WINDS OF CHANGE

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At hometown trying to sort things out, preparing luggage just in case, tying the loose ends... Status on everything? Here goes:

HOME: A big mess. Was trying to sell it asap, but seems it will have to wait a bit, just a bit... If I cant sell by end of March I will have to give up the house in April, period. Will not be in the island by then, anyway...

FAMILY: Auntie thinks just praying fix things, and I have nothing against prayers BUT they also need to be followed by action. God send the fishing but one must dig the bait. Some are helping out in their own special way. Let's see what comes out of everything...

FRIENDS: Strangers have been friendlier than friends, and this is not high school... That has been the big irony of it all... But all in all... We are grateful for the small details that people have done for us. We are grateful for LightShadow's diligence in fundraising for the baby, we we grateful for Coriolis's granting shelter under this big snowfall, we are grateful for Groundel's never-ending concern and love for Deedee, we are grateful for the people who dont know us and have move things so we can get Deedee to the US mainland, we are grateful for prayers from children and elders. And we are grateful to God that he has granted a longer stay for DeeVa in this world.

BABY: At the hospital, intensive care, intubated, waiting for the date of the big flight. We have an air ambulance (AMEN!) and will soon be taking her to the best p[lace to treat her disease. All this time she's been a trooper, showing love and will for living.

DADDY: Keeps on being his random crazy self, taking care of baby and of his mad witch. He has been a constant caregiver, completely giving himself to the cause... A constant support, a constant light in the darkness. He's never failed to keep the hope, the belief, the dream... Has been punched by reality too many times, but stills gives a smile and moves forward no matter what.

MOMMY: Keeps on being as bitchy as ever, pushing things so they get done. Keeping sanity in the midst of chaos. Keeping belief and faith, while fighting every odd. Very edgy, very stressed... But nothing will stop what needs to be done.

We are both sad that some people don't really understand what we've done, why we are doing everything... We are doing this because Deirdre Valeria is there. You just have to be with her to KNOW she is there. She reacts to everything, all the time. She is alive and aware, highly intelligent, and with deep desire to live. She deserves the chance. We are the only ones who can grant that wish.

Some people think it has been insane to leave everything, that our world has collapsed to the worst... Well, this is an eye openner for you: We hated our lived before Deedee was born. Nothing substancial ever happenned, nothing mattered. She brought us a reason to live on, to believe in goodness. Thanks to her we have seen the good that still exists in this crappy island, the people who don't turn away but give a helping hand without even knowing you. I will loose a house? Not that we liked it anyway... We have a home wherever we go. What about our jobs? We were angry at our jobs anyway. Now we have a reason to get out of our comfort zones and try something else. So life has been stirred upside down,... So what? We stand together no matter what. Deedee has given us many lessons in what is TRULY important in life. She has shown us how to REALLY LIVE. And that is... Do your very best to enjoy every little miracle around you, your family, your friends, your pets... a sunset, the rain... Every little thing matters, has a purpose, and can bring you happiness. Having everything means being able to say that you are at peace with yourself, that you reach out to others to help them grow, being able to smile because your heart dictates so.

For many, the Mage and the Witch have nothing... But we have everything. We have true love in our lives, and we have around us people who truly care for us. And most important of all, God smiles when he looks at us. I know it.

So, we are getting ready for a big change. We will leave the isle soon, seeking the best medical care for our DeeVa, so she has a chance for living life to the fullest. We love her, always have and always will. Whatever happens will be guided by God, as everything is in His hands. There is a big purpose for everything that has happenned... For us, for Groundel, for LightShadow, for Coriolis... God's chess game goes on. In the end... Everything will make sense, everything will awe us... for the best.

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