The worst part of the tropical storm is over. It has been 2 days of chaos at my aunt's house... She complains for everything, fights for everything and has been too nervous and driving me crazy. Well, all of us managed not to kill each other. I am feeling terrible, seems I've got a fever plus some magical bonuses... I just wanna go to the peace & quiet of my home. I hope it didnt get flooded, that would be a greater headache.

Setito has been misbehaving. He has not allowed me to sleep. I'm on the edge of doing kitty sushi... Grrr... Isis has been the oppossite, looking for me beying her lovely loyal self.

Had a fight with Groundelette thanks to her Fabio deals. I am getting sick and tired of a guy that wont eat and wont let her eat, plus that calls me names without knowing me. I have every right to tease him, after all I am not insulting him just bothering him which is enough for me. It is anoying that I pay for the phone yet I am the last one to know it's been used. I have been nice and polite about it, joking around the truth taking people's feelings into consideration BUT I am tired of being goody goody miss Tolerance. I was taught ever since I was small to ASK before taking, even to do so when I wanted juice from the fridge in MY house. I get VERY upset when my ownership is desecrated by disrespectful ignorance. I TRY to understand youth, but it is all simply too appalling. What is so WRONG with young people today? What is so wrong about courtesy and manners and consideration and respect? Example: If I turn off all lights while someone is chatting on the net, what should be the course of action? My mind thinks: She will get that we should ALL go to sleep. Her mind seems to get: Cool! Up all night chatting! At last the Internet is for myself! Yayyy! Hmmm... I understand the feeling of having to wait around for using a ohone or the net... I understand the craving to chat, I used to chat nonstop like 15 years ago... But, but, BUT... Check mails, post blog, chat an hour if you know that the computer you are using is not yours, if you know you must use a phone line which is the only means of communication with the outside world, and finally, go to sleep when everyone else does!

Reality check: I login to browse stuff for the wedding during weekdays, and to check my mail. I stop by 10pm because I have to get up at 6am to go to WORK. Same with Groundel. If I stay on Friday logged on from 5pm to 3am is ok because there is NO work the next day. I have been tolerating lights after 10pm, chat after 12pm, and it's simply not funny. The cats make enough noise to add to it. I am not like Groundel who can sleep in plain sunlight... I need TOTAL DARKNESS to sleep. I mentioned this a few weeks ago... and it fell on deaf ears... Plus I am target of comments about being online from my arrival to my sleep... Hellooooo! If I want to be online 24/7 is MY business, I pay for the phone! And the bill always go over a hundred. So, I stick my tongue out of my mouth to you people! Grow up! And if you cannot take jokes or advises, well, fuck you!

Fabio: An asswipe that feigns ignorance and takes complete advantage of Groundelette's gullible willingness... His so called big problems are laughable. He wants to die but faints at the sight of blood, PLUS he is protestant yet continuously dares God patence stating he wants to die... Don't you know that is no joke, especially to God? Just thinking about it is a sin... And you go to church and act as if you had true faith... Only on the holy days of the week of course Que bueno es predicar la moral en calzoncillos! The same "religious" guy swears all the time and calls every woman even if they have never met him a bitch. Mister, do you KNOW the true meaning of the word BITCH? It is not pretty, it is not nice to call a lady a bitch, and it is completely disrespectful and denigrating to any woman. I am older than you, I can easily spank you, but I fear then you might like it! I joke and have an attitude, but I have been studying all my life, I have a bachelor's degree, a master's degree, training courses, and other studies because I felt like it. I am a professional, and in my job noone can complain about my services. And I may not be an active catholic but I do have a code of honor for which I live, I believe in God and try to make Him smile EVERYDAY. Soooo... What can you say about yourself, puppy? This bitch can take you anytime and destroy you if she wanted to. So I suggest you get the true facts about who you decide to mess with... And take the facts like a MAN. To close, your playing with Groundelette leaves much to say about you, coward. Same about your trying to simply avoid me. What you have to fear? I am truth. And I fear nothing.

Breathe in, breathe out...

Groundelette: I can say Absolutely No Regrets because I am very transparent and I do give many chances. I expect a 21 year old that can think beyond surfaces. So you better grow up and get to that place. "Nuff said.

Breath in, breathe out...

Groundel: I expect YOU to be a MAN as well... Gosh, there seems to be a lack of true men around! I have no place for cowards and I am fed up with having to do things by myself and to simply fight the WORLD all by myself. Especially when I am right. Especially when I give everything to everyone around me, with plenty of love and hope. "Nuff said.

Coriolis: Where in Hell are you, Carmen Sandiego? Damn!

I am pissed, sleepy, mad, angry, and by the complete quorum... simply bitchy.

