Belief

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Ok, so back to the contractor’s story. I’ve been calling and calling for two weeks and he simply doesn’t answer or appear. So, yesterday did a final round of phone numbers. His sister’s phone was answered. I ask for his address and she just would not give it. Nice of her. So I simply told her to leave him a message that it’s been 5 months and he doesn’t finish the job, that he has this whole week to finish or I will do things the not-so-nice way. She flipped, said a few unpolite things and hanged up while I was talking. Well, cute… I didn’t call her back. I figure SOMETHING will happen after all… So, I dialed his number today, still no answer. As I looked for the company number I get a call from his wife, saying he will go on the weekend to finish the job. I simply told her I will be there on Saturday at 8am. And she said he will be there… The guy won’t talk himself, and I see the hysterical women network doing its magic. Good enough. It is not just a warning. Last chance. I just want the friggin job finished, functional not even beautiful. I hope this is the last call on this matter… If not, I will visit my uncle the Lawyer.

On Neverland things are flowing:
-Got an eye doctor’s appointment for Groundel on Tuesday, Oct 17. So, Groundel, be there or be square. It’s a basic checkup, from there the operation date should surface. From what I’ve heard and read, at least his life has not been so boring, and he’s appreciating the gifts that are constantly bestowed on him. That is a good beginning. Baby steps, darling… Don’t run but don’t stop. If you don’t stop, you will get to the finish line. You’ll see. There are many humanoids that love you much, you just need to see with your heart instead of your sick eyes.

-Coriolis loving the scholastic appointments. Feeding his mind this way has given him at least something to look forward after working hours. That’s great, the workaholic NEEDS to be banned for a while if not forever. The studying group has been a good influence, his social vein is partially filled. I wish I could be on the same zipcode to help ease the other part of that vein, but hey, I’m working on it. At least now I can travel a bit more, got someone to drive me on the way back. Get two more people and I may decide to do something I haven’t done in some years… You know what… ;) Oh, and by the way… You owe me something, from Caparra… You forgot, didn’t you? Humph!

-Raven keeping herself under her dark cloak. Hmm… I don’t know… All this talk about noone understanding and her being all alone with no one to at least talk to… Ok, So I can be invisible, but completely understated? Girl, if you try me, you will discover many things. That I don’t support wrong behavior is one thing, that I am not willing to listen is another. And you know that I’ve been there always… But it is you who have to approach me. I know you are as closed as an oyster, and I get it (I was like that for too long). I know you have developed the same kind of barriers that your dear friend LadyMex developed: I have no kids, so I don’t understand shit. Yes, YOU have developed that. And it hurts much, because I may not have kids or a special kid BUT I deal with them and they like me and I treat them as YOU should treat them. I know all the reasons for your failures and doubts, same as I know the potential that you have for greatness. I know many things… But things are of much more usefulness if you are actually the one letting it out… Because that is how you fall in place and realize what you are doing and feeling. Because that is the meaningful part of it all. If I am not relating to anything in your life, sincerely it is because you don’t actually share it. But you have a bad habit of sharing with the wrong people… I am used to that, it comes from high school to this date. But being used to is not the same as being happy about it, or not caring, or thinking of simply letting things run their course. By now I expect more from you, because I think we are at a different level and we are adults. I won’t sit still and witness insanity. That is not me. You force me into a straightjacket, to watch and say/do nothing... because each time I say something you take it badly. You don’t need answers, you already KNOW what to do and keep on ignoring/delaying it. Kids need discipline, your overprotective love is not healthy… And I know you are giving what you were not given in your youth… Being a friend but keeping the parent respect is not piece of cake, but it is the way. Kids do not need a friend at an early stage, they need a mentor and guidance. I have been watching your family for long by now, and I can pinpoint many things that are completely wrong. What you call normal is NOT. And to answer your dilemmas, you must ACT. And you KNOW what to do. And you KNOW where to find help and support. And you KNOW I am always behind you 100%. So cut the crap of being alone and no one helping you, yadda yadda… That you choose to back off and stay inside your cocoon is just that, your choice. But I am here. As I have always been throughout the years, through the good the bad and the worst. You have made me see that I must stay around off your face, and if you need me you will come to me. I hope you have not forgotten that.

-Zordak, a happy camper so far discovering that almost everything within the Chevy works. His Cavalier still on my job’s parking lot… waiting… Hopefully that dilemma will be solved before Friday. Besides the Car Wars, his Oni Affairs keep on… Patience… And he’s still waiting for Heroina… Ermm… that’s the lady who will give him the communion/confirmation courses, you pervs… Anyway… Our stuff keeps on being good stuff, so everything else is peanuts. Love those bewitching eyes… “Nuff said.

Me, trying to put an end to the Contractor’s version of Lost, and trying to get a hold on the married people that the mage and I are supposed to meet for couple course completion. Hope to actually see el Calvo on Saturday night. Work is as unchallenging as usual… but I am not letting it get to me. Neverland is a happy place with many possibilities… When you believe.

10-4


Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
So swiftly flown away

And now I'm standing here
My heart so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve ( You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to you fears
But when you're blinded by the pain
Can't see your way safe through the rain
Though all is still resilient voice
Love is all we need

(choir sings)

You will when you believe


-Mariah Carey, When you believe