Sometimes good times are just memories that are so far away that they fade into oblivion… I think that there aint much to do, there aint much to say… I am too angry and too ballistic to decide right now, but all my senses are telling me one fact that is irreversible and irrefutable: This is wrong. And my incstinct has never failed me. Groundel is just full of crap. And I am fed up of that crap. I am fed up on having so many responsabilities and so little consideration from everyone around me, especially him. I am fed up with being the “miracle doer” when problems arise, standing all by myself. I am fed up with being patient, and positive, and believing. I am fed up with having to pass as a “pendeja” just because… I am fed up.

Today I scream to the world I AM FED UP!!!!
Today I reclaim my old me, I change my name to Blaze Darkstream and I re-iniate my endless fight against injustice and evil!
Today I stand all over the little people, and embrace whom I am without any fear.
Today I see my true self, and I cry of joy at the realization that the more something changes, the more it stays the same. I have changed much, but the same stays:
I am in love with myself, first.
I am in love with my endless quest for justice.
I enjoy helping everyone, anytime.
I give much more than I have, expecting nothing.
I am a believer of truth, honor, courage, and valor.
I am a believer of faith.
I am a dreamer on a chaotic land.
I am a feminist in a macho-infested world.
I am free to do as I want, as I believe, as I know is right.
I have not been scared, but cautious. I am tired of caution. Aries is not about caution, but action. And I intend to act, no matter what.
I am enraged, yes… I am mad, yes… But since this rage and madness has been lingering for a long time, it is in truth a releasing experience in which I let go of false prophets and ideas. It is time for truth. I am fed up with lies.
I want truth! I am true, to my friends and to my loves, so I demand TRUTH.
In TRUTH shall I rest in peace, and arise as the vengeful spirit I am.

I am fed up with society and conformity.
I am fed up with being taken for granted.
I am fed up with swallowing lies and lies and lies.
I am fed up with staleness.

As William Wallace once screamed before dying and being dismembered: “FREEEEDDOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!”

Quote the raven “Nevermore”

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Tale as old as time
True as it can be
Barely even friends Then somebody bends
Unexpectedly

Just a little change
Small to say the least
Both a little scared Neither one prepared
Beauty and the Beast

Ever just the same
Ever a surprise
Ever as before Ever just as sure
As the sun will rise

Tale as old as time
Tune as old as song
Bitter sweet and strange Finding you can change
Learning you were wrong

Certain as the sun
Rising in the east
Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme
Beauty and the Beast

Tale as old as time
Song as old as rhyme

Beauty and the beast...

Sad... Some things can't change, others can change, others stale... The history of my life... Ah, whatever...
Frances hurricane will leave some winds and rain, but I don't expect much to happen. Acaban de decir que mañana gobierno no trabaja... Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Again, sad... Thinking of what could have been but wasn't...
Thinking of the One...
Thinking of the endless memories...
Thinking of the eternal promises...
Corn pops and milk...
Anarky and world domination...
Flames of Blaze consuming a vampyr...
The Age of Innocense...
16 years have passed, yet some things go beyong human count, beyond the realms of Dreaming, beyond hope...
Nonsense that means everything...
Danger... Dreaming... Lessons... Growth... Pain...
I shall go back to the shadows were I belong...

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7:30 AM The phone rings. I heard nothing. But Groundel did. He picks up and then he starts swearing after he hangs up. I wake up asking what's wrong. He said that this freaking guy called saying something wrong with the system blah blah. I get up to get dressed. He asks why. I said... Ugh... not a joke, we ARE working today. I must go to my office.

LOL He thought the guy was joking! OMG! I ran to my office and fix the small problems. And I am waiting until 10AM so if nothing else is wrong I shall depart... I am here, sitting in my office, bored as hell, VERY sleepy since I was up until 4AM looking for bairgains at ebay for needful stuff for the wedding. I am VERY sleepy, VERY tired... and the day promises to be frigging long! Going to take Groundelette to give more resumes, gonna take Kyo and Michi and Cyric to the vet in the late afternoon. And gotta finish the invitations tonight, plus do some scrapbooking. Yup, long day... Guess I wont be able to watch What Not To Wear tonight (my fav show of this season).

Gotta try to see if frigging Fabio passes by, so he gets some words from me. Asswipe. Groundelette should play pin the tail to the donkey with him. Grrrr...

Gonna try getting 1 of the 3 little thinguies I love so much at HT, my fav spot in the mall... Ok, my ONLY spot in the mall... I surrender! LOL

AVO sent me this hilarious link to a kitty video about a fishy song LMFAO!!!! I spent more than half and hour laughing! Thanks, Joe, needed the good laugh! :)

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Trilogy called today. Says the usual... Some emotion in his voice, but I just cannot believe him. It is as I say, actions speak louder than words. He may have/feel all the love in the world, but love doesnt pay bills, get a house or feed hunger. And he is still his lazyself... Can't expect him to change overnight, can I? He is starting school on the 30th, Tourism... at least that is something... I sincerely hope he can achieve that, so he can put to good use the hagling skills he has, and his vampiric charm. He may have all the good intentions, and he may actually be trying to do something, after the last 15 years... but I simply cannot sit and wait any longer. If he is to be with me, I put our destiny in Fate's hands. All I can do is keep going with my life... Until our lives can truly be joined... Someday.

Coriolis, Missing In Action... AGAIN.

Lucinda... Asleep by now.

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Understandable? Reprehensible?

Ah! Ok, so I am trying to understand and reason WHY, WHY, WHY and I repeat WHY men cannot (or will not) make up their minds? Groundelette is having some trouble with her Fabio. Sheeesh, the guy HAS a gf up there in the big land of the American Dream and is uhhhh and ahhhh sighting for her, but he is over here in the Land of the Lost... hanging out with Groundelette all the time, calling her all the time and commanding her as if she were his gf... WTFk?? And if she aint around to answer him or listen to him he gets all emotionally irrationally cranky... Ahhh, but he says she is like a sister to him... Yeah, right! It is convenient for a guy to have a disposable do-it-all around while trying to keep the "faithful" frame with his gf... If the lass can be called that... Fabio is a vain, egotistical, absent minded, dumb, macho-type guy... If you ask me, he is a LOSER! He has PLENTY to learn from life, he thinks he is so important he makes me laugh. And he treats Groundelette like doggy's poo. I say down with the bastard. He doesn't deserve your heart, girl! Castration! Vindication by punishment! He needs a reality check, and oh-boy... Do I feel like giving him just that!

Trying to fix some loose ends... Grrrrrrrr!!!

THE INCREDIBLY STUPID THINGS MEN DO...

AHHHHH! After reading NoShelll's rant one can only say that men can be the lowest scum alive. Why is it that so much self-sacrifice and faith and trust can be disposed off as simple as disposing off a used Kleenex? Ok... not ALL men are alike, but the few exceptions are halbreeds, not plainly human... or not human at all! Of the men I've know... Coriolis would be an exception because of his elvish ways, and AVO because of his half-gnomish bi-polar ways... But Trilogy was as self-absorved and cowardly unreliable as most men... And even Groundel can fall in that description... He's still working his way out of my humble opinion...

Why is it so hard for most men to simply stick to their logical truth? I mean... If you have something going on with someone, give the all or give nothing... Trust all or nothing... Believe all or simply walk away. Why get involved when they know they have their hearts set in something else... Or maybe just that they follow the crowd stronger than they could ever follow one lonesome love... even if it's the love of all times... the big soulmate... the One! There are many ways to cheat, besides the obvious most common male cheating... Leaving your girl for your friends, putting your girl down, leaving her second-third-fourth-or last place... Cheatig is a state of mind that involves much and always ends with destruction of trust, therefore destruction of faith, therefore destruction of the basis of love... And rebuilding THAT is almost impossible... Almost...

Rebuilding can take forever. It can consume everything, leaving only silence and stillness if not memory and pain... Endless hope can survive, but only in stasis and as an ideal.

Blaze Darkstream and Dorin Singlestar danced forever in the real story. The vampire in him ended up consuming and corrupting Blaze's soul. She received the dark kiss, and although darkness embraced her, the story had a bittersweet ending. The lovers would always belong, in life, unlife... living scourned... Ravenloft is the demiplane that is everywhere and nowhere at the same time... And its rapture is a beautiful, alluring emptiness filled with pulsing warm blood.

Candence and Mascom found each other in different realms, a cat and mouse chase that was neverending... I wonder...

Lyoness laughs at all and goes on, reaping her harvest of despair and madness. Yes, my job is done... The little people shall always feed my deity needs with their nameless actions and innocent deeds... Chaos is orderly misplaced in the worlds after all...

Kill the BEAST! Kill the BEAST!

The threshold between right and wrong is pain.
-His Holiness the Dalai Lama, Imagine All the People

Ah! At work, stressed... How strange huh? No system, and seems it will stay like that for a whole day. No comments... Tired, been trying to find a dress for Nilsa and Gladys, but nothing shows up... Seems Royal Blue is a weird color for nice garments... Grrrr...

Whatever...