10-4

Tropical storm Jeanne will give a slight blink as any good genie would, and will pass quickly and swiftly, leaving much rain on her way. Great, more rain… And the forecast says it will be around 9 inches of rain, so… flood alerts… Gee, we don’t even need tropical storms and there are floods (like last week around the old highway between SanGermán and CaboRojo… Every piece of earth within the isle is saturated with water, so… its almost like a hurricane type 1 –2 will strike us… Jeanne, always making mischief to get her master’s attention… Seems Ivan the Terrible left his genie sealed in the bottle for too long, and she wants revenge! Buahahahah!
No, not in drugs… LOL I am naturally tripping and insine… Kapish?

So… Last night was too tired to do anything, so just had fun browsing the net for the perfect elven ring, and for my aunt’s attire (still going)… Today I went to RUM and solved things quickly… Ah, mostly the big problems there at the pieces in front of the keyboard, and cannot replace those! ;)

Everyone is getting ready for floods and so, its almost as if a hurricane were about to hit. Everyone is alert and cranky and in expectation… Will the Gobe give the day free tomorrow? The world may never know…
I may be going to San Juan on Friday to attend a meeting. God answered my prayers and a client will force the administration to make a travel over to Area Metro, so I can join… I cannot travel that far with my car, it is about to RIP unless it gets some sugar, and I cannot do that until December… Sooooo…. It is all a matter of finding ways to solve little problems and go on.

Enough about natural catastrophes and work… or at least about work. I think Michita still has parasites, so I will have to go through Phase 2 of Attack of the Worms tonight… and exterminate them! (the parasites, NOT the kitties!) :) at least she looks much more alive, reacting and running and prancing happily around the house. Ah, so maternal, running loose with the kiddies… And Cyric FINALLY began to eat solid food, so it’s another headache that ends. He was worrying me, since he would keep on stalking Michita for milk and would not even approach the plates. I had to bribe him into discovering the wonders of a plate that wont move, with milk that wont run away LOL And then it all hit him "Hey… I don’t have to stalk this food!" Poor Cyric, he is a bit of a moron… but he’s cute. The new problem is that both Cyric and Kyonne are getting fond of using the comforter to pee… which makes me want to kill them… but they will get the point of the litter after they lern the meaning of the word NO.

Gotta show Groundelette how to make the centerpieces for the pumpkin charriots. That will be one of the things to do tonight… Need to start putting together the invitations as well. And need to check ebay to see if I got to sell something. Money money money is all you need…

The A/C is too high, getting sleepy and freezing to death. I need to get some earplugs, the noise from the servers is making me deaf.

10-4

Borrowed this questionnaire from Vero... Yup, that bored... ;)

01. Di algo para comenzar: Estoy rodeada de idiotas…
02. ¿Qué hora es?: 7:30PM
03. ¿Qué hora te gustaría que fuese?: 12 AM, Witching Hour Buahahahahahah
04. ¿A qué edad has tenido tu primera relación?: Los extraterrestres me llevaron por muchos meses y no recuerdo nada…
05. Di algo que te gustaría poseer en estos momentos: Una casa con 4 cuartos, family, kittyroom, sala, comedor, cocina, 3 baños, laundry, hunting ground, mini-theater, gaming room, piscina y una Harley. En el patio una hermosa pareja de Rotties muy muy malos, y adentro mis 7 gatos. Ah, y por supuesto, comida en la alacena. LOL
06. ¿A quién sodomizarías en estos momentos?: Hmmm… Lista larga…
07. Di uno de tus fetiches: Bodybuilders con tatuajes de espalda completa y piercings en cejas y nariz… Tipo genio… Miauuuuuuuuuuuuu!
08. ¿Qué estás escuchando en estos momentos?: Bat Out of Hell de Meatloaf
09. Di tres cosas que hagas regularmente: Hacer planes para mi vida, surfear E-bay, escribir
10. ¿A quién le harías sexo oral?: Ewwwwwwwwww
11. ¿Te has desnudado alguna vez en público?: Y darle ese placer a la gente? Nah!
12. ¿De quiénes te gustaría ser el hijo bastardo?: John Lennon, LaoMa
13. Descríbete a tí mismo: Mercurial, creativa, terca, innovadora, soñadora, surreal, egocentrista, narcisista, trabajadora, estofona, perfeccionista, jodona, peleona, dominante
14. Di otra cosa a tu elección: No tengo la culpa de ser diferente
15. Baila SOBRE alguien que esté en tu lista de amigos: Yo no bailo
16. Baila CON alguien que esté en tu lista de amigos una canción a tu elección: eh… Yo no bailo Kapish?
17. ¿Cómo te gustaría que sea tu funeral?: Música movida, ropa negra de encaje, mucha comida.. Estilo funeral de jíbaros… con todo y lechón asao
18. ¿A casa de cuál de tus contactos irías a comer grátis regularmente?: Coriolis… LOL Siempre me invita a comer a Fudrockers :D
19. Sácate un moco y pégaselo a alguno de tus contactos en la punta de la nariz!: LOL Groundelette Look out!
20. ¿En qué pose te sacarías una foto porno?: No creo en el porno
21. ¿De qué canción harías un videoclip y cómo sería éste?: De "Palabras más, palabras menos" de Los Rodríguez… Me imagino pantalla negra con líricas de la cancion flotando etéreamente…
22. ¿Con quién y en dónde te fumarías un porro de marihuana?: No creo en las drogas
23. ¿A quiénes le darías una patada en el culo?: Wow! De gratis? LOL
24. ¿A quién le quemarías la casa?: Que feo. A nadie.
25. ¿A quién decapitarías con una motosierra?: Hmmm… Trilogy, Look Out!
26. ¿Con las cabezas de quién te gustaría decorar tu habitación?: LOL Para hacer mucho vudú…
27. ¿A quién le darías lástima porque no tienes amigos y no eres popular?: A toda la sociedad? Mucha gente piensa eso… Y total, no me interesa tener fan club ni me interesa tener muchos amigos. Los que tengo son exactamente los que necesito, y van a estar ahí siempre.
28. Si fueses una prenda de vestir, qué serías?: Un corsé victoriano violeta
29. Si fueses una criatura inexistente, qué serías?: un ave fénix
30. Di algo para finalizar: Derrota, qué derrota?

