Well, I keep getting movies from my cancelled subscription to an online movie co. service, so here’s a moview review, sort of…

Neverwhere: From Neil Gaiman, his slightly old british Neverwhere may seem a bit corny at first, but considering how it got in the small screen and how the special effects , etc. made the budget, it is a cool flick. Always love Neil’s work on the darker side of the supernatural fantasy.

El Dia que me Amen: A funny mild romantic comedy where a guy has got a psycho behavior thinking he will die if he steps outside his house… When his old playmate from childhood comes back home, the truth is reveiled… He has been like that ever since she went away without notice, as his mother did when he was a child… The guy gets to a Venezolan Mepsi center where he meets a guy that is a hardcore Madonna fan, and where he gets the necessary support to face reality if only it means getting more insane. I liked this flick very very much. Reminded me of someone special.

Wuthering Heights: Wow. I think that sums it all… Wow! I absolutely loved this movie, no wonder it’s a classic… I didn’t expect a ghost right off the start, and the castle/house was gorgeous! The story was powerful and strong, and it grabbed my attention from start to finish. I’ll certainly look for the book, if the movie was that good, the original work should be breathless.

Finally, Friday… At work one of my dearest colleages is having a hard time with the harpies that surrounds her. And I am beyond tired, as usual… but basically because I couldn’t sleep well last night, perhaps thinking too much… Leo wanted to go to the Expo Novias tomorrow, and I’ll try to comply although I know it’s gonna make me feel weird… perhaps sad… Day-0 is almost there for me, I expect to make the whole move on Sunday, if the coallegues from work show up with a pick up and help... I have dual feelings about the whole thing… One side of me knows it is all for the better, that things are happening, that I will get my house and I need to make sacrifices to make it possible… The other side of me feels destroyed, because the idea of home vanishes with this, and more uncertainty steps on me.

I don’t know what to do, what to believe, what choice to make, if it’s the right thing to do… I don’t know what will my destiny be, who will be at my side in the end… if there will be anyone at all… I feel isolated, distanced from those I love most, and it’s a wall that has taken life of its own and gets further and further… I wish I knew my heart of hearts, I no longer have a clear view of what love is. I have forgotten what it feels like to be in love. I feel dry, no wonder, no zest, no desire to do anything special, no desire to dream silly dreams… I feel that nothing fills me or makes me happy, that I have no one to truly share all I am and that makes me feel barren, melancholic, bitter… I hope that the task ahead shakes me up and clears my mind of doubts and shadows… And if love exists, let it be then… and if its only a deceitful illusion, may it fade away forever.

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