Groundel took his things and went away last night. Its been 2 nights without him at my side, the first 2 nights after 7 years... I waited yesterday for his return until 7am. By then I realized he would not come back. Last night he passed by to get some stuff. He says he needs a break from everything to clear things in his head, between us, in his life... No words I could say were enough. No tears I could spill were enough. In less than 24 hours my heart was killed twice. This seems more than I can bear...

I feel dead. There are no other words to describe it... Dead. Lonely and alone. Buried within 4 walls that act as my tomb. A beautiful mausoleum I built slowly... How fitting...

Thanks to LightShadow and Joe for being there.
Thanks to Coriolis for listening and calling me a bitch.

I am a song waiting to happen... Even in death, I still wait...