:P

On Saturday had to go fetch the choker at Ponce. Since I had no money for nothing else, there were specials everywhere, especially at my favorite gothic store… Grrrrrr… So, we went back home, passed by auntie and then some seriuos surfing until 3am.

On Sunday, woke up around 12. Felt like continuing the scrapbook I’m putting together for the wedding. So, did serious scrapbooking until 10:30 PM. Nonstop paper mayhem… I was so concentrated I even skipped lunch! Damn! Well, finised the 1974-1992 part on the grooms side. Now, starting the groom’s family side. I hope I can finish it by this next weekend.

Groundelette has been developing some manual skills doing feathery stuff. She’s starting to get really good at it. Who knows, maybe if she puts her mind to it, she can do that for a living. Handling feathers should come naturally, after all, Fabio falls in that cathegory! LOL ;)

I’m tired, achy, and stressed. Dyed my hair as it was too faded. And no, I couldn’t do my roots. Damnit! People keep saying "but you have roots"… well, duh! But my bleached hair aint faded no more. I never care for roots. Whatever. Besides, I’m doing the roots in 2 weeks. Wanted to allow breathing room for my scalp, don’t want to go for the Stone Cold look yet.

Ah, I was really LMFAO hysterically while reading Vero’s misadventures… So she discovered tangible PROOF that AVO IS GAY!!! I knew it! I knew he would give in to the Dark Side! I knew it was a matter of time! Yayyyyyyyyyyyy!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! May the light shine forever!!!! Hahahahahahah Tag! You are it!!!

Gotta find the seamstress so the final touches for the bridesmaids are taken care for. And gotta see who can do the friggin cake. Two or three small details, and the 2 big murals and everything should be at least decent. :)
Ahhhh, after all this I will focus on the business plan for the 2 businesses I want to create. One of them gotta make it next year… But that is another story.

10-4

The Greatest Show on Earth open its doors once more, featuring amazing acts and incredible ordeals! Come on in, and discover exotic animals, human plants and walking pillows! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! Lucky for us, the hurricane went west and away from the little island… 2 out of 2… Frances and Ivan are gone, I wonder if this luck will keep going? Puerto Rico is in no shape to withstand a hurricane, yesterday it was raining cats and dogs and there were floods EVERYWHERE. So imagine a hurricane…

Work: The same. Today will be a manifestation because of opposition to the reclassifications… The Union lacks good leaders and it all may flop, but whatever… They’ll do so at midday, and asked everyone to come dressed in black. Awwwwww, my dream comes true!!! Many Jedi’s roaming the place.

Friends: Turmoils on some lands, some people REALLY hate me (Yes!) and others cannot help but praise me (Heheheh). But overall things are quiet, mellow…

Groundelette and her Fabio crush are driving me nuts. Maybe that’s why I have this allergy, so many peaches make me sick? LOL At least they are talking to each other. I hope the asswipe gets to realize what a great gal she is, and makes an effort to try having something more than friendship with her. Under the scope… In the meanwhile been keeping her busy with house chores. Yesterday she did an almost perfect cleanup. Yayyyyyy!!!

