Sad... Some things can't change, others can change, others stale... The history of my life... Ah, whatever...
Frances hurricane will leave some winds and rain, but I don't expect much to happen. Acaban de decir que mañana gobierno no trabaja... Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Again, sad... Thinking of what could have been but wasn't...
Thinking of the One...
Thinking of the endless memories...
Thinking of the eternal promises...
Corn pops and milk...
Anarky and world domination...
Flames of Blaze consuming a vampyr...
The Age of Innocense...
16 years have passed, yet some things go beyong human count, beyond the realms of Dreaming, beyond hope...
Nonsense that means everything...
Danger... Dreaming... Lessons... Growth... Pain...
I shall go back to the shadows were I belong...

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7:30 AM The phone rings. I heard nothing. But Groundel did. He picks up and then he starts swearing after he hangs up. I wake up asking what's wrong. He said that this freaking guy called saying something wrong with the system blah blah. I get up to get dressed. He asks why. I said... Ugh... not a joke, we ARE working today. I must go to my office.

LOL He thought the guy was joking! OMG! I ran to my office and fix the small problems. And I am waiting until 10AM so if nothing else is wrong I shall depart... I am here, sitting in my office, bored as hell, VERY sleepy since I was up until 4AM looking for bairgains at ebay for needful stuff for the wedding. I am VERY sleepy, VERY tired... and the day promises to be frigging long! Going to take Groundelette to give more resumes, gonna take Kyo and Michi and Cyric to the vet in the late afternoon. And gotta finish the invitations tonight, plus do some scrapbooking. Yup, long day... Guess I wont be able to watch What Not To Wear tonight (my fav show of this season).

Gotta try to see if frigging Fabio passes by, so he gets some words from me. Asswipe. Groundelette should play pin the tail to the donkey with him. Grrrr...

Gonna try getting 1 of the 3 little thinguies I love so much at HT, my fav spot in the mall... Ok, my ONLY spot in the mall... I surrender! LOL

AVO sent me this hilarious link to a kitty video about a fishy song LMFAO!!!! I spent more than half and hour laughing! Thanks, Joe, needed the good laugh! :)

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Trilogy called today. Says the usual... Some emotion in his voice, but I just cannot believe him. It is as I say, actions speak louder than words. He may have/feel all the love in the world, but love doesnt pay bills, get a house or feed hunger. And he is still his lazyself... Can't expect him to change overnight, can I? He is starting school on the 30th, Tourism... at least that is something... I sincerely hope he can achieve that, so he can put to good use the hagling skills he has, and his vampiric charm. He may have all the good intentions, and he may actually be trying to do something, after the last 15 years... but I simply cannot sit and wait any longer. If he is to be with me, I put our destiny in Fate's hands. All I can do is keep going with my life... Until our lives can truly be joined... Someday.

Coriolis, Missing In Action... AGAIN.

Lucinda... Asleep by now.

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Understandable? Reprehensible?

Ah! Ok, so I am trying to understand and reason WHY, WHY, WHY and I repeat WHY men cannot (or will not) make up their minds? Groundelette is having some trouble with her Fabio. Sheeesh, the guy HAS a gf up there in the big land of the American Dream and is uhhhh and ahhhh sighting for her, but he is over here in the Land of the Lost... hanging out with Groundelette all the time, calling her all the time and commanding her as if she were his gf... WTFk?? And if she aint around to answer him or listen to him he gets all emotionally irrationally cranky... Ahhh, but he says she is like a sister to him... Yeah, right! It is convenient for a guy to have a disposable do-it-all around while trying to keep the "faithful" frame with his gf... If the lass can be called that... Fabio is a vain, egotistical, absent minded, dumb, macho-type guy... If you ask me, he is a LOSER! He has PLENTY to learn from life, he thinks he is so important he makes me laugh. And he treats Groundelette like doggy's poo. I say down with the bastard. He doesn't deserve your heart, girl! Castration! Vindication by punishment! He needs a reality check, and oh-boy... Do I feel like giving him just that!

Trying to fix some loose ends... Grrrrrrrr!!!