What a long day... Been trying to sleep, then trying to finish some carriages, then trying to finish some letters, then back again to trying to sleep... Then since I just couldnt I just had to hook in the net... Ahhhh... Headache!
Watching Rose Red for the 6th time... Planning world conquest for the 130th time...
Not much to say today. Still sad about Mistrita... Cyric and Kyonne2 seems ok... and groooooowing...
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I am sad for little Mistra. I gave the 3 babies and Michita a wormer to be certain they had no parasites. Turns out they did have, Michita and the boys had only a few. But Mistra was overloaded... She had more than 10 worms. I read that roundworms affect growth and may cause brain damage. So taking out the worms affected her, completely. She started shivering and jumping as a muscle reaction. Then her limbs started to paralyze. She struggled until the end. Her eyes stayed fixed, but I know she was looking... and I know she felt love around her, until the end.

Coriolis has been blue too. Work and everything else... LOL Don't you just HATE when the mix happens, big old Elf?

Lucinda is alive, the kids are ok.

Groundelette got some papers, fulfilled a Mission but still a long way to go to complete the Quest! Do not get discouraged now!

Groundel started college classes... So days are going faster each second...

And I have been working and working and working as the workaholic brat I am...

Hope things get better... Although my only complaint is Mistra's demise... But having her in a comatose state was worst... We humans tend to attach ourselves too much to our furry companions, almost forgetting that sometimes all the love in the world just ain't enough... Ah... Whatever...

Me... Turning into a bunny with the veggie-fruit new addiction. LOL Getting some energy out of vitamins, and feeling much better. The sugar is not so sky-rocketed, still a long way to go to reach the goal BUT in the process. Yes, I am doing something about that, thank-you. :)

Got someone who may be able to do the castle-cake I wanted after all... Yay! And got someone to cover the catering at a very fair price, second Yay! :) Now, I hope that mommy helps out on the money matters by the 30th...

Must sleep... Work 2morrow... Although I may take it easy, as half the people will go to an activity at Hatillo... Whatever...

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Mystrita died yesterday, at 9:00 PM. Poison, brain damage... she was already pretty much gone... Struggling to keep the body alive... Perhaps feeling helplessly trapped in a body that wouldn't respond... The vet couldn't do much... I felt pretty helpless as well... Watching her go was another difficult task... I still can't believe it... Just 2 days ago she was crawling up my arm, cuddling in my neck... Quiet Mystra... The one that was shy, silent, the good girl... And as the song says, only the good die young...

Mystrita June 19 - August 18
May you rest in peace, in Kitty Heaven...
We will meet again.
Give Kyonene my love...
And be certain I love you as much.

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Friday the 13th, so this witch could not miss the chance to write. I'm surrounded with black kitties and got plenty of ill luck to spare! ;)
What I've been doing? Working, working, working... This week I've done enough to go home and just go to sleep. I am so friggin tired!
Groundelette still has no direction or job... Had a talk with her and hopefully she will get one in 2 weeks following my supercalifragilistic plan. Wish her luck, she needs it. Too shy, shy... She needs an injection of Braveheart and Conan and a brew of gomibayas...
Groundel is trying to control his anger, so Hulk doesn't appear to mess things up a little further. Good. So after a week of stormy weathers, the waters are calm, if not completely still.
No sign of Trilogy. RIP
Have same problems with my stupid phone, so cannot login at home... Crappy!!!! Lost an important bid thanks to this... ARGHHHHH!!!!
Anyway... Salutations to everyone... Hey, Joe, I have not forgotten about you!!!! :) And Kara and Vero, I'll get the blogs updates on the weekend... cannot read at work... Shouldn't be writing at all! LOL Oh, well...
Gotta go...
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Saturday, finally got a break to write. This week went too fast too furious for me... I'm deeply sad but it is ok... I guess... It doesn't really matters.

Michita and the kids are doing great.

Groundel and Groundelette doing great too.

Trilogy as depressed as I am, a bit more disturbing though...

Coriolis as deep as ever in his new alter ego: Buffito!

No work this week... sort of vacation... sort of getting things together...

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This lunch hour is sooooo lame... Got no money to go eat, and I have a great headache... At least the day is going fast. Went to Aguadilla in the morning, and arrived almost 5 minutes ago... I'm sleepy, tired, and the back pain is increasing by the minute... I need a personal therapist! LOL

Yup, trying to smile in my misery...

Hope that I stop being sick by Sunday. All these free days, and me being in bed being able to do nothing is really ANOYING and NOT HELPING AT ALL!!!! Hope I can do the 2 murals I need next week... And finish the goodies I have been doing for the wedding. At least Groundelette will be my helper of the week... Hmmm, actually it is more like "Finally a 24hr no-pay helper!" Yay!!!!! ;)

Will try getting a gov loan next week. Wish me luck. At least I must get 400, and that will solve one of the problems in the list of 12. Terminaré en la Comercio a este paso... :((

Anyway... The Monsegnor cannot give a mass, so the wedding will be the no-mass edition. Hmm... Ethereal? I wish! So I guess that the flavor for the theme will take place at the reception... Hope things get together after all. And hope I stop being sick by then! God, imagine me being sick that day, or the days after when we get to Universal or Disney! Blah!

Anyway... At work running things smoothly. Not so stressed this week, just in pain. You win some, you loose some... Ah! The balance! :P

Kitties succeeding at potty training. Cyric sleeping at all times, Mystra being a darling with her mommy and Kyonne being true to his name. :) Michita has been practicing great escapes, and the other old four are still not thrilled about them. Whatever!

Gotta go now. Have a great weekend!

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Ok... still sick but at least smiling and standing... sort of... Grrr... no money, tired of hot dogs, tired of avena, ahhhhh! Weeelll... trying to get some things sort out in financial matters. At work, in pain still. :(

Alive. This weekend is Groundels B-day on the 25th... Yayyyy! And his sister should be arriving just in time. :)

Kitties are precious!

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Was in ER from 7 am to 1:30 pm... Lovely ethereal experience... Very sick, fever, high sugar, etc. So... Under treatment. Been mental. Insane. Gotta rest.

Couldn't go work today. I had/have a great headache, fever, seems like the flu with the addition of a 450 of sugar in my diabetes-meter. That turned to a so-nice 220 by nightfall, nevertheless too high... For those who don't know anyone is suppossed to have 80-110 in sugar. So yes, 220 is still high. That's why I am dizzy, couldn't get off my bed until around 6pm. Checked some docs, so 2morrow will visit the ER and the Internalist and the Generalist. Also got a date with the psico on Aug. I need to get in tip-toe shape in matters of health, I can't keep getting sick by the hour. THIS I COMMAND!!!!!

Michita and the kids are happy campers at the bathroom. The kids will soon be introduced properly to the world of the living and unliving...

Groundel is ok and kicking. We went on Saturday to the wedding of one of his friends, DonLuis. We thought we were running late but no... the bride was really running late! An hour and a half late. LOL Yup, there was a nervous groom indeed :) So, after all the events we paid a visit to old landowner Tinita who gave us a loooong chat of 5 hours. After that we went back home. Coriolis was sick, I couldnt call AVO and plans just melt because of SEVERE lack of funds and my continual dizziness... Yeah, my sugar has been high for about 5 days, so what... Still going... Only the good die young anyway... Ok, so that doesn't help my case... Whatever...

Trilogy has been trying 2 find me. I have been unavailable due to constant running here and there.

Waters are lowering, but still, people misunderstand EVERYTHING because they know NOTHING. That really pisses me off. Some stories are too long and too original to tell since anyone could copy it and sell it and gain plenty of money from it... Someday, when I get REALLY bored, I will start writing a clean copy of The Trials and Tortures of Dear Miss V. A completely uncut version. From year one to year thirtysomething. Then people will go uuuuuuuuu and aaaaaaaaa with true rights. Until then it all just deserve a lovely FUCK OFF from my side. I am tired of being questioned when most questions should be launched at the people who surround me. I am tired of taking blames for others actions. I am tired of taking blows for the heck of it. Every move I make, every word I write, every thought I think has a deeper purpose and meaning. And I take nothing back. I have nothing to be ashamed of. I have like Madonna said once or many times "Absolutely No Regrets". And as old Billy Joel said once "And she never gives out, and she never gives in... She just changes her mind."

I always stand by my true friends no matter what. So much cannot be said about family, both mine's and Groundel's. It is now that everyone appears, but through the years THAT is not what the story has told. And the true story of Miss V and Mr Groundel is nothing but a blank page on his family's diaries. In his case, he has been his own for more than 3/4 of his life, and no angel by the way. He was too damn lucky I happenned to him. I, who have stood at his side during the worst times of his life, and have taken many blows from him in every sense of the word. I changed him into the good boy he is now, a task that was difficult, painful and hard. So, if I am to reap the harvest it is my right by all means. I have been his friend first, always. And the same applies to Trilogy. And nothing in the whole damn world, heaven or hell can change that. Only we know the true story, the cast, the drama, the lies, the loss, the victory. Trilogy, Groundel and Vierna will be forever their own family, in their own terms. Quote this raven.

EVERYTHING LOUDER THAN EVERYTHING ELSE

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Ok, Drama Kings and Queens... Newsflash, the wedding is STILL same time same place, no change whatsoever. A reminder: This is a blog, this is an "online diary", a place to rant, to pour out thoughts and feelings that are both crazy and irrational or plainly real. I write so I know a bit more about myself, I've always done so and I will never stop.

So, Ladies and Gentlemen... This is only the beginning.

The best is yet to come...

The show must go on!

