Merry Blues

... Joyful sadness

It is all bittersweet. Celebrations, lights, knowing that it’s just 2 days for Xmas… Oh, we all made many plans for Deedee’s first Xmas. I wanted to take her to the lighting of our church, LS wanted to take her to the Siervas de Maria lighting, and we were to have a family gathering on Xmas eve… I guess we will have a celebration even if it is quiet. After all, it is about God’s birth… But the sadness of knowing Deedee is in the hospital and we cannot even get her in our arms is just too much… Her latest news, here in her blog, A little Mage in the Family: The sound of music.

All in all, it is better that she stays for a long time, if it means her healing completely. Her lungs need to get healthy and strong… We know what must be done… That it is hard, yup… It is. That it breaks our hearts all the way, yup. That too. This is the time for family, and although we are not together physically, we are together in spirit. We miss her, all the time, in everything we do. Just 4 hours a day to enjoy her presence, touching her little fingers and loosing ourselves in her eyes… is not enough… How can it be enough!

The Mage and I both have made some arrangements at work, hope it all ends ok. Whatever. Not thinking too much about that right now, more important things to take care of.

About Groundel… The forecast for him is 43 days in the hospital, if not more. He’s got bone infection and one kidney is very sore, so he’ll have more tests. So… Xmas, New year and Three Kings Day are kinda off-limits for him… I also know he’s been worried sick about baby…

All this drama is getting to be too much. Very draining. Very tiresome. But… We all will pull trough. Yup, together through the good, the bad and the ugly. With help from the Divine, courage, will and faith… and help from a few good friends…

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