Been trying to solve issues at work and about the house. Why is it that whenever things are lay out simple and clear something ALWAYS happens to make things for me utterly difficult? I mean, in my life, EVERYTHING has been a struggle for me. Nothing has ever come easily or as a reward for my efforts… I know that perhaps it is too much to ask, but why cant things go smoothly just for once? Am I asking for too much? Yup, misery loves company.

I’m slowly falling in place with the current situation. Make lemonade with the lemons. I’m still a bit shaken and shedding hair… but I know I can survive anything. I feel nothing anymore. Seems that what I thought was real was a mirage. Nevermind the drama. Another disappointment for the record. I gave a deadline for things… it’s still on. I know it myself, and that’s enough. I suspect that there’s more to just thinking things on the other side. My trust is lagging again, and the toll of so many days is starting to dig a grave. I thought that at least for one person I meant the world… I was dead wrong. Still waiting, for answers, for a renewal of hope… But each passing day those probabilities get thinner… For whom the bell tolls?

Need a decent sleep… but I guess I can only get THAT when I die. Keep waking up every hour. That sucks. You wake up in the morning even more tire than if you slept 4 consecutive hours… Another weekend approaches… Hurray, hurray… At least the kitties will be happy with the company.

I'm horrifyed about the London bombing. Last year it was Madrid... And there's a menace for Denmark and Italy. Sometimes it seems safer to live in a small spot in the Caribbean... Why so much hate? Why so much destruction? Isn't it enough with the natural horrors like the Tsunami to take so many innocent lives? How can killing be justified as an order from God? It makes me wonder if they REALLY read the Bible, because in any continent... any race, any belief, anyone with common sense even an atheist can tell that if you read the Bible it talks about a God that is just, a God that is LOVE. No nation is better than the other. We are all One. Earth is so small when compared with so many planets, with the Universe! People, don't you know by now? LOVE is the way! Love is the ONLY way!

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