I took two days off, and adding monday that means 5 days off... I need the rest. I am feeling sick and weak and I need to get better.

In other notes, I am feeling very sad and concerned for a dear friend. He is going through some tough times and I wish I could do more than giving moral support... My heart to you, and my prayers (yes, I do pray) include you so things get back on track and you find a ray of meaning to your life. Do not think that it would be best to die... This is where challenges lay, and true warriors prove themselves worthy by battling each day keeping honor, love, faith and hope intact. You have much to do, for yourself and for others. Your burdens ironically are your blessings... I wish I could have a family that looked up to me... I wish I could have savored such love when I was very young... Your tight spot is just a test, so hang in there, you are strong and you will realize you are even stronger after your weaknesses vanish. Do not ever doubt yourself. You are beautiful, inside out, upside down. You have the mind of an elf, the spirit of a dreamer and the body of a warrior. Your purpose is to achieve perfection, but first there are many lessons and tests that you must overcome... to make you worthy of an ultimate freedom and and ultimate peace. There are things you still have to learn in matters of feelings... And when you finally learn those teachings THEN you will understand even further... It is not stupid to love in every sense of the word... in truth, Love IS the way. Remember... And do not let the star that guides you fade... Do not doubt your spirit and beauty... Do not doubt that in the end you will be happy. I can promise you that. I know.

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