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Some snatched up tests from Vero's blog... Here are my outcomes! ;)

You Are An Extrovert! Are You An Extrovert or Introvert? Take This Quiz :-)

You have a ton of friends, perhaps more friends than anyone you know.Nothing to do on Friday night? No problem for you to find the action.You're friendly, easy to know, and you seem to get along with almost everyone.You love to express yourself - and everyone knows a good deal about you.Whether you're giving your opinion or sharing your dreams, you don't keep anything in.

Okkkkk... Well... I am big-mouthed, tell the truth all the time and get in trouble for that... yup, extroverted...

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Busy Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend Take This Quiz :-)

While a relationship sounds nice, you're strapped for time. Whether you're legitimately busy or just making excuses...You don't give men enough of your time.As nice as "instant love" would be, there's just no such thing.

Okkkkk... Yup, that last one had to deal with this... ok... everyone had to deal with it! So, I am too responsible at work, and at school... So what? LOL

You'll Be Arrested For Beastiality

Maybe you love the undying devotion dogs give you...Or maybe you discovered early on that mouning a horse is *very fun* You are well on the path to beastality - if you're not already there.Don't let your love for animals go too far, or you'll ended up being the one on all fours in jail.
What Sex Crime Will You Be Arrested For?

Okkkkkk... that was simply WEIRD! I hate dogs and stallions! I am a feline lover! Hmph!

Your Hidden Sexual Talent is Giving Pain!

Spakings until they're all insane!Yup, you're totally in it for the pain. Handcuffs, whips, hot candle wax. That's the stuff that helps you relax.
What's *Your* Hidden Sexual Talent?

Awwwwwwww... Am I gonna be arrested for that?

Your Tongue's Talent is Kissing!

You're the shy, silent type. You haven't had much experience at all, and you keep it quiet.You love playing sweet and innocent, but you have naughty fantasies too. Your sweet little tongue is perfect for teasing.You love to get your lovers all excited. But you can't keep letting them down, or you'll be left lonely.
Come out of your shell a little, experiment with new things. You've mastered kissing... it's time to be a little more daring!
What's Your Tongue's Talent?
What! Hmmm... no comments LOL

You Are A Woman! Are You a Girl or Woman? Take This Quiz :-)

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

I had no doubts about THAT LOL

You Are Big Black Boots!

What Shoe Are You? Take This Quiz :-)


You can be best described as: attitude. You've got lots of it - and you love to give it. A guy has to be pretty gusty to hit on you. But if he's your type, you'll warm up... a little.

True, VERY true...

Your True Sign Is Leo

Urbane,Dominant, Flamboyant, Drama Queen, 100% Original, Attention-Whore, Just A Little Snobby, Optimistic and Enthusiastic.

What's Your True Zodiac Sign? Take This Quiz :-)

Hmmm... I'll stick to being Aries, thank you.

You Are an Exotic Beauty! What Type of Beauty Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

No matter what your ehtnic background, you've got a unique look. And your one of a kind beauty makes an imprint in every man's mind. You hardly ever wear the same outfit twice, and your hair is always changing. As a result, your look is always new and fresh - never outdated or stale.

If they say so... I cannot argue with them. ;)

Tests, tests, tests... Time-killers...

Beauty tips, by Audrey Hepburn

For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived,
reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of
each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for
helping yourself, and the other for helping others.

Audrey Hepburn wrote this when asked to share her "beauty tips." It was read at her funeral years later.

Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as
well dance!

HAPPY BEAUTIFUL WOMEN MONTH! ;)

Trials, the Times of Trouble have finally arrived to the real world. Hmmm... Deep thinking, quarrels within inner self and the both eternal rivals: heart and thought. All has long consequences, lifetime consequences. Groundel still wants to go ahead with all we planned... I am uncertain. I feel divided and it is tearing me apart. Trilogy wants to be back forever, but the crystal ball features uncertain dark mist swirling on its reins zenith... Right now, it is all making me sick, literally. I don't know what to do still. I just know that it is all 3 months away and that either Trilogy shows me his true colors once and for all, or he looses me.

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True Love.

An utopic idea that happens once in a lifetime if you get that lucky.

A dream that blurs and vanishes when you least expect...

A lightning that strikes twice in the same tree, leaving it burnt and dead.

A ghost that dances around you, enthralling you with its magical whispers, and then fades for a while... until you summon it again with your secret chantings... and it comes back for a while...

Not everyone has met True Love. I did. I did once, 14 years ago. It changed my life forever. Through the worst storms we have been there for each other in spirit. Through life we have been the best of friends while pretending to the world we are the worst enemies. Years passed, but our bond is unbreakable even if it seems unreal. We will always be Beauty and the Beast, and although we cannot be together we will NEVER ever be apart...

Whose fault has been our seemingly state of vanishment? Both... none's... Fate fickleness, maybe, jealous of such a devotion among souls? It doesn't matter. We keep faith someday things will be different... So our pledges can be honored... So our dreams can become true... So we truly become one. One beautiful day we will be home.

True Love... The deepest pain, the deepest sorrow, the deepest bond... the greatest gift... the truest reason to live on, and keep believing. Someday... Full circle...

My Trilogy. Forever.

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Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Feeling: Happy
Thinking: About how to get the tickets for Universal and Disney and Medieval Times and Arabian Nights...
Breathing: Work, A/C, cables... AHHHHH!
Eating: BBQ saice in a bun... I want something cold, DAMNIT!
Loving: Kitties, Michita, Groundel, Alex, Sara, AVO, Zordak and, hell, why not, Trilogy.
Hating: I don't hate. Hate is such a strong, awful word...
Remembering: The Golden Years, my youth... Spelljammer... Endless LA-RPG...
Wishing: For more money, to pay ALL debts and just get my credit fixed to get a wonderful feline lair... Grrrrrrrrrr

So... Hope this weekend I can achieve a little more... Feel tired, and tomorrow must go to a freak reunion. Hopefully I'll get to see Coriolis if he go with me to have lunch. Since my car misbehaved todays morning, I had to ask for work transportation... Sooooo... On saturday I hope I can get my wedding dress to the sewing-lady, then visit Pabon. On Sunday, I'll finish the freakin masks. On Monday I'll take my car to the vet... and pay the rent. On Tuesday I'll go to CR to get some vases, and then to get some willow and baby's breath so I can start the boutonniers. Sooooo... Plenty to do, nowhere to run to, nowhere to hide...

Last night dyed my hair w/ a brand dye... turned out orange-carrot-reddish... Hmm... Don't like it. I prefer the inhuman hue of the vampy red. But that has to wait for next week's weekend! LOL

The three little piggies... kitties... are so cute, cute, cute! Michita has been a Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat mom, and they are always clean and well fed. Gotta get some Ensure for Mich, though... They are gonna drain her!

Well, that's the newsflash for now... Oh, been planning the honeymoon... 14 days, FL, Disney-Universal-yadda yadda... Now it's for real! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

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The breeze crawls slowly, moving leaves and allowing the ghosts to dance... And so they do. The dance is slow and serene, yet the breeze alows the howl to travel faster than the movements...

The howls speak of the deepest of sorrows...

And then it all stops. The swift wind dies. The leaves fall to the ground, a carpet of moss and corroding nature that pretends to keep the howl mute... The ghosts are gone... Are they?

Every moonless night, the breeze returns... the ghosts dance if only in the shadowy realms of... the twilight zone...

Alas! My ghosts will live on forever!

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HAPPY FATHERS DAYYYYY!!!

UPDATE: Michita had 3 babies, NOT 2. The third one is grey, just like Kyonnene! :))

THIS IS AWESOME!!!! Michita is a Mother of 2 BEAUTIFUL Gothic Kitties!!!

She was calling and calling and calling and would only shut up if I was in the bathroom (where I have her confined). So I layed on the floor and put my hand inside the taxi... It was the only way she would stay quiet. She put her head over my hand. And then I fall asleep. I heard a sound and woke up. A baby kitty was turning at his mommys side, and another one was coming out. It was amazing. Once again, Michita demonstrated she has lightning speed for doing everything! :P

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Yesterday, San German and Rum. Today Aguadilla. Thank heavens that i do not have to travel 2morrow to the capital... Yayyyyy! I am sleepy, tired and not feeling so well. Plus the weekend will be something... again...

Feelings for the day: Moody. Angry. Exhasperated. Vicious. Killer. Mayhem. Chaos. Entropy. Disorder.

Thoughts for the day: One brain, it has time sharing for all men around the world.

Action of the day: Updates

Concern of the day: I wish someone would really make me feel I am so valuable to him...

Hope of my life: I do believe miracles do happen... Its waiting that dissapoints so much...

I'm just tired, I guess. Pessimistic the whole day, got some of the bad dust of the Snow Queen... so it hardens heart and blurs vision. Whatever. Maybe it's just PMS. Maybe I'm too stressed underneath the happy serenity, maybe it's all an omen...

Gotta sleep. 2 long days coming soon...

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Loooong day... Coriolis tiró bombazo, para variar... Terminé los 48 antifaces, now just 12 complete masks to go. Yup, having fun... NOT! Monday I'll see the dentist, and on Tuesday I'll visit old Circo to take measurements of the place for the deco... Trilogy called, he was gonna make some cd's for moi, because he felt like it? Hmmm... Whatever.

Michita is doing great. She is very alert, but still no kitties birth... So I guess is 2 more weeks to go? :)

Nothing else on the Yellow Bricked Road.

