hope Coriolis make it to my hometown so we can have a nice game on Sat and/or Sun. Been watching Xena’s season 4, had to buy a remote for the one the dvd had was damaged by my children… Whatever…

About life, feelings and more...

Groundel… Even though he has difficulty controlling his temper, he has been very nice and thoughtful with me so I must give him credit for that. He likes seeing me smiling and happy, and I guess that’s good in a sense… I take for granted many things that he do for me… and it’s not that I do not notice, it’s more that I’m a pampered bitch that thinks everyone must serve me without hesitation just because I’m a goddess… Well, no… Groundel, thank you for the little things you do EVERYDAY no matter if you are angry or sad or tired or pissed at me. You have always been one of my best friends, a good companion and confident… Although we have VERY different ways of seeing things, I am here to bring some light to your shadows, to guide your path and to help you be your BEST. Thank you for your patience and even for your silence… You mean a lot to me.

Coriolis is still in the getting a house and an apartment mode… Hope things work out, in the best interest of both? LOL

Trilogy… Seems to be more thoughtful and focused… Although he can be the epitome of sarcasm, he can still make me smile just because. And that's good. We are not arguing so heatedly lately, and it seems an air of understanding is around… I will try not to jinx it, but heck… It is VERY nice to have him around in my life once more… Time can only tell if our friendship can still blossom, and if anything else should come out of it… Love... Oh, yes... But with the eyes open this time... We'll see... He still hesitates to have me with his friends, and that bothers me. There's still much he has to learn about me... There's time. Everything shall fall into its right place in the end.

Right now I know I cannot be a priority in Trilogy’s life because his priority should be studying. It is the same with Groundel… When they both finish that task, then, and only then, can I start believing in being a priority for either… So, another year must pass… And truth shall be revealed… And time will dance the Last Dance for one and the Forever Dance with the other… Right now I have no outcome, I have no clue on what will happen… I am just enjoying their presence, and watching and learning… I must let them be by themselves so they can grow on their own… I can only be there to witness their growth and their beauty, to give a breath of encouragement and to get my own proof of things… And while they do their own thing, I’ll do mine. I have many plans that need attention, and so they will once again surface… I have myself as center of my life, and from there I am to make my own growth… I believe it is a necessary evil, after all. I must be my own so I can really be someone’s. That’s simple, isn’t it?

I am to watch. I am to learn. I am to grow. I am to bloom. No more stalement, the season changed swiftly towards the greatest season: the season to reap my Self.

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