Beaches

I am NOT dead. I am NOT haunting old Mayaguez streets with a white (eckkkkk!) camisole and messy hair falling on my face, while everyone hears me screaming: La Madre! La Madre! And no, I have NOT run away to Mozambique to release rats of their very important and dangerous task of finding unused concealed bombs.

People: I am on vacation. Translation: I am doing many things that I would not be able to do while working, so you wont find me sitting in a corner facing the wall and scratching my butt. I have been looking for the prices of house things like tiles and lamps and different kinds of fixtures, and daydreaming as I look for prospect sofas and bedroom stuff... prospect because as someone says, and I quote: " Champagne taste but Coca-Cola pocket".

All these days I've been trying to asimilate what I can change in the house that I bought, what I can change later, what I can stand for a while and what definitively has to go. It has been a very tiresome process, at times confusing, at times overwhelming, at times as clear as water. Can't do much with only $200 to count on for the next 3 months... everything else is compromised for paying the last checks to the owner, and for paying the last checks to the constructor. On January I will be able to start fixing things, slowly but in a more consistent way... Following the master plan, everything should be spit and spat by Thanksgiving 2006. Yay! Until then, more headaches ahead... But I guess that all the trouble has a flair of its own, and its a lovely process in which I will be able to construct the right lair for the right dragoness...

Downstairs there are quite some needs: New cabinets (yikes, a solid $2000 for the perfect kitchen which includes a stove and fridge, a double corner sink, and cabinets with gothic arches), new flooring (old world tiles resembling stone for the foyer, living room and dining room, and solid terracota for the kitchen), whole bath redo (cobalt blue tiles inside the criolle bath, outside walls with white tiles placed diagonally, fleur-de-lis cobalt designs stamped on some of them and stamped as ceiling border... floor in white-cobalt design... cabinet and mirror for the sink). I already have the chandelliers for living & dining, small but with unique character ( and which I need someone to do the rewiring). I'm looking for the kitchen and foyer chandelliers, and I spotted a nice one for the stairway... Oh, and I need to visit the Salvation Army since that will be the spot to get most of the mobiliary that I need (they have very good deals, but this has to wait until Feb or Mar).

Upstairs: I like the yellow flooring, so it stays. The two bedrooms need new closets, so I'll get them mirrored ones later on. They needed light fixtures, and I just won them on ebay... two nice small chandelliers. I already have the a/c for my room (very important! I'm a polar bear). Since I cant do the cabinets downstairs until next year, the ones upstairs will stay for a little while, then they will be dismissed (only the sink will stay because that area will be designated to a small kitchenette and my art space). Now, the bathroom... It needs TLC asap... I just cant go in there and smile... hate the tiles and mish mash of everything. Since seems I will live upstairs really soon, the common sense dictated that it is the room that needs inmediate help... I am trying to do the best to solve that problem... Got the criolle bath flooring. Still need the cobalt blue tiles and the mustard tiles, the trim tiles in cobalt maybe with a design, bot sure yet... white spaces on the walls maybe with white tiles to match the sink... Cobalt, mustard and white since I will keep the stars and moons tradition in this bathroom.

Construction: A wall is done, the arches are WIP and the stairway was stripped of the iron fence and the foundation for the big wall and ceiling is done. I dont want them working too fast... which they are doing... Got the entire payment in December!

Patio: The great outdoors meets wilderness... Need to hire someone to take down the forest but that has to wait a bit more... I hope that the bees nest is not too close as they buzz around! I'm looking for a cabrita couple so they work the trimming miracle that I need... leave your resumes at my post! :)

Today: Took the day out for a vacation day, went with the idea of going to the beach... Caña Gorda was closed... They close Mon and Tue... is a new law... The chicken BBQ guy was not in the road when we passed by, I should have taken the hint. So, we went to my favorite place in the world: Cabo Rojo's Lighthouse. We trecked, my car almost got stuck thanks to my thinking it is a Big Foot machine, and we climbed our way defying the wind and the sun... The lighthouse is now surrounded by iron fencing that is closed to visitors. I could not touch the building. Right there was where I rescued Roxy last year... It stinged my heart. Ever since my 17th year I made the journey to this sacred place, and felt atuned to a land that I feel for, and felt that the surrounding wildlife and plants and even ants welcomed me as I welcomed them... It felt surreal and bad. I felt old. I felt violated. My sacred temple is no more, thanks to rich people with no love for values and culture and heck, not even for freedom. I hope an alien attack changes everything for good.

Anyway, after the ill fated encounter of a closed Faro (lighthouse), we went to Combate Beach. Closed... at least it had a good reason for that, it was flooded... yup, a flooded beach... plus the surroundings have been sold to rich people who have built many apartment-tourist facilities... Awful. The land is no longer wildlife, it is a wild mix of a new breed: cement and lavishness. No respect for nature, none at all... That's why it rebels. I was actually glad the place was flooded... People that mess with wildlife are scum. So... We decided to try another beach, Boqueron... It was closed. Same Mon-Tue closed crap. Then we went to Buyé Beach... The resort had the same sign... No beaches on Mon or Tue. What used to be a free simple thing you could do whenever you felt like is now something you must do under the rules of the government, the days they want and the times they allow. If I were the Little Prince I would die of sorrow and sadness because I would not be able to watch sunsets in the right place to do so... and we are talking about an island! Freedom! My ass!

So... back home we watched half of Pocahontas... ermmm, more nature being ripped away stuff, not good... This was my vacation day... I am tired, dissapointed, sad about nature... People wonder why all these bad things are happenning: earthquakes, tsunamies, landslides, earth openings, floods... Mother Nature is awakening from her slumber and her task now is to have an iron fist... no velvet glove... no one had a velvet glove with her...

I love my small island. I love the dawns and dusks, I love its green allure and its majestic seashores... Mankind should be removed to avoid further damage to flora and fauna. We are the worst animals of all, because all that animals do is based on instinct and survival, and all that humans do is based on greed and evil. My homeland has a terminal disease that needs to be removed... But that is utopic wishing...

Personal life: Still, very still... No sounds within or beyond. Suspended animation, o algo.

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