Two demonettes, one gothic zombie and a pirate... Hope you all had a fun Hallowed Day!
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
Two demonettes, one gothic zombie and a pirate... Hope you all had a fun Hallowed Day!
Thursday, October 25, 2007
New Baby Arrival at 1:00pm! And then some
... Yay!
Sister gave birth today at 1:00pm a baby girl named María Isabel. Another big girl, weighted 8something and was 20 inches long. So send good karma to the newest mommy in the family! :D
So, what's been going on? Baby stuff mostly... Vaccines, baptism, new birth... Sheesh! Now babies are the only fancy news, or so it seems... Now DeeVa has spiritual parents... Groundel & LightShadow... Should I fear? :P
Coriolis MAY be throwing game starting this weekend... HOPEFULLY, if no more stars keep aligning so he can't do so... Groundel and the Mage are in the gaming list, and the two guys from Ponce may or may not appear.
I have no idea if there is bad weather or something, just that lovely wind is blowing at night in Anthill... I just hate that my bedroom is oppossite its course, it is the warmest room in RoseRed... so the light bill thanks to the AC wont be going down anytime soon...
Groundel is staying with us at RoseRed and has already felt the wrath of aballardes and crazy ants... He's got a doctor's appointment tomorrow, and hopefully will be in the way towards complete recovery within the next two months. There is a masterplan that he can follow so the neverending loops stop... Hopefully this time things will go smoothly.
An old nice and naughty witch from Florida has been summoning me and the orc to get some answers. O am glad she's alive and well, and with glee I would like to give her a punch in the head! Woman, get out of the destructive relationship circle! You are so beautiful, you have a kid, you have a job, you have a life! You don't need a latin asshole to rule your life putting himself first, humiliating you and playing around. Come on! Wake up! Stop being a victim! You are worth more than that!
Yesterday was LightShadow's b-day, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY little stinger!!! Yup, our mild mannered soon to be discovered diva is a scorpio... Already given a hint to make everyone drool, will she accept the dare to look almost like Aeon Flux and go for it? (tension mfx please). Hopefully will be able to do some sort of ritual to celebrate her step towards the grey stone during the weekend :D
Wanna see Elizabeth The Golden Years, 30 Days of Night, and (why deny it) Saw4. Will definitively like to finish watching Resident Evil Apocalypse...
Want the blood to return to my hair, so maybe Halloween will be perfect for a Bloody Mary. Thinking of doing something else, but don't know if I should keep my hair long or chop it manga style... Choices, choices... I just know that by now braids are really boring me...
Pica-pica is in the air, bills keep coming, Deeva keeps demanding, work starts withing a month and a week, ghosts keep on being ghostly, friends have been friendly-er and I am really wondering about some people with some backgrounds that may have been overrated...
Raven keeps running from her hits, a big shame after such a long storyline... She still thinks little of herself, and I had always thought so high in contrast to that. What is the point of words without action? A lesson she still has to learn. I am to decide who is useful around me, if I ever used such a term... I am too much of a do-it-yourselfer, so in my case that doesn't apply. I share life, I share time and I share caring. I help as long as I can, going to some extremes that most may think stupid from me... I preech trust, loyalty, faith, love... I do all of those. No double side, as anyone who knows me can tell without thinking twice about it.
Years have taught me to stop being quiet and say things to your face... Brooding on ideas and points of view is a waste of time. I only wish people would let me decide for myself when my point of view is center stage, not try russian-roulette and make decitions for me. When I do and say things about a matter that targets soemone close to me, I have every right to do so because I have put my whole life into a honest labor of friendship and love. I am extreme, yes... all or nothing... very truthfull and blunt. That's why most people don't like me. When I fuss with or about someone, being unpolite is not an issue... Call it tough love. Someone who knows where you come from should know better... should know why some words should be said because they matter, should not doubt your genuine feelings and interest on daily stupid events... Enough said.
Got nice red devilish horns for some Halloween kitty pics, maybe for DeeVa. O may don my dear daily costume, or become a devilette for a change... Gotta see in which mood I'm in on the witching day...
The Mage... keeps pushing buttons in his witty way, keeps on being thoughtful and kind, keeps on picking up the pieces left by long days and even longer nights. Always bringing a smile to my face, neverending hope to my heart. He's making me go soft... Damnit!
10-4
Sister gave birth today at 1:00pm a baby girl named María Isabel. Another big girl, weighted 8something and was 20 inches long. So send good karma to the newest mommy in the family! :D
So, what's been going on? Baby stuff mostly... Vaccines, baptism, new birth... Sheesh! Now babies are the only fancy news, or so it seems... Now DeeVa has spiritual parents... Groundel & LightShadow... Should I fear? :P
Coriolis MAY be throwing game starting this weekend... HOPEFULLY, if no more stars keep aligning so he can't do so... Groundel and the Mage are in the gaming list, and the two guys from Ponce may or may not appear.