Groundel is the same, working, trying to study. He gotta get a student loan to help with wedding expenses and to bring his mommy from NewJersey. We’ll keep that under the scope too…

Coriolis have been with some brainy issues lately. He’s discovered that he is half human after all and that sucks. LOL Anyway, taking into account the “ am alone in the world” “lone wolf" speeches, I would say that perhaps frustration is taking the best of him, … I know how he feels and it is a pity to say this but he had to go through all he has gone trough in matters of love so he discovered he has feelings and should be unafraid to show them. If he had this knowledge so many years ago in a galaxy far away, perhaps WE could have worked things out. But the lone wolf was very stubborn and closed to himself, selfish and intolerant. And still is, but only one thing is different: now he KNOWS he has feelings. Even if it bothered you, I am glad you have been going to that little brainy phase thanks to the unknown named lady. It reminded you that you are alive and that perhaps there are some things more important than logic. :) Oh yes, this is a late reaction to the questions because I was sleeping by the time, and it took me two days to analyze what I could remember. LOL Alzheimer…

HouseHunt: Looking for a bigger place at the same low price, sort of. Gotta be with 3-4 rooms and in a civilized area… no dwelling in the mountains, I’m a city slicker. Got two places, one for 275 and the other for 400… Gonna take a look, but still looking. If I can get the 275 that will be the winner. Lower than what I pay now and 3 rooms. And the 7 kitties will live happily too. :)

Wedding Stuff: Sent message to the bridal party so they know where we are and what needs to be done. Xladydeath has been helping a-lot with the invitations, so they may come out by Saturday. I am halfway with the centerpieces, and expect to have them done by tomorrow night. Gotta get the vases for the flower arrangements, may do so on Saturday since I’m going to Ponce hopefully with the right crew. Gotta get the last necklace, do some mystery shopping and then go to the bridal stuff place. Maybe some sightseeing afterwards, who knows, depends on budget and mood.

That’s about it for now. Peace and break a leg!

10-4

It seems Hurricane Ivan will allow us to brathe a little and will just go straight ahead to the Dominican republic, Haiti, cuba and even Florida… Rain is in the menu for tomorrow… Damn, Florida is really, REALLY screwed up! Two hurricanes in a row! My honeymoon is supposed to be there, but I dunno… if this hurricane season remains so active, I may have to skip that as well. Better safe than sorry…

I am not so angry but only a bit mad to keep my status as Mad Witch ;) And I am commanding everyone around me so things get done fast and effectively. I made a budget of sorts, and if I manage to survive untill December, next year things may look up in that aspect. I hope my car holds on until January, so I can fix everything it has by then.

Looking for a project/housing for Michi’s family core. Hopefully they will get the 3-room apartment. If not they’ll have to look in Hormigueros project, or check other options.

I love my apartment and I hope to stay there… I may look into the Rio Cristal option and if I like the place and the pricing is lower and makes sense…THEN try to see if we can move there… After all, from studio to 3-roomed house is much better! I need the look-feel of space and order. I hate everything so crowded, even if I do take good advantage of the little space I have. J


Here is a simple questionnaire... Why not?

BASICS…
name = Kymill
piercings = ears, someday nose and bellybutton ;)
tattoos = none for now
height = 5'5
shoe size = 12
boot size= 13
hair color = black, unnanutaral red, unnatural violet, unnatural orange
siblings = edny, tricia, joseluis,luisfelipe

LAST...
movie you rented = hmmm… Pitch Black
movie you bought = not movie, Season 3 Xena
song you listened to = Palabras más, palabras menos (Los Rodríguez)
song that was stuck in your head = theme from Chicago… "They had it coming"
cd you bought = Last Samurai
cd you listened to = Celtic Songs collection
person you've called = edny
person that's called you = coriolis
tv show you've watched = What Not To Wear
person you were thinking of = trilogy

DO...
you have a crush on someone = Crushed? Always.
you wish you could live somewhere else = Yup
you think about suicide = Nope. Applying suicide to others, yup.
you believe in online dating = Not anymore
others find you attractive = Who can resist me? I’m a goddess!
you want more piercings = Yes, yes, yes
you like cleaning = Yes, I’m very tidy.
you like roller coasters = Hell No!
you write in cursive or print = love my cursive writing, beautiful Spanish letters

FOR OR AGAINST...
long distance relationships = been there, done that, didn’t believe, didn’t work
using someone = NEVER, completely against my code of honor
suicide = AGAINST suicide is for losers
killing people = AGAINST let them kill themselves
teenage smoking = AGAINST smoking brings cancer, plus more pollution… we are doomed…
driving drunk = AGAINST start by just drinking being a dumb thing to do…
gay/lesbian relationships = Whatever rocks your boat
soap operas = AGAINST they are always insulting people’s intelligence plus give a completely distorted expectation of life especially to bratty femmes who expect porince charming to chose them after having a thousand and one affairs…