THE INCREDIBLY STUPID THINGS MEN DO...

AHHHHH! After reading NoShelll's rant one can only say that men can be the lowest scum alive. Why is it that so much self-sacrifice and faith and trust can be disposed off as simple as disposing off a used Kleenex? Ok... not ALL men are alike, but the few exceptions are halbreeds, not plainly human... or not human at all! Of the men I've know... Coriolis would be an exception because of his elvish ways, and AVO because of his half-gnomish bi-polar ways... But Trilogy was as self-absorved and cowardly unreliable as most men... And even Groundel can fall in that description... He's still working his way out of my humble opinion...

Why is it so hard for most men to simply stick to their logical truth? I mean... If you have something going on with someone, give the all or give nothing... Trust all or nothing... Believe all or simply walk away. Why get involved when they know they have their hearts set in something else... Or maybe just that they follow the crowd stronger than they could ever follow one lonesome love... even if it's the love of all times... the big soulmate... the One! There are many ways to cheat, besides the obvious most common male cheating... Leaving your girl for your friends, putting your girl down, leaving her second-third-fourth-or last place... Cheatig is a state of mind that involves much and always ends with destruction of trust, therefore destruction of faith, therefore destruction of the basis of love... And rebuilding THAT is almost impossible... Almost...

Rebuilding can take forever. It can consume everything, leaving only silence and stillness if not memory and pain... Endless hope can survive, but only in stasis and as an ideal.

Blaze Darkstream and Dorin Singlestar danced forever in the real story. The vampire in him ended up consuming and corrupting Blaze's soul. She received the dark kiss, and although darkness embraced her, the story had a bittersweet ending. The lovers would always belong, in life, unlife... living scourned... Ravenloft is the demiplane that is everywhere and nowhere at the same time... And its rapture is a beautiful, alluring emptiness filled with pulsing warm blood.

Candence and Mascom found each other in different realms, a cat and mouse chase that was neverending... I wonder...

Lyoness laughs at all and goes on, reaping her harvest of despair and madness. Yes, my job is done... The little people shall always feed my deity needs with their nameless actions and innocent deeds... Chaos is orderly misplaced in the worlds after all...

Kill the BEAST! Kill the BEAST!

The threshold between right and wrong is pain.
-His Holiness the Dalai Lama, Imagine All the People

Ah! At work, stressed... How strange huh? No system, and seems it will stay like that for a whole day. No comments... Tired, been trying to find a dress for Nilsa and Gladys, but nothing shows up... Seems Royal Blue is a weird color for nice garments... Grrrr...

Whatever...

What a long day... Been trying to sleep, then trying to finish some carriages, then trying to finish some letters, then back again to trying to sleep... Then since I just couldnt I just had to hook in the net... Ahhhh... Headache!
Watching Rose Red for the 6th time... Planning world conquest for the 130th time...
Not much to say today. Still sad about Mistrita... Cyric and Kyonne2 seems ok... and groooooowing...
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I am sad for little Mistra. I gave the 3 babies and Michita a wormer to be certain they had no parasites. Turns out they did have, Michita and the boys had only a few. But Mistra was overloaded... She had more than 10 worms. I read that roundworms affect growth and may cause brain damage. So taking out the worms affected her, completely. She started shivering and jumping as a muscle reaction. Then her limbs started to paralyze. She struggled until the end. Her eyes stayed fixed, but I know she was looking... and I know she felt love around her, until the end.

Coriolis has been blue too. Work and everything else... LOL Don't you just HATE when the mix happens, big old Elf?

Lucinda is alive, the kids are ok.

Groundelette got some papers, fulfilled a Mission but still a long way to go to complete the Quest! Do not get discouraged now!

Groundel started college classes... So days are going faster each second...

And I have been working and working and working as the workaholic brat I am...

Hope things get better... Although my only complaint is Mistra's demise... But having her in a comatose state was worst... We humans tend to attach ourselves too much to our furry companions, almost forgetting that sometimes all the love in the world just ain't enough... Ah... Whatever...

