Today is Dec 7, 2005. A year ago, a good friend had a very unfortunate event that lead to death. She had preclampsia and that got worst with her asthma and high blood pressure. The doctors saved her baby, but were unable to save her. After a blood transfusion something went wrong and her brain died. The next day, Dec 8, by midday, her husband asked the doctors to turn off the machine that kept her body alive. A kid, a newborn, and a husband were left behind, along with all the people that she took care and was responsible for in matters of medication, preparing food, doctors appointments, and all that without mentioning work. The whole thing was unexpected and a great blow to those who valued her immensely. I want to take a moment to let the world know a bit about who was Betsynet.
Betsy was the only person I could call friend at San Juan's work office. She called me everyday, to update me on things about work and to see how I was doing. In her busy schedule she always had time for me, and she always remembered the little things. I met her when I started working at ARV in SJ, she was the secretary of the MIS director… so not oddly enough, she ran the complete office. A flawless commander, she gave out orders to everyone, from the big boss to the cleaning crew. She made sure that job tickets were taken care of, that messages reached their destiny, that our overtime counted in matters of paycheck, as well as she always tried to create a family-environment full of small gatherings just because. Her attitude was always cheerful, even if she had to go in the middle of the morning to pick up her son and take him to emergency because he had an asthma attack… or even if she had to baby-sit her mom at the hospital the night before. In an office of lost & found, she always knew where everything was, and she always performed her duty at more than her best. She was polite and nice to those she didn't like, thinking that they were that way because of their own problems and issues. She didn't waste time on gossip, she had a life to live.
After I was transferred to Mayaguez I though she would join all those people that claim to be friends but after a while of distance simply cool off… Not her. Every morning she had a moment to call, even if she had no jobs for me. In time I could tell things became really stressing over there because of her confidences. People who were nice turned into jerks. Everyone was fighting a cold war, and she was left in the middle of it because of her sensitive position. Nevertheless, in the middle of it all, she did her job, did not double cross anyone, gave good advise even to those jerks who did everything to get her off her position. At work the common harassing environment became worst everyday, since all that people could do was screw her life up since she could not be taken off her duty because she did a perfect job. Evidently, that continual screwing up her daily life had a toll in her. She married a guy that she had been going out with for a time, the event was short and sweet, and very nice. It was one of her happiest moments.
Betsy and Tony were made for each other, he loved her child, and they constantly took time off to travel throughout the island getting to know each of its prettiest corners, as well as to travel to the states. She once went to Salem and brought me a charcoal drawing from the witches' museum. I can say with no doubts that the time she spent with Tony and her son was well spent, she lived her life to the fullest. And she found the time to be kind and of service to everyone around her. In several occasions I stayed at her home in order to attend meetings and trainings at SJ. I always felt I was staying with family. Her latest project, finally getting a house of their own, came true. The last year she spent making improvements in order to have an at home office for her husband and a room for the new addition to the family. And at work, her pregnancy was not an obstacle for her doing her best, and for people screwing her life even further.
The time of her baby shower came, and they did a small gathering to celebrate it. It has been a Saturday. I could not attend because of my car, I could not travel that far. Next Monday I called to ask how was everything and I was given the news that she was in the hospital. No one told me it was something serious. The next day she died.
Betsy always thought of every problem "Que se joda!" She did her things and didn't really care about anyone else's opinion. A good daughter, a good mother, a devoted wife, a good friend… She gave me a taste of how life should be, that anything can be accomplished, and that you better take charge of things now because tomorrow may be too late. She died young, but she truly lived. Not everyone can say that. She did all the things she wanted to, she worked at a profession she liked, and she found true love and kept it. She brought a smile to anyone around her, and hope to anyone who was sad or tired. She made you feel important even if you had done nothing at all.
Betsynet: You are missed every hour, everyday. A whole year has passed, and your absence has demonstrated to many that you were invaluable and irreplaceable. May you enjoy a last laugh when you look down towards us. Thanks for all your lessons, my friend. RIP.
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Yesterday had to go at 10:30am from work. I had a big pain that wouldn’t go away and I knew it would last the whole day. I was right. Throwing up followed as soon as I got home. Three times. Awful. Tried resting. Today I am not feeling so good, but auntie woke me up anyway saying I had to go work… Being sick is no excuse to stay home. WTF?! I hate this… So, back in my office… I supposse that if I get bad again I will just sleep in the floor since its no use trying going home to rest. Happy happy joy joy.
Groundel went to the WIA thing and they scheduled some things for him. Hopefully that is the kind of help he needed to get a job. As Madonna said many times: "We'll see"
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Groundel went to the WIA thing and they scheduled some things for him. Hopefully that is the kind of help he needed to get a job. As Madonna said many times: "We'll see"
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Tuesday, December 06, 2005
At work. Another boring day… So far nothing of big interest… The elevator is not working as usual and the going up to the 4th floor through the stairs is a killer… But I guess it was not as bad as with some old people who got dizzy out of it. :(
Yesterday Gruendel had a Star Wars game in Sabana Grande. He called me at work to let me know. The day passed by him and I guess he forgot he promised to go to Gestión Unica on Monday… and to CUE. He's fast to make promises without really meaning them… Whatever… I only wished he REALLY were interested in studying (which he is not) and that he gave a little more of himself to the quest of getting a job (if he doesn't get it by Dec-Jan I don't think he ever will… It's been more than 4 months and nothing…). Lack of motivation if it is not game-related…
Tril called before my going out of work time, so I asked him to go with me to deliver something in Hormigueros. He had nothing to do (hmmm, another lazy ass) so he agreed. So, I tryed giving back the machine that a co-worker lend me, but she wasn't home. Hurray, hurray… Gave Tril a trip to the house and inspected what has been done so far… Stairs almost closed, electricity still a work in progress, no light fixtures installed so far. The tree is kinda eating the balcony up, gotta trim it and put some venom on the weeds so they stop harrassing the house… Whatever.
Back home... With the kitties reading Christopher Lowell's books and then to sleep. My eyes are still bothering me… I know something is giving me allergy… Seems I'm not the only one with that, Lucinda can't even talk because of her seasonal flu.
I feel sad. Everything around me seems so stale and blah. I wish I could make a big change in every way, but what's the point… We are but pawns that amuses God's will.
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Yesterday Gruendel had a Star Wars game in Sabana Grande. He called me at work to let me know. The day passed by him and I guess he forgot he promised to go to Gestión Unica on Monday… and to CUE. He's fast to make promises without really meaning them… Whatever… I only wished he REALLY were interested in studying (which he is not) and that he gave a little more of himself to the quest of getting a job (if he doesn't get it by Dec-Jan I don't think he ever will… It's been more than 4 months and nothing…). Lack of motivation if it is not game-related…
Tril called before my going out of work time, so I asked him to go with me to deliver something in Hormigueros. He had nothing to do (hmmm, another lazy ass) so he agreed. So, I tryed giving back the machine that a co-worker lend me, but she wasn't home. Hurray, hurray… Gave Tril a trip to the house and inspected what has been done so far… Stairs almost closed, electricity still a work in progress, no light fixtures installed so far. The tree is kinda eating the balcony up, gotta trim it and put some venom on the weeds so they stop harrassing the house… Whatever.
Back home... With the kitties reading Christopher Lowell's books and then to sleep. My eyes are still bothering me… I know something is giving me allergy… Seems I'm not the only one with that, Lucinda can't even talk because of her seasonal flu.
I feel sad. Everything around me seems so stale and blah. I wish I could make a big change in every way, but what's the point… We are but pawns that amuses God's will.
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Monday, December 05, 2005
On this past weekend:
- Another episode of My Phone is Still Dead.
-Rented Unleashed and Land of the Dead. Both were entertaining... Although I still think Jet Li's best performance is as Kato, and Land of the Dead ended up with stolen scenes from Shaun of the Dead (chained zombies for fun) and the classic mall scene... Whatever.
- Basically stranded at aunties playing Sim's 2. Made a family made up by Sara, Angel, Maria and Joe... Four very different people, living in the same house... I'm trying to see what happens when things stop being polite and start getting real... The Real World, Mayaguez. LOL
-Yesterday, from 1pm to 7pm... putting the Xmas tree. Wheeeeeee. Pretty pretty pretty
Nothing further. Waiting for Narnia and Aeon Flux. And hoping for vacations soon... Work keeps on sucking. At least this year is the first time a boss gives me a detail, the boss from SJ sent an iceman globe. That was cute. :)
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- Another episode of My Phone is Still Dead.
-Rented Unleashed and Land of the Dead. Both were entertaining... Although I still think Jet Li's best performance is as Kato, and Land of the Dead ended up with stolen scenes from Shaun of the Dead (chained zombies for fun) and the classic mall scene... Whatever.
- Basically stranded at aunties playing Sim's 2. Made a family made up by Sara, Angel, Maria and Joe... Four very different people, living in the same house... I'm trying to see what happens when things stop being polite and start getting real... The Real World, Mayaguez. LOL
-Yesterday, from 1pm to 7pm... putting the Xmas tree. Wheeeeeee. Pretty pretty pretty
Nothing further. Waiting for Narnia and Aeon Flux. And hoping for vacations soon... Work keeps on sucking. At least this year is the first time a boss gives me a detail, the boss from SJ sent an iceman globe. That was cute. :)
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Friday, December 02, 2005
You try to do something nice, a little detail of sorts, and somehow you get punished for it by destiny's fickleness… It just proves my theory of at work be a bulldog because you do not get paid to be friendly.
The day has been slow… Now the power supply of my laptop is dead, meaning I will have no means to access the net at home. Things keep getting better and better… I even got a complain about why I haven't left feedback. Lightning may strike on me if I get outside…
Too pissed to actually go into deeper thoughts…
And an errata comes to life: I have no complains about my friends, they are the best people I could want around me. My complains go to the other side, meaning relationship and eternal flames. So, my friends I love the same, Joe. Don't you dare to doubt that! (Only Kodak moment of the day, promise).
This weekend… I made a list of plans, but I am feeling bad enough to just cancel everything and stay on bed until Monday. Whatever…
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The day has been slow… Now the power supply of my laptop is dead, meaning I will have no means to access the net at home. Things keep getting better and better… I even got a complain about why I haven't left feedback. Lightning may strike on me if I get outside…
Too pissed to actually go into deeper thoughts…
And an errata comes to life: I have no complains about my friends, they are the best people I could want around me. My complains go to the other side, meaning relationship and eternal flames. So, my friends I love the same, Joe. Don't you dare to doubt that! (Only Kodak moment of the day, promise).
This weekend… I made a list of plans, but I am feeling bad enough to just cancel everything and stay on bed until Monday. Whatever…
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Thursday, December 01, 2005
It is so ironic when people tell you what to do as if you knew nothing of things or life… I was just commenting to a coworker about the things I want to be: event coordinator, painting artist… He began giving me samples of people that could help me focus on ideas… creative people. I was thinking what the fuck? And that’s the shame… What people see as creative is not. I smiled politely and just said “I have done scenographies, I write stories and tales, I paint ever since being 5 years old, I write poems, and speeches, and plays… I have just the right contacts for an event coordination business, I can do a whole advertising campaign… I have developed 3 business plans… I can’t do things right now.” And all he said was that I was afraid of taking the first step, blah blah… (sight) How about this: I am not afraid of anything, I just can’t right now. But I have a plan, and I have deadlines for myself… I just need to be patient about some things. I can’t count on my spare time after work because (ding, ding, ding!) I have no spare time…
I’m in charge of making my aunt’s house livable again, because there is no one else to do so, period… and because all I am today I owe to her… So even if I complain because it’s no piece of cake, I know I am the only one that can help on that matter.
I also have the construction and improvement of the house in Hormigueros… I will love the outcome, but I know the way is bumpy and hard because I have no sources to fund the projects and so I have to wait, gather the small amounts until I have the complete amounts to pay off each stage… not easy at all… I can’t expect auntie to sponsor me when she can barely sponsor herself, and no one else has the extra income to use me as a hobby. It’s ok… My vision for my house will be completed by the end of next year, at least on the inside... That much is certain… I just don’t know how much I can cope with all the holes in the road, and the broken bridges…
I also want to go back to studying, although I am not certain yet if I will do another master, this time in Painting and Photography, or if I will go for the doctorate of International Business, Social Work or Psychology… In any event, that will take place in August. By then I should be more stabilized in matters of location and time… I can’t study in my present location… I get stressed just by being there.
In the middle of all that I created a schedule of all the travels I want to accomplish for the next 10 years. I want to be able to say that I have traveled the world. I want to expose myself to different cultures and ideas, and learn from the experience. England, New Zealand, Russia, China, Thailand, Australia, Egypt… I want to be there. I don’t know where I’ll get the funding, but I will do it. It is one of my greatest dreams.
I want to jump start a painting career, but I need a portfolio of less than 3 years and at least 25 paintings in order to be taken seriously. And that is the plan from January to June… So I can go to the Culture Institute and get an artist license so they grant some benefits like cheaper materials, and exposure via mall festivals and the like. With that I can get a gallery in San Juan to represent me, so I get the proper exposure when I cannot represent myself. With that I can also go to the city central government and offer my services as muralist… But I need a solid recent portfolio… Until that is done, it’s all about dreaming my life’s greatest dream. It is in schedule… I just have to wait a bit…
I want to have a part time as event coordinator, but first everything else in my life must be in order so I can count on my spare time… so I have the focus and creative juices working in the right direction. When I am moved into the new house, when I have my portfolio, when I begin studying and I’m certain of the right amount of hours I can dedicate to such a task, then I can think of developing this kind of business. I give it one more year, not too long a time if you put things in perspective. And then I will be able to juggle one event each month, so they turn out great.
I have not discarded the idea of teaching painting on weekends. I will have the space to do so, and the investment on cubicles and seats and materials will not be so overpowering. But then again, I must wait a year… until I am well established in my home.
So… I have the plans, I have the dates, I have the talents, I have the creativity, and I have the will… I know what I must do and how to do it. But it all gets slowdown because I have no godfather in terms of money, so I must do everything myself, little by little, with just the right amount of sacrifices. I know where I am heading. It is just frustrating having to sit down and wait because right now there is nothing else I can’t do… It’s all about timing. Opportunity always misses my door… Hopefully it will knock at my door… Soon enough…
And in the middle of all the chaos of what I want to do and achieve in my life, the emotions and feelings of failure due to living a life doing what I hate is… discouraging… to say the least. I thought by now I would have achieved a stable dream job, would have a stable mate, would have a stable little family… But it all has come to ashes. I must endure in this job I hate because there are no other options for now. I have no mate, I definitively don’t have a family and I’m seriously pondering if I really want one after all… I am not what most men want, and the only men that understand my way of thinking are gay. After 30 no one approaches you because of who you are but because of what they can get out of you. I have tried to open myself to new friends, but that has proved a terrible mistake as they only want one thing and I am not interested. I find the only people that honestly likes being around me are the ones I have known for more than 10 years, and that is the reason why I seemingly rotate around them at all times. They are the ones that were there when I was nothing, when I had achieved nothing… and they are the ones that are still there, believing in me. No love can be greater than the love they have given me. And yet, something is missing… I feel empty no matter how much I try to make things right. I feel that love has left my heart forever. And that is a terrible belief in itself… I feel my time for love is past. Seems I will always be the best friend for everyone who loves me, but nothing else… because of themselves and because of me.
How to understand everything… Here I am back at the beginning… In a cold office, trying to ignore the pressures of coworkers, the pressures of home and the pressures of my own. Only the good die young… Now I know why.
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I’m in charge of making my aunt’s house livable again, because there is no one else to do so, period… and because all I am today I owe to her… So even if I complain because it’s no piece of cake, I know I am the only one that can help on that matter.
I also have the construction and improvement of the house in Hormigueros… I will love the outcome, but I know the way is bumpy and hard because I have no sources to fund the projects and so I have to wait, gather the small amounts until I have the complete amounts to pay off each stage… not easy at all… I can’t expect auntie to sponsor me when she can barely sponsor herself, and no one else has the extra income to use me as a hobby. It’s ok… My vision for my house will be completed by the end of next year, at least on the inside... That much is certain… I just don’t know how much I can cope with all the holes in the road, and the broken bridges…
I also want to go back to studying, although I am not certain yet if I will do another master, this time in Painting and Photography, or if I will go for the doctorate of International Business, Social Work or Psychology… In any event, that will take place in August. By then I should be more stabilized in matters of location and time… I can’t study in my present location… I get stressed just by being there.
In the middle of all that I created a schedule of all the travels I want to accomplish for the next 10 years. I want to be able to say that I have traveled the world. I want to expose myself to different cultures and ideas, and learn from the experience. England, New Zealand, Russia, China, Thailand, Australia, Egypt… I want to be there. I don’t know where I’ll get the funding, but I will do it. It is one of my greatest dreams.