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Scrapbooking a-lot... Got some pages for more scrapbooking mayhem. Hey!!! Popu! Michi! Vero! Coriolis! Lucinda! I need pictures! So, send pictures to me, damnit! SEND THEM NOW! You know the old address... been the same for more than 30 years. ;)

Been gardening too... I got a fever, that must be it...

No work 2morrow and 2sday. Gotta see the eye doc and finish some manualidades, buahahah...

114 Fahrenheit degrees... The wave is coming! I'm melting! I'm melting!

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God will fight for you

"And I am sure that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished..."

Encouragement is affirming others and the work they are doing for God.

Philippians 1:6 NLT

STARDATE 999999999.999
BY EARTH STANDARDS, MEMORIAL DAY
BY US SLAVES OF PLANET ARV, MEDIODIA A MEDIO PRECIO
TRANSLATION: Yup, had to work 9-2 today. New system, testing required, slaves to work...

It's been a loooooooong weekend.

Friday. Groundel got his confirmation, and Lucinda was the godmother. The whole thing took place at the restore cathedral of Candelaria at my hometown... I see where all expenses went... They repaired what they shouldn't have and added things that look plainly bad becuse now there is a bad combination of different time periods and different styles... Anyway, the Confirmation took place, and Groundel was happy about it. :)

On Saturday went on a QUEST for armor... Yes, armor as in chivalric meaning... Went to this place in Aguada that is completely decorated as a medieval castle... They have an armor, shields, swords, castle... Ok, so I cannot take with me the place, but I do need the 2 armors for my wedding's decoration... The boss will come from vacation on the 15th, so until them I hope I can send good vibes to the guy so he allows me to loan/rent them! The two armors are GORGEOUS!

After that, went to the scrapbooking place in my hometown... Big mistake. I had to arrive home and start scrapbooking... The hobby is ensnaring me, I spent from 4pm to 11pm doing scrapbooking for Groundels childhood pics.

Sunday... got up to try putting my place in order, then went to Auntie's place where I hibernated for a long while. She made chayote relleno. This is the first time I eat it... It's damn good! Had a second helping... And then did some bidding for gothic fun.

Today, got up at 7am, went to work, then attacked the scrapbooking place again. Went home and made a general friends page and started organizing a page for Groundel's cousin & sis, and for my brothers and sisters...

And then went to Auntie's again for a dosis of cyberspace... I guess I do need to feel I belong somewhere... like here... Duh!

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Use wisely what you have and you will be given more

It's easy to be jealous of other's abilities. How do I deal with that?

"The strength of a horse does not impress him; how puny in his sight is the strength of a man."

You may long for the speed of a horse, but you would not want to become a horse. Very often the abilities we want are found in a person we would not want to be like.

Psalm 147:10

En ocasiones no sabemos que esta acurriendo a nuestro alrededor,
pero tarde o temprano nos lo dejan saber. Y el camino aparece ante nosotros como un perfecto PLAN.


LOS TRES ARBOLES

Había una vez tres árboles en una colina de un bosque.
Hablaban acerca de sus sueños y esperanzas.

El primero dijo: "Algún día seré un cofre de tesoros. Estaré
lleno de oro, plata y piedras preciosas. Estaré decorado con
labrados artísticos y tallados finos. Todos verán mi belleza."

El segundo árbol dijo: "Algún día seré una poderosa
embarcación. Llevaré los más grandes reyes y reinas a través de los
océanos, e iré a todos los rincones del mundo. Todos se sentirán
seguros por mi fortaleza, fuerza y mi poderoso casco."

Finalmente el tercer árbol dijo: "Yo quiero crecer para ser el
más recto y grande de todos los árboles en el bosque. La gente me
verá en la cima de la colina, mirará mis poderosas ramas y pensarán
en el Dios de los cielos, y cuán cerca estoy de alcanzarlo. Seré el
más grande árbol de todos los tiempos y la gente siempre me
recordará.

Después de unos años de orar para que sus sueños se
convirtieran en realidad, un grupo de leñadores vino donde estaban
los árboles. Cuando vio al primer árbol dijo: Este parece un árbol
fuerte. Creo que podría vender su madera a un carpintero.," y
comenzó a cortarlo. El árbol estaba muy feliz debido a que sabía
que el carpintero podría convertirlo en un cofre para tesoros.

El otro leñador dijo mientras observaba el segundo árbol:
Parece un árbol fuerte, creo que lo podré vender al carpintero del
puerto." El segundo árbol se puso muy feliz porque sabia que estaba
en camino a convertirse en una poderosa embarcación.

El último leñador se acercó al tercer árbol, el cual estaba
asustado, pues sabía que si lo cortaban, su sueño nunca se volvería
realidad. El leñador dijo entonces: No necesito nada especial del
árbol que corté, así que tomaré este" y cortó al tercer árbol.

Cuando el primer árbol llegó donde el carpintero, fue
convertido en un cajón de comida para animales y fue puesto en un
pesebre y llenado con paja. Se sintió muy mal pues eso no era por
lo que tanto había orado.

El segundo árbol fue cortado y convertido en una pequeña balsa
de pesca, ni siquiera lo suficientemente grande para navegar en el
mar, y fue puesto en un lago. Y vio como sus sueños de ser una gran
embarcación cargando reyes había llegado a su final.

El tercer árbol fue cortado en largas y pesadas tablas y
dejado en la oscuridad en una bodega.

Años más tarde, los árboles olvidaron sus sueños y esperanzas
por las que tanto habían orado. Entonces un día un hombre y una
mujer llegaron al pesebre. Ella dio a luz un niño y lo colocó en la
paja que había dentro del cajón en que fue transformado el primer
árbol. El hombre deseaba haber podido tener una cuna para su bebé,
pero este
cajón debería serlo.
Había contenido el más grande tesoro de la historia.

Más tarde, un grupo de hombres entraron en la balsa en la cual
habían convertido al segundo árbol. Uno de ellos estaba cansado y
se durmió en la barca. Mientras ellos estaban en el agua una gran
tormenta se desató y el árbol pensó que no sería lo suficientemente
fuerte para salvar a los hombres. Los hombres despertaron al que
dormía, quien se levantó y dijo: " ¡Calma! ¡Quédate quieto!", y la
tormenta y las olas se detuvieron. En ese momento el segundo árbol
se dio cuenta de que había llevado al Rey de Reyes y Señor de
Señores.

Finalmente, un tiempo después alguien vino y tomó al tercer árbol
convertido en tablas. Fue cargado por las calles al mismo tiempo que la
gente escupía, insultaba y golpeaba al Hombre que lo cargaba. Se
detuvieron en una pequeña colina y el Hombre fue clavado al árbol y
levantado para morir en la cima de la colina. Cuando llegó el
domingo, el tercer árbol se dio cuenta de que el fue lo suficiente
fuerte
para
permanecer erguido en la cima de la colina, y estar tan cerca de
Dios como nunca, porque JESUS había sido crucificado en él.

Cuando parece que las cosas no van de acuerdo a tus planes,
debes saber que siempre DIOS tiene un plan para ti. Si pones tu
confianza en EL, te dará grandes regalos a su tiempo.

Recuerda que cada árbol obtuvo lo que pidió, sólo que no en la
forma en que pensaba. No siempre sabemos lo que Dios planea para
nosotros, sólo sabemos que sus caminos no son nuestros caminos,
pero sus caminos SIEMPRE SON LOS MEJORES.

Si tienes un amigo solo envíale éste mensaje para que sepa que

DIOS TIENE UN PLAN PARA EL

"Hay un momento para cada cosa y un tiempo para todo bajo el sol"
Vive el presente, pero vívelo bien, de tal manera que el futuro sea una
esperanza y el pasado sea una gran lección

Helloooo kiddies! Yesterday was a busy day! Post Office, then Shrek2, then HotTopic, then auntie... Mural due today, I guess during the afternoon? Right now I'm doing the laundry. :)

Got a bright pink Jem and the Holograms tshirt... Sooooooo 80's! Yay!

Shrek2 was AWESOME! From the opening to the Vida Loca, it was fun, fun, fun. Loved the fact Fiona and Shrek stayed the same. This world or any for that matter doesn't belong just to starving, skinny people. Yayyyyyy!!!!

Oh, the day is beautiful grey, almost like London skies, huh? Wishful thinking...

Not much besides routine and a bit of anxiety... need weekends of 8 days...

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Friday, FINALLY! I am frigging tired, at least 90% of Aguadilla is done. What's left is easy to do. :)

Gotta do a mural for Monday... Some scrapbooking and some magic. ;)

Tah tah...

Pegue parte de la Familia en el carro... Girl, Boy, Cat, Cat... Me faltan 3 gatos... LOL That's cute... I'm a cute-happy goth, so what?

Coriolis has been so busy he forgot about some things... Whoooosh! Man, take a break, travel far, come to Mayaguez, stay for a week, throw game, have fun!

Kitty sleeping on the toilet cover... Ahhhhhhhh! Cute...

At work... same old...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR.AVO A.K.A. POPUMAN
MAY YOUR DREAMS FINALLY DO SOMETHING AND COME TRUE, DAMNIT!!!
HUGGGGGSSSSSSS!

