Last night I was REALLY annoyed because I did this looong rant and then I had a computer failure so I lost it... I HATE when I get hit by inspiration and then as easy it goes... Hmmm... Right now I only recall small pieces of what I was writing about... Let's see...

Groundelette: Again, matters of attitude that certainly pisses me off... Yes, I have a clan... But my clan is not about taking advantage of me BUT about sharing daily life one bump at a time... Her clan is all about action-suspence-deceit-drama-gossip-moredrama and most importantly, about using HER. I can't believe someone can be SO blind not to see that little BIG fact! I don't see why she calls them friends, ESPECIALLY that Fabio guy... True friends DO NOT act as her friends do. But I guess that until she gets a true friend then she won't know the difference. In the meantime, her following Fabio's ass one way or the other is starting to be irritating. If she doesn't put her life together, then she better be warned that I won't stand that kind of chaos in MY cave. Even her mom said it, that she was suppossed to come over here leaving all her shit in NJ, to start clean and do things for herself and her family. That has not been what I have seen and tasted. What I see and taste is she came here to get Fabio one way or the other, simply because it's been 3 months and she only moved for one week to get a job, and only because I was insisting on it. I gave her all the tools to do EVERYTHING. She hasn't gone to get government aids, she hasn't look for a job on her own, she doesn't even cooks for herself. All she does is wait around the house the whole day, playing in the PS for hours, cleaning once every week, and waiting until there is nobody home so she talks with Fabio or the guy from Ohio. I am VERY upset with this, because she is just "chuleando" and doing nothing more. All that is in her mind is getting a guy, nothing of more substance really... Studying... Ah... I don't think she will stand it when and if it comes... My belief in what she wanted to do at first is completely gone, as I have seen the true colors of things. She waits for her mother to send her money, and she's living the parasite's life. This is the truth. I asked her mother to send no more money. Geee, the woman has almost NOTHING and from that she spares some for her daughter... And her daughter is healthy, kicking, with 2 hands and 2 legs and can work for a living... I was wrong to say groundel was lazy, he just lacks motivation. But his sister, she IS lazy. And I am getting to the end of my rope BECAUSE the LAST thing I tolerate is lazyness... It brings out the WORST of me. So I hope she shapes up, move and do her thing. If not, I will put her ass in a plane, or she'll make her "dream"come true because she will have to go live at Fabio's house. I have been too nice and too kind, but I see no results on that. I guess that Vierna the Bitch is the only one that everyone hates BUT receives results...

With that off my mind, comes the issue of Trilogy and Groundel. First things first...

Trilogy: The one that keeps on wasting precious time, for he still does not see I am giving him a last chance... I am doing the things I must, but I won't get off my house just because of pretty words or promises. He needs consistency on what he wants. He needs to make time EVERYDAY for me, not just when he remembers. He needs to learn to send me emails just because, and call me just because, and invite me places and ask me to hang out with him... If he doesn't do that, then I won't follow his ass. I am beyong that period of time. I want to be the one followed, won, courted... I want to be treated as the woman I am, I want to feel respect and admiration. I simply do not get that from him. So I think it all should be his effort, if HE really wants to be with me... In the meantime, I am busy doing things that affect me directly like straightening out my own life... No men included on that issue.

Groundel: The more he tries the more he bothers me. I am not complicated, I am quite simple BUT it is just the fact that we are too different and there is no true understanding. Sometimes it is just fine that he's around, but when he start getting anoying I just need a breath of fresh air... He still hopes to gain my trust. That is another story... Maybe we still can be good friends... Maybe things can look up. I still don't know, I am not feeling like trusting ANY man around me.

Coriolis: I hope that he doesn't get mad at me. I am not chasing him, just stating some truths on my side and trying to be as supportive as I can. I expect nothing else but his friendship, and that is perfectly fine with me. Sometimes, when I get blue, I think of our past and I get upset about it but I am allowed to have some feelings! I am all about feelings, ain't I? LOL I hope he sees beyond my words and actions, and I trust he does... He is the only one that REALLY knows me. And I love him for that, and for making my life a better hell. :)

Kara: I hope that she gets to grab her ex by the balls and to tear them apart. That guy deserves jail. I would go to the feds and have him arrested. Girl, think about THAT. He needs a reality check.

AVO: Glad to witness that the trouble in paradise is smoothing out. :)

Zordak: Hope he's still with good vision after the alcohol incident... LOL Already missing you, pal! :)

MrFlach: Missing in action... I wonder if the Pet Rocks kidnapped him...

Well... I recall I ranted about feelings and love and stuff, but I ain't feeling so pink today... I was painting the bathroom and have to give it a second hand... So, I'm out of here...

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