I want to jump start a painting career, but I need a portfolio of less than 3 years and at least 25 paintings in order to be taken seriously. And that is the plan from January to June… So I can go to the Culture Institute and get an artist license so they grant some benefits like cheaper materials, and exposure via mall festivals and the like. With that I can get a gallery in San Juan to represent me, so I get the proper exposure when I cannot represent myself. With that I can also go to the city central government and offer my services as muralist… But I need a solid recent portfolio… Until that is done, it’s all about dreaming my life’s greatest dream. It is in schedule… I just have to wait a bit…
I want to have a part time as event coordinator, but first everything else in my life must be in order so I can count on my spare time… so I have the focus and creative juices working in the right direction. When I am moved into the new house, when I have my portfolio, when I begin studying and I’m certain of the right amount of hours I can dedicate to such a task, then I can think of developing this kind of business. I give it one more year, not too long a time if you put things in perspective. And then I will be able to juggle one event each month, so they turn out great.
I have not discarded the idea of teaching painting on weekends. I will have the space to do so, and the investment on cubicles and seats and materials will not be so overpowering. But then again, I must wait a year… until I am well established in my home.
So… I have the plans, I have the dates, I have the talents, I have the creativity, and I have the will… I know what I must do and how to do it. But it all gets slowdown because I have no godfather in terms of money, so I must do everything myself, little by little, with just the right amount of sacrifices. I know where I am heading. It is just frustrating having to sit down and wait because right now there is nothing else I can’t do… It’s all about timing. Opportunity always misses my door… Hopefully it will knock at my door… Soon enough…
And in the middle of all the chaos of what I want to do and achieve in my life, the emotions and feelings of failure due to living a life doing what I hate is… discouraging… to say the least. I thought by now I would have achieved a stable dream job, would have a stable mate, would have a stable little family… But it all has come to ashes. I must endure in this job I hate because there are no other options for now. I have no mate, I definitively don’t have a family and I’m seriously pondering if I really want one after all… I am not what most men want, and the only men that understand my way of thinking are gay. After 30 no one approaches you because of who you are but because of what they can get out of you. I have tried to open myself to new friends, but that has proved a terrible mistake as they only want one thing and I am not interested. I find the only people that honestly likes being around me are the ones I have known for more than 10 years, and that is the reason why I seemingly rotate around them at all times. They are the ones that were there when I was nothing, when I had achieved nothing… and they are the ones that are still there, believing in me. No love can be greater than the love they have given me. And yet, something is missing… I feel empty no matter how much I try to make things right. I feel that love has left my heart forever. And that is a terrible belief in itself… I feel my time for love is past. Seems I will always be the best friend for everyone who loves me, but nothing else… because of themselves and because of me.
How to understand everything… Here I am back at the beginning… In a cold office, trying to ignore the pressures of coworkers, the pressures of home and the pressures of my own. Only the good die young… Now I know why.
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The week has been basically uneventful. I'm feeling down but coping with it. Work-home-feelings, all suck. Gotta get a turtle so I can at least water it.
No phone yet. PRT didnt appear on Tuesday, left a note on Wed with Tue's date and are suppossed to pass in Fri. Last chance for them, it's been 5 weeks and if they don't go fix it I'll report them to the Ombusman. Why can't things be nice and easy?
Bought lamps on Tue and got them to the house yeasterday. I still need two pairs for outside-upstairs and below, one for living room and one for dining room... Guess those will have to wait until January... I also need 3 metal doors, two for upstairs and one for downstairs entrance. Another wish for Feb maybe? Unless Santa acnowledges I've been such a good girl... Whatever.
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No phone yet. PRT didnt appear on Tuesday, left a note on Wed with Tue's date and are suppossed to pass in Fri. Last chance for them, it's been 5 weeks and if they don't go fix it I'll report them to the Ombusman. Why can't things be nice and easy?
Bought lamps on Tue and got them to the house yeasterday. I still need two pairs for outside-upstairs and below, one for living room and one for dining room... Guess those will have to wait until January... I also need 3 metal doors, two for upstairs and one for downstairs entrance. Another wish for Feb maybe? Unless Santa acnowledges I've been such a good girl... Whatever.
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Saturday, November 26, 2005
Saturday and hopefully within 3 more days the phone line will be restored at auntie's so I'll be part of civilization again... This all has been sucky enough. Anyway, Pavo day was a great "playing couch potato" day. Watched plenty of TLC's and TNT programming... Revisited Scrooged, Ghostbusters, and Jumanji. Oldies but goodies. Jumanji has nothing to envy from Zathura, it is a jewel that was bright enough on its time and keeps on being entertaining, fun and timeless. Anyway... Thursday went away fast enough.
Friday... I woke up late, and basically spent the rest of the morning washing clothing. In the afternoon tended to my dearly beloved kitties, looked for a stupid 3-way light switch that seems to be from stone age since it is available nowhere... got sick so every guava-pastelillo that I ate went down the sink... that was awfull!!! And finally, watched the Sims2... until around 10pm... One can really get hooked in that game, damnit!
Today... Still on the quest for the 3-way light switch... No success on that adventure... Got a business dress for work which I instantly loved because it looks like a cross between a trench coat and a dress... And wanted to get a pretty suede-spiderweb dress at HT but restrained myself from it... yes Im still regretting not getting it but I am trying to be realistic... I have nowhere to go, so why get a dressy dress that will stay on a closet... Logical... But I loved that friggin dress, damnit! :(
So, finally stepped at my so-called home to see what they have done so far (slow but in progress). Checked messages and seems Coriolis is the only one used to talking with my answering machine so he's the only one that doesn't mind leaving messages... Checked my mail and it was full of junk... No one loves me no more... :( Oh, well... Everyone is busy, and family can do wonders to take one's time... This place has howling mad wind! It is breezy and loud! Love it! But must go... Need to eat something, and then some... ;)
Back to work on Monday. So, try finding me at my office, kiddies...
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Friday... I woke up late, and basically spent the rest of the morning washing clothing. In the afternoon tended to my dearly beloved kitties, looked for a stupid 3-way light switch that seems to be from stone age since it is available nowhere... got sick so every guava-pastelillo that I ate went down the sink... that was awfull!!! And finally, watched the Sims2... until around 10pm... One can really get hooked in that game, damnit!
Today... Still on the quest for the 3-way light switch... No success on that adventure... Got a business dress for work which I instantly loved because it looks like a cross between a trench coat and a dress... And wanted to get a pretty suede-spiderweb dress at HT but restrained myself from it... yes Im still regretting not getting it but I am trying to be realistic... I have nowhere to go, so why get a dressy dress that will stay on a closet... Logical... But I loved that friggin dress, damnit! :(
So, finally stepped at my so-called home to see what they have done so far (slow but in progress). Checked messages and seems Coriolis is the only one used to talking with my answering machine so he's the only one that doesn't mind leaving messages... Checked my mail and it was full of junk... No one loves me no more... :( Oh, well... Everyone is busy, and family can do wonders to take one's time... This place has howling mad wind! It is breezy and loud! Love it! But must go... Need to eat something, and then some... ;)
Back to work on Monday. So, try finding me at my office, kiddies...
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Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Hello! Today is Wednesday, today is Wednesday... Wednesday sooouuuppp, Tuesday green beans, Monday bread & butter... Happy happy children...
Ok, I'll cut the crap (and for anyone out there wondering, yes, crap is the word of the day)... Here's what's been going on in my so-called "free days of leisure and enjoyment"
- Newsflash people: I still have no phone. Meaning I am incomunicated. Meaning if you want to see me or talk to me you gotta visit me at auntie's. Meaning no Internet unless I travel all the way to Ant-land to use the friggin phone in a house with no electricity or seats... Meaning it all sucks!
-Friday: Homey evening after a boring day at work. Making plans for Turkey week... Long plans... Long days ahead...
-Saturday: I have no idea what went on on Saturday... Oh, wait... I went to see my doc and get the monthly prescription... And by 5 I finally got the tickets for Harry Potter 4. Amen. The movie was ok, expected more clashing drama and some blood, but they still go for making the series kid friendly... All in all, loved the dragons (I am biased, I have a dragon fetish)...
-Sunday:Well, the idea was to get things that were in the garage and definitively in the middle and put them in the isolated room at auntie's... So that was the work during the morning. In the afternoon I took the lamps for my house and some tiles and stuff and delivered all at Ant-land. Then went to a co-worker's home to get a water pressure machine that she lend me so I could do my assignment for Turkey week: Auntie's celing & garage clean up and painting... Well, that favor has been a blessing.
-Monday:Early bird tried to catch the worm... But getting the clorox kinda took a bit of the morning because of the traffic... Grrrr... Up in auntie's ceiling, cleaned the worst side of it that was leaking terribly. Figured that I can get down the stairs if I close my eyes and pray (for those who don't know, I am terrified of heights). Since the pressure machine ran out of oil I had to go to work because I have no phone and needed to ask the owner just which oil it needed to work... Lovely, they see my face and they start asking for solutions for problems... I had to run out of the place... So, visited Walmart to get kitties food and oil, and more clorox... Lovely evening... At night LighShadow managed to pass by and say hi to the kitties. Yay! Social points went two bars up. I'm such a lucky Sim...
-Tuesday: Early bird kinda got the worm... The whole day was spent using the fated water pressure machine so the garage's ceiling of auntie's house was cleaned. The idea was getting rid off cracking paint... All the neighbors took turns to evaluate the masterpiece (and to find out if the pressure machine was mine to borrow it... as usual)... At night, took Groundel to exchange old games for Sims2 (addiction ahead!) and since we were just in time, we squeezed Domino. Now that was entertainment! The movie room at the theater was changed just for our pleasure (sarcasm) and not only we could watch no upcoming movies shorts, but the movies began and the lights were on for 15 minutes, plus the sound was fucked up. When they finally put everything together (around 25 minutes after the movie began) I looked around and we were the only asswipes in the room watching the movie... Well, we were having fun critisizing everything, so big deal... The people of the theater even asked us if the air was ok or too cold... LOL Rrrrrrrrrrright! (BTW, loved Domino. For those who know me from behind... ermm... way back... she is just like Huntress, my first character of my own... So yes, I digged the movie).
-Wednesday: Up in the ceiling again. Early bird got the worm, finished washing the ceiling and put some sealer on the ceiling... oh, what a feeeeeeling! The sun was high, the neighbors kept monitoring all my moves and basically hurried so I wouldnt deal with their crap (ding, ding, ding!). It's afternoon and I am at Ant-land finally getting a scoop on other people's lives and the like... Will get the Turkey dinner at night, and then home for a well deserved loooooogaleer sleep!
So, basically it all has been no fun, work work work, getting early and going to bed beat... Tomorrow I'll be an official couch potato and hopefully will enjoy the What not to Wear episodes. On Friday... I guess I'll just go to Home Depot in the afternoon, to get primer... no busy plans. On Saturday hopefully will master the Sims2... On Sunday, and if there is no rain, will do a recoat of the ceiling sealer and put the primer in the garage. The weather will decide...
No doves for Coriolis, no words from Tril, Joe with tummy trouble, LightShadow playing mom of the month, Groundel breaking his back, NoName missng in action.
That's all folks!
Happy Thanksgiving Day! Remember to thank God for all the good things He grants us, and that we take for granted everyday!
10-4
Ok, I'll cut the crap (and for anyone out there wondering, yes, crap is the word of the day)... Here's what's been going on in my so-called "free days of leisure and enjoyment"
- Newsflash people: I still have no phone. Meaning I am incomunicated. Meaning if you want to see me or talk to me you gotta visit me at auntie's. Meaning no Internet unless I travel all the way to Ant-land to use the friggin phone in a house with no electricity or seats... Meaning it all sucks!
-Friday: Homey evening after a boring day at work. Making plans for Turkey week... Long plans... Long days ahead...
-Saturday: I have no idea what went on on Saturday... Oh, wait... I went to see my doc and get the monthly prescription... And by 5 I finally got the tickets for Harry Potter 4. Amen. The movie was ok, expected more clashing drama and some blood, but they still go for making the series kid friendly... All in all, loved the dragons (I am biased, I have a dragon fetish)...
-Sunday:Well, the idea was to get things that were in the garage and definitively in the middle and put them in the isolated room at auntie's... So that was the work during the morning. In the afternoon I took the lamps for my house and some tiles and stuff and delivered all at Ant-land. Then went to a co-worker's home to get a water pressure machine that she lend me so I could do my assignment for Turkey week: Auntie's celing & garage clean up and painting... Well, that favor has been a blessing.
-Monday:Early bird tried to catch the worm... But getting the clorox kinda took a bit of the morning because of the traffic... Grrrr... Up in auntie's ceiling, cleaned the worst side of it that was leaking terribly. Figured that I can get down the stairs if I close my eyes and pray (for those who don't know, I am terrified of heights). Since the pressure machine ran out of oil I had to go to work because I have no phone and needed to ask the owner just which oil it needed to work... Lovely, they see my face and they start asking for solutions for problems... I had to run out of the place... So, visited Walmart to get kitties food and oil, and more clorox... Lovely evening... At night LighShadow managed to pass by and say hi to the kitties. Yay! Social points went two bars up. I'm such a lucky Sim...
-Tuesday: Early bird kinda got the worm... The whole day was spent using the fated water pressure machine so the garage's ceiling of auntie's house was cleaned. The idea was getting rid off cracking paint... All the neighbors took turns to evaluate the masterpiece (and to find out if the pressure machine was mine to borrow it... as usual)... At night, took Groundel to exchange old games for Sims2 (addiction ahead!) and since we were just in time, we squeezed Domino. Now that was entertainment! The movie room at the theater was changed just for our pleasure (sarcasm) and not only we could watch no upcoming movies shorts, but the movies began and the lights were on for 15 minutes, plus the sound was fucked up. When they finally put everything together (around 25 minutes after the movie began) I looked around and we were the only asswipes in the room watching the movie... Well, we were having fun critisizing everything, so big deal... The people of the theater even asked us if the air was ok or too cold... LOL Rrrrrrrrrrright! (BTW, loved Domino. For those who know me from behind... ermm... way back... she is just like Huntress, my first character of my own... So yes, I digged the movie).
-Wednesday: Up in the ceiling again. Early bird got the worm, finished washing the ceiling and put some sealer on the ceiling... oh, what a feeeeeeling! The sun was high, the neighbors kept monitoring all my moves and basically hurried so I wouldnt deal with their crap (ding, ding, ding!). It's afternoon and I am at Ant-land finally getting a scoop on other people's lives and the like... Will get the Turkey dinner at night, and then home for a well deserved loooooogaleer sleep!
So, basically it all has been no fun, work work work, getting early and going to bed beat... Tomorrow I'll be an official couch potato and hopefully will enjoy the What not to Wear episodes. On Friday... I guess I'll just go to Home Depot in the afternoon, to get primer... no busy plans. On Saturday hopefully will master the Sims2... On Sunday, and if there is no rain, will do a recoat of the ceiling sealer and put the primer in the garage. The weather will decide...
No doves for Coriolis, no words from Tril, Joe with tummy trouble, LightShadow playing mom of the month, Groundel breaking his back, NoName missng in action.
That's all folks!
Happy Thanksgiving Day! Remember to thank God for all the good things He grants us, and that we take for granted everyday!
10-4
Friday, November 18, 2005
Well, the movie outing turned out to be a fiasco… I had high expectations in matter of seeing the movie, and when I arrived the tickets were sold out… for the day… I was so pissed! Well… the best next thing was finding a place to dine, so we finally went to El Quijote and enjoyed digging in. Then chinese ice-cream to end up the food journey.
The bill for light at auntie's was high as I expected, so that’s an addition to the monthly expenses… She keeps bitching about it, as if I were not going to pay for it… Delightful. The kitties need a change of litter, so that will be arranged for tomorrow morning, gotta get the litter today. I expect to take auntie to the grocery store since mommy dearest is sick. Happy happy joy joy… So, I'll end up waking up early tomorrow to do all those things. I need the afternoon to try getting tickets for Harry Potter, and depending on the tinme of the movie trying to get the stuff from the garage to the small room in the back of the house. Hopefully I'll get the pressure water machine on Sunday so I can get down to business on Monday… Don't know how the weekend will actually turn out, but seems it is already full.
Still no phone at home. I am sooooo upset about that! 21 days without browsing the net peacefully at home… And not being able totalk to anyone when I need it… It is the pits.
I'm mad at everyone right now… Maybe it is the full moon, maybe it's my innate bitchyness. Whatever. I don't feel like having too many people around… It's gonna be a long day…
10-4
The bill for light at auntie's was high as I expected, so that’s an addition to the monthly expenses… She keeps bitching about it, as if I were not going to pay for it… Delightful. The kitties need a change of litter, so that will be arranged for tomorrow morning, gotta get the litter today. I expect to take auntie to the grocery store since mommy dearest is sick. Happy happy joy joy… So, I'll end up waking up early tomorrow to do all those things. I need the afternoon to try getting tickets for Harry Potter, and depending on the tinme of the movie trying to get the stuff from the garage to the small room in the back of the house. Hopefully I'll get the pressure water machine on Sunday so I can get down to business on Monday… Don't know how the weekend will actually turn out, but seems it is already full.
Still no phone at home. I am sooooo upset about that! 21 days without browsing the net peacefully at home… And not being able totalk to anyone when I need it… It is the pits.
