I do look for happiness. I am not afraid of change. The only thing is that there is noone around me that is worthy of me. No one that interests me. No one that makes me feel like exploring their world.

I whine here, but in my real life I have been posting resumes forever, all the time. It is not my fault that when interviews come they offer less than I earn and that is a no-no. Sorry, but I cannot settle for less because I have to live my life even if its miserable. I gotta pay the bils and eat because no one do it for me. I have been looking for a new job week after week after week. Not stopping. So... Saying I settle for my job is out of line. I am in my job because it is what I have right now. I know my time will come, I have the talents. I just need to find the opportunity.

Friends... In real life I am openning up to some people I have not mentioned here. That is a slow work because I need the stats of trust and truth filled up first before I say they are my friends. So, they shall remain anonimous. Besides these guys and girls that are showing caring and make me laugh, I name only the most important people in my life because that's what they are: The Most Important. My aunt, Pabon, Lucinda, Groundel, Coriolis, Trilogy, Popu, Kara, Michael, Zordak... They are very important to me. Hello, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN! I DO HAVE OTHER PEOPLE TO SEE AND TALK TO! But they are not that important. And who is important deserve credit. So, here they are, this is my way of saying: THANK YOU, I LOVE YOU, FORGIVE ME IF I DID SOMETHING WRONG and I AM HERE ALWAYS. So... I HATE clubs, not my ambience. I HATE bars, not interested. I go to the movies when there is cash and the same applies to other activities. If it interests me, I do it. If not, no one can make me eat it. This is me, raw. I have my beliefs and tastes and I change what I see is bad, but sadly for many hear this: I LOVE MYSELF, if I could clone myself I would marry ME, I worship my beliefs and my success. I know who I am, where I come from and where I am going. I do not need speeches of self-esteem because I am full of it.

Basically THAT is my problem. Romantically, I need someone that is like me... high achiever, high self-esteem, non-conformist and anarkist. So... Romantically, seems I am veru fucked. But friends, I do have them. And people I know, I do have them. And sincerely, that's more than enough. I KNOW I never walk alone.

So... covered work and friends... Obssessive behavior? I love cats, dragons and sunflowers. So what? That's my vice. And it makes me happy. So, moonie to all who makes fun of my abssessions. MOON YOU ALL!!! LOL

My bitter writing... Yes, bitter... I am bitter... I am insane... I am mad... So what? I am very polite and kind with people BECAUSE I used to be a blunt bitch that care less about people's feelings and that was plain wrong... So, now I say the bad things as they come to my mind HERE. This is MY MIND. This is where I throw all my DIRT. This is where I escape. It has nothing to do with doing NOTHING in my real life. This is not real, really. This is just one side of a many-sided diamond. This is dark-lonely-grim-gritty-unpolite-tired me. But I have many other sides that are not here. Because they don't need to. Because Lawful good Miss V lives in real life, Chaotic Good Lyoness lives in real life, Evil Deirdre lives in real life... So... Mad Witch Vierna lives here.

No, not upset. Just straightening some points because I am soooo easily missunderstood... I am so unbalanced and illogical that ALL of YOU love me for that... and you KNOW it.

Back to the scheduled program...