Me... Turning into a bunny with the veggie-fruit new addiction. LOL Getting some energy out of vitamins, and feeling much better. The sugar is not so sky-rocketed, still a long way to go to reach the goal BUT in the process. Yes, I am doing something about that, thank-you. :)

Got someone who may be able to do the castle-cake I wanted after all... Yay! And got someone to cover the catering at a very fair price, second Yay! :) Now, I hope that mommy helps out on the money matters by the 30th...

Must sleep... Work 2morrow... Although I may take it easy, as half the people will go to an activity at Hatillo... Whatever...

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Mystrita died yesterday, at 9:00 PM. Poison, brain damage... she was already pretty much gone... Struggling to keep the body alive... Perhaps feeling helplessly trapped in a body that wouldn't respond... The vet couldn't do much... I felt pretty helpless as well... Watching her go was another difficult task... I still can't believe it... Just 2 days ago she was crawling up my arm, cuddling in my neck... Quiet Mystra... The one that was shy, silent, the good girl... And as the song says, only the good die young...

Mystrita June 19 - August 18
May you rest in peace, in Kitty Heaven...
We will meet again.
Give Kyonene my love...
And be certain I love you as much.

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Friday the 13th, so this witch could not miss the chance to write. I'm surrounded with black kitties and got plenty of ill luck to spare! ;)
What I've been doing? Working, working, working... This week I've done enough to go home and just go to sleep. I am so friggin tired!
Groundelette still has no direction or job... Had a talk with her and hopefully she will get one in 2 weeks following my supercalifragilistic plan. Wish her luck, she needs it. Too shy, shy... She needs an injection of Braveheart and Conan and a brew of gomibayas...
Groundel is trying to control his anger, so Hulk doesn't appear to mess things up a little further. Good. So after a week of stormy weathers, the waters are calm, if not completely still.
No sign of Trilogy. RIP
Have same problems with my stupid phone, so cannot login at home... Crappy!!!! Lost an important bid thanks to this... ARGHHHHH!!!!
Anyway... Salutations to everyone... Hey, Joe, I have not forgotten about you!!!! :) And Kara and Vero, I'll get the blogs updates on the weekend... cannot read at work... Shouldn't be writing at all! LOL Oh, well...
Gotta go...
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Saturday, finally got a break to write. This week went too fast too furious for me... I'm deeply sad but it is ok... I guess... It doesn't really matters.

Michita and the kids are doing great.

Groundel and Groundelette doing great too.

Trilogy as depressed as I am, a bit more disturbing though...

Coriolis as deep as ever in his new alter ego: Buffito!

No work this week... sort of vacation... sort of getting things together...

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This lunch hour is sooooo lame... Got no money to go eat, and I have a great headache... At least the day is going fast. Went to Aguadilla in the morning, and arrived almost 5 minutes ago... I'm sleepy, tired, and the back pain is increasing by the minute... I need a personal therapist! LOL

Yup, trying to smile in my misery...

Hope that I stop being sick by Sunday. All these free days, and me being in bed being able to do nothing is really ANOYING and NOT HELPING AT ALL!!!! Hope I can do the 2 murals I need next week... And finish the goodies I have been doing for the wedding. At least Groundelette will be my helper of the week... Hmmm, actually it is more like "Finally a 24hr no-pay helper!" Yay!!!!! ;)

Will try getting a gov loan next week. Wish me luck. At least I must get 400, and that will solve one of the problems in the list of 12. Terminaré en la Comercio a este paso... :((

Anyway... The Monsegnor cannot give a mass, so the wedding will be the no-mass edition. Hmm... Ethereal? I wish! So I guess that the flavor for the theme will take place at the reception... Hope things get together after all. And hope I stop being sick by then! God, imagine me being sick that day, or the days after when we get to Universal or Disney! Blah!

Anyway... At work running things smoothly. Not so stressed this week, just in pain. You win some, you loose some... Ah! The balance! :P

Kitties succeeding at potty training. Cyric sleeping at all times, Mystra being a darling with her mommy and Kyonne being true to his name. :) Michita has been practicing great escapes, and the other old four are still not thrilled about them. Whatever!