Black pregnant kitty is doing fine, still scared of humans BUT loves Ensure and dry food. :) Been hand feeding her, making sure she is without fleas... Bathed her with the anti-fleas lotion after she ate so there were no complaints. She is adorable! Ohhhhh, no, no, no, I am NOT falling in love with kitty... NO! She will just stay to recuperate and then to Lucinda's home... :( I can't have another baby until I have a house... Small apartment for all of us!

Working a lot, got the insane "pasos" which made no difference on my income... Have a reunion at SJ on Monday but I have no transportation and my arm-neck-head will not allow me such a looong drive... Damn, don't know what I will do...

Haven't done much about the wedding stuff, been raining like hell and I just don't feel the creative bug bitting me... I feel like laying, taking pills and just fading into uncontiousness... Been sad, a bit depressed... The financial hole is deeper each month... I expected a nice raise but I should have predicted the outcome... I hope that Sila's raise on June and the job title changes that will happen on August for everyone reflects a salary change at least... Being underpaid is definitively NOT funny... I must hold on until Nov, when I'll get rid of the car's expense... but the wedding is in Oct and I still have not been able to separate the catering and videologist... The fotographer is a cool guy, at least he is on... But without the help of family there's no way I will be able to gather the money for the reception... I didnt expect the "demotion"... It completely damaged the budget... Groundel will start working full time next month, but until then we have 2 financial entities with 3 months due, 2 visas and the car, and the rent... oh, and the phone! The phone matter... I'll try solving THAT in June. I need to be able to communicate with the few friends I've got... Grrrrr...
The timing of everything... But even if we can only do the church ceremony, we will get married... Aunque sea lo'ultimo que haga, LO ULTIMO QUE HAGAAAAAAAAAAAA!

I'm gathering up designs of my favorite things. To see if in Dec I can get inked... In black so it stands out in my skin. So far it must have:
-The thundercats symbol and japanese sy for honor, truth, valor and loyalty (The Code of Thundera)... Cualquier semejanza con el circulo Arturiano es pura coincidencia... ;P
-A dragon
-A kittie
-Tribal thorned vine
-Decepticon symbol
-A sword
-Hindu allusion, sy or deity

What do you think that could be a cool design for my lower back? Email me options, please! Open to suggestions! :) I would like a sleeve, but that would be like 10-15 years from now.

Took some pics of lady kitty...

Changed my super-ultra-itsy-bitsy-teeny-wheeny livingroom... New positions, may do a small mural to change ambience... Kitties loved it. :)

Watched Wrestlemania XX... Unexpected heavyweight champion, but damn, after so many years trying, he well deserved to win! I didn't knew the depht of Steve Austin's injuries... That's a WOW. And still he can KICK ASS! Ohhhhh, and I wanted so badly to smell what the Rock was cooking! :)) And although Eddie is not perfect, it was swell he won as well. Seeing little-people (sort off) winning kinda lifts the spirits... Triple H looks AWESOME!Oh... don't you worry, Mr. Olympia...Arnold... I'll always be yours... :D

Watched the Peter Pan, 2003 version... Loved the sites and the Fairies! The Fairy Godmother dancing was Magical!!! And the flying!!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! But everything else sucked... Faithful to the book, though... So I heard...

Boring life still kicking for few excitements... Whatever...

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I believe in justice and truth, without which there would be no basis for human hope.

-His Holiness the Dalai Lama

Weird days...

Saturday: FEMALE ROACH ATTACKS GODDESS
Yup... I was minding my own business in the bathroom, when a winged roach jumped on me... I have this AVERSION and TERROR when it comes to roaches... So imagine the outcome...

Sunday: CROWITO and Dia de MADRE
Oh...Crow woke me up because he was running in a frenzy. When I turned on the light I see something coming from his but while he ran faster than a speeding bullet... Not a worm, mind you... And yes it had shit. He had swallowed plastic raffia and it found its way out... Gross!!!

In the afternoon I wanted to go visit everyone, but when I turned on the car it would only hum like a speedgun... Nothing. We had to go walk down to the nearest mall to eat and put some minutes in my cel and call for help. Lucinda came to the rescue... The battery was dead. Long afternoon...

Monday: Doc says...
Had to ask for permission to see my vet... doc... because of my eye-pain. Turns out its because of my bad back, so she gave me some pills that puts you to sleep... relaxing you. I took Tuesday and Wednesday off so I could take them AND rest.

Tuesday: The kitty from San Juan
This cat... was in the motor of a van whose owner had just arrived from San Juan to Mayaguez. The guy was driving at 80mph, stopped at Walgreens to get food and when he started the van again heard something in the motor... So he went to the near Western Auto, where Lucinda's hubby works. He enlisted 4 more guys to go, push the car to the garage, put all the motor in pieces, and finally get kitty out. Black cat, with many slashes especially a big nasty one over an eye... we dont know how come the eyeball was untouched... An angel guarded him...
So... Lucinda calls me. I go get kitty. Since it was trembling and loosing blood, I took it to the local vet. From 3:30 to 8pm... The kitty made it. I will take care of it until it is fine and then Lucinda will take him home... Ohhh, not a him, but a her... And, the kitty is PREGNANT. LOL That was yesterday's commotion...

Wednesday: Slept until 2pm, when Lucinda knocked at my door taking me away from Dreamland. She saw kitty, and left. So, I came here to my aunt's place so I could tell the world about me, so people do not start thinking I died or something...

;)

Back to work tomorrow. Friday will be Aguadilla, whole day.

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Laundry Day. Yup, early in the morning, in a Saturday... at mommy dearest house, doing the laundry... Desperation? LOL
Whatever... Gotta call Coriolis for the Long Talk he promised...
Hmmm...
Whatever...
Gotta go get my pills at the Doc's...
Whatever...
Gotta plan a FUGA very soon, because I feel neglected...
Whatever...

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Ladymex sent out this. Very true, read on: (Sorry, Spanish Only) LOL


ANTES DE HABLAR DE ALGUIEN DEBERÍAMOS HACER CASO A SÓCRATES

En la antigua Grecia, Sócrates fue famoso por su sabiduría y por el gran respeto que profesaba a todos. Un día un conocido se encontró con el gran filósofo y le dijo:

¿Sabes lo que escuché acerca de tu amigo?

- Espera un minuto -replicó Sócrates-.
Antes de decirme nada quisiera que pasaras un pequeño examen. Yo lo llamo el examen del triple filtro.

- ¿Triple filtro?

-Correcto -continuó Sócrates-. Antes de que me hables sobre mi amigo, puede ser una buena idea filtrar tres veces lo que vas a decir. Es por eso que lo llamo el examen del triple filtro.

El primer filtro es la verdad.¿Estás absolutamente seguro de que lo que vas a decirme es cierto?

- No -dijo el hombre. -realmente solo escuché sobre eso y...

- Bien -dijo Sócrates-. Entonces realmente no sabes si es cierto o no.

Ahora permíteme aplicar el segundo filtro, el filtro de la bondad. ¿Es algo bueno lo que vas a decirme de mi amigo?

- No, por el contrario...

- Entonces, deseas decirme algo malo sobre él, pero no estás seguro de que sea cierto.

Pero podría querer escucharlo porque queda un filtro: el filtro de la utilidad.
¿Me servirá de algo saber lo que vas a decirme de mi amigo?

- No, la verdad que no.

- Bien -concluyó Sócrates-, si lo que deseas decirme no es cierto, ni bueno, e incluso no es útil ¿para qué querría saberlo?

Usa este triple filtro cada vez que oigas comentarios sobre alguno de tus amigos cercanos y queridos... ¿Funcionarà verdad? Si todos lo ponemos en practica el mundo puede resultar un lugar mas amable.

Pissed. Angry. Undesrtanding hits bottom. What else can you expect of a bird but to be a bird? A cat to be a cat? A storm to be a storm?

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You are important to God

Is that really true?

"Or don't you know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God?"

God values you so much that he even allows your body to become a temple is which he lives. God does not need to live in you. He can live anywhere. But, by choosing to live within you, he declares you his temple, his dwelling place. What a great value he places on you to do that.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Aguadilla.
Raining cats and dogs.
Many computers to install.
No energy.
Happy and tired.
Not too hungry.
May get in the South Beach diet if I get convinced by Monday... It's about lowering the diabetes naturally... Who knows, I may get to be a follower of big god Veggie! LOL
Got nice black dress for gothic nights... Grrrrrrrrr...
Gotta find my sister tonight!
Gotta contact Coriolis and Lucinda. Guys, I need your $$$ for the garments ASAP. I'll send yours and Angela's. Only my sis and Mich and the groom left for later... :)
Gotta finish the masks thi8s weekend.
Gotta finish the carts this weekend.
Gotta start a mural maybe next week.
Gotta work on site maps this weekend...
Loooooonnnnng two days, huh? :)

Saw Tokyo Godfathers. Liked it. Touching. Loved the gay guy. YES, AVO, THERE IS A GAY GUY, WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! LOL

Saw Big Fish again on video, so Groundel would know what I talked about back in January. Filete.

My back-neck-arm are more than officially fucked up. Nonstopping pain. I guess I'll have to arrange a doc's visit next week... in the Fondo of course so it's free.

And will try getting some Uvitas Playeras for my aunt's haouse, they are so pretty!!!!

No TV for 11 days... working on personal records... Hmmm...