I'm mad at everyone right now… Maybe it is the full moon, maybe it's my innate bitchyness. Whatever. I don't feel like having too many people around… It's gonna be a long day…
10-4
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Week of thought, introspection, evaluation, creation... Has been slow at work, with plenty of spare time for dwelling into the darkest recesses of the mind... Sort of...
Work: They will be doing a play for some homeless children as a holiday gift of sorts. I will stay away from it. I always get the last call to improvise on decoration and the like, and although I dislike praise I just get no thanks... Let the hyenas take the play and fit it up their ass-ets.
Home improvement (not the show). The contractor told me they should finish this week... I hope the arches and stairs are done by Sat and all that is left to do is the wiring. I'll see what I can do about the bathroom next week. I'm also planning to get a water machine to clean auntie's ceiling and then throw the ceiling treatment... Next week looks sooo promising... I hope I can clear one of the garage so I can do some painting of the walls as well... Auntie's house needs major TLC, too much humidity creates fungus, and it looks ugly in the ceiling and the paint is cracking badly... I also have to do some major cleaning of my small "kitties" room. The paint job I did there is comletely lost... So gotta make some re-do's.
Not much news on the people... Hopefully I'll get to see Harry Potter tonight. Will try to call LightShadow and Groundel... Coriolis is sick, ok... not sick as you think perverts, sick as in flu-drowsy-ewww sick... Hope you get better, pal! Tril has major issues to deal with, in his head... but that ain't no new... news...
Me: Tired, sad, thinking a little, thinking too much, trying to get a webdesign job done because I need the cash badly... trying to see a positive side of working here although the only good things are the free holidays... I should think that at least I have a job... Hopefully everything else will come in time.
10-4
Work: They will be doing a play for some homeless children as a holiday gift of sorts. I will stay away from it. I always get the last call to improvise on decoration and the like, and although I dislike praise I just get no thanks... Let the hyenas take the play and fit it up their ass-ets.
Home improvement (not the show). The contractor told me they should finish this week... I hope the arches and stairs are done by Sat and all that is left to do is the wiring. I'll see what I can do about the bathroom next week. I'm also planning to get a water machine to clean auntie's ceiling and then throw the ceiling treatment... Next week looks sooo promising... I hope I can clear one of the garage so I can do some painting of the walls as well... Auntie's house needs major TLC, too much humidity creates fungus, and it looks ugly in the ceiling and the paint is cracking badly... I also have to do some major cleaning of my small "kitties" room. The paint job I did there is comletely lost... So gotta make some re-do's.
Not much news on the people... Hopefully I'll get to see Harry Potter tonight. Will try to call LightShadow and Groundel... Coriolis is sick, ok... not sick as you think perverts, sick as in flu-drowsy-ewww sick... Hope you get better, pal! Tril has major issues to deal with, in his head... but that ain't no new... news...
Me: Tired, sad, thinking a little, thinking too much, trying to get a webdesign job done because I need the cash badly... trying to see a positive side of working here although the only good things are the free holidays... I should think that at least I have a job... Hopefully everything else will come in time.
10-4
Monday, November 14, 2005
Well, the quest for the little device that holds the vase of hurricane lamps still goes on… Seems I will actually have to get the lamps and break them in order to get the little thing that I need to set up the wooden chandelier with the vase touch… Whatever…
Yesterday the hunt for the little lamp thing was a waste of time and effort… Went home emptyhanded… Painted the two bronze chandeliers with a black matte paint I got just for kicks. Need to get another paint for touch ups. Late at night auntie told me Tril had called in the afternoon… I don’t get it, it seems the phone works only for him and Coriolis… The phone is still dead… (sight) Go figure…
Today I arrived late at work even after I went off my house at 7:15 am… A whole hour in the stupid traffic thanks to the AAA broken tube a.k.a. broken street mayhem… Cars were not moving… People was really pissed… That should have been fixed over the weekend… Why can’t they work at night? Don’t they realize working early in the morning of a weekday leads to chaos? This government and its drawbacks… Well, the whole government is a mess… I’m still waiting for the light shutdowmn in my house and nothing… Guess they need an engraved invitation…
To try lifting up my spirits I put on the small Xmas tree that I have, added some big lights from my Xmas tree from home (since I wont be able to actually prepare it this year), and some of the old but lovely red and golden lace… Also wrapped big lights on the door’s deco so at least I have two cheerful points in my office. Guess the Xmas express begins at my door… Right! No elves coming my way, not even a Legolas! Kinda pisses me off, but big fat old fart says he’s the master and he keeps all elves to himself… He’s so gay!
Midday. Checked my sales and seems everything goes, but the pink skirt… LOL Oh, well, pinky pink will be posted again if it has no luck… Someone out there must be desperate for a Pepto Bismol skirt, I just know it!
Lucinda and her offsprings are doing ok, alive and kicking. Lightshadow busy as always. Coriolis missing in Colombia. Trilogy desperately seeking someone. Groundel becoming Picasso. Joe playing dead. And ex-house owner very happy since I finally gave her what I owed… One less bill, 4 more to go.
Ain’t life grand? Kill them all!
10-4
Yesterday the hunt for the little lamp thing was a waste of time and effort… Went home emptyhanded… Painted the two bronze chandeliers with a black matte paint I got just for kicks. Need to get another paint for touch ups. Late at night auntie told me Tril had called in the afternoon… I don’t get it, it seems the phone works only for him and Coriolis… The phone is still dead… (sight) Go figure…
Today I arrived late at work even after I went off my house at 7:15 am… A whole hour in the stupid traffic thanks to the AAA broken tube a.k.a. broken street mayhem… Cars were not moving… People was really pissed… That should have been fixed over the weekend… Why can’t they work at night? Don’t they realize working early in the morning of a weekday leads to chaos? This government and its drawbacks… Well, the whole government is a mess… I’m still waiting for the light shutdowmn in my house and nothing… Guess they need an engraved invitation…
To try lifting up my spirits I put on the small Xmas tree that I have, added some big lights from my Xmas tree from home (since I wont be able to actually prepare it this year), and some of the old but lovely red and golden lace… Also wrapped big lights on the door’s deco so at least I have two cheerful points in my office. Guess the Xmas express begins at my door… Right! No elves coming my way, not even a Legolas! Kinda pisses me off, but big fat old fart says he’s the master and he keeps all elves to himself… He’s so gay!
Midday. Checked my sales and seems everything goes, but the pink skirt… LOL Oh, well, pinky pink will be posted again if it has no luck… Someone out there must be desperate for a Pepto Bismol skirt, I just know it!
Lucinda and her offsprings are doing ok, alive and kicking. Lightshadow busy as always. Coriolis missing in Colombia. Trilogy desperately seeking someone. Groundel becoming Picasso. Joe playing dead. And ex-house owner very happy since I finally gave her what I owed… One less bill, 4 more to go.
Ain’t life grand? Kill them all!
10-4
Sunday, November 13, 2005
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Thursday: Boring day, lazy day at work... Working on a revamp for my Artiste 7 Techie site so it looks more mature, sort of... (Yes Lucinda, so I get rid of the bathroom look) LOL Went with LightShadow and Groundel to see Zathura. Loved it! See it! Not as bad as you may expect! Will make you understand the simple things in life are the greatest things in life... Of course, I already KNEW that! Oh, and I just cannot wait for Harry Potter and NARNIA! Narnia... the surprise hit of this Xmas, you'll see! :P
Friday: Woke up early to get to Guánica... My car needed a fix and Lulu's hubby made the fix real. Wheeeeee! No more weird dry sound coming from underneath the car! I'm very broke but hope that a webdesign job comes true for the Turkey weekend... If that is so, I may straighten the accounts and make true the statement "Peace on Earth"...
Saturday: The plan was to wake up and go to Aurea's house to help her paint. Well... had to go get shipping material to go to the post office and mail things I have sold (my first international transaction! Wheeeee!), and then to the Mall... Big mistake! Traffic was not moving and had to take the scenic road (via Joyuda/Cabo Rojo) to reach the friggin mall... Then to the doc to get the much needed recipes... Then to my house to see the home improvement still unfolding... Loking good... Next week the hard labor should end, the light dilemma still going... AEE SUCKS! 3 weeks and still have not appeared to turn off the light thief that the ex-owners had! Damnit!!! Anyway... Since I do have a working phone in here (and water, finally... as a matter of fact too much water as the pipe had a big hole... and the 1st floor was flooded...) I checked the Ebay stuff and my people's blogs... So now that I feel less internet impaired, I shall depart to get the kitties food... Since my marbete is expired I better be home by 6, too many policeman fishies around.
Tomorrow I shall try getting what I need to complete the lamps I'll use... or at least most of them... and some cloth for a shade... and to leave the lamps upstairs in the house...
Have fun, kiddies!
10-4
Friday: Woke up early to get to Guánica... My car needed a fix and Lulu's hubby made the fix real. Wheeeeee! No more weird dry sound coming from underneath the car! I'm very broke but hope that a webdesign job comes true for the Turkey weekend... If that is so, I may straighten the accounts and make true the statement "Peace on Earth"...
Saturday: The plan was to wake up and go to Aurea's house to help her paint. Well... had to go get shipping material to go to the post office and mail things I have sold (my first international transaction! Wheeeee!), and then to the Mall... Big mistake! Traffic was not moving and had to take the scenic road (via Joyuda/Cabo Rojo) to reach the friggin mall... Then to the doc to get the much needed recipes... Then to my house to see the home improvement still unfolding... Loking good... Next week the hard labor should end, the light dilemma still going... AEE SUCKS! 3 weeks and still have not appeared to turn off the light thief that the ex-owners had! Damnit!!! Anyway... Since I do have a working phone in here (and water, finally... as a matter of fact too much water as the pipe had a big hole... and the 1st floor was flooded...) I checked the Ebay stuff and my people's blogs... So now that I feel less internet impaired, I shall depart to get the kitties food... Since my marbete is expired I better be home by 6, too many policeman fishies around.
Tomorrow I shall try getting what I need to complete the lamps I'll use... or at least most of them... and some cloth for a shade... and to leave the lamps upstairs in the house...
Have fun, kiddies!
10-4
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
BOY: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red
roses?
GIRL: Will he offer me his mouth?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his teeth?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his jaws?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his hunger?
B: Yes.
G: Again, will he offer me his hunger?
B: YES.
G: And will he starve without me?
B: YES.
G: And does he love me?
B: Yes.
G: Yes.
B: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?
G: Yes.
B: I bet you to say that to all the boys.
It was a hot summer night and the beach was burning
There was fog crawling over the sand
When I listen to your heart I hear the whole world turning
I see the shooting stars
Falling through your trembling hands
You were licking your lips and your lipstick shining
I was dying just to ask for a taste
We were lying together in a silver lining
By the light of the moon
You know there's not another moment
Not another moment
Not another moment to waste
You hold me so close that my knees grow weak
But my soul is flying high above the ground
I'm trying to speak but no matter what I do
I just can't seem to make any sound
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
Now my body is shaking like a wave on the water
And I guess that I'm beginning to grin
Oooh, we're finally alone and we can do what we want to
The night is young
And ain't no one gonna know where you
No one gonna know where you
No one's gonna know where you've been
You were licking your lips and your lipstick shining
I was dying just to ask for a taste
We were lying together in a silver lining
By the light of the moon
You know there's not another moment
Not another moment
Not another moment to waste
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
- Meatloaf, You took the words right outta my mouth
roses?
GIRL: Will he offer me his mouth?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his teeth?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his jaws?
B: Yes.
G: Will he offer me his hunger?
B: Yes.
G: Again, will he offer me his hunger?
B: YES.
G: And will he starve without me?
B: YES.
G: And does he love me?
B: Yes.
G: Yes.
B: On a hot summer night would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red roses?
G: Yes.
B: I bet you to say that to all the boys.
It was a hot summer night and the beach was burning
There was fog crawling over the sand
When I listen to your heart I hear the whole world turning
I see the shooting stars
Falling through your trembling hands
You were licking your lips and your lipstick shining
I was dying just to ask for a taste
We were lying together in a silver lining
By the light of the moon
You know there's not another moment
Not another moment
Not another moment to waste
You hold me so close that my knees grow weak
But my soul is flying high above the ground
I'm trying to speak but no matter what I do
I just can't seem to make any sound
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
Now my body is shaking like a wave on the water
And I guess that I'm beginning to grin
Oooh, we're finally alone and we can do what we want to
The night is young
And ain't no one gonna know where you
No one gonna know where you
No one's gonna know where you've been
You were licking your lips and your lipstick shining
I was dying just to ask for a taste
We were lying together in a silver lining
By the light of the moon
You know there's not another moment
Not another moment
Not another moment to waste
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
And then you took the words right out of my mouth
Oh -- it must have been while you were kissing me
You took the words right out of my mouth
And I swear it's true
I was just about to say I love you
- Meatloaf, You took the words right outta my mouth
Weekend passed leaving not such a big visible trace in my life... Just leaving some sidenotes on other people's lives... Saturday was the Big Speech day for someone. On Sunday went with LightShadow and Groundel to see Legend of Zorro. Loved the movie, Catherine and Antonio rule! I foresee a Son of Zorro movie... LOL
At work been throwing cables and moving equipment and configuring computers. Boring stuff that leaves me drained.
At home, auntie the same but cooking good. Kyonnenne is learning to fetch the ball and leave it in my feet (yay for the smart kittie).
Feeling sad but hopeful, tired but optimistic, jaded but still dreaming...
At work been throwing cables and moving equipment and configuring computers. Boring stuff that leaves me drained.
At home, auntie the same but cooking good. Kyonnenne is learning to fetch the ball and leave it in my feet (yay for the smart kittie).
Feeling sad but hopeful, tired but optimistic, jaded but still dreaming...
Monday, November 07, 2005
When you're a young man, down and out
You really need someone to help you out
It looks like life or death is your only choice
It's really hard to see
The forest for the trees
The forest for the trees
And when you get angry and everything's black or white
You should know that it isn't that simple, no one's always right
You know that youre life it worth living
You gotta start taking if no one else is giving
And if you're not afraid to open your eyes
You may be pleasantly surprised
Things are never as bad as they seem
You just gotta learn to see
The forest for the trees
So if you need somebody, tell them please
If you want someone, get up off your knees
Things are never as bad as they seem
You just gotta learn to see
The forest for the trees
-Huey Lewis & the News, Forest for the trees
You really need someone to help you out
It looks like life or death is your only choice
It's really hard to see
The forest for the trees
The forest for the trees
And when you get angry and everything's black or white
You should know that it isn't that simple, no one's always right
You know that youre life it worth living
You gotta start taking if no one else is giving
And if you're not afraid to open your eyes
You may be pleasantly surprised
Things are never as bad as they seem
You just gotta learn to see
The forest for the trees
So if you need somebody, tell them please
If you want someone, get up off your knees
Things are never as bad as they seem
You just gotta learn to see
The forest for the trees
-Huey Lewis & the News, Forest for the trees
Friday, November 04, 2005
Just killing lunchtime... Stolen from Vero... :P
Ultimate Survey (377 questions long)
time started: 12:08
full name: Vierna Darguth
nickname(s): Kymill
birthday: April
where were you born: Mayaguez. PR
zodiac sign: Aries
height: 5'5"
weight: 220
hair color: orange-red
eye color: brown with golden freckles
shoe size: 11
ring size: 10
skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.): latino white skin
blood type: no idea
grade: Business Mayor
GPA: 3.25
siblings: 8 kitties
tattoos: thundercats in tribal... I wish
piercings: 3 on each ear
hobbies: roleplaying games, painting, writing, webdesign
favorite
color: red
food: mofongo
candy: amaretto ice cream
type of cheese: swiss
pizza topping: onions and pepperoni
salad dressing: vinagreta
sandwich: Meson special
cereal: Corn Flakes
fruit: Grapefruit and Strawberries
vegetable: Quimbombó
berry: Strawberry
cake: Carrot
book: Interview with the Vampire
movie: Lord of the Rings Trilogy
magazine: Realms of Fantasy
newspaper: ewww, all are sucky in here
tv show: Xena: Warrior Princess and Beauty & the Beast
website: www.upcominghorrormovies.com
radio station: fidelity, alpha
font: chaucer
cartoon character: Captain Herlock
artist (painter): Royo
actor: Johny Depp
actress: Nicole Kidman
cd: Siouxie and the Banshees
song: Until the last beat of my heart
music group: No Doubt
music type: Old school rock, heavy metal, goth, ambience
day of the week: Friday
month: October
season: Fall
holiday: Halloween
shampoo: Head & Shoulders
conditioner: Nexus
number: 13
phrase: We are all mad here... A dream to some but a nightmare to others!
store: Borders
weather: Dark and cold as if to rain but no rain
restaurant: Fudrockers
channel: Animal Planet & TLC
teacher: Pabón
weekend activity: Movies and visiting el calvo
hangout: El calvo's place
house color: white and violet
sport to watch: ice skating and weightlifting
sport to play: weightlifting
animal: FELINES
flower: black rose
guy's name: Vincent and Andrew
girl's name: Vierna and Deirdre
board game: chess
party game: twister
story from childhood: El Principito
body part: brain
have you ever
been on a train: yes, hated it
been on a plane: yes, not so bad at times
been in a car accident: no, God protect me
caused a car accident: small one that barely counts
run into a wall: no, thats too stupid
burned a potato chip: I dont cook, haha!
