Awful days gone, awful days ahead... Awful day today... Yay! Nauseus, hate feeling this way, couldn't even have breakfast, guess I'll have to turn vegetarian or something... Ugh! One more day and out until next year, out of here, cursed place, out of the plastic people with plastic smiles and plastic hearts... Out to be all by myself, yay, what a happy thought... Much to do, not much money to accomplish all goals just some basics, and not much desire to do everything I have to do but everything I wish to do... Sims having the time of their lives, wish I were one. Me, still in the struggle between being human or the daughter of Lloth. It's so shitty being half-breed... No matter what you do, you don't feel complete, you don't feel that good... Wrong era to live in... Reggaetón at every corner, people dressing as drag kings and pimps... (not even drag queens, those dress really nice actually)... The time of drugs, sex, violence, anarchism, death... Ugh! How about reincarnation and living the life of Crocky... Then again a stupid guy would try hunting me... Supper! Would be nice to listen to some waltzes and dance the night away while dancing to that beat, under the moonlight, near a lovely lake that's not filled up with corpses or memories of them... Would be nice to actually smell the fresh grass and not the weed people... Would be nice to smile from the heart and not just to keep plastic people within their plastic worlds... Keep on dreaming of living in a perfect world... I'm a romantic after all. Who knew?

Do I stress you out
My sweater is on backwards and inside out
And you say how appropriate
I don't want to dissect everything today
I don't mean to pick you apart you see
But I can't help it
There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off
Slap me with a splintered ruler
And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already
If only I could hunt the hunter

And all I really want is some patience
A way to calm the angry voice
And all I really want is deliverance
Do I wear you out
You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out
I'm consumed by the chill of solitary
I'm like Estella
I like to reel it in and then spit it out
I'm frustrated by your apathy
And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land
If only I could meet the Maker

And I am fascinated by the spiritual man
I am humbled by his humble nature
What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate
Someone else to catch this drift
And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred
Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute
Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while
The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses
Falling all around...all around
Why are you so petrified of silence
Here can you handle this?

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines
Or when you think you're gonna die
Or did you long for the next distraction
And all I need know is intellectual intercourse
A soul to dig the hole much deeper
And I have no concept of time other than it is flying
If only I could kill the killer

All I really want is some peace man
a place to find a common ground
And all I really want is a wavelength
All I really want is some comfort
A way to get my hands untied
And all I really want is some justice...
-Alanis Morissette, All I really want