When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and I could say, "I used everything that you gave me."

- Erma Bombeck


Yesterday had to go to Aguadilla to fix some stuff, no system there... The guy from the phone company turned of the router... No comments... Anyhow, the day went fast and smooth... Had a bit of a heated experience with a call, but hey, a day without one conmotion is not a day... I guess...

Talked briefly with Trilogy. Sounds ok to me. I didn't knew that Groundel and him kinda met on Friday, Groundel didn't told me. Trilogy was scared of calling because he thought that would bring trouble over me... ???? Why? Oh, the little mind... I forget... Men has a way of seeing things, territorial stuff. Whatever. I didn't go too deep on the conversation... Want to take my time with that. Want to see if it's possible to get to know each other again, to have fun and laughs. But time is a key factor. It's gonna be difficult to not assume things, with the big bad baggage of experiences of 15 years in the making... but it is worth the try. It is important to be friends, and that takes patience and compromise... We'll see what happens...

Groundel seems to be on either denial stage or the same "I'll do everything so I get her again" phase... It's always the same. Forgive my lack of joy but I have been there, seen that... After he gets the chance he always cools off and returns to his normal behavior... So forgive me if I don't believe in the imagery or the "pretty picture". Too many chances, too many failures... I hope he gets the reality check soon. I want to be alone. Right now, nothing he can do can change my mind on that. I need to see things from the "fresh" point of view. I need to be in my corner, watching. That's how I feel... like being the silent witness to everything around me. I don't wanna take part in anything... Just watch... And learn...

Coriolis made a sound move towards happiness. I am very proud of him. He may be a bastard to some, but I know the Care Bear inside of him, and the gloves that he was trying to put on simply did not fit him. I am glad he came to realize some things are very important... His mother deserves the prize, that much I do know. Fuck everyone else's opinion.

Lucinda took 4 tests yesterday... Yikes... I remember how tense that was... LOL

Groundelette did the laundry yesterday... Amen to that. I was scared I would get home and she'll run around naked! :O LOL

Back to work... Let's see how the morning unfolds...

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