True Love.

An utopic idea that happens once in a lifetime if you get that lucky.

A dream that blurs and vanishes when you least expect...

A lightning that strikes twice in the same tree, leaving it burnt and dead.

A ghost that dances around you, enthralling you with its magical whispers, and then fades for a while... until you summon it again with your secret chantings... and it comes back for a while...

Not everyone has met True Love. I did. I did once, 14 years ago. It changed my life forever. Through the worst storms we have been there for each other in spirit. Through life we have been the best of friends while pretending to the world we are the worst enemies. Years passed, but our bond is unbreakable even if it seems unreal. We will always be Beauty and the Beast, and although we cannot be together we will NEVER ever be apart...

Whose fault has been our seemingly state of vanishment? Both... none's... Fate fickleness, maybe, jealous of such a devotion among souls? It doesn't matter. We keep faith someday things will be different... So our pledges can be honored... So our dreams can become true... So we truly become one. One beautiful day we will be home.

True Love... The deepest pain, the deepest sorrow, the deepest bond... the greatest gift... the truest reason to live on, and keep believing. Someday... Full circle...

My Trilogy. Forever.

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Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Feeling: Happy
Thinking: About how to get the tickets for Universal and Disney and Medieval Times and Arabian Nights...
Breathing: Work, A/C, cables... AHHHHH!
Eating: BBQ saice in a bun... I want something cold, DAMNIT!
Loving: Kitties, Michita, Groundel, Alex, Sara, AVO, Zordak and, hell, why not, Trilogy.
Hating: I don't hate. Hate is such a strong, awful word...
Remembering: The Golden Years, my youth... Spelljammer... Endless LA-RPG...
Wishing: For more money, to pay ALL debts and just get my credit fixed to get a wonderful feline lair... Grrrrrrrrrr

So... Hope this weekend I can achieve a little more... Feel tired, and tomorrow must go to a freak reunion. Hopefully I'll get to see Coriolis if he go with me to have lunch. Since my car misbehaved todays morning, I had to ask for work transportation... Sooooo... On saturday I hope I can get my wedding dress to the sewing-lady, then visit Pabon. On Sunday, I'll finish the freakin masks. On Monday I'll take my car to the vet... and pay the rent. On Tuesday I'll go to CR to get some vases, and then to get some willow and baby's breath so I can start the boutonniers. Sooooo... Plenty to do, nowhere to run to, nowhere to hide...

Last night dyed my hair w/ a brand dye... turned out orange-carrot-reddish... Hmm... Don't like it. I prefer the inhuman hue of the vampy red. But that has to wait for next week's weekend! LOL

The three little piggies... kitties... are so cute, cute, cute! Michita has been a Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat mom, and they are always clean and well fed. Gotta get some Ensure for Mich, though... They are gonna drain her!

Well, that's the newsflash for now... Oh, been planning the honeymoon... 14 days, FL, Disney-Universal-yadda yadda... Now it's for real! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

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The breeze crawls slowly, moving leaves and allowing the ghosts to dance... And so they do. The dance is slow and serene, yet the breeze alows the howl to travel faster than the movements...

The howls speak of the deepest of sorrows...

And then it all stops. The swift wind dies. The leaves fall to the ground, a carpet of moss and corroding nature that pretends to keep the howl mute... The ghosts are gone... Are they?

Every moonless night, the breeze returns... the ghosts dance if only in the shadowy realms of... the twilight zone...

Alas! My ghosts will live on forever!

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HAPPY FATHERS DAYYYYY!!!

UPDATE: Michita had 3 babies, NOT 2. The third one is grey, just like Kyonnene! :))

THIS IS AWESOME!!!! Michita is a Mother of 2 BEAUTIFUL Gothic Kitties!!!

She was calling and calling and calling and would only shut up if I was in the bathroom (where I have her confined). So I layed on the floor and put my hand inside the taxi... It was the only way she would stay quiet. She put her head over my hand. And then I fall asleep. I heard a sound and woke up. A baby kitty was turning at his mommys side, and another one was coming out. It was amazing. Once again, Michita demonstrated she has lightning speed for doing everything! :P

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Yesterday, San German and Rum. Today Aguadilla. Thank heavens that i do not have to travel 2morrow to the capital... Yayyyyy! I am sleepy, tired and not feeling so well. Plus the weekend will be something... again...

