2005... Not so many important things happenned, but at least some did. Life is not so bad, although being alive and truly living are different things. That's the point I've been trying to get stamped into stubborn people's minds. I intend to live even if no one agrees with what I want. I am quick to try pleasing everyone's wishes, but genie wants some time for herself as well, time to pamper herself and do everything she always wanted to do besides saving the world from human stupidity and being the eternal paladin.

This year I made many balancing acts to get my dream house. Well, it is in the country side, it is far enough but close enough, it has a nice view towards the mountains in one side and towards the ocean in the back side, it has 2 floors, and it has plenty of ground so people at least stay away and I can complete my "ranch" dreams someday. The place is not new, and has plenty of work in progress... I wanted to move in right away but that cannot be. I have to fix many things and arrange many things to my taste and I know it's better to do it all before I move in because that way I am certain things will be done... The problem is that it will take longer than I expected because of the cash flow... but as a saying says "Don't run and don't stop, if you don't stop you will get there". It will end up a haven for my kitties, a haven for gaming and a place I can truly call home... Good things come to those who wait.

Things at work wont get better and didnt get worse. I want a career change that is very stuck because now I need a letter from my university that says that the courses I have are equivalent to a Human Resourses Master... I started my MBA when there was no specializations, so my MBA was a generic Management thing. I have both HR and Marketing courses, but people do not want to read and want to make lives miserable. I know how RUM works, and it is not likely that they will make the letter... I will try to get it, though... no battle worst than the one you didnt fight. And I am very good at the arts of war... hope that the outcome is at least encouraging.

Things at home aint worst than what they have always been. Since I started living at auntie's I returned to being 15 years old... Oh, I feel so young I can weep! It is a bit of an anoyance... sometimes a lot... but I guess it is not so bad after all. My kitties are happier than I thought they would be, and little by little I'm improving the house so at least something makes auntie happy.

Things in matters of love are shady, more than usual. I feel my heart has been surrounded with a thorned strand... No, it's not a sacred heart, but I guess I know how Jesus must have felt at humanity's cruel heartlessness. I still have no road to follow. I have lost belief in all kinds of words and expect only actions. So, actions it is... Try breathing life into a corpse. Lestat would be so proud!

Things inside of me are fine. I am in love with my brain, with my thoughts, with my spirit... I am the kid that grew up to discover that she is still the kid... only wiser... I will never stop looking for wonder, or flying kites in my dreams. The important things in life are invisible to the eyes. And once again The Little Prince strikes back, another year ever since I discovered him back in 9th grade... I visit him yearly ever since... And always a new lesson blooms. Hail The Little Prince!

I am grateful for the special people that surround me, namely Groundel, LightShadow, Lucinda, Joe, Coriolis, Auntie, Lulu, Zordak, El Calvo, and Trilogy. May the new year bring you bliss, peace and love.

In case I am not around the cyberworld, Happy New Year!!!

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