almost burned the house down: 3 times, thats why I dont cook
smoked: never, nasty habit!
been drunk: never, only drink wine and on certain occations
been high: never, another nasty habit
broken the law: never, Im a lawfull good
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes): never, arstists need to eat
kissed someone of the opposite sex: yes
kissed someone of the same sex: yes
frenched an animal: WTF! NO!
made out: yes
had cyber sex: no
gotten engaged: yes
had an online relationship: yes
been rejected by a crush: yes
loved: yes
made yourself cry to get out of trouble: no
cried in public: once or twice
cried over a movie: hmmm... maybe?
fallen asleep in a movie theater: yup
given someone a bath: aha
been to a boarding school: nop
been home-schooled: nop
lost a valuable item: yes
bungee jumped: nop
skied: nop
met the president: ewww
met a celebrity: nop
gotten a cavity: yup
shopped at abercrombie & fitch: nop
made a prank call: nop
skipped school: nop too lawful good
faked sick to get out of school: nop I loved school
purchased something that you knew didn't fit: nop
climbed a tree: nop
fallen from a tree: nop
broken a bone: nop
sprained anything: nop
passed out: nop
made yourself pass out: nop
been to disney world: yup, 2 times
been to a theme park (not disney): yup
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative): 3 times
made a model volcano (working model): nop
made a clover leaf with your tounge: nop
past
what did you do yesterday: work and sleep
memory you miss the most: being happy
memory you want to forget: being happy
something you regretted after it was done: I never regret
the last
song you heard: Donde estan los ladrones
cd you bought: dont remember!
thing you said: Buen provecho
time you cried: last night
movie seen in a theater: Saw2
thing you ate: Spaghetti & meatballs
person who called: phone guy
nail polish shade worn: black
time you showered: morning
person who complimented you: Groundel
at this moment
what are you listening to: servers humming madly
what are you wearing: jeans, grey shirt
what are you thinking: gotta do something wild or burst!
what are you scared of most: lonelyness
how many people are on your buddy list: dont check messengers no more
future
occupation: Events coorndinator and webdesigner
marriage site: www.foreverscrewed.com
honeymoon: Egypt
place to live: The deep end of the ocean
kids: not until I'm 45 years old
car: 4Runner
what are you doing tomorrow: checking my car
do you think george bush will be reelected: hell no
will there be a wwIII: certainly
will politics ever be truthful: never
will humanity snuff itself out: maybe
can the gov. be changed: yes, but the options suck
friends
best friend: Coriolis
funniest: Groundel
silliest: LightShadow
loudest: Trilogy
quietest: Groundel
craziest: Trilogy
calmest: Coriolis
skinniest: LightShadow
best secret keeper: Lucinda
worst secret keeper: n/a
the one you have but don't want: LadyMex
smartest: Coriolis
preppiest: Coriolis
peppiest: n\a
most hyper: Marie
hottest: Coriolis
weirdest: Trilogy
biggest pervert: Joe
most annyoing: Trilogy
shyest: Zordak
most religious: LadyMex
do you believe in
heaven: yes
hell: yes
angels: yes
devil: yes
god: yes
buddha: yes
aliens: yes
ghosts: yes
spirit (soul): yes
soulmates: yes
reincarnation: yes
love at first sight: no
karma: yes
love in general: yes
luck: yes
yourself: YES
crush
who and when was your first crush: Trilogy, 16 years ago
any now: no crushes, thank you
a celebrity crush: Vincent?
who do you want to be with right now: nobody
whos number do you want: nobody
who do you want to kiss: right now, nobody deserves it
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex: lack of faith and truth
if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be: hmmm
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you: Ice Queen
first thing noticed about the opposite sex: eyes and butt
what do you look for personality-wise: intelligent, understanding, truthful, open
biggest turn on: the mind
biggest turn off: street talk
something thay weat that turns you on: leather
something they wear that turns you off: depends
the most romantic thing you want to happen to you: engagement that totally surprises me
the most romantic thing that has happened to you: ahhhh... sincerely, nothing
what do you wear on a coffee date: I dont date
is it right to flirt if you're taken: no
is cyber cheating: yes
are eyes the passegeway to the soul: yes
who would you like to take to the prom: by that time, Trilogy
do you want to hug somebody right now: no
do you know what an aphrodisiac is: certainly
describe
mellow: serene
melancholy: me
the perfect date: dinner, movie, sightseeing
the perfect mate: intelligent, open, truthful, worships me
how m&m's are made: wont melt in your hands or in your shirt! :P
why manhole covers are round: duh!
one or the other
coke/pepsi: coke
sprite/7-up: 7up
boxers/briefs: briefs
gold/silver: silver
vanilla/chocolate: choco
flowers/candy: candy
book/magazine: book
tv/radio: tv
glass half empty/half full: half full
democrat/republican: neither
colored pencils/markers: markers
coffee/tea: both
sun/moon: moon
day/night: night
hot/cold: both
dog/cat: cat
button/zipper: zipper
cotton/feather pillow: feathers
blue/purple: purple
plumber/trashman: plumber
jeans/shorts: shorts
long distance relationship/none: none
mechanical/regular pencil: mech
matt/ben: Ben Kenobi?
that 70's show/simpsons: neither
kelso/eric: none
donna/jackie: none
bart/lisa: none
romeo/juliet: none
romantic comedy/thriller: thriller
nsync/bsb: none
peanut butter/jelly: jelly
waffles/pancakes: pancakes
letter/email: email
florida/california: fl
pizza/burgers: both
hat/visor: neither
football/rugby: neither
iceskating/blading: neither
movie at home/in theater: both
first thing you think of when you hear
yellow: submarine
red lipstick: monroe
socks: life
cowtipping: whatever
moulin rouge: like a virgin
greenland: irish
iceland: bears
harry potter: magic
red: hair
blackberry: pie
rose: red
rooster: virus
taxes: ewww
bill clinton: sucks
whipped cream: yummy
george w. bush: sucks
lollipops: yummy
dreams: come true
love: never dies
guys: suck
south park: bitch
boy bands: 80s
pengiuns: cute
girls: can do anything
thong: sexy
death: becomes me
spoons: soup
junk mail: sucks
dairy: cow
panties: laundry
your father: working
pizza: big one
britney spears: sucks
vitamin: inositol
are you
happy: nop
sad: yes
religious: yes
bitchy: yes
crazy: yes
messy: nop
mad: yes
slacker: no
nerd: yes
bookworm: yes
jock: no
preppy: no
selfish: no
giving: yes
obsessive: yes
violent: yes
calm: no
peaceful: no
mellow: yes
eccentric: yes
caring: yes
untrustworthy: no
loyal: yes
patriotic: no
perverted: maybe
colorful: yes
artistic: yes
miscellanoues
what color is your jacket: black
do you shave: yup
where: in the bathtub
what color is your razor: white
what size is your bed: full
what color crayon would you be: red
what are the last four digits of you phone number: 1941
feelings on abortion: it should be banned
how lond does it take you to shower: 15 min
what does your screenname mean: strong matron drow on the edge of insanity
thoughts on blonde pop stars in general: airheads
who so you trust the most: coriolis
is cussing a necessity in life: no
how about coffee: yes
is the world screwed: yes
what something you cant live without: coffee
what time did you fall asleep: 10pm
know what 69 means: yup
how about 143: nop
can you live without a microwave: no
what do think about death: restful
where and when do you want to be married: in a castle sometime before I die
do you want to drop out of school: never
why is the sky blue: gods will
what is a good trait about yourself: honest, helpful, quickwitted
what do you always think about: being happy
what is wrong with your school: high society pricks
what is right with your school: used to teach
how do you react to change: change as well
do you talk to yourself: yep
what is your opinion on love: love is the air we breathe, all we need is love
can you afford to lose weight: yes
what color would you dye your hair: red red red red red red
best thing anyones told you: always a woman
what is your reaction to you're hot: take it with a smile
does being psycho appeal to you: yup
if you wrote a book, what would it be about: horror of my psychotic life
what would you change your name to: Vierna or Deirdre
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time started: 12:08
full name: Vierna Darguth
nickname(s): Kymill
birthday: April
where were you born: Mayaguez. PR
zodiac sign: Aries
height: 5'5"
weight: 220
hair color: orange-red
eye color: brown with golden freckles
shoe size: 11
ring size: 10
skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.): latino white skin
blood type: no idea
grade: Business Mayor
GPA: 3.25
siblings: 8 kitties
tattoos: thundercats in tribal... I wish
piercings: 3 on each ear
hobbies: roleplaying games, painting, writing, webdesign
favorite
color: red
food: mofongo
candy: amaretto ice cream
type of cheese: swiss
pizza topping: onions and pepperoni
salad dressing: vinagreta
sandwich: Meson special
cereal: Corn Flakes
fruit: Grapefruit and Strawberries
vegetable: Quimbombó
berry: Strawberry
cake: Carrot
book: Interview with the Vampire
movie: Lord of the Rings Trilogy
magazine: Realms of Fantasy
newspaper: ewww, all are sucky in here
tv show: Xena: Warrior Princess and Beauty & the Beast
website: www.upcominghorrormovies.com
radio station: fidelity, alpha
font: chaucer
cartoon character: Captain Herlock
artist (painter): Royo
actor: Johny Depp
actress: Nicole Kidman
cd: Siouxie and the Banshees
song: Until the last beat of my heart
music group: No Doubt
music type: Old school rock, heavy metal, goth, ambience
day of the week: Friday
month: October
season: Fall
holiday: Halloween
shampoo: Head & Shoulders
conditioner: Nexus
number: 13
phrase: We are all mad here... A dream to some but a nightmare to others!
store: Borders
weather: Dark and cold as if to rain but no rain
restaurant: Fudrockers
channel: Animal Planet & TLC
teacher: Pabón
weekend activity: Movies and visiting el calvo
hangout: El calvo's place
house color: white and violet
sport to watch: ice skating and weightlifting
sport to play: weightlifting
animal: FELINES
flower: black rose
guy's name: Vincent and Andrew
girl's name: Vierna and Deirdre
board game: chess
party game: twister
story from childhood: El Principito
body part: brain
have you ever
been on a train: yes, hated it
been on a plane: yes, not so bad at times
been in a car accident: no, God protect me
caused a car accident: small one that barely counts
run into a wall: no, thats too stupid
burned a potato chip: I dont cook, haha!
almost burned the house down: 3 times, thats why I dont cook
smoked: never, nasty habit!
been drunk: never, only drink wine and on certain occations
been high: never, another nasty habit
broken the law: never, Im a lawfull good
burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes): never, arstists need to eat
kissed someone of the opposite sex: yes
kissed someone of the same sex: yes
frenched an animal: WTF! NO!
made out: yes
had cyber sex: no
gotten engaged: yes
had an online relationship: yes
been rejected by a crush: yes
loved: yes
made yourself cry to get out of trouble: no
cried in public: once or twice
cried over a movie: hmmm... maybe?
fallen asleep in a movie theater: yup
given someone a bath: aha
been to a boarding school: nop
been home-schooled: nop
lost a valuable item: yes
bungee jumped: nop
skied: nop
met the president: ewww
met a celebrity: nop
gotten a cavity: yup
shopped at abercrombie & fitch: nop
made a prank call: nop
skipped school: nop too lawful good
faked sick to get out of school: nop I loved school
purchased something that you knew didn't fit: nop
climbed a tree: nop
fallen from a tree: nop
broken a bone: nop
sprained anything: nop
passed out: nop
made yourself pass out: nop
been to disney world: yup, 2 times
been to a theme park (not disney): yup
said i love you and meant it (not to a relative): 3 times
made a model volcano (working model): nop
made a clover leaf with your tounge: nop
past
what did you do yesterday: work and sleep
memory you miss the most: being happy
memory you want to forget: being happy
something you regretted after it was done: I never regret
the last
song you heard: Donde estan los ladrones
cd you bought: dont remember!
thing you said: Buen provecho
time you cried: last night
movie seen in a theater: Saw2
thing you ate: Spaghetti & meatballs
person who called: phone guy
nail polish shade worn: black
time you showered: morning
person who complimented you: Groundel
at this moment
what are you listening to: servers humming madly
what are you wearing: jeans, grey shirt
what are you thinking: gotta do something wild or burst!
what are you scared of most: lonelyness
how many people are on your buddy list: dont check messengers no more
future
occupation: Events coorndinator and webdesigner
marriage site: www.foreverscrewed.com
honeymoon: Egypt
place to live: The deep end of the ocean
kids: not until I'm 45 years old
car: 4Runner
what are you doing tomorrow: checking my car
do you think george bush will be reelected: hell no
will there be a wwIII: certainly
will politics ever be truthful: never
will humanity snuff itself out: maybe
can the gov. be changed: yes, but the options suck
friends
best friend: Coriolis
funniest: Groundel
silliest: LightShadow
loudest: Trilogy
quietest: Groundel
craziest: Trilogy
calmest: Coriolis
skinniest: LightShadow
best secret keeper: Lucinda
worst secret keeper: n/a
the one you have but don't want: LadyMex
smartest: Coriolis
preppiest: Coriolis
peppiest: n\a
most hyper: Marie
hottest: Coriolis
weirdest: Trilogy
biggest pervert: Joe
most annyoing: Trilogy
shyest: Zordak
most religious: LadyMex
do you believe in
heaven: yes
hell: yes
angels: yes
devil: yes
god: yes
buddha: yes
aliens: yes
ghosts: yes
spirit (soul): yes
soulmates: yes
reincarnation: yes
love at first sight: no
karma: yes
love in general: yes
luck: yes
yourself: YES
crush
who and when was your first crush: Trilogy, 16 years ago
any now: no crushes, thank you
a celebrity crush: Vincent?
who do you want to be with right now: nobody
whos number do you want: nobody
who do you want to kiss: right now, nobody deserves it
what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex: lack of faith and truth
if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be: hmmm
on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you: Ice Queen
first thing noticed about the opposite sex: eyes and butt
what do you look for personality-wise: intelligent, understanding, truthful, open
biggest turn on: the mind
biggest turn off: street talk
something thay weat that turns you on: leather
something they wear that turns you off: depends
the most romantic thing you want to happen to you: engagement that totally surprises me
the most romantic thing that has happened to you: ahhhh... sincerely, nothing
what do you wear on a coffee date: I dont date
is it right to flirt if you're taken: no
is cyber cheating: yes
are eyes the passegeway to the soul: yes
who would you like to take to the prom: by that time, Trilogy
do you want to hug somebody right now: no
do you know what an aphrodisiac is: certainly
describe
mellow: serene
melancholy: me
the perfect date: dinner, movie, sightseeing
the perfect mate: intelligent, open, truthful, worships me
how m&m's are made: wont melt in your hands or in your shirt! :P
why manhole covers are round: duh!
one or the other
coke/pepsi: coke
sprite/7-up: 7up
boxers/briefs: briefs
gold/silver: silver
vanilla/chocolate: choco
flowers/candy: candy
book/magazine: book
tv/radio: tv
glass half empty/half full: half full
democrat/republican: neither
colored pencils/markers: markers
coffee/tea: both
sun/moon: moon
day/night: night
hot/cold: both
dog/cat: cat
button/zipper: zipper
cotton/feather pillow: feathers
blue/purple: purple
plumber/trashman: plumber
jeans/shorts: shorts
long distance relationship/none: none
mechanical/regular pencil: mech
matt/ben: Ben Kenobi?
that 70's show/simpsons: neither
kelso/eric: none
donna/jackie: none
bart/lisa: none
romeo/juliet: none
romantic comedy/thriller: thriller
nsync/bsb: none
peanut butter/jelly: jelly
waffles/pancakes: pancakes
letter/email: email
florida/california: fl
pizza/burgers: both
hat/visor: neither
football/rugby: neither
iceskating/blading: neither
movie at home/in theater: both
first thing you think of when you hear
yellow: submarine
red lipstick: monroe
socks: life
cowtipping: whatever
moulin rouge: like a virgin
greenland: irish
iceland: bears
harry potter: magic
red: hair
blackberry: pie
rose: red
rooster: virus
taxes: ewww
bill clinton: sucks
whipped cream: yummy
george w. bush: sucks
lollipops: yummy
dreams: come true
love: never dies
guys: suck
south park: bitch
boy bands: 80s
pengiuns: cute
girls: can do anything
thong: sexy
death: becomes me
spoons: soup
junk mail: sucks
dairy: cow
panties: laundry
your father: working
pizza: big one
britney spears: sucks
vitamin: inositol
are you
happy: nop
sad: yes
religious: yes
bitchy: yes
crazy: yes
messy: nop
mad: yes
slacker: no
nerd: yes
bookworm: yes
jock: no
preppy: no
selfish: no
giving: yes
obsessive: yes
violent: yes
calm: no
peaceful: no
mellow: yes
eccentric: yes
caring: yes
untrustworthy: no
loyal: yes
patriotic: no
perverted: maybe
colorful: yes
artistic: yes
miscellanoues
what color is your jacket: black
do you shave: yup
where: in the bathtub
what color is your razor: white
what size is your bed: full
what color crayon would you be: red
what are the last four digits of you phone number: 1941
feelings on abortion: it should be banned
how lond does it take you to shower: 15 min
what does your screenname mean: strong matron drow on the edge of insanity
thoughts on blonde pop stars in general: airheads
who so you trust the most: coriolis
is cussing a necessity in life: no
how about coffee: yes
is the world screwed: yes
what something you cant live without: coffee
what time did you fall asleep: 10pm
know what 69 means: yup
how about 143: nop
can you live without a microwave: no
what do think about death: restful
where and when do you want to be married: in a castle sometime before I die
do you want to drop out of school: never
why is the sky blue: gods will
what is a good trait about yourself: honest, helpful, quickwitted
what do you always think about: being happy
what is wrong with your school: high society pricks
what is right with your school: used to teach
how do you react to change: change as well
do you talk to yourself: yep
what is your opinion on love: love is the air we breathe, all we need is love
can you afford to lose weight: yes
what color would you dye your hair: red red red red red red
best thing anyones told you: always a woman
what is your reaction to you're hot: take it with a smile
does being psycho appeal to you: yup
if you wrote a book, what would it be about: horror of my psychotic life
what would you change your name to: Vierna or Deirdre
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This week has gone very fast. I have been overloaded with work, with plenty of stress business and nonbusiness related. Yesterday had to do some cabling, thanks to which i am feeling trashy today... Yup, I feel trafa... LOL Whatever... Everything sucks these days... Seems there is something wrong with my car, which I'll have to check up tomorrow morning. I also need to get a battery charger and a set of batteries for the digicam in order to use it for some late sales I'm trying to perform... I need money ASAP especially if now the car plans to try dying on me... It's one after another... I kinda completed the payment for the house's exowner. Now I need to get cash to pay two more things, plus the car's check-up. And of course, no one can help with that (sight). I dunno if everything has been a good idea, or just a bad idea gone rotten. I dunno... I only know that I am going insane, and people are not helping that matter...