HAVE YOU...
ever cried over a girl = yes
ever cried over a boy = yes
ever lied to someone = No. And sometimes that’s my biggest problem…
ever been in a fist fight = What!
ever been arrested = Never. I am extremely Lawful

WHAT...
shampoo do you use = Head&Shoulders, GenericMatrix
shoes do you wear = Pleasers and HotTopic
are you scared of = People’s Ignorance

NUMBER...
of times I have been in love? = 4
of times I have had my heart broken? = 100+
of hearts I have broken? = 4
of girls I have kissed? = 0
of boys I have kissed? = 6
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 2
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = LOL I wish I could have that kind of promotion…
of scars on my body? = 2
of things in my past that I regret? = ABSOLUTELY NO REGRETS

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
pretty – DUH, I am a goddess, remember?
funny - Nope
hot – Sometimes
friendly – Not really.
amusing – Maybe, for elves only
ugly – An ogre would think that… They are plain stupid
loveable – Awwwwwww…
caring – Too much
sweet – and sour…
dorky – Im a techie and a nerd, duh!

PERSON WHO LAST
Slept in your bed: Crowito
Saw you cry: Crowito
Made you cry: Mistrita when she died
You went to the movies with: Groundel, Mike and Michi
Sent you an email: Too much SPAM

HAVE YOU EVER...?
Said "I love you" and meant it?: ALWAYS
Gone out in public in your pajamas: YUP
Cried during a movie: YUP
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: I hated Menudo, soy that’s it for boy bands…
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: Oh, years ago, in a galaxy far away! LMFAO!
Been on stage: Yes, both creating and performing. I should have been an actress, scenographer or something…
Been to New York: Hell no!
Canada: Someday
Wished you were the opposite sex: I was in my past life, a male pirate
What time is it now?: Boring afternoon
Apples or bananas?: Hmm… Apples. Bananas have too much sugar…
Blue or red?: RED! FLAMES! FIRE! PASSION! ARIES!
Walmart or target?: If there was a Target in PR, that would be my choice… but being realistic… Walmart
Spring or Fall?: SPRING, BEGINNINGS, REBORN, ARIES.
What are you gonna do after you finish this?: Keep making my list for my so called wedding
What was the last meal? EggRoll and Sphagetti Chef Boyardee…
Are you bored?: DUH
Last noise you heard?: Stupid computer
Last smell you sniffed?: Lemonade
Last time you went out of state/province?: January, to Texas to see Daddy

FRIENDS/LOVE
Do you believe in love at first sight?: No
Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: Adopt? Yes. How many? 6. Adopted so we can play nonstop roleplaying games 24/7 Buahahahahah!
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: TRUST

OTHER INFO
Criminal record?: NONE thankuverymuch
Do you speak any other languages?: English-Spanish… may start with French soon
Last book you read: The Vampire Armand by Anne Rice
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: My Anne rice book collection, my AD&D collection, my CDs collection, my weird hair extensions collection, my S&M collections, my Living Dead Dolls and Spawn and Xena figures collection, my XenaWP-WonderWoman-V-CaptainHarlock-Scifi Video-DVD collections, my dragon posters and dragon figures and dragon mural, my 7 kitties… need I go on?
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: Growing Up
Worst feeling in the world: Betrayal
Who you love: Family, friends, kitties and dragons
Who you miss: Trilogy

YOU
Nickname(s): kymill, vierna, blaze, deirdre, hivequeen,pompa
Initials: VRC
How old do you look?: 25
How old do you act?: 8?
Glasses/Contacts: both
Braces: no need, perfect teeth…
Do you have any pets?: Isis, Crow, Kyonnene, Kali, set, Michita, Cyric, Kyone2, Mistrita
You get embarrassed: Nope. I know myself too well to be embarassed.
What makes you happy?: Creating
What upsets you?: Injustice and Lies

FINISH THE SENTENCE:
I Love to... stare at myself in any shiny surface
I Miss... Kyonenne and Mistra
I Wish... I studied plastic arts or scenography
I Hope... that someday mankind is destroyed so elves, dwarves and halflings can live in harmony
I'm Annoyed by... pushy ignorant stupid people
I Am... almost perfect
I Want to Be... acnowledged as the powerful entity I am
I Would Never... betray my friends
I'd Rather... surf the Net
I Am Tired of... being a techie
I Will Always be... true to myself, insane, wicked, chaotic, opinionated, sassy, passionate, innocent, dreamer, fighter, seeker… a Dream to some but a Nightmare to others!

