Yesterday... Had an emotional meeting with Trilogy. Told him about the wedding... He started crying, silently. Another of a million times that he breaks my heart. He knows what he did, that he pushed me away from him, he made his choice when he chose his friends... Still... I was suppossed to be his wife, we were suppossed to be forever... And in dreamland we are... In reality we are not. Forever my greatest love. Forever my true soulmate. Forever us... In dreams...