Gotta go now. Have a great weekend!

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Ok... still sick but at least smiling and standing... sort of... Grrr... no money, tired of hot dogs, tired of avena, ahhhhh! Weeelll... trying to get some things sort out in financial matters. At work, in pain still. :(

Alive. This weekend is Groundels B-day on the 25th... Yayyyy! And his sister should be arriving just in time. :)

Kitties are precious!

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Was in ER from 7 am to 1:30 pm... Lovely ethereal experience... Very sick, fever, high sugar, etc. So... Under treatment. Been mental. Insane. Gotta rest.

Couldn't go work today. I had/have a great headache, fever, seems like the flu with the addition of a 450 of sugar in my diabetes-meter. That turned to a so-nice 220 by nightfall, nevertheless too high... For those who don't know anyone is suppossed to have 80-110 in sugar. So yes, 220 is still high. That's why I am dizzy, couldn't get off my bed until around 6pm. Checked some docs, so 2morrow will visit the ER and the Internalist and the Generalist. Also got a date with the psico on Aug. I need to get in tip-toe shape in matters of health, I can't keep getting sick by the hour. THIS I COMMAND!!!!!

Michita and the kids are happy campers at the bathroom. The kids will soon be introduced properly to the world of the living and unliving...

Groundel is ok and kicking. We went on Saturday to the wedding of one of his friends, DonLuis. We thought we were running late but no... the bride was really running late! An hour and a half late. LOL Yup, there was a nervous groom indeed :) So, after all the events we paid a visit to old landowner Tinita who gave us a loooong chat of 5 hours. After that we went back home. Coriolis was sick, I couldnt call AVO and plans just melt because of SEVERE lack of funds and my continual dizziness... Yeah, my sugar has been high for about 5 days, so what... Still going... Only the good die young anyway... Ok, so that doesn't help my case... Whatever...

Trilogy has been trying 2 find me. I have been unavailable due to constant running here and there.

Waters are lowering, but still, people misunderstand EVERYTHING because they know NOTHING. That really pisses me off. Some stories are too long and too original to tell since anyone could copy it and sell it and gain plenty of money from it... Someday, when I get REALLY bored, I will start writing a clean copy of The Trials and Tortures of Dear Miss V. A completely uncut version. From year one to year thirtysomething. Then people will go uuuuuuuuu and aaaaaaaaa with true rights. Until then it all just deserve a lovely FUCK OFF from my side. I am tired of being questioned when most questions should be launched at the people who surround me. I am tired of taking blames for others actions. I am tired of taking blows for the heck of it. Every move I make, every word I write, every thought I think has a deeper purpose and meaning. And I take nothing back. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I have like Madonna said once or many times "Absolutely No Regrets". And as old Billy Joel said once "And she never gives out, and she never gives in... She just changes her mind."

I always stand by my true friends no matter what. So much cannot be said about family, both mine's and Groundel's. It is now that everyone appears, but through the years THAT is not what the story has told. And the true story of Miss V and Mr Groundel is nothing but a blank page on his family's diaries. In his case, he has been his own for more than 3/4 of his life, and no angel by the way. He was too damn lucky I happenned to him. I, who have stood at his side during the worst times of his life, and have taken many blows from him in every sense of the word. I changed him into the good boy he is now, a task that was difficult, painful and hard. So, if I am to reap the harvest it is my right by all means. I have been his friend first, always. And the same applies to Trilogy. And nothing in the whole damn world, heaven or hell can change that. Only we know the true story, the cast, the drama, the lies, the loss, the victory. Trilogy, Groundel and Vierna will be forever their own family, in their own terms. Quote this raven.

EVERYTHING LOUDER THAN EVERYTHING ELSE

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Ok, Drama Kings and Queens... Newsflash, the wedding is STILL same time same place, no change whatsoever. A reminder: This is a blog, this is an "online diary", a place to rant, to pour out thoughts and feelings that are both crazy and irrational or plainly real. I write so I know a bit more about myself, I've always done so and I will never stop.

So, Ladies and Gentlemen... This is only the beginning.

The best is yet to come...

