At work...
Seems that at least everything at work is running smoothly, even if it's taking more time than I am willing to give... Ah! I am getting home beyond dead, but at least I am getting some feedback from people's facial features. Yes, I do my job, and I am proud of my problem-solve it approach. I am not a stuck-up, I just prefer to do my job without thinking of humans because then I get mad, enraged, pissed... It is better to be cool about things you cannot change, like people stupidity... LOL There are some that give surprises that are good enough to make you believe that there IS good people alive... Wow... And lately it's like someone from heaven is sending me signals that I shall not despair, that there is hope for everything, that He is watching and taking care of things... I had to drop all the things I was carrying and let Him solve them... I was going mad. So much stress, so many bills to pay, so little money, so little cooperation... It all consumes... For what? I mean... I get sick, I must stay home... Do nothing but observe my dear kitties... Rot behind my walls... I do ENJOY my apartment, but if I stay there I go insane because I start thinking too much... That's me, always thinking... And without the phone I cannot at least complain about it to Coriolis or Lucinda... I can do nothing more unless I get proper payment, and still opportunity doesnt knock... Oh... whatever... I will make that opportunity next year, when all stars collide. Yay! I gotta believe! Parapa eat your doggy-heart out! :D

At home...
Auntie is definitively bipolar... Like everyone around me? LOL One day she fights, the next day she's all smiles. I wish I could do more for her... I want to change everything in the house: Living Room, Bedroom, Dining Room... She's had them for 36 years and they are falling to pieces... I want her to enjoy new pretty stuff before her time comes... But my situation with bills doesn't improve and so... Wishing is not as good as Getting... I try to dig the bait for fishing, but it's not enough... Ahhh!

Uncle is selling the land he has in Florida. Why, oh why! Ever since I was little he promised that land would be mine. It is a waste to sell it now. I was planning on building a small house for vacation or moving out 5 years from now... Another wish, another dissapointment... Just like he did with the car that was "mine", whish he sold...

Mommy dearest still being her self. Along with granny dearest. Grandpa still hanging on.

Yesterday I called my sister, and finally got to talk for a minute after 7 months or so! LOL We both have very busy lives, I know that much... I need to get her new measurements as she was in a strict diet and lost some 20 pounds... Yayayayay! Lucky her. I am not made for diets. I was thinking about the South Beach, but it takes away bread and bread is the only thing I can afford for everyday breakfast... So big deal. I may not be a petite model, but I am a Big Girl Model. I love myself as I am, I have always been like this and I see no problem with it. People can kiss my ass. Wait... they may like it... Hmmm...

This is pathetic... I am writing because I couldn't have luch, because I have no money... I do have a Spaghetti can... which I cannot open because I have no can opener or knife at work... And besides I have no microwave plate to heat it... Ode to pathetic me... LOL

Whatever...

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