Damn thirsty.
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Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Ok, so here is the briefing for fateful last week:
The phone is dead at home, again… This has been a completely sucky weekend, and seems that it wont get better anytime sooner…
Tuesday: Took the afternoon off to accomplish some official personal dealings. Light, water, phone… Let’s see the outcome…
Wednesday: Work has been busy, too busy. In the afternoon the director asked me if I wanted to go to the trip to Carolina. I thought “so someone cancelled?” and after thinking about it for an hour I decided to go… After all, the work I wanted to complete could not e completed because the people would be at the activity… And I thought I deserved to relax and enjoy the show (especially since it was a rarity that for the first time in some years I have not been part of the making of the show committee). So I said yes to the invitation. I went home early so I would sleep… A foolish attempt to rest, I actually fall asleep after 11pm.
Thursday: Activity at Carolina’s theater. Voyage from Mayaguez started at 5am. The morning trip was bad. The hyenas from work have no manners, and they were laughing and dancing reggaeton nonstop. I thought that they just needed to be high because of the play that they were gonna be into… The “producer” specifyed no stops, but we ended up making many because the hyenas needed coffee. We arrived to the place on time, my plan was to go into the theater and watch the show… I am so naïve. The “producer” gave me a video camera and a digicam so I would be the videographer of the play… Ugh! And the nightmare went on… The activity began, and I was happy playing with the zoom and recording the main things… and just when it was Mayaguez turn the camera stopped recording. I was warned about low battery and checked and even plugged into a wall to make the friggin thing work, but nothing… I discovered it was not the battery who died on me, but the tape. And the “producer” had given me no spare tape. So I kept on taking pictures, until I changed the disk and the second disk gave an error. I tried taking it out and it wouldn’t… The metal part got stuck. So there ended my bright career as camera woman and photographer… I started feeling bad, as I knew what would happen… When the activity finished I went to the camerino to pack the cameras and grab my purse. The “producer” arrived eagerly to get the tape and you can imagine the look when I told her that the tape died on me… From that point on, she mentioned 4 times that for a next activity they needed a videographer and a photographer. Like I didn’t get what she meant… I breathed in and out, and as we all gathered in the van everyone was arguing about where to go eat. They didn’t wanted fast food and they were clueless about places with nice meals. Someone volunteered me as the person to ask since I had lived in Carolina… And my thoughts drifted between frustration and anger because if they didn’t like the place that I pointed out I was gonna be the one to blame for another thing… Ugh! So… I suggested a restaurant, we went and the stay was almost fouled because the outer side of the place was in restoration and the waiting time for the staff preparing the tables took a bit long… Hello! A table for 30! And then they asked that the service should be billed individually, which they said no inmediately and then a yes followed as everyone threatened to go! Luckily the food was great, so no complaints about that. Then another bad thing, as I noticed one of my coworkers crying. I tried to find out what was wrong… The hyenas made an attack on her and her hubby defended them instead of her… Oh, how very typical of men! So the next 5 minutes were spent on feminist bonding (trying to make her smile). After I payed my bill, I was offered to travel in another van with less people, but I thought that two of my coworkers would feel bad if I did that and so I stayed in the original van... BIG MISTAKE! The hyenas were drunk and so they were in worst behavior, even dancing reggaeton in the director’s face. I got migraine because of the music and their sing-along… But of course I let them know I was pissed… I cannot hide my feelings, I am too transparent. So… after many other stops to get even more coffee, we arrived at Mayaguez almost at 9pm. Yup, I saw the night of the day before, dawn and dusk… and the night of the current day. I was beyond angry, beyond pissed and with a killer headache…
Friday: The day was a bit busy but I kinda managed to at least smile a bit… At midday went to get the check from the apartment’s deposit and they didn’t gave me the complete amount. They claimed I had not paid the light bill, plus they didn’t pay back the amount for the beeper. I was pissed, because I counted on that money to pay the contractor… I had to complete the $700 I paid him and that was a big ouch… I need to see how I get the cars license payment and the finance monthly pay… Not easy… Broke… But dealing with it… I must make an inventory of things to sell and…ummm.. sell! After work I just went home. Groundel was on the rainy way so picked him up. At home I logged into the net, since it was raining I thought I was not going out. As I checked mail, LightShadow appeared. Upon her request, we went to watch Saw2. Not so bad, not so good either. Where is the element of surprise? Why people just seem to forget that THAT is key in a suspense/horror movie? But overall it didn’t went so bad… Went home and savored some Boot Camp and What Not to Wear ( my 2 favorite shows ). Sleeping by 2am.
Saturday: Woke up by midday. Spent the whole day at home, watching AP and TLC… Did a bit of scrapbooking… Tried to get a hold on Lucinda but she was not home… Had a bad argument with Groundel. Besides that, boring ultra long day… I was puzzled at no calls, and realized it all had to do with the phone line… It is dead… How nice for this weekend… Needed to speak with Coriolis but no phone. So I guess tomorrow’s game at Ponce is a no-no for me since I have no way to communicate… Misery loves company and surprises…
Halloween is on Monday, and seems I wont be able to celebrate my favorite holiday… Its my curse I guess…
The phone is dead at home, again… This has been a completely sucky weekend, and seems that it wont get better anytime sooner…
Tuesday: Took the afternoon off to accomplish some official personal dealings. Light, water, phone… Let’s see the outcome…
Wednesday: Work has been busy, too busy. In the afternoon the director asked me if I wanted to go to the trip to Carolina. I thought “so someone cancelled?” and after thinking about it for an hour I decided to go… After all, the work I wanted to complete could not e completed because the people would be at the activity… And I thought I deserved to relax and enjoy the show (especially since it was a rarity that for the first time in some years I have not been part of the making of the show committee). So I said yes to the invitation. I went home early so I would sleep… A foolish attempt to rest, I actually fall asleep after 11pm.
Thursday: Activity at Carolina’s theater. Voyage from Mayaguez started at 5am. The morning trip was bad. The hyenas from work have no manners, and they were laughing and dancing reggaeton nonstop. I thought that they just needed to be high because of the play that they were gonna be into… The “producer” specifyed no stops, but we ended up making many because the hyenas needed coffee. We arrived to the place on time, my plan was to go into the theater and watch the show… I am so naïve. The “producer” gave me a video camera and a digicam so I would be the videographer of the play… Ugh! And the nightmare went on… The activity began, and I was happy playing with the zoom and recording the main things… and just when it was Mayaguez turn the camera stopped recording. I was warned about low battery and checked and even plugged into a wall to make the friggin thing work, but nothing… I discovered it was not the battery who died on me, but the tape. And the “producer” had given me no spare tape. So I kept on taking pictures, until I changed the disk and the second disk gave an error. I tried taking it out and it wouldn’t… The metal part got stuck. So there ended my bright career as camera woman and photographer… I started feeling bad, as I knew what would happen… When the activity finished I went to the camerino to pack the cameras and grab my purse. The “producer” arrived eagerly to get the tape and you can imagine the look when I told her that the tape died on me… From that point on, she mentioned 4 times that for a next activity they needed a videographer and a photographer. Like I didn’t get what she meant… I breathed in and out, and as we all gathered in the van everyone was arguing about where to go eat. They didn’t wanted fast food and they were clueless about places with nice meals. Someone volunteered me as the person to ask since I had lived in Carolina… And my thoughts drifted between frustration and anger because if they didn’t like the place that I pointed out I was gonna be the one to blame for another thing… Ugh! So… I suggested a restaurant, we went and the stay was almost fouled because the outer side of the place was in restoration and the waiting time for the staff preparing the tables took a bit long… Hello! A table for 30! And then they asked that the service should be billed individually, which they said no inmediately and then a yes followed as everyone threatened to go! Luckily the food was great, so no complaints about that. Then another bad thing, as I noticed one of my coworkers crying. I tried to find out what was wrong… The hyenas made an attack on her and her hubby defended them instead of her… Oh, how very typical of men! So the next 5 minutes were spent on feminist bonding (trying to make her smile). After I payed my bill, I was offered to travel in another van with less people, but I thought that two of my coworkers would feel bad if I did that and so I stayed in the original van... BIG MISTAKE! The hyenas were drunk and so they were in worst behavior, even dancing reggaeton in the director’s face. I got migraine because of the music and their sing-along… But of course I let them know I was pissed… I cannot hide my feelings, I am too transparent. So… after many other stops to get even more coffee, we arrived at Mayaguez almost at 9pm. Yup, I saw the night of the day before, dawn and dusk… and the night of the current day. I was beyond angry, beyond pissed and with a killer headache…
Friday: The day was a bit busy but I kinda managed to at least smile a bit… At midday went to get the check from the apartment’s deposit and they didn’t gave me the complete amount. They claimed I had not paid the light bill, plus they didn’t pay back the amount for the beeper. I was pissed, because I counted on that money to pay the contractor… I had to complete the $700 I paid him and that was a big ouch… I need to see how I get the cars license payment and the finance monthly pay… Not easy… Broke… But dealing with it… I must make an inventory of things to sell and…ummm.. sell! After work I just went home. Groundel was on the rainy way so picked him up. At home I logged into the net, since it was raining I thought I was not going out. As I checked mail, LightShadow appeared. Upon her request, we went to watch Saw2. Not so bad, not so good either. Where is the element of surprise? Why people just seem to forget that THAT is key in a suspense/horror movie? But overall it didn’t went so bad… Went home and savored some Boot Camp and What Not to Wear ( my 2 favorite shows ). Sleeping by 2am.
Saturday: Woke up by midday. Spent the whole day at home, watching AP and TLC… Did a bit of scrapbooking… Tried to get a hold on Lucinda but she was not home… Had a bad argument with Groundel. Besides that, boring ultra long day… I was puzzled at no calls, and realized it all had to do with the phone line… It is dead… How nice for this weekend… Needed to speak with Coriolis but no phone. So I guess tomorrow’s game at Ponce is a no-no for me since I have no way to communicate… Misery loves company and surprises…
Halloween is on Monday, and seems I wont be able to celebrate my favorite holiday… Its my curse I guess…
Monday, October 31, 2005
The weekend... I kinda wrote something about it, but could not post it because I had no phone... The happiest weekend of the year, and I couldnt talk to anyone... Grrr... Wanted to go to Ponce on the weekend and couldn't... Wanted to check some sites and ebay and couldn't... It plainly sucked...
On Friday, saw Saw2. although it was not bad, it was not good either... Linear in its storyline, knowing who is the Jigsaw eliminates the tension of finding out who is he... less mistery... The ending with the new Jigsaw is kinda... stupid... but of course, they need an excuse for a Saw3. The deaths were cool, not too creative but cool. The idea was awesome... the delivery was a bit weak... I expect too much of movies these days... I guess that's why I'm turning to oldies and foreign, American movies are too predictable and have lost its charm...
Yesterday spent the afternoon watching Pirates of the Caribbean. Always lighthearted but nice to watch, love Captain Sparrow to death! XOXOXOXO
Today, wanted to disguise in my normal violet velvet ren dress, but since I had to go to Aguadilla and must throw some cables in the afternoon that would not have been too practical... I guess that the Halloween spirit will try to come to me after work... Whatever... it's not like for me the whole year is not Halloween... ;)
Anyway... Gotta go back to duty... If anyone out there can, PLEASE REPORT MY AUNT's PHONE! I am isolated ever since Saturday! And without internet! Now, THAT is creepy!
Enjoy things that bump in the night!
10-4
On Friday, saw Saw2. although it was not bad, it was not good either... Linear in its storyline, knowing who is the Jigsaw eliminates the tension of finding out who is he... less mistery... The ending with the new Jigsaw is kinda... stupid... but of course, they need an excuse for a Saw3. The deaths were cool, not too creative but cool. The idea was awesome... the delivery was a bit weak... I expect too much of movies these days... I guess that's why I'm turning to oldies and foreign, American movies are too predictable and have lost its charm...
Yesterday spent the afternoon watching Pirates of the Caribbean. Always lighthearted but nice to watch, love Captain Sparrow to death! XOXOXOXO
Today, wanted to disguise in my normal violet velvet ren dress, but since I had to go to Aguadilla and must throw some cables in the afternoon that would not have been too practical... I guess that the Halloween spirit will try to come to me after work... Whatever... it's not like for me the whole year is not Halloween... ;)
Anyway... Gotta go back to duty... If anyone out there can, PLEASE REPORT MY AUNT's PHONE! I am isolated ever since Saturday! And without internet! Now, THAT is creepy!
Enjoy things that bump in the night!
10-4
Happy Halloween to all! And to all, a fright night! ;)
" Hello – remember me?"
" Who's there "
" I've got your number "
"Oh no! "
" I'm back to haunt you, ha ha ha ha ha "
Its Friday night – so creepy outside
its is thundering and lightning
There's nobody home – cause I'm all alone
its scary and its frightening
The sound of shoes – a shadow that moves
something odd is tic tac ticking
Someone's in here – I'm so full of fear
the telephone is ringing
Now I can see you - oh no please no
Now I can touch you - oh god please go
I am right here now - oh please tell me where
Ha ha ha ha - I'm in a nightmare
You better run I'm back to haunt you down
Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Hell broke out – on this Friday night
Zombies passing deadly
My Candyman – from Bounty land
is coming here to get me
Now I can see you - oh no please no
Now I can touch you oh god please go
I am right here now oh please tell me were
Ha ha ha ha - I'm in a nightmare
You better run - I'm back to haunt you down
Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween……
-Aqua, Halloween
" Hello – remember me?"
" Who's there "
" I've got your number "
"Oh no! "
" I'm back to haunt you, ha ha ha ha ha "
Its Friday night – so creepy outside
its is thundering and lightning
There's nobody home – cause I'm all alone
its scary and its frightening
The sound of shoes – a shadow that moves
something odd is tic tac ticking
Someone's in here – I'm so full of fear
the telephone is ringing
Now I can see you - oh no please no
Now I can touch you - oh god please go
I am right here now - oh please tell me where
Ha ha ha ha - I'm in a nightmare
You better run I'm back to haunt you down
Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Hell broke out – on this Friday night
Zombies passing deadly
My Candyman – from Bounty land
is coming here to get me
Now I can see you - oh no please no
Now I can touch you oh god please go
I am right here now oh please tell me were
Ha ha ha ha - I'm in a nightmare
You better run - I'm back to haunt you down
Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – in the death of the night – hear me scream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween – is the fear that I fight – in my dream
I'm coming - I'm coming
Halloween……
-Aqua, Halloween
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night toss and turn and dream of what I need
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There's someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach Like the fire in my blood
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
-Jennifer Saunders, Holding out for a hero
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night toss and turn and dream of what I need
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There's someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach Like the fire in my blood
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
-Jennifer Saunders, Holding out for a hero
I don't believe in trouble I don't believe in pain
I don't believe there's nothing left but running here again
I don't believe in promise I don't believe in chance
I don't believe you can resist the things that make no sense
I don't believe in silence cos silence seems so slow
I don't believe in energy the tension is too low
I don't believe in panic I don't believe in fear
I don't believe in prophecies so don't waste any tears
I don't believe reality would be the way it should
But I believe in fantasy the future's understood
I don't believe in history I don't believe in truth
I don't believe that's destiny or someone to accuse
I believe, I believe!!!