The show must go on!

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Some snatched up tests from Vero's blog... Here are my outcomes! ;)

You Are An Extrovert! Are You An Extrovert or Introvert? Take This Quiz :-)

You have a ton of friends, perhaps more friends than anyone you know.Nothing to do on Friday night? No problem for you to find the action.You're friendly, easy to know, and you seem to get along with almost everyone.You love to express yourself - and everyone knows a good deal about you.Whether you're giving your opinion or sharing your dreams, you don't keep anything in.

Okkkkk... Well... I am big-mouthed, tell the truth all the time and get in trouble for that... yup, extroverted...

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Busy Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend Take This Quiz :-)

While a relationship sounds nice, you're strapped for time. Whether you're legitimately busy or just making excuses...You don't give men enough of your time.As nice as "instant love" would be, there's just no such thing.

Okkkkk... Yup, that last one had to deal with this... ok... everyone had to deal with it! So, I am too responsible at work, and at school... So what? LOL

You'll Be Arrested For Beastiality

Maybe you love the undying devotion dogs give you...Or maybe you discovered early on that mouning a horse is *very fun* You are well on the path to beastality - if you're not already there.Don't let your love for animals go too far, or you'll ended up being the one on all fours in jail.
What Sex Crime Will You Be Arrested For?

Okkkkkk... that was simply WEIRD! I hate dogs and stallions! I am a feline lover! Hmph!

Your Hidden Sexual Talent is Giving Pain!

Spakings until they're all insane!Yup, you're totally in it for the pain. Handcuffs, whips, hot candle wax. That's the stuff that helps you relax.
What's *Your* Hidden Sexual Talent?

Awwwwwwww... Am I gonna be arrested for that?

Your Tongue's Talent is Kissing!

You're the shy, silent type. You haven't had much experience at all, and you keep it quiet.You love playing sweet and innocent, but you have naughty fantasies too. Your sweet little tongue is perfect for teasing.You love to get your lovers all excited. But you can't keep letting them down, or you'll be left lonely.
Come out of your shell a little, experiment with new things. You've mastered kissing... it's time to be a little more daring!
What's Your Tongue's Talent?
What! Hmmm... no comments LOL

You Are A Woman! Are You a Girl or Woman? Take This Quiz :-)

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

I had no doubts about THAT LOL

You Are Big Black Boots!

What Shoe Are You? Take This Quiz :-)


You can be best described as: attitude. You've got lots of it - and you love to give it. A guy has to be pretty gusty to hit on you. But if he's your type, you'll warm up... a little.

True, VERY true...

Your True Sign Is Leo

Urbane,Dominant, Flamboyant, Drama Queen, 100% Original, Attention-Whore, Just A Little Snobby, Optimistic and Enthusiastic.

What's Your True Zodiac Sign? Take This Quiz :-)

Hmmm... I'll stick to being Aries, thank you.

You Are an Exotic Beauty! What Type of Beauty Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

No matter what your ehtnic background, you've got a unique look. And your one of a kind beauty makes an imprint in every man's mind. You hardly ever wear the same outfit twice, and your hair is always changing. As a result, your look is always new and fresh - never outdated or stale.

If they say so... I cannot argue with them. ;)

Tests, tests, tests... Time-killers...

Beauty tips, by Audrey Hepburn

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived,
reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of
each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for
helping yourself, and the other for helping others.

Audrey Hepburn wrote this when asked to share her "beauty tips." It was read at her funeral years later.

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as
well dance!

HAPPY BEAUTIFUL WOMEN MONTH! ;)

Trials, the Times of Trouble have finally arrived to the real world. Hmmm... Deep thinking, quarrels within inner self and the both eternal rivals: heart and thought. All has long consequences, lifetime consequences. Groundel still wants to go ahead with all we planned... I am uncertain. I feel divided and it is tearing me apart. Trilogy wants to be back forever, but the crystal ball features uncertain dark mist swirling on its reins zenith... Right now, it is all making me sick, literally. I don't know what to do still. I just know that it is all 3 months away and that either Trilogy shows me his true colors once and for all, or he looses me.

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