Burocratic Shit

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I am so damn tired of all this shit about government agencies and their not doing what they should for the public that really needs it! I'm beyond upset with the latest news about Catastrophic Funds and what it said it would do and now seems to be trying to back away from doing! Everythig depends on their helping us jump to the other side... we trusted their word... so we get this... a re-submitting of a case to see if they can grant a yes... Grant? Yup... Grant... I pay taxes, right? I have busted my ass working for more than 13 years without help of anyone but my two hands... Because of that, and the fact that I studied and, OMG, I didnt have children as a rat would, I am sentenced to have no help at all from the government. I need to be jobless, mindless, and full of shit so I can get government aids. Thats this island's justice.

I am pissed. I am tired. I am unnerved. I am stressed. I am in a very bad mood. And I feel every effort no matter how fruitful has been futile... All because the friggin system that we have only do something for the corrupt, the political bitches and the "mantenios". Hope... So difficult to get a grasp of that small almost intangible thing... But I do have hope. And I hope it doesnt get killed next Wednesday.

Baby can die any minute, and the urgency about it is so baffling! It is true that the only belief we can have is in God. He is the only one that doesnt lie, ever. I know He will show us the way, somehow. I just wish that for once it didnt have to be the hard way... Someday the purpose will be revealed... but right now it is very taxing and draining... A break? Please? Is that so much to ask?

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