Feelings for the day: Moody. Angry. Exhasperated. Vicious. Killer. Mayhem. Chaos. Entropy. Disorder.

Thoughts for the day: One brain, it has time sharing for all men around the world.

Action of the day: Updates

Concern of the day: I wish someone would really make me feel I am so valuable to him...

Hope of my life: I do believe miracles do happen... Its waiting that dissapoints so much...

I'm just tired, I guess. Pessimistic the whole day, got some of the bad dust of the Snow Queen... so it hardens heart and blurs vision. Whatever. Maybe it's just PMS. Maybe I'm too stressed underneath the happy serenity, maybe it's all an omen...

Gotta sleep. 2 long days coming soon...

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Loooong day... Coriolis tiró bombazo, para variar... Terminé los 48 antifaces, now just 12 complete masks to go. Yup, having fun... NOT! Monday I'll see the dentist, and on Tuesday I'll visit old Circo to take measurements of the place for the deco... Trilogy called, he was gonna make some cd's for moi, because he felt like it? Hmmm... Whatever.

Michita is doing great. She is very alert, but still no kitties birth... So I guess is 2 more weeks to go? :)

Nothing else on the Yellow Bricked Road.

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Scrapbooking a-lot... Got some pages for more scrapbooking mayhem. Hey!!! Popu! Michi! Vero! Coriolis! Lucinda! I need pictures! So, send pictures to me, damnit! SEND THEM NOW! You know the old address... been the same for more than 30 years. ;)

Been gardening too... I got a fever, that must be it...

No work 2morrow and 2sday. Gotta see the eye doc and finish some manualidades, buahahah...

114 Fahrenheit degrees... The wave is coming! I'm melting! I'm melting!

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God will fight for you

"And I am sure that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished..."

Encouragement is affirming others and the work they are doing for God.

Philippians 1:6 NLT

STARDATE 999999999.999
BY EARTH STANDARDS, MEMORIAL DAY
BY US SLAVES OF PLANET ARV, MEDIODIA A MEDIO PRECIO
TRANSLATION: Yup, had to work 9-2 today. New system, testing required, slaves to work...

It's been a loooooooong weekend.

Friday. Groundel got his confirmation, and Lucinda was the godmother. The whole thing took place at the restore cathedral of Candelaria at my hometown... I see where all expenses went... They repaired what they shouldn't have and added things that look plainly bad becuse now there is a bad combination of different time periods and different styles... Anyway, the Confirmation took place, and Groundel was happy about it. :)

On Saturday went on a QUEST for armor... Yes, armor as in chivalric meaning... Went to this place in Aguada that is completely decorated as a medieval castle... They have an armor, shields, swords, castle... Ok, so I cannot take with me the place, but I do need the 2 armors for my wedding's decoration... The boss will come from vacation on the 15th, so until them I hope I can send good vibes to the guy so he allows me to loan/rent them! The two armors are GORGEOUS!

After that, went to the scrapbooking place in my hometown... Big mistake. I had to arrive home and start scrapbooking... The hobby is ensnaring me, I spent from 4pm to 11pm doing scrapbooking for Groundels childhood pics.

Sunday... got up to try putting my place in order, then went to Auntie's place where I hibernated for a long while. She made chayote relleno. This is the first time I eat it... It's damn good! Had a second helping... And then did some bidding for gothic fun.

Today, got up at 7am, went to work, then attacked the scrapbooking place again. Went home and made a general friends page and started organizing a page for Groundel's cousin & sis, and for my brothers and sisters...

And then went to Auntie's again for a dosis of cyberspace... I guess I do need to feel I belong somewhere... like here... Duh!

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Use wisely what you have and you will be given more

It's easy to be jealous of other's abilities. How do I deal with that?

"The strength of a horse does not impress him; how puny in his sight is the strength of a man."