I have no idea if there is bad weather or something, just that lovely wind is blowing at night in Anthill... I just hate that my bedroom is oppossite its course, it is the warmest room in RoseRed... so the light bill thanks to the AC wont be going down anytime soon...
Groundel is staying with us at RoseRed and has already felt the wrath of aballardes and crazy ants... He's got a doctor's appointment tomorrow, and hopefully will be in the way towards complete recovery within the next two months. There is a masterplan that he can follow so the neverending loops stop... Hopefully this time things will go smoothly.
An old nice and naughty witch from Florida has been summoning me and the orc to get some answers. O am glad she's alive and well, and with glee I would like to give her a punch in the head! Woman, get out of the destructive relationship circle! You are so beautiful, you have a kid, you have a job, you have a life! You don't need a latin asshole to rule your life putting himself first, humiliating you and playing around. Come on! Wake up! Stop being a victim! You are worth more than that!
Yesterday was LightShadow's b-day, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY little stinger!!! Yup, our mild mannered soon to be discovered diva is a scorpio... Already given a hint to make everyone drool, will she accept the dare to look almost like Aeon Flux and go for it? (tension mfx please). Hopefully will be able to do some sort of ritual to celebrate her step towards the grey stone during the weekend :D
Wanna see Elizabeth The Golden Years, 30 Days of Night, and (why deny it) Saw4. Will definitively like to finish watching Resident Evil Apocalypse...
Want the blood to return to my hair, so maybe Halloween will be perfect for a Bloody Mary. Thinking of doing something else, but don't know if I should keep my hair long or chop it manga style... Choices, choices... I just know that by now braids are really boring me...
Pica-pica is in the air, bills keep coming, Deeva keeps demanding, work starts withing a month and a week, ghosts keep on being ghostly, friends have been friendly-er and I am really wondering about some people with some backgrounds that may have been overrated...
Raven keeps running from her hits, a big shame after such a long storyline... She still thinks little of herself, and I had always thought so high in contrast to that. What is the point of words without action? A lesson she still has to learn. I am to decide who is useful around me, if I ever used such a term... I am too much of a do-it-yourselfer, so in my case that doesn't apply. I share life, I share time and I share caring. I help as long as I can, going to some extremes that most may think stupid from me... I preech trust, loyalty, faith, love... I do all of those. No double side, as anyone who knows me can tell without thinking twice about it.
Years have taught me to stop being quiet and say things to your face... Brooding on ideas and points of view is a waste of time. I only wish people would let me decide for myself when my point of view is center stage, not try russian-roulette and make decitions for me. When I do and say things about a matter that targets soemone close to me, I have every right to do so because I have put my whole life into a honest labor of friendship and love. I am extreme, yes... all or nothing... very truthfull and blunt. That's why most people don't like me. When I fuss with or about someone, being unpolite is not an issue... Call it tough love. Someone who knows where you come from should know better... should know why some words should be said because they matter, should not doubt your genuine feelings and interest on daily stupid events... Enough said.
Got nice red devilish horns for some Halloween kitty pics, maybe for DeeVa. O may don my dear daily costume, or become a devilette for a change... Gotta see in which mood I'm in on the witching day...
The Mage... keeps pushing buttons in his witty way, keeps on being thoughtful and kind, keeps on picking up the pieces left by long days and even longer nights. Always bringing a smile to my face, neverending hope to my heart. He's making me go soft... Damnit!
10-4
Saturday, October 20, 2007
Deirdre's Baptism...
Tomorrow at 2:00PM
WHERE?
Our Lady of Fatima Church, Parcelas Castillo C-2, Mayaguez
WHEN?
Tomorrow October 21st at 2:00 PM
RECEPTION?
There will be a small gathering at auntie's house after the ceremony at church... Yup, I just want cake! Cakeeeeeee!
GODMOTHER: LightShadow the Stigmata Bleeding Elf
GODFATHER: Groundel the Ugly Ogre
Hope to see ya!
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WHERE?
Our Lady of Fatima Church, Parcelas Castillo C-2, Mayaguez
WHEN?
Tomorrow October 21st at 2:00 PM
RECEPTION?
There will be a small gathering at auntie's house after the ceremony at church... Yup, I just want cake! Cakeeeeeee!
GODMOTHER: LightShadow the Stigmata Bleeding Elf
GODFATHER: Groundel the Ugly Ogre
Hope to see ya!
