I had this big headache-migraine yesterday! I fall in my bed as soon as I got home, and forgot about the world until today. I just hate that… Anything else I can stand but anything about my eyes-head-neck simply sucks because it leaves me dizzy, nauseous and finally unconscious. The bright side is that I got to rest all I have not been able to rest because of insomnia due to someone who doesn’t understand me. Oh, well… Cannot dwell on that, because then I will end up as a human wreck and a goddess cannot afford to become that. Each passing second my belief in love wanes even more, and my belief that it is simply not meant for me grows. Maybe the main reason for my existence is to help others be, to take on lost causes, but to do so all by myself. I don’t know… I wish someone would give me such a big surprise that sweep me off my feet… that would be like the omen I have been looking for, the signal of the one that I should take on forever… But until now… nothing… nothing but emptiness, nothing but disappointment… Love is the biggest facade there is… (sight) Anyway… I won’t let the only thing that sucks in my life suck my life away. I am in love with myself, and find that I have to change nothing in my ways or thoughts. I live a good life and so I can face anyone, proud, without straying my sight. I have many things to accomplish. I have many plans and goals. If I must do so alone, so be it.

Today is International Women’s day, so Congratulations to EVERY girl OUT THERE! Wheeeeeeeee! :)

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