Thanks to the high A/C setting at my office I arrived in pretty bad shape to my home yesterday, and was in bed for the rest of the night AND today. I couldn't move. And the coughing was pretty bad... So, today couldn't go to work, like they will weep for that fact... I am so unimportant in that hellish place, they don't even notice when I'm not there, unless of course, the server crashes... Npt even in the fire drills they remember me... Gotta repeat the mantra "2 more years, just 2 more years".

Feeling crappy. Reading about ol' Pops made me recall that 2 days ago I also slipped after getting some water from my fridge. Landed on my right knee... And somehow hurt mt left knee. Yup, add that to my overall sickness... I was walking as the crows from Looney Tunes... In a way, it was funny...

Trilogy called, to say "Oh, you are still sick... When am I gonna see you?". Well, pal... Whenever your cojones make you feel like it. I mean, he aint so desperate to see me if he has to think about it, after 7 days. A whole week, and it is so hard to move that body and walk over to my home. Fuck his stupid reasons, somethings are worth swallowing up a bit of pride, especially when it would actually send a message of "Heck, I care". And then comes the mandatory "I'll call you tomorrow"just 2 seconds after finishing the first sentence... And I have absolutely no reason to get upset... When will a REAL man make me fall in love with him? I guess thats the one that will never happen... Men are scarce, the good ones are taken or are gay... And too many women that would do ANYTHING for a piece of even the lowest scum. So... Thats plainly depressing. I am in love with someone who deserves not even a thought from me, for he do absolutely nothing for me... Some things never change... The only one that actually did something for me, like showing he REALLY wanted to see me and be with me was Joe. I don't get what is so difficult about doing that simple thing... The details that never happen are the ones that hurt most.

Anyway... I'm tired, everything aches, got a big headache, my heart is in pieces and I have no cable... It's the pits...