I don't believe in trouble I don't believe in pain
I don't believe there's nothing left but running here again
I don't believe in promise I don't believe in chance
I don't believe you can resist the things that make no sense
I don't believe in silence cos silence seems so slow
I don't believe in energy the tension is too low
I don't believe in panic I don't believe in fear
I don't believe in prophecies so don't waste any tears
I believe!!!
I want you to try, try to needing to know why, why
No kidding, no sin, sin No running, no win, win
I believe!!!
No angels, no girls, girls
No memories, no Gods, Gods
No rockets, no heat, heat
No chocolate, no sweet, sweet
I believe!!!
I want you to try, try
to needing to know why, why
No kidding, no sin, sin
No running, no win, win
No angels, no girls, girls
No memories, no Gods, Gods
No rockets, no heat, heat
No chocolate, no sweet, sweet
No feeling, no secrets... The silence you feel...
which hides you from the real...
I want you to try, try needing to know why, why
why, why, why... why... why...
I believe, I believe!!!
-Run Lola Run, Franka Potente, Believe
I don't believe there's nothing left but running here again
I don't believe in promise I don't believe in chance
I don't believe you can resist the things that make no sense
I don't believe in silence cos silence seems so slow
I don't believe in energy the tension is too low
I don't believe in panic I don't believe in fear
I don't believe in prophecies so don't waste any tears
I don't believe reality would be the way it should
But I believe in fantasy the future's understood
I don't believe in history I don't believe in truth
I don't believe that's destiny or someone to accuse
I believe, I believe!!!
I don't believe in trouble I don't believe in pain
I don't believe there's nothing left but running here again
I don't believe in promise I don't believe in chance
I don't believe you can resist the things that make no sense
I don't believe in silence cos silence seems so slow
I don't believe in energy the tension is too low
I don't believe in panic I don't believe in fear
I don't believe in prophecies so don't waste any tears
I believe!!!
I want you to try, try to needing to know why, why
No kidding, no sin, sin No running, no win, win
I believe!!!
No angels, no girls, girls
No memories, no Gods, Gods
No rockets, no heat, heat
No chocolate, no sweet, sweet
I believe!!!
I want you to try, try
to needing to know why, why
No kidding, no sin, sin
No running, no win, win
No angels, no girls, girls
No memories, no Gods, Gods
No rockets, no heat, heat
No chocolate, no sweet, sweet
No feeling, no secrets... The silence you feel...
which hides you from the real...
I want you to try, try needing to know why, why
why, why, why... why... why...
I believe, I believe!!!
-Run Lola Run, Franka Potente, Believe
At RUM during the moning. Updated all 7 pc's and antivius on them. Midday, and things got a bit complicated... To AEE, so the electrical wire that is alive in the house will be killed soon... Then to AAA to find out I needed escrituras to get the water connected... To AEELA to get the loan to pay the ex-owner... Home to get the escrituras, then to AAA to explain things and get the water connection job ticket and pay the deposit... Then to get the tiles I didnt get on Sat... Then to make a spare key of my office key because I lost the original along with my ID... Then to the Post Office to find out if the check arrived (which didn't because this is the International Screw Me week)...
Yes it was a busy day... Another busy day... I am exhausted! Signing off really early so I get some batteries recharged...
10-4
Yes it was a busy day... Another busy day... I am exhausted! Signing off really early so I get some batteries recharged...
10-4
Monday, October 24, 2005
Long, long, LONG day at work. Made 8 service tickets and the fringe of a banner... don't ask... Very VERY drained and tired... An hour is all it takes to make me want to run off... but DUTY calls (and need for cash). Afterwards, two small chandelliers arrived, so at least the bedrooms will have light. Wheeeee! Then the album stuff and visiting orcish lands for comfort.
Back home... Kitties misbehaved a bit throwing a terracota can from the highest place of the bookshelf to the bed... Luckyly it fall in the bed... all the sand splashed on bed and floor...
They can be unnerving, but my kitties are more than just pets... They understand me, they are my companions and friends... They love me and I love them back... Its a simple relationship that shows in many intrincate ways.
Tired. Will sleep early... Long week ahead...
10-4
PS: Happy Birthday to LightShadow! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Back home... Kitties misbehaved a bit throwing a terracota can from the highest place of the bookshelf to the bed... Luckyly it fall in the bed... all the sand splashed on bed and floor...
They can be unnerving, but my kitties are more than just pets... They understand me, they are my companions and friends... They love me and I love them back... Its a simple relationship that shows in many intrincate ways.
Tired. Will sleep early... Long week ahead...
10-4
PS: Happy Birthday to LightShadow! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Sunday, October 23, 2005
I thought I had enough of pain, that I was trough with feeling pain and that my heart had gone steady and strong and even cold. I was wrong. Today I have felt a pain within me that has no description and no boundaries. Sudden, unexpected, swift, deadly… I have learned I still have tears to shed, and my ability to love left me… If I had a sword through my heart before, now it is no more… because the sword was taken away with the entire heart, after moving it sideways within my flesh, making sure that no trace of warm blood was left… As the shower of daggers ripped me open, I found my strength to stand leaving me. I held the doorframe trying to not fall, as my spirit went out of my body… I listened speechless… I couldn’t find inner force to make myself angry and reply, as I would normally do.
There is no point to words. There is only near-sightness and selfishness and an unreasonable jealousy that cannot allow any ray of hope, or any truth… He is fixed on the same idea, the same viewpoint, the same thoughts, which are not reality, which are not true… How can I compete with all he has quilted in his brain? What can I say to things, actions and words that hurt much without a point? He dares to doubt me in every way, and without any reason. And all I gave him was truth and dreams and all the love I had. This is it. This is the point of no return. This is where he chose to kill my heart and stop it all, even if it drives him insane, even if it is the worst mistake he knows he’s making. His desperation within his irrational ways leads him. Nothing else to do. I feel… Is that a consolation in itself? I still feel… After more than 15 years, I still feel…
What lies ahead... just around the riverbend? Now, that song made so much sense... And foretold so much change...
10-4
There is no point to words. There is only near-sightness and selfishness and an unreasonable jealousy that cannot allow any ray of hope, or any truth… He is fixed on the same idea, the same viewpoint, the same thoughts, which are not reality, which are not true… How can I compete with all he has quilted in his brain? What can I say to things, actions and words that hurt much without a point? He dares to doubt me in every way, and without any reason. And all I gave him was truth and dreams and all the love I had. This is it. This is the point of no return. This is where he chose to kill my heart and stop it all, even if it drives him insane, even if it is the worst mistake he knows he’s making. His desperation within his irrational ways leads him. Nothing else to do. I feel… Is that a consolation in itself? I still feel… After more than 15 years, I still feel…
What lies ahead... just around the riverbend? Now, that song made so much sense... And foretold so much change...
10-4
Saturday, October 22, 2005
What I love most about rivers is:
You can't step in the same river twice
The water's always changing, always flowing...
But people, I guess, can't live like that
We all must pay a price
To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing
What's around the riverbend
Waiting, just around the riverbend
I look once more
Just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore
Where the gulls fly free
Don't know what for
What I dream the day might send
Jut around the riverbend
For me
Coming for me
I feel it there beyond those trees
Or right behind these waterfalls
Can I ignore that sound of distant drumming
For a handsome sturdy husband
Who builds handsome sturdy walls
And never dreams that something might be coming?
Just around the riverbend
Just around the riverbend
I look once more
Just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore
Somewhere past the sea
Don't know what for ...
Why do all my dreams extend
Just around the riverbend?
Just around the riverbend ...
Should I choose the smoothest curve
Steady as the beating drum?
Should I marry Kocoum?
Is all my dreaming at an end?
Or do you still wait for me, Dream Giver...
Just around the riverbend?
-Pocahontas, Just around the riverbend
You can't step in the same river twice
The water's always changing, always flowing...
But people, I guess, can't live like that
We all must pay a price
To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing
What's around the riverbend
Waiting, just around the riverbend
I look once more
Just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore
Where the gulls fly free
Don't know what for
What I dream the day might send
Jut around the riverbend
For me
Coming for me
I feel it there beyond those trees
Or right behind these waterfalls
Can I ignore that sound of distant drumming
For a handsome sturdy husband
Who builds handsome sturdy walls
And never dreams that something might be coming?
Just around the riverbend
Just around the riverbend
I look once more
Just around the riverbend
Beyond the shore
Somewhere past the sea
Don't know what for ...
Why do all my dreams extend
Just around the riverbend?
Just around the riverbend ...
Should I choose the smoothest curve
Steady as the beating drum?
Should I marry Kocoum?
Is all my dreaming at an end?
Or do you still wait for me, Dream Giver...
Just around the riverbend?
-Pocahontas, Just around the riverbend
What did I do yesterday? I honestly can't recall... I think I've been watching Animal Cops and What Not to Wear and Trading Spaces... overdose of Animal Planet and TLC...
Today, the adventurers gathered at point A and so we went to point B to gather a package, but since it had not arrived we went to point C and then D. Point E was crowded but we managed to pass through the villagers unnoticed... our cloaking device works wonders! The borderline was full of insight and cats... We gathered information and went on to scout for valuables and fleur-de-liz items that would certainly please the Queen. No luck with the valuables, at least the big boss should appreciate the knowledge... nothing like being able to expand an ongoing plan. We went over dwarves and villagers once more, and with ease snatched our carriage and returned to point A so one of the crew could find means to reach point F. After a break another stop was made from point A to G, then back.
Dorothy has reached Kansas. The bird has landed. Pocahontas was a fool. And Mulan will be tomorrow's treat.
10-4
Today, the adventurers gathered at point A and so we went to point B to gather a package, but since it had not arrived we went to point C and then D. Point E was crowded but we managed to pass through the villagers unnoticed... our cloaking device works wonders! The borderline was full of insight and cats... We gathered information and went on to scout for valuables and fleur-de-liz items that would certainly please the Queen. No luck with the valuables, at least the big boss should appreciate the knowledge... nothing like being able to expand an ongoing plan. We went over dwarves and villagers once more, and with ease snatched our carriage and returned to point A so one of the crew could find means to reach point F. After a break another stop was made from point A to G, then back.
Dorothy has reached Kansas. The bird has landed. Pocahontas was a fool. And Mulan will be tomorrow's treat.
10-4
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Corpse Bride. Loved it. Emily, the perfect name after my own... LOL Emily Strange, Emily Rose, and now this Emily... The animation was nice, the story predictable but ok, and absolutely loved the ending with the butterflies. Tim Burton is a genious. I still don't know WHY people say that Big Fish was not a strong story... I think it was... I loved it. It moved me, and THAT doesnt happen everyday. Whatever...
Invaded by the Credit Card abducters. Had to cancel mine because of many transactions coming from Neverland... WTF. Struggling with barely there money and now this... Woe always invites strangers for free and for unreasonable fun... That was the suckiest moment of the day.
Seems the gov will take some land from some people and turn it into the place for a train that will take tourists to the Caves of Cofresí Pirate and will link that place to Boquerón resort... Funny thing is that the lands are on sale and some people (house developers) were to buy it, and the sellers didnt mention that fact... You know the government... they take whatever they want whenever... But I must admit that the idea of a train linking those places is very alluring to me. I just hope they have security for cars, so the thing about car vandalism or getting stolen as in the Tren Urbano doesnt have a second chapter over here...
Saw the apartment owner and a check should be on my way tomorrow afternoon... Need it for the bath tiles, the waterproof glue and the sink-toilet set.
Friday morning will take auntie to her Disneyland... the grocery store and the post office. Gotta call the contractor to see if I should call the people of AAA and AEE. By midday I'll visit my house to see what's up and take some measurements. Gottta go to AEELA as well, to try getting the loan to pay the lady that sold me the house although paperwork will have to wait until next week... Its at my office...). May visit Lucinda at night, been a looong while since I last saw her ( and she was not in a good mood).
**************** Music Box playing in the background... *****
**************** Imagination... Its free, use it! ***********
"Hey, hey, hey ,hey
Ohhh...
Won't you come see about me?
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love's strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on
Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby
Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me
Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down
Will you recognise me?
Call my name or walk on by
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down, down
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Ohhhh.....
Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security
Don't you forget about me
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Going to take you apart
I'll put us back together at heart, baby
Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
When you walk away
Or will you walk away?
Will you walk on by?
Come on - call my name
Will you all my name?
I say :
La la la...
When you walk on by...
And you call my name...
-Simple Minds, Dont u forget about me"
Dedicated to all my friends out there, although I don't talk to you regularly or see you regularly you are all regularly on my mind and on my heart.
Coriolis, Zordak, Lucinda, No Name, Groundel, Joe, LightShadow, LaSombra, Taz, Bubu, Rimmer, Lulú, El Calvo, Tetazo-Lady, Tribu de Texas... and late Mayra and Betsy who are both watching my back from Heaven...
********** End of Kodak moment ****************
********** back to regular schedule ****************
Thought of going to old San Juan on Saturday, but the weather broadcast foretells plenty of rain. So it may not be such a wise idea... And my budget is below the red line. Thinking that its best to leave that for next week... Still, don't know... Oh, and I almost forgot, the blue tiles arrive Sat afternoon... Eeeck!
Tired and blue... The usual. When will this provincial life will change...
Everyday... (yup, watch out... it's another musical score!)
"Little town, It's a quiet village
Ev'ry day Like the one before
Little town, Full of little people
Waking up to say: Bonjour!Bonjour!
Bonjour! Bonjour! Bonjour!
There goes the baker with his tray, like always
The same old bread and rolls to sell
Ev'ry morning just the same
Since the morning that we came
To this poor provincial town
Baker:Good Morning, Belle!
Belle:Good morning, Monsieur.
Baker:And where are you off to, today?
Belle:The bookshop. I just finished the most wonderful story
About a beanstalk and an ogre and a -
Baker:That's nice. Marie! The baguettes!Hurry up!
Townsfolk:Look there she goes that girl is strange, no question
Dazed and distracted, can't you tell?
Woman:Never part of any crowd
Man:'Cause her head's up on some cloud
Townsfolk:No denying she's a funny girl that Belle
Man I:Bonjour!
Woman I:Good day!
Man I:How is your fam'ly?
Woman 2:Bonjour!
Man 2:Good day!
Woman 2:How is your wife?
Woman 3:I need six eggs!
Woman 4:That's too expensive!
Belle:There must be more than this provincial life!
Bookseller:Ah, Belle.
Belle:Good morning, sir. I've come to return the book I borrowed.
Bookseller:Finished already?
Belle:Oh, I couldn't put it down. Have you got anything new?
Bookseller: Not since yesterday.
Belle:That's all right. I'll borrow . . . . this one!
Bookseller: That one? But you've read it twice!
Belle:Well, it's my favorite! Far off places, daring swordfights, magic spells, a prince in disguise -
Bookseller:If you like it all that much, it's yours!
Belle:But sir!
Bookseller:I insist.
Belle:Thank you. Thank you very much!
Townsfolk:Look there she goes that girl is so peculiar
I wonder if she's feeling well
With a dreamy, far-off look, And her nose stuck in a book
What a puzzle to the rest of us is Belle
Belle:Oh, isn't this amazing? It's my fav'rite part because --- you'll see
Here's where she meets Prince Charming, But she won't discover that it's him 'til chapter three!
Woman:Now it's no wonder that her name means "Beauty"
Her looks have got no parallel
Shopkeeper:But behind that fair facade I'm afraid she's rather odd
Man:Very diff'rent from the rest of us
Townsfolk:She's nothing like the rest of us
Yes, diff'rent from the rest of us is Belle!"
-Beauty and the Beast
There must be more than this provincial life! Just the way to sum up all my feelings... 32, and still believing in fairy tales...
10-4
Invaded by the Credit Card abducters. Had to cancel mine because of many transactions coming from Neverland... WTF. Struggling with barely there money and now this... Woe always invites strangers for free and for unreasonable fun... That was the suckiest moment of the day.
Seems the gov will take some land from some people and turn it into the place for a train that will take tourists to the Caves of Cofresí Pirate and will link that place to Boquerón resort... Funny thing is that the lands are on sale and some people (house developers) were to buy it, and the sellers didnt mention that fact... You know the government... they take whatever they want whenever... But I must admit that the idea of a train linking those places is very alluring to me. I just hope they have security for cars, so the thing about car vandalism or getting stolen as in the Tren Urbano doesnt have a second chapter over here...
Saw the apartment owner and a check should be on my way tomorrow afternoon... Need it for the bath tiles, the waterproof glue and the sink-toilet set.
Friday morning will take auntie to her Disneyland... the grocery store and the post office. Gotta call the contractor to see if I should call the people of AAA and AEE. By midday I'll visit my house to see what's up and take some measurements. Gottta go to AEELA as well, to try getting the loan to pay the lady that sold me the house although paperwork will have to wait until next week... Its at my office...). May visit Lucinda at night, been a looong while since I last saw her ( and she was not in a good mood).