You may long for the speed of a horse, but you would not want to become a horse. Very often the abilities we want are found in a person we would not want to be like.

Psalm 147:10

En ocasiones no sabemos que esta acurriendo a nuestro alrededor,
pero tarde o temprano nos lo dejan saber. Y el camino aparece ante nosotros como un perfecto PLAN.


LOS TRES ARBOLES

Había una vez tres árboles en una colina de un bosque.
Hablaban acerca de sus sueños y esperanzas.

El primero dijo: "Algún día seré un cofre de tesoros. Estaré
lleno de oro, plata y piedras preciosas. Estaré decorado con
labrados artísticos y tallados finos. Todos verán mi belleza."

El segundo árbol dijo: "Algún día seré una poderosa
embarcación. Llevaré los más grandes reyes y reinas a través de los
océanos, e iré a todos los rincones del mundo. Todos se sentirán
seguros por mi fortaleza, fuerza y mi poderoso casco."

Finalmente el tercer árbol dijo: "Yo quiero crecer para ser el
más recto y grande de todos los árboles en el bosque. La gente me
verá en la cima de la colina, mirará mis poderosas ramas y pensarán
en el Dios de los cielos, y cuán cerca estoy de alcanzarlo. Seré el
más grande árbol de todos los tiempos y la gente siempre me
recordará.

Después de unos años de orar para que sus sueños se
convirtieran en realidad, un grupo de leñadores vino donde estaban
los árboles. Cuando vio al primer árbol dijo: Este parece un árbol
fuerte. Creo que podría vender su madera a un carpintero.," y
comenzó a cortarlo. El árbol estaba muy feliz debido a que sabía
que el carpintero podría convertirlo en un cofre para tesoros.

El otro leñador dijo mientras observaba el segundo árbol:
Parece un árbol fuerte, creo que lo podré vender al carpintero del
puerto." El segundo árbol se puso muy feliz porque sabia que estaba
en camino a convertirse en una poderosa embarcación.

El último leñador se acercó al tercer árbol, el cual estaba
asustado, pues sabía que si lo cortaban, su sueño nunca se volvería
realidad. El leñador dijo entonces: No necesito nada especial del
árbol que corté, así que tomaré este" y cortó al tercer árbol.

Cuando el primer árbol llegó donde el carpintero, fue
convertido en un cajón de comida para animales y fue puesto en un
pesebre y llenado con paja. Se sintió muy mal pues eso no era por
lo que tanto había orado.

El segundo árbol fue cortado y convertido en una pequeña balsa
de pesca, ni siquiera lo suficientemente grande para navegar en el
mar, y fue puesto en un lago. Y vio como sus sueños de ser una gran
embarcación cargando reyes había llegado a su final.

El tercer árbol fue cortado en largas y pesadas tablas y
dejado en la oscuridad en una bodega.

Años más tarde, los árboles olvidaron sus sueños y esperanzas
por las que tanto habían orado. Entonces un día un hombre y una
mujer llegaron al pesebre. Ella dio a luz un niño y lo colocó en la
paja que había dentro del cajón en que fue transformado el primer
árbol. El hombre deseaba haber podido tener una cuna para su bebé,
pero este
cajón debería serlo.
Había contenido el más grande tesoro de la historia.

Más tarde, un grupo de hombres entraron en la balsa en la cual
habían convertido al segundo árbol. Uno de ellos estaba cansado y
se durmió en la barca. Mientras ellos estaban en el agua una gran
tormenta se desató y el árbol pensó que no sería lo suficientemente
fuerte para salvar a los hombres. Los hombres despertaron al que
dormía, quien se levantó y dijo: " ¡Calma! ¡Quédate quieto!", y la
tormenta y las olas se detuvieron. En ese momento el segundo árbol
se dio cuenta de que había llevado al Rey de Reyes y Señor de
Señores.