HAVE YOU EVER?
Thought you were going to die: Yup
Wanted to Run away: Always
Flunked a grade: Hell no! I’m a nerd, remember?
Skipped a grade: Helloooo!!! Are you deaf?

10-4

Bridesmaids royal blue & white dresses arrived. They are gorgeous! I am speaking to the seamstress to make boleros for them, with the scarves they came with. And I'm looking for the perfect necklace-earring combos.

Tailcoats are still in process, but should arrive in 2 more weeks.

Groundel is risking a no at the altar... Let's see if his daring pays off.

Trilogy is still in the thinking process and I fear that his little black notebook is in growth... which makes me uneasy, some... His requests are plainly unfair as it all goes to his side, not a 50-50. We'll see what the outcome will be when my scout goes to get the truth. I will trust my scout's decision, even if I don't like it. Hey, it is the voice of my living Jimminy Cricket after all!

Human males... Cannot live with them... thinking of living without them... Maybe I should get me another elf... Nah! :)

AVO has a nice collection of songs in his blog. I hope this buddy gets what he deserves, his heart is solid gold. And yes, get a nice shave, YOU NEED IT MR.BEAR! ;)

Coriolis PROMISED to pass by this weekend... Ahem... We'll see...

Lucinda passed by the other day with Big Orc and Einstein. Pizza Pizza!! Yummy! Although my tummy was not up for it... Vomiting the whole day Thursday and tummy trouble on Friday... Someone wants me to vanish or something? Apendicitis? I hope not! That would be worst than Ivan coming our way! Damnit!

10-4

Sometimes good times are just memories that are so far away that they fade into oblivion… I think that there aint much to do, there aint much to say… I am too angry and too ballistic to decide right now, but all my senses are telling me one fact that is irreversible and irrefutable: This is wrong. And my incstinct has never failed me. Groundel is just full of crap. And I am fed up of that crap. I am fed up on having so many responsabilities and so little consideration from everyone around me, especially him. I am fed up with being the “miracle doer” when problems arise, standing all by myself. I am fed up with being patient, and positive, and believing. I am fed up with having to pass as a “pendeja” just because… I am fed up.

Today I scream to the world I AM FED UP!!!!
Today I reclaim my old me, I change my name to Blaze Darkstream and I re-iniate my endless fight against injustice and evil!
Today I stand all over the little people, and embrace whom I am without any fear.
Today I see my true self, and I cry of joy at the realization that the more something changes, the more it stays the same. I have changed much, but the same stays:
I am in love with myself, first.
I am in love with my endless quest for justice.
I enjoy helping everyone, anytime.
I give much more than I have, expecting nothing.
I am a believer of truth, honor, courage, and valor.
I am a believer of faith.
I am a dreamer on a chaotic land.
I am a feminist in a macho-infested world.
I am free to do as I want, as I believe, as I know is right.
I have not been scared, but cautious. I am tired of caution. Aries is not about caution, but action. And I intend to act, no matter what.
I am enraged, yes… I am mad, yes… But since this rage and madness has been lingering for a long time, it is in truth a releasing experience in which I let go of false prophets and ideas. It is time for truth. I am fed up with lies.
I want truth! I am true, to my friends and to my loves, so I demand TRUTH.
In TRUTH shall I rest in peace, and arise as the vengeful spirit I am.

I am fed up with society and conformity.
I am fed up with being taken for granted.
I am fed up with swallowing lies and lies and lies.
I am fed up with staleness.

As William Wallace once screamed before dying and being dismembered: “FREEEEDDOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!”

Quote the raven “Nevermore”

10-4

Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly

Just a little change
Small to say the least
Both a little scared Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast

Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before Ever just as sure
As the sun will rise

Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bitter sweet and strange Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong

Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast

Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme

Beauty and the beast...

Sad... Some things can't change, others can change, others stale... The history of my life... Ah, whatever...
Frances hurricane will leave some winds and rain, but I don't expect much to happen. Acaban de decir que mañana gobierno no trabaja... Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Again, sad... Thinking of what could have been but wasn't...
Thinking of the One...
Thinking of the endless memories...
Thinking of the eternal promises...
Corn pops and milk...
Anarky and world domination...
Flames of Blaze consuming a vampyr...
The Age of Innocense...
16 years have passed, yet some things go beyong human count, beyond the realms of Dreaming, beyond hope...
Nonsense that means everything...
Danger... Dreaming... Lessons... Growth... Pain...
I shall go back to the shadows were I belong...

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7:30 AM The phone rings. I heard nothing. But Groundel did. He picks up and then he starts swearing after he hangs up. I wake up asking what's wrong. He said that this freaking guy called saying something wrong with the system blah blah. I get up to get dressed. He asks why. I said... Ugh... not a joke, we ARE working today. I must go to my office.

