Tuesday:
Had to go to RUM to install a PC. Actually, it was an ok job, the difficult task was putting it on network… raining as hell… and the people acting as leeches makes everything simple so complicated!

Went to BigK to get more things for the flea killing spree. LightShadow was there, and so two worlds collide. LOL She sticked around with Groundel and me until she had to go stab something and eat it. I got the flea thinguies and headed back home… Definitely beaten, to bed without further words.

Wednesday:
As usual, chicken talk and babbling after the Rum thing… So, had a meeting with the high gods and made them aware of the situation for future reference. Spent the day organizing all files in my office, amen to that… Solved problems via virtual helper on the network.

People are finally finding me, talking to me, yadda yadda. Cool. Its not easy stopping Lola from running but if you are persistent, you can do it! ;) Marie had an emergency issue, hope that it got solved. :) Lucinda has been quite busy and quite stranded… that one needs a car, so it anyone is gonna dispose of one send it in! Coriolis has a sinus flu thinguie that is killing him. Groundel has been cooking and housekeeping.

I arrived at home pretty drained. Fight,… Hope that this time the points were clearly made and I have no further need to repeat myself. I was too drained physically and emotionally to keep myself from surrendering to Morpheus…

Thursday:
So today I’m the snappy dresser+7 with magical bonuses. The secret: Got no clothing but the ones I use for special occasions because I have not been able to do my laundry… So there. It’s not that I want to be dressed as an office Barbie… I just have nothing else to put on my self. ;P Besides that issue, I am trying to understand some things that my boss wants me to do but have not given instructions to do… (Sight) Its not easy being red…

Hungry… Still sleepy… And trying to make people happy… which is labor. It all sucks. I WANT MY MTV!!!! (the good old years…). Got a notification that Vivienda returned the case denying the Llave loan because it was 2 houses… they didn’t even bother to read the whole case. That was the good news of the day, I am soooo ecstatic… Trying a last resorce to get that house, but if that doesn’t work is bye-bye… I have done all my homework and it sucks… Badly… Back to the house hunting drawing board.

Feeling: Well… Been 3 days with no Paxil, so I am not doing so bad taking that into account. I am a bit sad, completely angry, completely frustrated, disappointed, helpless and on the edge of just leaving everything at it is and running away… away from all… away from this bullshit place, from bullshit people… from all! I hate having to be stuck with all this: job, place, setting, drama, family, friends… Everything bothers me. Everything is getting to me. Everything is a constant crappy chaos that persists in making me miserable. One thing is fixed, the other gets fucked up. Its tiresome. This ambience is killing me. The raise on prices is fucking up my finances even further. Everything seems to conspire against every plan I have… I heard that before, and it is true… there is a big conspiracy against my plans, no matter what they are... No matter which steps I take to do things safely, or the right way, or the long way, or the short way… I just cannot get what I want because someone hates me so much that has done something to put a cloud over me at all times… That is my big conclusion, because by now there is no other thing I can think of, to give me a why or reasons for all that is happening…

I may like a gothic lifestyle, but DAMNIT! Enough is enough!

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