This week seems overloaded... Tomorrow I'll head to Villalba in the morning and got an appointment with the doctor at the CFSE. Then on Wednesday must go to Aguadilla... On Thursday must go to SanJuan to a conference on government webdesign... Got a full body self-portrait for Thursday and assignments for everyday on my new class... So... Hopefully tonight I can start (or even finish) the drawing final project and give quick answers to today's questions. :) I NEED to sleep...

I am so tired! I feel so drained! I have this mixed feeling of happy-sad-neutral... Some things are looking up, but others I just don't know... I seem to have digged on some issues I had forgotten and that is a bit unsettling. Just like the Xena episode in which Gabby tells Xena that she looks fine now, and Xena replies: "See the lake's surface? That's me before what happenned... Calm and still... "
Then Xena throws a rock in the lake... She adds "See what happened? It shook everything, the water ripples, unsettled..."
Then Gabby says "Ah, but if you wait long enough you'll se the water gets calmed again, still... as it was before".
And Xena replies: "Yes, it all may look as before, but the rock is in the bottom of the lake... The lake has changed forever. It will never be the same."

And that's just how I feel right now...

Ah! I have no time to be sad. When I am sad I just get careless and nothing matters. It is a good thing to have so many things to do... No time to think too much. No time for self-punishment... No time to question some big why's in life... Everything has a purpose. Every rock that falls in the lake had a purpose... Some say change is good. I say change tests character. In the worst of times I developed courage as I never thought possible, and I was alone. I can baffle myself sometimes...

Change.

Blood may fill my river, but that is not a bad thing at all... for blood is rich and warm, and has the secrets for life.