LOL He thought the guy was joking! OMG! I ran to my office and fix the small problems. And I am waiting until 10AM so if nothing else is wrong I shall depart... I am here, sitting in my office, bored as hell, VERY sleepy since I was up until 4AM looking for bairgains at ebay for needful stuff for the wedding. I am VERY sleepy, VERY tired... and the day promises to be frigging long! Going to take Groundelette to give more resumes, gonna take Kyo and Michi and Cyric to the vet in the late afternoon. And gotta finish the invitations tonight, plus do some scrapbooking. Yup, long day... Guess I wont be able to watch What Not To Wear tonight (my fav show of this season).

Gotta try to see if frigging Fabio passes by, so he gets some words from me. Asswipe. Groundelette should play pin the tail to the donkey with him. Grrrr...

Gonna try getting 1 of the 3 little thinguies I love so much at HT, my fav spot in the mall... Ok, my ONLY spot in the mall... I surrender! LOL

AVO sent me this hilarious link to a kitty video about a fishy song LMFAO!!!! I spent more than half and hour laughing! Thanks, Joe, needed the good laugh! :)

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Trilogy called today. Says the usual... Some emotion in his voice, but I just cannot believe him. It is as I say, actions speak louder than words. He may have/feel all the love in the world, but love doesnt pay bills, get a house or feed hunger. And he is still his lazyself... Can't expect him to change overnight, can I? He is starting school on the 30th, Tourism... at least that is something... I sincerely hope he can achieve that, so he can put to good use the hagling skills he has, and his vampiric charm. He may have all the good intentions, and he may actually be trying to do something, after the last 15 years... but I simply cannot sit and wait any longer. If he is to be with me, I put our destiny in Fate's hands. All I can do is keep going with my life... Until our lives can truly be joined... Someday.

Coriolis, Missing In Action... AGAIN.

Lucinda... Asleep by now.

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Understandable? Reprehensible?

Ah! Ok, so I am trying to understand and reason WHY, WHY, WHY and I repeat WHY men cannot (or will not) make up their minds? Groundelette is having some trouble with her Fabio. Sheeesh, the guy HAS a gf up there in the big land of the American Dream and is uhhhh and ahhhh sighting for her, but he is over here in the Land of the Lost... hanging out with Groundelette all the time, calling her all the time and commanding her as if she were his gf... WTFk?? And if she aint around to answer him or listen to him he gets all emotionally irrationally cranky... Ahhh, but he says she is like a sister to him... Yeah, right! It is convenient for a guy to have a disposable do-it-all around while trying to keep the "faithful" frame with his gf... If the lass can be called that... Fabio is a vain, egotistical, absent minded, dumb, macho-type guy... If you ask me, he is a LOSER! He has PLENTY to learn from life, he thinks he is so important he makes me laugh. And he treats Groundelette like doggy's poo. I say down with the bastard. He doesn't deserve your heart, girl! Castration! Vindication by punishment! He needs a reality check, and oh-boy... Do I feel like giving him just that!

Trying to fix some loose ends... Grrrrrrrr!!!

THE INCREDIBLY STUPID THINGS MEN DO...

AHHHHH! After reading NoShelll's rant one can only say that men can be the lowest scum alive. Why is it that so much self-sacrifice and faith and trust can be disposed off as simple as disposing off a used Kleenex? Ok... not ALL men are alike, but the few exceptions are halbreeds, not plainly human... or not human at all! Of the men I've know... Coriolis would be an exception because of his elvish ways, and AVO because of his half-gnomish bi-polar ways... But Trilogy was as self-absorved and cowardly unreliable as most men... And even Groundel can fall in that description... He's still working his way out of my humble opinion...

Why is it so hard for most men to simply stick to their logical truth? I mean... If you have something going on with someone, give the all or give nothing... Trust all or nothing... Believe all or simply walk away. Why get involved when they know they have their hearts set in something else... Or maybe just that they follow the crowd stronger than they could ever follow one lonesome love... even if it's the love of all times... the big soulmate... the One! There are many ways to cheat, besides the obvious most common male cheating... Leaving your girl for your friends, putting your girl down, leaving her second-third-fourth-or last place... Cheatig is a state of mind that involves much and always ends with destruction of trust, therefore destruction of faith, therefore destruction of the basis of love... And rebuilding THAT is almost impossible... Almost...

Rebuilding can take forever. It can consume everything, leaving only silence and stillness if not memory and pain... Endless hope can survive, but only in stasis and as an ideal.

