Saturday: The day had drama, action, suspense, romance, horror, sickness and lovelyness. Ended up crying on my pillow… but then what’s new. I wish things were different. Things will get better… I wish I could believe in that as I believe in angels…

Sunday: I finally found some sleep around 4am… woke up at 8am to feed the kitties and have breakfast… went to sleep and woke up at 11am… so I went in a cleaning frenzy… ended up in a bath and lunch at 1pm, then again to sleep… woke up at 5 because the phone rang, then more sleep until 10. What a way to let go off a day… But I feel so tired, my eyes are sunken, my cough is anoying, fever comes and goes and I have no strenght to get up and drive… or simply to get up. Everything hurts, inside out, upside down, physically and emotionally. Oh, well…

Spoke with Mystica today. LOL Yesterday she saw me at the movies but didn’t say hi. Oh well, I don’t bite. :P So, we had a nice conversation. She’s cool. Mr.Noname was also alive and says he’s coming to my side of the island. Lets see if that’s true. Vet! LOL Whatever. I’m feeling moody and unfriendly right now…

Tomorrow, Monday 25th, Constitution Day. Also, Gruendel’s Birthday. Hopefully he will pass by so at least I can say I’m happy he’s alive… I miss him dearly. Wanted to give him a gift, but no cash until Friday… And cannot surprise him because I don’t know where he is anyway… On the 26th it will be one complete month since he left. It has been the worst time in my whole life, and I’ve had plenty of those… He says things will get better… I don’t see how.

Whatever…

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