Movie review for this weekend:

Dark Water: Sucky movie. A bit of suspense, not horror! Why they keep calling mild suspense horror! Damnit!

Inmortal:Egyptian mythos meets futuristic world... sort of... Bast plays monopoly and a horny god wants to leave a child before dying... Interesting, but the mix of live action and CGI doesnt work well.

Alone in the Dark: If I wanted to see an alien I would rent Alien. The creatures are not demons, just a bad rip-off of what an Alien is... Slow motion action movie, weak plot and bad acting... They could have done something better... Worst than QotD.

Infection: A japanese horror flick. In the tradition of how they portray the illnesses of society... A hospital from hell, in which ethics turned dirty ARE the real illness... Cool flick. Highly recommended.

Phantom of the Opera: Will see it tomorrow, but have to say this... I felt insulted when the guy at the video store told me "This is an opera". I said u-huh and he repeated the same sentence. I said I know and he said "Well, since you have 3 horror films... just letting you know"... Ok... So basically, based on our appearance I cannot like operas? Gimme a break!

Washed my hair. Caressed my kitties. Relax-release. I am not trying to be a drama queen here. I just pour my soul here whenever I am angry, sad, frustrated, pissed... even sometimes you can get some happy remarks if you browse carefully... But since my mood the last 2 weeks has been the pits, people... bear with me. I am not suicidal, I am not neglecting myself, I am taking care of my kitties, I'm working and I am continuing my projects. I am not stale or stuck in self pity. I just say what I feel because that is who I am, and in here I can write what my soul feels... and put the words that my mouth dare not say in the proper way... Here my thoughts take a concrete shape, and ideas that were blurred become real. This is my therapy. This is my psychiatrist. This is my psicosis.

I dont hate Groundel for being honest, or for leaving my roof, or for going on with his life without me. But I have a right for complaining about it, 7 years give me that right. And if I feel this is a wrong decision, I have to say it, I have to SCREAM it: THIS IS WRONG!!!! There... And no, I dont feel better because I just screamed it... it solves nothing... but at least I release that energy from myself when noone else can hear me... Because it seems no one can really understand why I am like this... Because it is so hard to believe that YES, I DO LOVE GROUNDEL! SO WHAT! I travelled to try patching things up, which didnt work... And I have put up with many things to try to make things work... But... It takes 2 to tango, and if he doesnt think we can make it THEN we cant make it. ANd GROUNDEL, THIS IS A BIG MISTAKE!!! But, ok... I can be my bipolar self, be proper and nice and polite... No one will ever love you as I do. But of course, you already know that... Anyway... I am your friend forever... Just understand that I dont see you making this decision out of your on will... Somehow others press you into this... And thats what I hate most.

On with the show. I will smile. I have nothing to regret. I have much to do. I wish for love... true love... someday knocks at my door. That matter is in Gods hands, as I will not look for it. I'm tired of looking. I will go on a long hibernation... so I try to heal... and hopefully I will wake up to the truest Spring of my life. I dont know where I am going from now on... But I am fightress and so... I stand to defy the storm. Let it come!

10-4