Finalmente, un tiempo después alguien vino y tomó al tercer árbol
convertido en tablas. Fue cargado por las calles al mismo tiempo que la
gente escupía, insultaba y golpeaba al Hombre que lo cargaba. Se
detuvieron en una pequeña colina y el Hombre fue clavado al árbol y
levantado para morir en la cima de la colina. Cuando llegó el
domingo, el tercer árbol se dio cuenta de que el fue lo suficiente
fuerte
para
permanecer erguido en la cima de la colina, y estar tan cerca de
Dios como nunca, porque JESUS había sido crucificado en él.

Cuando parece que las cosas no van de acuerdo a tus planes,
debes saber que siempre DIOS tiene un plan para ti. Si pones tu
confianza en EL, te dará grandes regalos a su tiempo.

Recuerda que cada árbol obtuvo lo que pidió, sólo que no en la
forma en que pensaba. No siempre sabemos lo que Dios planea para
nosotros, sólo sabemos que sus caminos no son nuestros caminos,
pero sus caminos SIEMPRE SON LOS MEJORES.

Si tienes un amigo solo envíale éste mensaje para que sepa que

DIOS TIENE UN PLAN PARA EL

"Hay un momento para cada cosa y un tiempo para todo bajo el sol"
Vive el presente, pero vívelo bien, de tal manera que el futuro sea una
esperanza y el pasado sea una gran lección

Helloooo kiddies! Yesterday was a busy day! Post Office, then Shrek2, then HotTopic, then auntie... Mural due today, I guess during the afternoon? Right now I'm doing the laundry. :)

Got a bright pink Jem and the Holograms tshirt... Sooooooo 80's! Yay!

Shrek2 was AWESOME! From the opening to the Vida Loca, it was fun, fun, fun. Loved the fact Fiona and Shrek stayed the same. This world or any for that matter doesn't belong just to starving, skinny people. Yayyyyyy!!!!

Oh, the day is beautiful grey, almost like London skies, huh? Wishful thinking...

Not much besides routine and a bit of anxiety... need weekends of 8 days...

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Friday, FINALLY! I am frigging tired, at least 90% of Aguadilla is done. What's left is easy to do. :)

Gotta do a mural for Monday... Some scrapbooking and some magic. ;)

Tah tah...

Pegue parte de la Familia en el carro... Girl, Boy, Cat, Cat... Me faltan 3 gatos... LOL That's cute... I'm a cute-happy goth, so what?

Coriolis has been so busy he forgot about some things... Whoooosh! Man, take a break, travel far, come to Mayaguez, stay for a week, throw game, have fun!

Kitty sleeping on the toilet cover... Ahhhhhhhh! Cute...

At work... same old...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR.AVO A.K.A. POPUMAN
MAY YOUR DREAMS FINALLY DO SOMETHING AND COME TRUE, DAMNIT!!!
HUGGGGGSSSSSSS!

Black pregnant kitty is doing fine, still scared of humans BUT loves Ensure and dry food. :) Been hand feeding her, making sure she is without fleas... Bathed her with the anti-fleas lotion after she ate so there were no complaints. She is adorable! Ohhhhh, no, no, no, I am NOT falling in love with kitty... NO! She will just stay to recuperate and then to Lucinda's home... :( I can't have another baby until I have a house... Small apartment for all of us!

Working a lot, got the insane "pasos" which made no difference on my income... Have a reunion at SJ on Monday but I have no transportation and my arm-neck-head will not allow me such a looong drive... Damn, don't know what I will do...

Haven't done much about the wedding stuff, been raining like hell and I just don't feel the creative bug bitting me... I feel like laying, taking pills and just fading into uncontiousness... Been sad, a bit depressed... The financial hole is deeper each month... I expected a nice raise but I should have predicted the outcome... I hope that Sila's raise on June and the job title changes that will happen on August for everyone reflects a salary change at least... Being underpaid is definitively NOT funny... I must hold on until Nov, when I'll get rid of the car's expense... but the wedding is in Oct and I still have not been able to separate the catering and videologist... The fotographer is a cool guy, at least he is on... But without the help of family there's no way I will be able to gather the money for the reception... I didnt expect the "demotion"... It completely damaged the budget... Groundel will start working full time next month, but until then we have 2 financial entities with 3 months due, 2 visas and the car, and the rent... oh, and the phone! The phone matter... I'll try solving THAT in June. I need to be able to communicate with the few friends I've got... Grrrrr...
The timing of everything... But even if we can only do the church ceremony, we will get married... Aunque sea lo'ultimo que haga, LO ULTIMO QUE HAGAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I'm gathering up designs of my favorite things. To see if in Dec I can get inked... In black so it stands out in my skin. So far it must have:
-The thundercats symbol and japanese sy for honor, truth, valor and loyalty (The Code of Thundera)... Cualquier semejanza con el circulo Arturiano es pura coincidencia... ;P
-A dragon
-A kittie
-Tribal thorned vine
-Decepticon symbol
-A sword
-Hindu allusion, sy or deity

