Thursday. Singing the song, it should be s-o-u-p day... Actually, soup would be nice... I dont feel like eating much... Called work and everything is ok. I'll call retiro in the afternoon to follow up on the house thing. May do some scrapbooking... depends on weather. Gotta visit my aunt and get some of her magic soup...

I feel sad, deeply sad. On the edge of feeling kinda betrayed, but since it is something I cant ever be sure of, it stays on the edge... Things not going as I expected, how strange... As always I feel hurt... Gotta take more Paxil and forget about everything at all! I wish there could be a new beginning... But a new star? In my life? At this stage? That's a big laugh... Who would like to get involved with someone like me? Gotta be someone reallly suicidal...

Forget spells... Where are they now?

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