**************** Music Box playing in the background... *****
**************** Imagination... Its free, use it! ***********
"Hey, hey, hey ,hey
Ohhh...
Won't you come see about me?
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love's strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on
Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby
Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me
Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down
Will you recognise me?
Call my name or walk on by
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down, down
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Ohhhh.....
Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security
Don't you forget about me
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Going to take you apart
I'll put us back together at heart, baby
Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
When you walk away
Or will you walk away?
Will you walk on by?
Come on - call my name
Will you all my name?
I say :
La la la...
When you walk on by...
And you call my name...
-Simple Minds, Dont u forget about me"
Dedicated to all my friends out there, although I don't talk to you regularly or see you regularly you are all regularly on my mind and on my heart.
Coriolis, Zordak, Lucinda, No Name, Groundel, Joe, LightShadow, LaSombra, Taz, Bubu, Rimmer, Lulú, El Calvo, Tetazo-Lady, Tribu de Texas... and late Mayra and Betsy who are both watching my back from Heaven...
********** End of Kodak moment ****************
********** back to regular schedule ****************
Thought of going to old San Juan on Saturday, but the weather broadcast foretells plenty of rain. So it may not be such a wise idea... And my budget is below the red line. Thinking that its best to leave that for next week... Still, don't know... Oh, and I almost forgot, the blue tiles arrive Sat afternoon... Eeeck!
Tired and blue... The usual. When will this provincial life will change...
Everyday... (yup, watch out... it's another musical score!)
"Little town, It's a quiet village
Ev'ry day Like the one before
Little town, Full of little people
Waking up to say: Bonjour!Bonjour!
Bonjour! Bonjour! Bonjour!
There goes the baker with his tray, like always
The same old bread and rolls to sell
Ev'ry morning just the same
Since the morning that we came
To this poor provincial town
Baker:Good Morning, Belle!
Belle:Good morning, Monsieur.
Baker:And where are you off to, today?
Belle:The bookshop. I just finished the most wonderful story
About a beanstalk and an ogre and a -
Baker:That's nice. Marie! The baguettes!Hurry up!
Townsfolk:Look there she goes that girl is strange, no question
Dazed and distracted, can't you tell?
Woman:Never part of any crowd
Man:'Cause her head's up on some cloud
Townsfolk:No denying she's a funny girl that Belle
Man I:Bonjour!
Woman I:Good day!
Man I:How is your fam'ly?
Woman 2:Bonjour!
Man 2:Good day!
Woman 2:How is your wife?
Woman 3:I need six eggs!
Woman 4:That's too expensive!
Belle:There must be more than this provincial life!
Bookseller:Ah, Belle.
Belle:Good morning, sir. I've come to return the book I borrowed.
Bookseller:Finished already?
Belle:Oh, I couldn't put it down. Have you got anything new?
Bookseller: Not since yesterday.
Belle:That's all right. I'll borrow . . . . this one!
Bookseller: That one? But you've read it twice!
Belle:Well, it's my favorite! Far off places, daring swordfights, magic spells, a prince in disguise -
Bookseller:If you like it all that much, it's yours!
Belle:But sir!
Bookseller:I insist.
Belle:Thank you. Thank you very much!
Townsfolk:Look there she goes that girl is so peculiar
I wonder if she's feeling well
With a dreamy, far-off look, And her nose stuck in a book
What a puzzle to the rest of us is Belle
Belle:Oh, isn't this amazing? It's my fav'rite part because --- you'll see
Here's where she meets Prince Charming, But she won't discover that it's him 'til chapter three!
Woman:Now it's no wonder that her name means "Beauty"
Her looks have got no parallel
Shopkeeper:But behind that fair facade I'm afraid she's rather odd
Man:Very diff'rent from the rest of us
Townsfolk:She's nothing like the rest of us
Yes, diff'rent from the rest of us is Belle!"
-Beauty and the Beast
There must be more than this provincial life! Just the way to sum up all my feelings... 32, and still believing in fairy tales...
10-4
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella.
Ella fue una desilución para sus padres
que querían un varón,
pasaba el tiempo vestida de azul
en algún rincón ...
Siempre quiso ser bailarina,
más la obligaron a estudiar medicina,
y le prohibieron la ilusión de
un amor que la distraía ...
Coro:
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella.
Y se fue a casar confundida
con un mediocre al que ni quería,
y entre que haceres, gritos y novelas
se le fue la vida ...
Y se tragaba su llanto encerrada en el baño,
y se enterraba las uñas de desesperación,
y salía cómo si nada con la cara lavada ...
para quedarse callada con el dolor en el corazón!
Coro:
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella.
De nada sirvieron los hijos
que la llevaron a tirar a un asilo,
donde una tarde se miró al espejo
y lo encontró vacío ....
Ella tuvo una visión en esa noche clara,
se imaginó volando se sintió amada ...
Ella se prometió: Voy a cambiar mañana!
dijo que sería ella ...
y que lucharía por ella ...
pero el mañana no llegó.
Coro:
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella.
Ella que nunca fue...
-Gloria Trevi, Ella que nunca fue
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella.
Ella fue una desilución para sus padres
que querían un varón,
pasaba el tiempo vestida de azul
en algún rincón ...
Siempre quiso ser bailarina,
más la obligaron a estudiar medicina,
y le prohibieron la ilusión de
un amor que la distraía ...
Coro:
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella.
Y se fue a casar confundida
con un mediocre al que ni quería,
y entre que haceres, gritos y novelas
se le fue la vida ...
Y se tragaba su llanto encerrada en el baño,
y se enterraba las uñas de desesperación,
y salía cómo si nada con la cara lavada ...
para quedarse callada con el dolor en el corazón!
Coro:
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella.
De nada sirvieron los hijos
que la llevaron a tirar a un asilo,
donde una tarde se miró al espejo
y lo encontró vacío ....
Ella tuvo una visión en esa noche clara,
se imaginó volando se sintió amada ...
Ella se prometió: Voy a cambiar mañana!
dijo que sería ella ...
y que lucharía por ella ...
pero el mañana no llegó.
Coro:
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella,
Ella que nunca fue, Ella que nunca fue ella.
Ella que nunca fue...
-Gloria Trevi, Ella que nunca fue
¿Que opinas de los toreros muertos?
Pues ay que hacerles un tributo ¿no?
Va
Y creo que he bebido mas de 40 cervezas hoy
y creo que tendré que expulsarlas fuera de mi...
y subo al water que hay arriba en el bar
y le empiezo a mear y me hecho a reir
sale de mi una aguita amarilla calida y tibia
Y baja por una tuberia
pasa por debajo de tu casa
pasa por debajo de tu familia
pasa por debajo de tu lugar de trabajo
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
Y llega a un río
la bebe el pastor
la beben las vaquitas
riega los campos
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
Y baja al mar
juega con los pececillos
juega con los calamares
juega con las meduzas y con las merluzas
que tu te comes
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla(estrb)
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
Larala,larala,larala,laralala,la la la
El sol calienta mi aguita amarilla
la pone cien grados, la manda para arriba
viaja por el cielo, llega a tu ciudad
y empieza a diluviar
moja las calles,moja a tu padre
tu madre lava la vjilla con mi aguita amarilla
larala,larala,larala
moja el patio del colegio
moja el ayuntamiento
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
Larala,larala,larala,laralala,la la la
Y creo que he bebido mas de 40 cervesas hoy
y creo que tendré que expulsarlas fuera de mi
y subo al water que hay arriba en el bar
y empiezo a mear y me hecho a reir
y me pongo a pensar ¿donde irá?¿donde irá?¿donde irá?
¿donde irá? se esparcirá por el mundo!
pondá verde la selva y es que mi aguita amarilla
será un líquido en el mundo
Larala,larala,larala,laralala,la la la
Larala,larala,larala,laralala,la la la
-Molotov, Mi aguita amarilla
Pues ay que hacerles un tributo ¿no?
Va
Y creo que he bebido mas de 40 cervezas hoy
y creo que tendré que expulsarlas fuera de mi...
y subo al water que hay arriba en el bar
y le empiezo a mear y me hecho a reir
sale de mi una aguita amarilla calida y tibia
Y baja por una tuberia
pasa por debajo de tu casa
pasa por debajo de tu familia
pasa por debajo de tu lugar de trabajo
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
Y llega a un río
la bebe el pastor
la beben las vaquitas
riega los campos
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
Y baja al mar
juega con los pececillos
juega con los calamares
juega con las meduzas y con las merluzas
que tu te comes
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla(estrb)
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
Larala,larala,larala,laralala,la la la
El sol calienta mi aguita amarilla
la pone cien grados, la manda para arriba
viaja por el cielo, llega a tu ciudad
y empieza a diluviar
moja las calles,moja a tu padre
tu madre lava la vjilla con mi aguita amarilla
larala,larala,larala
moja el patio del colegio
moja el ayuntamiento
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
mi aguita amarilla,mi aguita amarilla
Larala,larala,larala,laralala,la la la
Y creo que he bebido mas de 40 cervesas hoy
y creo que tendré que expulsarlas fuera de mi
y subo al water que hay arriba en el bar
y empiezo a mear y me hecho a reir
y me pongo a pensar ¿donde irá?¿donde irá?¿donde irá?
¿donde irá? se esparcirá por el mundo!
pondá verde la selva y es que mi aguita amarilla
será un líquido en el mundo
Larala,larala,larala,laralala,la la la
Larala,larala,larala,laralala,la la la
-Molotov, Mi aguita amarilla
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Beaches
I am NOT dead. I am NOT haunting old Mayaguez streets with a white (eckkkkk!) camisole and messy hair falling on my face, while everyone hears me screaming: La Madre! La Madre! And no, I have NOT run away to Mozambique to release rats of their very important and dangerous task of finding unused concealed bombs.
People: I am on vacation. Translation: I am doing many things that I would not be able to do while working, so you wont find me sitting in a corner facing the wall and scratching my butt. I have been looking for the prices of house things like tiles and lamps and different kinds of fixtures, and daydreaming as I look for prospect sofas and bedroom stuff... prospect because as someone says, and I quote: " Champagne taste but Coca-Cola pocket".
All these days I've been trying to asimilate what I can change in the house that I bought, what I can change later, what I can stand for a while and what definitively has to go. It has been a very tiresome process, at times confusing, at times overwhelming, at times as clear as water. Can't do much with only $200 to count on for the next 3 months... everything else is compromised for paying the last checks to the owner, and for paying the last checks to the constructor. On January I will be able to start fixing things, slowly but in a more consistent way... Following the master plan, everything should be spit and spat by Thanksgiving 2006. Yay! Until then, more headaches ahead... But I guess that all the trouble has a flair of its own, and its a lovely process in which I will be able to construct the right lair for the right dragoness...
Downstairs there are quite some needs: New cabinets (yikes, a solid $2000 for the perfect kitchen which includes a stove and fridge, a double corner sink, and cabinets with gothic arches), new flooring (old world tiles resembling stone for the foyer, living room and dining room, and solid terracota for the kitchen), whole bath redo (cobalt blue tiles inside the criolle bath, outside walls with white tiles placed diagonally, fleur-de-lis cobalt designs stamped on some of them and stamped as ceiling border... floor in white-cobalt design... cabinet and mirror for the sink). I already have the chandelliers for living & dining, small but with unique character ( and which I need someone to do the rewiring). I'm looking for the kitchen and foyer chandelliers, and I spotted a nice one for the stairway... Oh, and I need to visit the Salvation Army since that will be the spot to get most of the mobiliary that I need (they have very good deals, but this has to wait until Feb or Mar).
Upstairs: I like the yellow flooring, so it stays. The two bedrooms need new closets, so I'll get them mirrored ones later on. They needed light fixtures, and I just won them on ebay... two nice small chandelliers. I already have the a/c for my room (very important! I'm a polar bear). Since I cant do the cabinets downstairs until next year, the ones upstairs will stay for a little while, then they will be dismissed (only the sink will stay because that area will be designated to a small kitchenette and my art space). Now, the bathroom... It needs TLC asap... I just cant go in there and smile... hate the tiles and mish mash of everything. Since seems I will live upstairs really soon, the common sense dictated that it is the room that needs inmediate help... I am trying to do the best to solve that problem... Got the criolle bath flooring. Still need the cobalt blue tiles and the mustard tiles, the trim tiles in cobalt maybe with a design, bot sure yet... white spaces on the walls maybe with white tiles to match the sink... Cobalt, mustard and white since I will keep the stars and moons tradition in this bathroom.
Construction: A wall is done, the arches are WIP and the stairway was stripped of the iron fence and the foundation for the big wall and ceiling is done. I dont want them working too fast... which they are doing... Got the entire payment in December!
Patio: The great outdoors meets wilderness... Need to hire someone to take down the forest but that has to wait a bit more... I hope that the bees nest is not too close as they buzz around! I'm looking for a cabrita couple so they work the trimming miracle that I need... leave your resumes at my post! :)
Today: Took the day out for a vacation day, went with the idea of going to the beach... Caña Gorda was closed... They close Mon and Tue... is a new law... The chicken BBQ guy was not in the road when we passed by, I should have taken the hint. So, we went to my favorite place in the world: Cabo Rojo's Lighthouse. We trecked, my car almost got stuck thanks to my thinking it is a Big Foot machine, and we climbed our way defying the wind and the sun... The lighthouse is now surrounded by iron fencing that is closed to visitors. I could not touch the building. Right there was where I rescued Roxy last year... It stinged my heart. Ever since my 17th year I made the journey to this sacred place, and felt atuned to a land that I feel for, and felt that the surrounding wildlife and plants and even ants welcomed me as I welcomed them... It felt surreal and bad. I felt old. I felt violated. My sacred temple is no more, thanks to rich people with no love for values and culture and heck, not even for freedom. I hope an alien attack changes everything for good.
Anyway, after the ill fated encounter of a closed Faro (lighthouse), we went to Combate Beach. Closed... at least it had a good reason for that, it was flooded... yup, a flooded beach... plus the surroundings have been sold to rich people who have built many apartment-tourist facilities... Awful. The land is no longer wildlife, it is a wild mix of a new breed: cement and lavishness. No respect for nature, none at all... That's why it rebels. I was actually glad the place was flooded... People that mess with wildlife are scum. So... We decided to try another beach, Boqueron... It was closed. Same Mon-Tue closed crap. Then we went to Buyé Beach... The resort had the same sign... No beaches on Mon or Tue. What used to be a free simple thing you could do whenever you felt like is now something you must do under the rules of the government, the days they want and the times they allow. If I were the Little Prince I would die of sorrow and sadness because I would not be able to watch sunsets in the right place to do so... and we are talking about an island! Freedom! My ass!
So... back home we watched half of Pocahontas... ermmm, more nature being ripped away stuff, not good... This was my vacation day... I am tired, dissapointed, sad about nature... People wonder why all these bad things are happenning: earthquakes, tsunamies, landslides, earth openings, floods... Mother Nature is awakening from her slumber and her task now is to have an iron fist... no velvet glove... no one had a velvet glove with her...
I love my small island. I love the dawns and dusks, I love its green allure and its majestic seashores... Mankind should be removed to avoid further damage to flora and fauna. We are the worst animals of all, because all that animals do is based on instinct and survival, and all that humans do is based on greed and evil. My homeland has a terminal disease that needs to be removed... But that is utopic wishing...
Personal life: Still, very still... No sounds within or beyond. Suspended animation, o algo.
10-4
People: I am on vacation. Translation: I am doing many things that I would not be able to do while working, so you wont find me sitting in a corner facing the wall and scratching my butt. I have been looking for the prices of house things like tiles and lamps and different kinds of fixtures, and daydreaming as I look for prospect sofas and bedroom stuff... prospect because as someone says, and I quote: " Champagne taste but Coca-Cola pocket".
All these days I've been trying to asimilate what I can change in the house that I bought, what I can change later, what I can stand for a while and what definitively has to go. It has been a very tiresome process, at times confusing, at times overwhelming, at times as clear as water. Can't do much with only $200 to count on for the next 3 months... everything else is compromised for paying the last checks to the owner, and for paying the last checks to the constructor. On January I will be able to start fixing things, slowly but in a more consistent way... Following the master plan, everything should be spit and spat by Thanksgiving 2006. Yay! Until then, more headaches ahead... But I guess that all the trouble has a flair of its own, and its a lovely process in which I will be able to construct the right lair for the right dragoness...
Downstairs there are quite some needs: New cabinets (yikes, a solid $2000 for the perfect kitchen which includes a stove and fridge, a double corner sink, and cabinets with gothic arches), new flooring (old world tiles resembling stone for the foyer, living room and dining room, and solid terracota for the kitchen), whole bath redo (cobalt blue tiles inside the criolle bath, outside walls with white tiles placed diagonally, fleur-de-lis cobalt designs stamped on some of them and stamped as ceiling border... floor in white-cobalt design... cabinet and mirror for the sink). I already have the chandelliers for living & dining, small but with unique character ( and which I need someone to do the rewiring). I'm looking for the kitchen and foyer chandelliers, and I spotted a nice one for the stairway... Oh, and I need to visit the Salvation Army since that will be the spot to get most of the mobiliary that I need (they have very good deals, but this has to wait until Feb or Mar).