10-4
Monday, October 15, 2007
Summing it up...
blah, blah and some coo's
Some hybernation at Anthill due to lack of funds. Some mandatory visits to doctors, to familiars and to Church. Some catching up with old favorites, crafts and new favorites (for some reason I am very hooked on ANTM and of course JLU). Taking care of Diva, cleaning the house and taking care of Diva again... La-la-la...
Christening of Diva should be in November, official date shall be disclosed soon.
10-4
Some hybernation at Anthill due to lack of funds. Some mandatory visits to doctors, to familiars and to Church. Some catching up with old favorites, crafts and new favorites (for some reason I am very hooked on ANTM and of course JLU). Taking care of Diva, cleaning the house and taking care of Diva again... La-la-la...
Christening of Diva should be in November, official date shall be disclosed soon.
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Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Happy UnHalloween!!!!
o algo... LOL
Oh! We went to see STARDUST two Saturdays ago! Loved the movie! More than what I expected, you gotta love DeNiro! :D
Last week:
-Pediatrician on Friday, Diva is fine and now weights a wooping 12.02 pounds and has a height of 22 inches... Groundel went with us, later on to a shopping adventure as well. Gotta get that LF-octopus for Diva maybe for Xmas...
-Baby Shower of my sister on last Sunday. Many people, MANY people from her hubby's family, me from her side. She should deliver around Nov 1, but I'm thinking that it will be a witchy girl. Her name is Maria Isabel, btw
Monday: Attack of the spooky spiders... Seems they are getting ready for Halloween too...
Tuesday: Quick trip to get kitties food at night. Fortunately the mage had the time after lunch off, so he was home early to help me complete the task...
Looking for a baptism attire for Diva... Expect it to be on October 21st. Also looking for her 1st Halloween costume... And her vaccine shots are due next 17th.
Me, thinking of dying my hair but looking for a different haircut. Still afraid of short hair... Sorted some pictures, photo albums organized, assigning things to propper places, and going insane in RoseRed as I cannot do much thanks to money matters and Diva's crying. May have a Christening gathering after the ceremony, and a small Halloween thinguie the week after to at least dress up this year.
Coriolis attempted a game start (good shot, hopefully we will all gather SOON!). LightShadow still a corporate client service zombie slave. Groundel lightening up a bit at least with Diva (Wow, he makes her smile... and she DOESNT smile!). Cook called to let me know a coworker will donate something for Diva... And I guess Raven is nevermore (pun deliberately intended). Gotta see what ElCalvo is up to...
So Diva sleeps, kitties are no longer hungry and everything is peaceful and quiet in Anthill... and Neverland...
10-4
Oh! We went to see STARDUST two Saturdays ago! Loved the movie! More than what I expected, you gotta love DeNiro! :D
Last week:
-Pediatrician on Friday, Diva is fine and now weights a wooping 12.02 pounds and has a height of 22 inches... Groundel went with us, later on to a shopping adventure as well. Gotta get that LF-octopus for Diva maybe for Xmas...
-Baby Shower of my sister on last Sunday. Many people, MANY people from her hubby's family, me from her side. She should deliver around Nov 1, but I'm thinking that it will be a witchy girl. Her name is Maria Isabel, btw
Monday: Attack of the spooky spiders... Seems they are getting ready for Halloween too...
Tuesday: Quick trip to get kitties food at night. Fortunately the mage had the time after lunch off, so he was home early to help me complete the task...
Looking for a baptism attire for Diva... Expect it to be on October 21st. Also looking for her 1st Halloween costume... And her vaccine shots are due next 17th.
Me, thinking of dying my hair but looking for a different haircut. Still afraid of short hair... Sorted some pictures, photo albums organized, assigning things to propper places, and going insane in RoseRed as I cannot do much thanks to money matters and Diva's crying. May have a Christening gathering after the ceremony, and a small Halloween thinguie the week after to at least dress up this year.
Coriolis attempted a game start (good shot, hopefully we will all gather SOON!). LightShadow still a corporate client service zombie slave. Groundel lightening up a bit at least with Diva (Wow, he makes her smile... and she DOESNT smile!). Cook called to let me know a coworker will donate something for Diva... And I guess Raven is nevermore (pun deliberately intended). Gotta see what ElCalvo is up to...
So Diva sleeps, kitties are no longer hungry and everything is peaceful and quiet in Anthill... and Neverland...
10-4
Friday, September 21, 2007
One thing down!
99 to go...
So... the week has been hectic, days keep flying away...
SUNDAY: Coriolis B-day... Not that it could be celebrated at all (para variar). The string of bad events included my car's rear leaking water heavily, my glasses breaking, the washing machine not spinning so I had to finish every item by hand, getting home to some annoyances... Long, draining day. Next!