Blaze Darkstream and Dorin Singlestar danced forever in the real story. The vampire in him ended up consuming and corrupting Blaze's soul. She received the dark kiss, and although darkness embraced her, the story had a bittersweet ending. The lovers would always belong, in life, unlife... living scourned... Ravenloft is the demiplane that is everywhere and nowhere at the same time... And its rapture is a beautiful, alluring emptiness filled with pulsing warm blood.

Candence and Mascom found each other in different realms, a cat and mouse chase that was neverending... I wonder...

Lyoness laughs at all and goes on, reaping her harvest of despair and madness. Yes, my job is done... The little people shall always feed my deity needs with their nameless actions and innocent deeds... Chaos is orderly misplaced in the worlds after all...

Kill the BEAST! Kill the BEAST!

The threshold between right and wrong is pain.
-His Holiness the Dalai Lama, Imagine All the People

Ah! At work, stressed... How strange huh? No system, and seems it will stay like that for a whole day. No comments... Tired, been trying to find a dress for Nilsa and Gladys, but nothing shows up... Seems Royal Blue is a weird color for nice garments... Grrrr...

Whatever...

What a long day... Been trying to sleep, then trying to finish some carriages, then trying to finish some letters, then back again to trying to sleep... Then since I just couldnt I just had to hook in the net... Ahhhh... Headache!
Watching Rose Red for the 6th time... Planning world conquest for the 130th time...
Not much to say today. Still sad about Mistrita... Cyric and Kyonne2 seems ok... and groooooowing...
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I am sad for little Mistra. I gave the 3 babies and Michita a wormer to be certain they had no parasites. Turns out they did have, Michita and the boys had only a few. But Mistra was overloaded... She had more than 10 worms. I read that roundworms affect growth and may cause brain damage. So taking out the worms affected her, completely. She started shivering and jumping as a muscle reaction. Then her limbs started to paralyze. She struggled until the end. Her eyes stayed fixed, but I know she was looking... and I know she felt love around her, until the end.

Coriolis has been blue too. Work and everything else... LOL Don't you just HATE when the mix happens, big old Elf?

Lucinda is alive, the kids are ok.

Groundelette got some papers, fulfilled a Mission but still a long way to go to complete the Quest! Do not get discouraged now!

Groundel started college classes... So days are going faster each second...

And I have been working and working and working as the workaholic brat I am...

Hope things get better... Although my only complaint is Mistra's demise... But having her in a comatose state was worst... We humans tend to attach ourselves too much to our furry companions, almost forgetting that sometimes all the love in the world just ain't enough... Ah... Whatever...

Me... Turning into a bunny with the veggie-fruit new addiction. LOL Getting some energy out of vitamins, and feeling much better. The sugar is not so sky-rocketed, still a long way to go to reach the goal BUT in the process. Yes, I am doing something about that, thank-you. :)

Got someone who may be able to do the castle-cake I wanted after all... Yay! And got someone to cover the catering at a very fair price, second Yay! :) Now, I hope that mommy helps out on the money matters by the 30th...

Must sleep... Work 2morrow... Although I may take it easy, as half the people will go to an activity at Hatillo... Whatever...

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Mystrita died yesterday, at 9:00 PM. Poison, brain damage... she was already pretty much gone... Struggling to keep the body alive... Perhaps feeling helplessly trapped in a body that wouldn't respond... The vet couldn't do much... I felt pretty helpless as well... Watching her go was another difficult task... I still can't believe it... Just 2 days ago she was crawling up my arm, cuddling in my neck... Quiet Mystra... The one that was shy, silent, the good girl... And as the song says, only the good die young...

Mystrita June 19 - August 18
May you rest in peace, in Kitty Heaven...
We will meet again.
Give Kyonene my love...
And be certain I love you as much.

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Friday the 13th, so this witch could not miss the chance to write. I'm surrounded with black kitties and got plenty of ill luck to spare! ;)
What I've been doing? Working, working, working... This week I've done enough to go home and just go to sleep. I am so friggin tired!
Groundelette still has no direction or job... Had a talk with her and hopefully she will get one in 2 weeks following my supercalifragilistic plan. Wish her luck, she needs it. Too shy, shy... She needs an injection of Braveheart and Conan and a brew of gomibayas...
Groundel is trying to control his anger, so Hulk doesn't appear to mess things up a little further. Good. So after a week of stormy weathers, the waters are calm, if not completely still.
No sign of Trilogy. RIP
Have same problems with my stupid phone, so cannot login at home... Crappy!!!! Lost an important bid thanks to this... ARGHHHHH!!!!
Anyway... Salutations to everyone... Hey, Joe, I have not forgotten about you!!!! :) And Kara and Vero, I'll get the blogs updates on the weekend... cannot read at work... Shouldn't be writing at all! LOL Oh, well...
Gotta go...
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