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At work...
Seems that at least everything at work is running smoothly, even if it's taking more time than I am willing to give... Ah! I am getting home beyond dead, but at least I am getting some feedback from people's facial features. Yes, I do my job, and I am proud of my problem-solve it approach. I am not a stuck-up, I just prefer to do my job without thinking of humans because then I get mad, enraged, pissed... It is better to be cool about things you cannot change, like people stupidity... LOL There are some that give surprises that are good enough to make you believe that there IS good people alive... Wow... And lately it's like someone from heaven is sending me signals that I shall not despair, that there is hope for everything, that He is watching and taking care of things... I had to drop all the things I was carrying and let Him solve them... I was going mad. So much stress, so many bills to pay, so little money, so little cooperation... It all consumes... For what? I mean... I get sick, I must stay home... Do nothing but observe my dear kitties... Rot behind my walls... I do ENJOY my apartment, but if I stay there I go insane because I start thinking too much... That's me, always thinking... And without the phone I cannot at least complain about it to Coriolis or Lucinda... I can do nothing more unless I get proper payment, and still opportunity doesnt knock... Oh... whatever... I will make that opportunity next year, when all stars collide. Yay! I gotta believe! Parapa eat your doggy-heart out! :D

At home...
Auntie is definitively bipolar... Like everyone around me? LOL One day she fights, the next day she's all smiles. I wish I could do more for her... I want to change everything in the house: Living Room, Bedroom, Dining Room... She's had them for 36 years and they are falling to pieces... I want her to enjoy new pretty stuff before her time comes... But my situation with bills doesn't improve and so... Wishing is not as good as Getting... I try to dig the bait for fishing, but it's not enough... Ahhh!

Uncle is selling the land he has in Florida. Why, oh why! Ever since I was little he promised that land would be mine. It is a waste to sell it now. I was planning on building a small house for vacation or moving out 5 years from now... Another wish, another dissapointment... Just like he did with the car that was "mine", whish he sold...

Mommy dearest still being her self. Along with granny dearest. Grandpa still hanging on.

Yesterday I called my sister, and finally got to talk for a minute after 7 months or so! LOL We both have very busy lives, I know that much... I need to get her new measurements as she was in a strict diet and lost some 20 pounds... Yayayayay! Lucky her. I am not made for diets. I was thinking about the South Beach, but it takes away bread and bread is the only thing I can afford for everyday breakfast... So big deal. I may not be a petite model, but I am a Big Girl Model. I love myself as I am, I have always been like this and I see no problem with it. People can kiss my ass. Wait... they may like it... Hmmm...

This is pathetic... I am writing because I couldn't have luch, because I have no money... I do have a Spaghetti can... which I cannot open because I have no can opener or knife at work... And besides I have no microwave plate to heat it... Ode to pathetic me... LOL

Whatever...

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Ok, this is the Faith comment of the week:

You are important to God

Is that really true?

"Not even a sparrow, worth less than a penny, can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it...you are more valuable to him than a whole flock of sparrows."

God values you so much that he watches over you no matter where you are or what you are doing. This truly is wonderful, too wonderful to believe.

Matthew 10:29-31

Well, at least someone thinks you are important. No? :)

Killing time on an uneventful afternoon... Awwwww... Gotta go now. Later, kiddies!

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How will you DIE?
Name / Username
You will die	by drowning
At age	54
This QuickKwiz by Confused_Pete - Taken 12421 Times.

Okkkk... I do hate water, and I do not know how to swim... Whatever. :)

Which random kitten picture are you
Username
You are:
This QuickKwiz by lebowski - Taken 12211 Times.

This means I am a lovely black kitty that just loves stinky situations? Hmmm...

Insanity Test
Username
Age
Your problem is	Obsessive Compulsive behaviour
Will you ever be cured?	(8) - It is decidedly so. - (8)
Just how crazy are you? - 1%
This QuickKwiz by insanitydefense - Taken 22498 Times.

May be true...

How High Is Your Sex Drive?
Name
Age
Gender
Your Sex Drive Level Is.. - 97%
This QuickKwiz by eva71 - Taken 107176 Times.

Should I brag? LOL ;P

SUNDAY, sunless ode to dark and moody lives... The rain falls, and then adventurous lashes of light and heat allows its surrender! LOL

Me: I am happy-go-lucky-careless-improper me lately. I feel a bit sad but a bit happy and a lot tired, but positive as I know things will get better if I keep pushing myself beyond my limits... There are no boundaries. I am forever and always, and noone can take that from me. Did some masks... Then some scrapbooking... Then some deals at the favorite goth spot in the mall... and some goth ebay deals too... Life is good.

Kitties:
Crow is happier than ever. Changed his diet to wet food, so he is in heaven. I read wet canned food allows for less urinary tract problems, so I hope this do the trick for him...
Isis, jealous of Crow...
Kali keeps on demanding love at all cost...
And Set keeps on being a Kbrón.

Friends:
Coriolis: Somewhere in time...
Lucinda filming the 20th season of Charmed...
LadyMex: Missing in action 5: The final frontier
AVO: Turning into MrLetterman, but sticking to some music...
Mich: Missing in action 6: Tossed from Hell
Groundel: Who let the dog out? Woof Woof Woof
Kara: Lost in NeopetLand!

Work: Same old same old... Yup, Shit happens. Its natural. :P

Hobbies:
Havent played AD&D in... 7 days... La vena me la pideeeeeee!

Finances:
Broke, as usual by now... Donations are welcomed! LOL

Movies:
Saw Haunted Mansion at Lucinda's last night... It sucked. Worst than I expected.
Seen the 1st hr of Spartacus 3 times, but I always have to go... Damnit...
Saw 5th Element for the 23rd time.
Last thing I saw at the cinema was The Last Samurai... Coincidence?

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Can I play with madness?

Give me the sense to wonder
To wonder if I'm free
Give me a sense of wonder
To know I can be me
Give me the strength to hold my head up
Spit back in their face
Don't need no key to unlock this door
Gonna break down the walls
Break out of this bad place

[Chorus]
Can I play with madness?
The prophet stared at his crystal ball
Can I play with madness?
There's no vision there at all
Can I play with madness?
The prophet looked at me and laughed at me (ha ha) He said:
Can I play with madness?
He said you're blind, too blind to see

Said you're too blind to see

I screamed aloud to the old man
I said don't lie, don't say you don't know
I say you'll pay for this mischief
In this world or the next
Oh and then he fixed me with a freezing glance
And the hellfires raged in his eyes
He said you wanna know the truth son?
Lord, I'll tell you the truth
Your soul's gonna burn in a lake of fire

[Chorus]

Listen to me, said the prophet

[Chorus]

Can I play with madness?


-Iron Maiden, "Can I play with madness?"

Drowning deep in my sea of loathing
Broken your servant I kneel
It seems what's left of my human side
Is slowly changing in me

Looking at my own reflection
When suddenly it changes
Violently it changes (oh no)
There is no turning back now
You've woken up the demon in me

[Chorus:]
Get up, come on get down with the sickness [x3]
Open up your hate, and let it flow into me
Get up, come on get down with the sickness
You mother get up come on get down with the sickness
You fucker get up come on get down with the sickness
Madness is the gift, that has been given to me

I can see inside you, the sickness is rising
Don't try to deny what you feel
(Will you give in to me?)
It seems that all that was good has died
And is decaying in me

It seems you're having some trouble
In dealing with these changes
Living with these changes (oh no)
The world is a scary place
Now that you've woken up the demon in me

[Chorus x2]

(And when I dream) [x4]
No mommy, don't do it again
Don't do it again
I'll be a good boy
I'll be a good boy, I promise
No mommy don't hit me
Why did you have to hit me like that, mommy?
Dont do it, you're hurting me
Why did you have to be such a bitch
Why don't you,
Why don't you fuck off and die
Why can't you just fuck off and die
Why can't you just leave here and die
Never stick your hand in my face again bitch
FUCK YOU
I don't need this shit
You stupid sadistic abusive fucking whore
How would you like to see how it feels mommy
Here it comes, get ready to die

[Chorus (last line changed to "Madness has now come over me")]


-Disturbed, "Down with the Sickness"

People and stupidity... sinonimos eternos. Oh, no, I shouldn't insult people who are naturally stupid, their stupidity has been genious in the past... BUT stupid people who are stupid because... they can... Oh, THOU SHALL BURN IN HELL SOMEDAY!

I know... The control freaks, the power-chain that goes from the biggest bug to the lowest scum... People just MUST pass on their bad KARMA so they feel accomplished even if it IS a way of procrastinating the inevitable! I thank you all, enslavers, as you have made out of me a strong oponnent and deep thinker. Thanks to all of you I strongly HATE and DESPISE the world today, and I see that there is absolutely NO HOPE for tomorrow. The golden years are past.

It was a bad to worst to nightmarishly endless day. Everyone was calling me-looking for me, and everyone was demanding and fighting, arguing and screaming. I am glad it is coming to an end... Why is it that politeness and plain proffessional behaviour just CAN't be? Am I the only one who believes in those old virtues? Damn!

I just want to pay bills... do what I wanna do and be left alone. It is AMAZING that the lesat u get in trouble the more trouble people send your way... I have this luck... a natural ability of being hated just because I am... me... God KNOWS it is NOT easy being me... Demanding me expects the best from me and it is tiresome when I must fail myself because of people and their stupidity interfering with my outcomes...