What do you think that could be a cool design for my lower back? Email me options, please! Open to suggestions! :) I would like a sleeve, but that would be like 10-15 years from now.

Took some pics of lady kitty...

Changed my super-ultra-itsy-bitsy-teeny-wheeny livingroom... New positions, may do a small mural to change ambience... Kitties loved it. :)

Watched Wrestlemania XX... Unexpected heavyweight champion, but damn, after so many years trying, he well deserved to win! I didn't knew the depht of Steve Austin's injuries... That's a WOW. And still he can KICK ASS! Ohhhhh, and I wanted so badly to smell what the Rock was cooking! :)) And although Eddie is not perfect, it was swell he won as well. Seeing little-people (sort off) winning kinda lifts the spirits... Triple H looks AWESOME!Oh... don't you worry, Mr. Olympia...Arnold... I'll always be yours... :D

Watched the Peter Pan, 2003 version... Loved the sites and the Fairies! The Fairy Godmother dancing was Magical!!! And the flying!!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! But everything else sucked... Faithful to the book, though... So I heard...

Boring life still kicking for few excitements... Whatever...

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I believe in justice and truth, without which there would be no basis for human hope.

-His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Weird days...

Saturday: FEMALE ROACH ATTACKS GODDESS
Yup... I was minding my own business in the bathroom, when a winged roach jumped on me... I have this AVERSION and TERROR when it comes to roaches... So imagine the outcome...

Sunday: CROWITO and Dia de MADRE
Oh...Crow woke me up because he was running in a frenzy. When I turned on the light I see something coming from his but while he ran faster than a speeding bullet... Not a worm, mind you... And yes it had shit. He had swallowed plastic raffia and it found its way out... Gross!!!

In the afternoon I wanted to go visit everyone, but when I turned on the car it would only hum like a speedgun... Nothing. We had to go walk down to the nearest mall to eat and put some minutes in my cel and call for help. Lucinda came to the rescue... The battery was dead. Long afternoon...

Monday: Doc says...
Had to ask for permission to see my vet... doc... because of my eye-pain. Turns out its because of my bad back, so she gave me some pills that puts you to sleep... relaxing you. I took Tuesday and Wednesday off so I could take them AND rest.

Tuesday: The kitty from San Juan
This cat... was in the motor of a van whose owner had just arrived from San Juan to Mayaguez. The guy was driving at 80mph, stopped at Walgreens to get food and when he started the van again heard something in the motor... So he went to the near Western Auto, where Lucinda's hubby works. He enlisted 4 more guys to go, push the car to the garage, put all the motor in pieces, and finally get kitty out. Black cat, with many slashes especially a big nasty one over an eye... we dont know how come the eyeball was untouched... An angel guarded him...
So... Lucinda calls me. I go get kitty. Since it was trembling and loosing blood, I took it to the local vet. From 3:30 to 8pm... The kitty made it. I will take care of it until it is fine and then Lucinda will take him home... Ohhh, not a him, but a her... And, the kitty is PREGNANT. LOL That was yesterday's commotion...

Wednesday: Slept until 2pm, when Lucinda knocked at my door taking me away from Dreamland. She saw kitty, and left. So, I came here to my aunt's place so I could tell the world about me, so people do not start thinking I died or something...

;)

Back to work tomorrow. Friday will be Aguadilla, whole day.

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