I'm sad. I'm trying to make sense to AVO but I am growing short on words... How can a hangman help a corpse? He feels angry at himself, and right now feels there is nothing worth it in his life... So he wishes for Darkness to swallow him up, make him numb to reality and even to dreams... He just wants the stillness and serenity of a rock perhaps...

But a rock is broken sooner or later. It is better to take the shape of the water, so you are disturbed but then you find your true shape... So everything can change you but you will always remain your true self...

I confess I am not perfect, I confess I am a fool, forever a romantic that believes in her shining knight... Underneath my hard surface, underneath the icy sheath that veils my self and my shadow. It is only natural to be angry... I know anger... I know how it feels to fail yourself, or to want something so badly because you are worth it, because it is just what you need, want and deserve... I know the dissapointment is overwhelming, and it hurts like a slap in your face, and it shames you even if sometimes it is not your fault at all but destiny's fickleness...

The gods are at play, so we entertain them. Just keep belief that in the end you make your own ending, you are the hero of your own epic, and you will prevail... No matter the odds, no matter the obstacles. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. What gives you pain makes you stronger. What is difficult makes you stronger. What seems impossible fuels your will to go on, and make it. Ignore the perils of the way, just focus on the goal... You will get there. Just make a knot at the end of your rope and hang on.

I love you. Just because I doesn't love you the way you want doesn't mean that I don't love you with all I have. And right now my heart is broken, aimless... I am trying to keep belief myself, True Love is out there... I know so... And although things are stormy, dark and gritty, one day you will look back and smile. And you'll say "I have come a long way..."

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