El guerrero de luz cree, tiene fe... y da sin esperar a cambio... Endless dreaming of hope and truth and rightfulness and justice... I should have been born in the Arthurian Era...

Breathe

Scream

Just... Be.

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Aguadilla.Configuring computers...
Nice touch. One of the ladies gave me a gift for no reason: a red dragon incense burner. That was cute. Kodak moment.
And Candi got me a mirror wand so I can reach the back of computers without having to move things... Thoughtful. :)

Bought milk and cherios... I guess the milk-allergy is on hold so YAY!

Still broke...

Still wishing for many things...

Still hungry...

Still the Lady of the Lake, so BEWARE!!!!

Read Vero's blog for a while. Liked her. Would like to listen to the bands music... Damn, wish I could go to Lazers every Thursday! Sniff, sniff...
I will do the goth pub over here aunq sea lo ultimo q haga, lo último q hagaaaaaaaaaaa!
Just wait after the wedding... Hey, I will need a new hobby after that... Heheheh

... that and returning to college to get the doc's and earn more respect/ rule the world/...

Whatever, this place is hot... better run back to my cave which is cold, dark and cozy...
Yup, still no phone... and seems it will take a month... But... I WILL SURVIVE!!!! DAMNIT!!!

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Thursday.
Extremadamente cansada. Tired. Dead. Walking corpse. This line of business is gonna kill me... Ok, installed many computers yesterday, went to Aguadilla in the afternoon, and started configuring them today... plus gotta go again to Aguadilla in the afternoon... Plus must go to Aguadila tomorrow the whole day.

My head is spinning and its fading fast...

Saturday and Sunday... The days that go so fast I can't even realize'em, or see'em.

I need a "Rest of my Life" vacation...

Ok, LADIES on my ohso-called bridal party: LISTEN UP!

These are the dresses from which I will select the one for the Maid of Honor and one for the 3 bridesmaids. For each dress you will need 2 scarves as from them a small/shorty short bolero style jacket will be made, so the arms and shoulders and back are covered for church.

The royal blue bolero will have long length arms, tight at the biceps, then a ruffle from the bottom. Inside the ruffle, another one in contrasting white satin. The idea is a bell sleeve, sort of.

The last dress has the RIGHT combination: royal blue/ white. Please picture the other dresses with this same color scheme: all royal blue, details in white, underskirt in white.



I NEED you ALL to resend me your measurements as well as COMMON garment size. Thanks in advance.

It's Thursday... Yesterday had to go to SJ to attend a meeting... Arrived with a nice back-shoulder-neck pain... Today I am setting up a computer lab, 12 PC's... Help? None. And after the hardware comes cabling and then setting up Cris2... So, that's the fun thing for the next couple of days at work... After the lab, 32 more PC's to setup individually. Fun, fun.

Coriolis gave me a nice necklace of Fire Resistance that he got in Mexico... I hope it has no side effects... :P It has a nice writing embroidered on the back, BLAZE. That was a lovely thing to write. For those who DOESN't know, Blaze was my second character in Spelljammer. Captain Blaze Darkstream Singlestar, High Quill of Brihaspati. She was known for her knack of using the vorpal to slice up enemies' cojones. LOL Literally. Somehow, I always got 20 on the die whenever I needed it... She was really lucky... I played her for a long time, so the people around me called me Blaze anytime... The Golden Years... Awwwwwwww...

So, now back to work, back to reality...

Oh, before I forget... LADIES! There was a bridesmaid clothing change, so lookout for emails.
Buahahahahahah... I love my hobby... ;)

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CONGRATS TO DADDY!
Zordak finally got a hold on me yesterday, and sent me a pic of lovely Amanda Nichole. Daddy's little lass is 7 months old. Zordak and BloodyMary should be very proud! :))


Baby Amy...

Okkkkk, so... Ya me estoy hartando de cartas estúpidas... Hoy recibí notificación de la financiera del carro, que si no pago 2 meses de atraso me lo quitan... De todas las cosas, hay 2 que SIEMPRE están al dia: El carro y la casa. So, esa fue la "sacá por el techo" del día, pues al revisar la libreta de pagos, voilá! Hasta marzo está todo pago, y tengo hasta el 16 de abril para pagar abril... El lunes llamaré para insultarlos.

GOOD FRIDAY

Pilate then had Jesus taken away and scourged; and after this, the soldiers twisted some thorns into a crown and put it on his head and dressed him in a purple robe. They kept coming up to him and saying, 'Hail, king of the Jews!' and slapping him in the face. Pilate came outside again and said to them, 'Look, I am going to bring him out to you to let you see that I find no case against him.

The chief priests and the guards shouted, 'Crucify him! Crucify him!'

Pilate said, 'Take him yourselves and crucify him: I find no case against him.'

The Jews replied, 'We have a Law, and according to that Law he ought to be put to death, because he has claimed to be the Son of God.' ...

They [the soldiers] then took charge of Jesus, and carrying his own cross he went out to the Place of the Skull, or as it is called in Hebrew, Golgatha, where they crucified him with two others, one on either side, Jesus being in the middle ...When the sol-diers had finished crucifying Jesus they took his clothing and divided it into four shares, one for each soldier. His undergarment was seamless, woven in one piece from neck to hem; so they said to one another, 'Instead of tearing it, let's throw dice to decide who is to have it.' In this way the words of scripture were fulfilled: They divide my garments among them and cast lots for my clothes. That is what the soldiers did.

Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother and his mother's sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary of Magdela. Seeing his mother and the disciple whom he loved standing near her, Jesus said to his mother, 'Woman, this is your son.' Then to the disciple he said, 'This is your mother.' And from that hour the disciple took her into his home.

After this, Jesus knew that everything had now been completed and, so that the scripture should be completely fulfilled, he said: I am thirsty. Ajar full of wine stood there; so putting a sponge in the wine on a hyssop stick, they held it up to his mouth.

After Jesus had taken the wine, he said, 'It is fulfilled'; and bowing his head he gave up the spirit.

--John 19:1ff

I guess I had two cakes that year... counting with no cake today...
Ah! The 7 fat cows...

Whatever. I'm not sick (Alas!), I am still my creative crazy self, and you guys love me, so... No more whining!

BORN ON THIS DAY:

Buddha, founder of Buddhism (563 BC)

Harvey Cushing, brain surgeon (1869)

Sonja Henie, ice skater and actor (1912)

David Rittenhouse, clockmaker, mathematician, and astronomer (1732)

Jim "Catfish" Hunter, baseball player (1946)

Viv, Artiste and Techie... yup, me! (1973)


ON THIS DAY IN HISTORY:


1652: Cape Town in South Africa is founded by Jan van Riebeeck as a supply post for the Dutch East India Company.

1973: Spanish painter and sculptor Pablo Picasso dies at his villa in France at age 91.

1974: In Atlanta, Georgia, baseball great Hank Aaron hits his 715th career home run, breaking the record previously held by Babe Ruth.

1990: Ryan White, the U.S. teenager whose battle with AIDS promoted public understanding of the disease, dies at 18.

1992: Yasir Arafat, leader of the Palestine Liberation Organization (PLO), survives a plane crash in the Sahara Desert; the plane's three crew members perished.


ABOUT ARIES:
Aries (astrology), the first sign of the zodiac, symbolized by the ram. People whose birthdays fall between March 21 and April 19 are said to be born under the sun sign of Aries. According to astrologers, Aries, a fire sign, is ruled by the planet Mars.

Astrologers believe that Arians have assertive, pioneering, competitive, and courageous natures. Arians are said to have strong senses of self, and to frequently be selfish. Arians tend to behave in headstrong, impulsive, sometimes foolhardy ways. Although they anger quickly, they get over their anger quickly and do not hold grudges. Astrologers consider many Arians to be natural athletes and to be drawn to physical activity.

Because of the sign's association with the planet Mars (named for the ancient Roman god of war), people born under it are said to like danger and risk. According to astrologers, adventure appeals to Arians, and their natural gift for plunging into projects and activities with gusto can make them successful leaders and good at motivating others. Professions associated with Aries include medicine, especially surgery; the military; manufacturing, especially involving metal or heavy machinery; sports; carpentry; and engineering.


ANOTHER HOROSCOPE:
Aries
March 20 - April 18

"Dear Aries, you're looking forward to making a fresh new start. Your intellect is working in harmony with your intuition. Your mind is clearer and more focused than it once was, and you're thinking in terms of expanding your horizons and creating new career opportunities for yourself. You're feeling passionate about life, ready to face just about anything. The only challenge I see right now is that you need to remain grounded in reality. "

Hmmm... At least closer to my reality... LOL


"You may find that your love life feels a little like walking through sticky toffee. The position of the heavenly bodies means that you are not sure what to make of the signals you are receiving from your sweetheart. They could be interpreted either way, which is making you very insecure. Perhaps it would be better if you stopped trying, and for the time being concentrate on having fun. "

Riiiiiiight...

"Some rather disturbing dreams could leave you with uncomfortable apprehensions that you don't understand. Write down your dreams, then try to analyze the symbols. You'll probably find that these dreams are only emotional detritus from the past. Today you could seek escape from the real world by reading or watching thrillers, or you might want to try a new pastime, which is unusual and perhaps risky. Be careful! Don't limit yourself, but don't get reckless."

What a stupid horoscope...

Thursday, April 8th
6:00 AM
I WAS BORN!