Upstairs: I like the yellow flooring, so it stays. The two bedrooms need new closets, so I'll get them mirrored ones later on. They needed light fixtures, and I just won them on ebay... two nice small chandelliers. I already have the a/c for my room (very important! I'm a polar bear). Since I cant do the cabinets downstairs until next year, the ones upstairs will stay for a little while, then they will be dismissed (only the sink will stay because that area will be designated to a small kitchenette and my art space). Now, the bathroom... It needs TLC asap... I just cant go in there and smile... hate the tiles and mish mash of everything. Since seems I will live upstairs really soon, the common sense dictated that it is the room that needs inmediate help... I am trying to do the best to solve that problem... Got the criolle bath flooring. Still need the cobalt blue tiles and the mustard tiles, the trim tiles in cobalt maybe with a design, bot sure yet... white spaces on the walls maybe with white tiles to match the sink... Cobalt, mustard and white since I will keep the stars and moons tradition in this bathroom.
Construction: A wall is done, the arches are WIP and the stairway was stripped of the iron fence and the foundation for the big wall and ceiling is done. I dont want them working too fast... which they are doing... Got the entire payment in December!
Patio: The great outdoors meets wilderness... Need to hire someone to take down the forest but that has to wait a bit more... I hope that the bees nest is not too close as they buzz around! I'm looking for a cabrita couple so they work the trimming miracle that I need... leave your resumes at my post! :)
Today: Took the day out for a vacation day, went with the idea of going to the beach... Caña Gorda was closed... They close Mon and Tue... is a new law... The chicken BBQ guy was not in the road when we passed by, I should have taken the hint. So, we went to my favorite place in the world: Cabo Rojo's Lighthouse. We trecked, my car almost got stuck thanks to my thinking it is a Big Foot machine, and we climbed our way defying the wind and the sun... The lighthouse is now surrounded by iron fencing that is closed to visitors. I could not touch the building. Right there was where I rescued Roxy last year... It stinged my heart. Ever since my 17th year I made the journey to this sacred place, and felt atuned to a land that I feel for, and felt that the surrounding wildlife and plants and even ants welcomed me as I welcomed them... It felt surreal and bad. I felt old. I felt violated. My sacred temple is no more, thanks to rich people with no love for values and culture and heck, not even for freedom. I hope an alien attack changes everything for good.
Anyway, after the ill fated encounter of a closed Faro (lighthouse), we went to Combate Beach. Closed... at least it had a good reason for that, it was flooded... yup, a flooded beach... plus the surroundings have been sold to rich people who have built many apartment-tourist facilities... Awful. The land is no longer wildlife, it is a wild mix of a new breed: cement and lavishness. No respect for nature, none at all... That's why it rebels. I was actually glad the place was flooded... People that mess with wildlife are scum. So... We decided to try another beach, Boqueron... It was closed. Same Mon-Tue closed crap. Then we went to Buyé Beach... The resort had the same sign... No beaches on Mon or Tue. What used to be a free simple thing you could do whenever you felt like is now something you must do under the rules of the government, the days they want and the times they allow. If I were the Little Prince I would die of sorrow and sadness because I would not be able to watch sunsets in the right place to do so... and we are talking about an island! Freedom! My ass!
So... back home we watched half of Pocahontas... ermmm, more nature being ripped away stuff, not good... This was my vacation day... I am tired, dissapointed, sad about nature... People wonder why all these bad things are happenning: earthquakes, tsunamies, landslides, earth openings, floods... Mother Nature is awakening from her slumber and her task now is to have an iron fist... no velvet glove... no one had a velvet glove with her...
I love my small island. I love the dawns and dusks, I love its green allure and its majestic seashores... Mankind should be removed to avoid further damage to flora and fauna. We are the worst animals of all, because all that animals do is based on instinct and survival, and all that humans do is based on greed and evil. My homeland has a terminal disease that needs to be removed... But that is utopic wishing...
Personal life: Still, very still... No sounds within or beyond. Suspended animation, o algo.
10-4
Friday, October 14, 2005
Unbirthday
A very happy unbirthday to LS! We celebrated her Un-bday yesterday with simple dinner and a movie night. The Fog was awful... Terrible mish mash of stories that had no point really and nothing scarier that the Pirates of the Caribbean special effects... I'll give it half a cow head... (BTW LS's bday is on the 24th, so until then many happy un-bdays to her! :P
Popu: Email me with the right email because I did sent an invite when I sent all invites! Did you cancelled your yahooooooooooooo? Shame on you!
Groundel: Get a job, get back to college on Jan and surprise me by May. :D Am I gonna let u say "I do" this time? (music from Psycho)
Back to my red self... Out!
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Popu: Email me with the right email because I did sent an invite when I sent all invites! Did you cancelled your yahooooooooooooo? Shame on you!
Groundel: Get a job, get back to college on Jan and surprise me by May. :D Am I gonna let u say "I do" this time? (music from Psycho)
Back to my red self... Out!
10-4
Big Mistake
I am barely alive... this can't be called living. This has been the worst idea that I've had. Moving in with my aunt has proven to be the worst of all choices this year... Why? I get screamed at 24/7 for everything I do... and for everything I don't do... It is not important the fact that things are not my fault, if I am around it is my fault no matter what. I am 32 year olds, biologically. For her, I'm just 12 year olds and I know nothing about the world, about living and about the things I do. I am stupid, ignorant, flamboyant, and all I do is lead an easy life. For her I am not a professional who is fighting for her own place and her own things... no... for her I am a leech that takes advantage of the little things she has, a chaotic disruption in her order, someone who has no use other than bothering, bossing and being tossed around. She has no respect for me, for who I am, for my beliefs...
She doesn't get that I need peace and quiet, that I am on vacation and that the last things I've been having is fun... That I am juggling the construction, the cats, personal issues, work issues, everyone elses issues... and I simply cannot stand or be around screaming and yelling and fighting just because it is my fault that I breathe. I needed a vacation from work because of the constant nagging of people... peace of cake when compared to this 24/7 nagging that has no sense in itself... I had no choice but to leave the apartment in order to do the house thing... Can't she see that I am not here just because it is comfy and relaxed... because it is NOT comfy, it is NOT relaxed, it is driving me nuts, it DISRUPTS my inner peace... I hate going home to soemone elses home, having to give every reason and detail of what I'm doing or what I'm gonna do or what I bought or what I eat or what I drink or why the cats act as cats, or why everyone is as they are, or why the world is having so many calamities, or why God put me here to try my patience when He knows I have none less!
This aint good for my nerves, it aint good for my mental health, it aint good for trying to smile and accomplish the little goals I must accomplish in order to set things straight... She volunteered when I asked, and I asked 5 times. I hesitated and she said all the way that this was my home and would always be... that she would help. Honestly, if she had said no at least I would have had the headache of getting more money and staying on the apartment until things were done. I have not really saved anything in matters of cash because now I have no place to cook because she wont let me touch anything in the kitchen, she wont let me wash my clothes because I could damage the washing machine, and I have no place to really rest and be... simply be... My little apartment was a haven, each time I closed the door to the world it was my space, my air, my silence...
I hope that construction ends up soon because I need to move by Thanksgiving. I know that living there will be harsh at first without furniture and stuff, but I rather be surrounded by candlelight and sleep in a place where no one will tell me what I must do or shouldnt do or simply anoy me because it seems fun. It's that bad in here... I find myself crying every night because of it... a knot in my throat as I see that good intentions are one thing and reality is another... I love my aunt, she is a real mother to me, but I cannot live under her roof if I want to truly live. Its as simple as that.
True colors shine through, for everyone.
10-4
She doesn't get that I need peace and quiet, that I am on vacation and that the last things I've been having is fun... That I am juggling the construction, the cats, personal issues, work issues, everyone elses issues... and I simply cannot stand or be around screaming and yelling and fighting just because it is my fault that I breathe. I needed a vacation from work because of the constant nagging of people... peace of cake when compared to this 24/7 nagging that has no sense in itself... I had no choice but to leave the apartment in order to do the house thing... Can't she see that I am not here just because it is comfy and relaxed... because it is NOT comfy, it is NOT relaxed, it is driving me nuts, it DISRUPTS my inner peace... I hate going home to soemone elses home, having to give every reason and detail of what I'm doing or what I'm gonna do or what I bought or what I eat or what I drink or why the cats act as cats, or why everyone is as they are, or why the world is having so many calamities, or why God put me here to try my patience when He knows I have none less!
This aint good for my nerves, it aint good for my mental health, it aint good for trying to smile and accomplish the little goals I must accomplish in order to set things straight... She volunteered when I asked, and I asked 5 times. I hesitated and she said all the way that this was my home and would always be... that she would help. Honestly, if she had said no at least I would have had the headache of getting more money and staying on the apartment until things were done. I have not really saved anything in matters of cash because now I have no place to cook because she wont let me touch anything in the kitchen, she wont let me wash my clothes because I could damage the washing machine, and I have no place to really rest and be... simply be... My little apartment was a haven, each time I closed the door to the world it was my space, my air, my silence...
I hope that construction ends up soon because I need to move by Thanksgiving. I know that living there will be harsh at first without furniture and stuff, but I rather be surrounded by candlelight and sleep in a place where no one will tell me what I must do or shouldnt do or simply anoy me because it seems fun. It's that bad in here... I find myself crying every night because of it... a knot in my throat as I see that good intentions are one thing and reality is another... I love my aunt, she is a real mother to me, but I cannot live under her roof if I want to truly live. Its as simple as that.
True colors shine through, for everyone.
10-4
Monday, October 10, 2005
Vacation begins!
Vacation begins, and I am beyond broke. The contractor passed by at 9:30 as he agreed to, and we decided to build a wall surrounding the stairway outside, so the space is a bit bigger instead of being reduced. Light issues will be taken care of, and the two arches will be on the sides. I'll get rid off the counter in the kitchen, so I can later on built a nice L shaped kitchen. Bathrooms need tls, especially a change of tiles. Upstairs will have some add-ons, but that is another proyect when the mayor changes finish. The area of the foyer will be defined later on, my focus is on open space... so I can breathe!
Spent the afternoon putting together the background pages of what will be the May vacation's scrapbook. The Disney theme is perfect, and found postcards that I got at Universal for that purpose... Way cool. Will start the paging/ journaling/ selection/ putting together/ voila! tomorrow afternoon...
The weather has been too fickle... Beach will have to wait for next week IF rain stops. Thinking of traveling north to visit Old San Juan and to go to the Salvation Army and check out the furniture and stuff... Looking for oldies with medieval flair... Thats how I want to decorate my house... :D
Coriolis: May Groundel & me stay over on Friday night if rain stops and allows for travel?
Lucinda: Got some bags for you. Ring to claim them ;)
LS: Are you doing something on Thursday night?
Popu: Are you on legal drugs yet?
Groundel: Are you happy or at least happy-errr?
God: What is the big plan you keep hidding from me? Stop changing the questions when I got the answers! Please? :D
10-4
Spent the afternoon putting together the background pages of what will be the May vacation's scrapbook. The Disney theme is perfect, and found postcards that I got at Universal for that purpose... Way cool. Will start the paging/ journaling/ selection/ putting together/ voila! tomorrow afternoon...
The weather has been too fickle... Beach will have to wait for next week IF rain stops. Thinking of traveling north to visit Old San Juan and to go to the Salvation Army and check out the furniture and stuff... Looking for oldies with medieval flair... Thats how I want to decorate my house... :D
Coriolis: May Groundel & me stay over on Friday night if rain stops and allows for travel?
Lucinda: Got some bags for you. Ring to claim them ;)
LS: Are you doing something on Thursday night?
Popu: Are you on legal drugs yet?
Groundel: Are you happy or at least happy-errr?
God: What is the big plan you keep hidding from me? Stop changing the questions when I got the answers! Please? :D
10-4
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Finally this hellish week is over. Overloaded with work in every sense... People driving me crazy. The next two weeks will be in sort-of-vacations, at least away from work. Yesterday was a looongaleer day in Aguadilla, the bright side is a cheap eating place that the girls showed me... got some pescao en escabeche with guineitos that was simply delicious. Went to sleep early, had to wake up early today because of the exadep test...
Speaking of tests, that exadep crap sucked. Everything went well, but that math part was a killer... things I have never seen, symbols that only someone who had taken calculus not just business calculus would know... Whatever. Another crappy thing was taking a 4.5 hour test in those crappy rooms with no a/c... Absolute sauna!
Rainy weather is cool during afternoons and nights... Slept in the afternoon and went to try reaching el calvo at night... No use... Where is he? Was he abducted by aliens? Is he travelling? WTF? Left Gruendel in his provisional lair and went home...
May stay with the kiddies tonight, they seem to need the love.
Tired... Havent called or contacted any friendly face... had no time during this past week... Yes, Lucinda, I'm alive (barely)! Thanks for the hello, LS, hopefully I'll call u on Sun. :D Hi to Pops, NoName the missing in action one, and Coriolis. I love you all guys! Yu are all always in my thoughts.
Catching zzz's... Out!
10-4
Speaking of tests, that exadep crap sucked. Everything went well, but that math part was a killer... things I have never seen, symbols that only someone who had taken calculus not just business calculus would know... Whatever. Another crappy thing was taking a 4.5 hour test in those crappy rooms with no a/c... Absolute sauna!
Rainy weather is cool during afternoons and nights... Slept in the afternoon and went to try reaching el calvo at night... No use... Where is he? Was he abducted by aliens? Is he travelling? WTF? Left Gruendel in his provisional lair and went home...
May stay with the kiddies tonight, they seem to need the love.
Tired... Havent called or contacted any friendly face... had no time during this past week... Yes, Lucinda, I'm alive (barely)! Thanks for the hello, LS, hopefully I'll call u on Sun. :D Hi to Pops, NoName the missing in action one, and Coriolis. I love you all guys! Yu are all always in my thoughts.
Catching zzz's... Out!
10-4
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Will be at Yauco and San German tomorrow, and at Aguadilla on Friday… Got the ticket for the test… Gotta pass the test so I can go on with the plan of going back to studying on January.. hopefully it will be for a doctors degree. Will be figuring out if I should move anytime soon to the house… Next week I will call for connection of water and light… I’m trying to get contractor and quotes but so far nothing… Growing impatient…
Valiant… Cute little short movie… Disney did it again, loved the furry feather friends.
Past weekend was the big move. I had no luck finding Willie at first, but he was home on Friday night and he agreed to lend the pick-up. So on Saturday morning he, along with Groundel’s help, moved the big stuff out of my small dwelling… During the afternoon the room for the kittens was prepared at its best… At night I was too beat to do anything else… On Sunday got cat food, left the anti-flea liquid on the cashier’s place (had to go back on Tue to get the stuff and not loose the money)… And cleaned out the last parts of the apartment. 10:30pm… still moving out… I was beat!
On Monday I was on zombiefyed estate the whole day… Went home to put clothing in place and my aunt was still arguing and screaming her way to me… Out we went to catch a breath of air…
Tuesday… nothing too interesting… Updates at work, taking care of kitties at home… Tired as hell… Keys and beeper given to owner. Waiting for the deposit until next week… I hope that wont be a mayor issue now…
Wednesday: More updates, people bugging with their stuff and me very tired. Got Inositol and anti-flea.
Hopefully, after tomorrows updates at work, I’ll get my house’s keys, give the lady a bit of cash, then pick Groundel so we go check the house. Gotta sleep well on Friday, need a clear mind on Sat. Sunday and next week will be for house evaluation and calls and cleaning and taking stuff there.
Scores for postal service jobs arrived. I”m elegible, as well as Groundel… let’s see what happens.
Gotta sleep, eyes popping out.
10-4
Valiant… Cute little short movie… Disney did it again, loved the furry feather friends.
Past weekend was the big move. I had no luck finding Willie at first, but he was home on Friday night and he agreed to lend the pick-up. So on Saturday morning he, along with Groundel’s help, moved the big stuff out of my small dwelling… During the afternoon the room for the kittens was prepared at its best… At night I was too beat to do anything else… On Sunday got cat food, left the anti-flea liquid on the cashier’s place (had to go back on Tue to get the stuff and not loose the money)… And cleaned out the last parts of the apartment. 10:30pm… still moving out… I was beat!
On Monday I was on zombiefyed estate the whole day… Went home to put clothing in place and my aunt was still arguing and screaming her way to me… Out we went to catch a breath of air…
Tuesday… nothing too interesting… Updates at work, taking care of kitties at home… Tired as hell… Keys and beeper given to owner. Waiting for the deposit until next week… I hope that wont be a mayor issue now…
Wednesday: More updates, people bugging with their stuff and me very tired. Got Inositol and anti-flea.
Hopefully, after tomorrows updates at work, I’ll get my house’s keys, give the lady a bit of cash, then pick Groundel so we go check the house. Gotta sleep well on Friday, need a clear mind on Sat. Sunday and next week will be for house evaluation and calls and cleaning and taking stuff there.
Scores for postal service jobs arrived. I”m elegible, as well as Groundel… let’s see what happens.
Gotta sleep, eyes popping out.
10-4
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