So, HAPPY BIRTHADY TO MEEEEEEE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEE
HAPPY BDAY, HAPPY BDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEEEEE!
YIIIPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

BTW, I HAVE NO PHONE, lovely PRTC disconnected me yesterday... So, no phone, no internet chatting nights, no blah blah until I can pay... Jajajah, that's something...

Hate being off cyberspace!

In the meantime, communicate via emails to my lovely hivequeen2000@yahoo.com or to v_rivera_pr@yahoo.com.

This birthday sucks...

Work was slow, sort of. I was gonna take this week free but since last week's sickness I wanted to install computers before everything piled up... Big deal... Anyway could not do anything because now there was a change of plans from the computer's headquarters. So... I was left playing Inspector Gadget on a program mystery, solved it... Tomorrow to Aguadilla, they will have some munchies... Buahahahahahah.

Will take Wed-Thu free, plus next Mon and Tue. Gotta do the taxes, gotta do the masks and the charriots. And gotta clean up. The kitties have been havoking lately. LOL

Sunday, sunday... Cats jumping in my head, cats opening the closet, cats breaking a glass, cats running in circles, cats dancing in the moonlight... CATS!!!

Yes, they woke me up, several times... Grrrrrr

Saturday... stii sick but better... looking for some ebay deals... getting a grasp of real things... A big no shredded nothingness, but I guess the seriousness of it has faded away. More focus on my goals now... Ghosts beware!

Ok, so my Mutant Misadventures continue...

I am *still* sick... Been sick ever since Saturday and have not been able to go to work... So, at home, stranded, coughing, bodyaching, feverish, having weird dreamscapes episodes... And it is Wednesday afternoon and I FINALLY got to load the entire Artiste and Techie site of mine... Go take a look so you can see part of my artistic abilities (painting, drawing, sketching and digi creations).
http://www.geocities.com/v_rivera_pr

On other things, been trying for months to load the comments thinguie so you guys can comment on my writings but no use... KARAAAAA!!!!!! HELP!!!! Been trying to use what u sent me months ago, but for this I may be too dumb I guess... So, LadyRymmer, if you are reading this, send me an email explaining DUMBPROOF the how to... or I'll give up... WaaaaaaWaaaaaWaaaaa

Still, the Dress Saga continues... Ladies of the bridesmaid kind... Please, pleeeeease... Can't we all just work together? LOL

Big fight, One month deadline. If things doesn't change Hell will coe to Earth and DemiGods will die.

Gotta rest.

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Ok... This has been Hazardous week, a Feast on Insanity and Pain... May Lady Loviatar rejoyce from the caverns where she dwells!

Monday was off, slavery to the industrial priests but besides that government freaks are left to be free for a day... How nice... I'm misty eyed...

Tuesday and Wedneday... Traveled to Aguadilla, gave some computer support, my back, arm and neck are positively there as I really do feel them...

Thursday... Paperwork in my den, trying not to move much but still having some issues...

Friday, back to Aguadilla... The whoke day up and down. hate the elevator so taking stairs way... so theres the pains increase and my alter ego of 90 years old laments that I dont have a wheelchair... Ah! Prime of youth! The 20s left me trashed, even if I dont smoke or drink... Guess that even up-all-night-studying can ak for a toll...

Saturday... well, hopefully will contact the Lady of the Cake so I am certain there will be a cake for the big event... If u dont know what event, boy, you are REALLY misguided!

Got to visit El Calvo, been around a month or more...

Ask for Monday off, got to try and do the centerpieces for the event, again... You better know what event. If not... I'm neeeveeeer gonnna teeeeeeeellllllll...

I am not sleepy, hate the tired but sleepless combo... Its a slow killer... AHHH! Shock me, choke me, but do not leave me sleeples!!!!!!

Joined an ad&d online group, let's see if they refresh some isues in my head...

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My arm hurts, I keep biting myself so I will end up like a Resident Evil accolyte by the end of month...

I'm tired, but some weird energy is getting a hold on me... I think some aliens abducted me this week, got infected with the weeee virus. Ohhhhhhh

Coriolis is missing in action part 5. The Jacksonville Chronicles... LOL Hope he finally arrived and is drinking hot cocoa at his beloved bitch's side.

Lucinda has been busy with her kid's study affairs, and some projects of her own. Still, she's been giving some moral support to blue little me...

Groundel will help with some of the Western decor, eeeeehhhhaaaaaa

Trilogy is thinking, thinking, thinking...

TGIF... WDYK, LMFAO, OPP, IWTV... QOTD... Whatever...

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Yesterday was "Cuernos" day, today is "Grab the rabbit's ass day". LOL Ok, this secretary has this oh-so-cute plush Easter rabbit over her monitor. I was on the other side of the room, signing some papers, when I spotted it. It was laying over its belly, staring at the secretary, its furry back to me... So I give out a slight Xena-like scream, run towards the wabbit and ticked its fuzzy tail. LOL When I turn around everyone at the office was staring...
What? They have never seen a bunny-ass-jacking before?
:))

Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.

- Mahatma Gandhi

I don't know if it's true, but a batty told me Zordak the Mage is a daddy! Is it true? If it's so, damn, CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! :) And, you could have told me, you know?

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Midday. Got the horns that we wanted at the slaughterhouse... Long story, deco for a Western Themed party. Anyway, now I gotta make them look nice and fancy, that will be the job for the weekend. Nice, huh?

Last night a visitor lurked in the realms of mists. Stayed for a little while, I know he was not comfortable and Groundel was not really happy about him. So, that was the apparition of the night. Sad. For different reasons, sad for me as well as Groundel said he was a sad apparition. Yes... The apparition needs life, it seems hollow and devastated... scarecrow made of pain and anguish for bad decisions... really bad decisions... Rips me apart, but that is so. It is sad he never wanted to listen to me... I spoke for his wellbeing, not because of fancy fickleness. Now he realizes... As his blood has become cold and his spirit has been torn appart by hellish jackals... How they feasted with him! And how this ghoul yearns for retribution!
And me, being the Paladin as always... I feel all of his pain.
I feel everything.
It is sad.
Indeed...

But we must carry on...

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Come on baby let's get out of this town
I got a full tank of gas with the top rolled down
There's a chill in my bones
I don't want to be left alone
So baby you can sleep while I drive
I'll pack my bag and load up my guitar
In my pocket I'll carry my harp
I got some money I saved
Enough to get underway
And baby you can sleep while I drive

We'll go thorough Tucson up to Santa Fe
And Barbara in Nashville says we're welcome to stay
I'll buy you glasses in Texas a hat from New Orleans
And in the morning you can tell me your dreams

You know I've seen it before
This mist that covers your eyes
You've been looking for something
That's not in your life
My intentions are true
Won't you take me with you
And baby you can sleep while I drive

Oh is it other arms you want to
Hold you the stranger
The lover you're free
Can't you get that with me

Come on baby let's get out of this town
I got a full tank of gas with the top rolled down
If you won't take me with you
I'll go before night is through
And baby you can sleep while I drive

- Melissa Etheridge You Can Sleep While I Drive

Hello, hello this is Romeo
Calling from a jackpot telephone
Shame, shame but I love your name
And the way you make the buffalo roam
Oh fly, fly I guess this is goodbye
Oh you packed up your heart
And you left no souvenirs

But if you want me you can call me
In the night you know where I'll be
Broken lover you can touch me
In the dark the innocent can't see
You lock it up now hide the key
It would mean surrender to let me see
Oh brave, brave soldier keep it under cover
You fell alone like no other lover
Burn the pictures break the records
Run far away to a northern town
Sell your fear and leave me standing here
With no souvenirs

Once, twice I thought it might be nice
To come into your kitchen and play
Cool, cool just a crazy fool
I never saw it any other way
Oh wait, wait I guess I'm just too late
Oh you made up your mind
Love shouldn't be so hard

But if you want me you can call me
In the night you know where I'll be
Broken lover you can touch me
In the dark the innocent can't see
You lock it up now hide the key
It would mean surrender to let me see
Oh brave, brave soldier keep it under cover
You fell alone like no other lover
Burn the pictures break the records
Run far away to a northern town
Sell your fear and leave me standing here
With no souvenirs

No shirts, no shoes
No jackets, no blues
You car's for sale
You forward your mail
You're growing your hair
You don't want to know where
I'm calling you from
Or how come

But if you want me you can call me
In the night you know where I'll be
Broken lover you can touch me
In the dark the innocent can't see
You lock it up now hide the key
It would mean surrender to let me see
Oh brave, brave soldier keep it under cover
You fell alone like no other lover
Burn the pictures break the records
Run far away to a northern town
Sell your fear and leave me standing here
With no souvenirs

-Melissa Etheridge No Souvenirs

The heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others.

- The Wizard to the Tin Man

Blue, sad, tired, sleepy, bored, uninpressed, depressed... The usual.
Not suicidal, mind you... Revenge is the best served cold dish...
Yet... Ice cream is too good to be considered revenge...
Buahahahahah

I want, I want, I want...
Tough cookies... Old story... Same ending.
I neeeeeeeed it!
And the story is retold... Coooookiiiieeeeessss!
Yummy
Chocolate cookies, crunchy, tasty, yummy
Corn Pops con leche
Y quizás algo de Siouxie...

How in the world can I wish for this
Never to be torn apart
Close to you 'til
The last beat
Of my heart...



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