MONDAY: Tired, monitoring the bathroom progress... obeying Deedee's comands... Ugh! Long, LONG day!
TUESDAY: Picked up Groundel early in the morning so I could do a bit more in the day... Went to WIC, to auntie's, to the Town Center, home to check the bathroom job, got some cleaning stuff at the nearby shopping center, delivered Groundel, bought food for the Mage, delivered the food, and made it home... Amen! Long day that left me comepletely drained.
WEDNESDAY: Slept a bit almost until 10am... Just watched TV, responded to all pf Deedee's demands, and tried sleeping in the afyernoon after taking some allergy medicine... LightShadow passed by to visit us... Oh, and she delivered food! Real food! Oh, yes, milk and Cheerios are ok but kinda lack in taste... Thank-u!!!
THURSDAY: Went to pick up Groundel, who invited to lunch and later on helped with some upholstering. Played some old LP's (yup, you read well... La Pandilla, Chespirito, amd other of my childhood favorites...), cooked something to feed the Mage, delivered Groundel, delivered the food, and got home for some serious Deedee time.
FRIDAY: The bathroom was FINALLY finished today, and the windows were FINALLY drilled... Amen. Gotta cleanup with some clorox in the weekend to dispose of the dust and yucky stuff. Gotta get a toilet seat and the half-bent shower curtain tube... And somewhere along the way see if he electrician can come light up the cabinet... But it should be at least usable by Sunday. I'm happy there's no more flowers in there!
WEEKEND PLANS: Tonight will hopefully see Halloween so I can actually talk about it... Will also try finishing Hairspray (found it boring)... So, tomorrow we will (maybe) finally go and see Stardust, and with any luck actually get to play some AlQuadym if Coriolis shows up... On Sunday we shall cleanup the blue bath, finish the sofa, and hopefully rest a bit more... Oh, and get the date for the baby's Christening reunion, so it can finally be done maybe in October's 1st or 2nd week...
Got a doctor's appointment on Monday, and another on Thursday... More excitement for the weeks ahead, yipee...
Anyone up to dressing up for Halloween? Yeah, think about it now so you actually do so when the week arrives. I wanna do something... Next year I hope I can finally go to the Horror Nights! Even as a weekend horror getaway...
10-4
So... the week has been hectic, days keep flying away...
SUNDAY: Coriolis B-day... Not that it could be celebrated at all (para variar). The string of bad events included my car's rear leaking water heavily, my glasses breaking, the washing machine not spinning so I had to finish every item by hand, getting home to some annoyances... Long, draining day. Next!
MONDAY: Tired, monitoring the bathroom progress... obeying Deedee's comands... Ugh! Long, LONG day!
TUESDAY: Picked up Groundel early in the morning so I could do a bit more in the day... Went to WIC, to auntie's, to the Town Center, home to check the bathroom job, got some cleaning stuff at the nearby shopping center, delivered Groundel, bought food for the Mage, delivered the food, and made it home... Amen! Long day that left me comepletely drained.
WEDNESDAY: Slept a bit almost until 10am... Just watched TV, responded to all pf Deedee's demands, and tried sleeping in the afyernoon after taking some allergy medicine... LightShadow passed by to visit us... Oh, and she delivered food! Real food! Oh, yes, milk and Cheerios are ok but kinda lack in taste... Thank-u!!!
THURSDAY: Went to pick up Groundel, who invited to lunch and later on helped with some upholstering. Played some old LP's (yup, you read well... La Pandilla, Chespirito, amd other of my childhood favorites...), cooked something to feed the Mage, delivered Groundel, delivered the food, and got home for some serious Deedee time.
FRIDAY: The bathroom was FINALLY finished today, and the windows were FINALLY drilled... Amen. Gotta cleanup with some clorox in the weekend to dispose of the dust and yucky stuff. Gotta get a toilet seat and the half-bent shower curtain tube... And somewhere along the way see if he electrician can come light up the cabinet... But it should be at least usable by Sunday. I'm happy there's no more flowers in there!
WEEKEND PLANS: Tonight will hopefully see Halloween so I can actually talk about it... Will also try finishing Hairspray (found it boring)... So, tomorrow we will (maybe) finally go and see Stardust, and with any luck actually get to play some AlQuadym if Coriolis shows up... On Sunday we shall cleanup the blue bath, finish the sofa, and hopefully rest a bit more... Oh, and get the date for the baby's Christening reunion, so it can finally be done maybe in October's 1st or 2nd week...
Got a doctor's appointment on Monday, and another on Thursday... More excitement for the weeks ahead, yipee...
Anyone up to dressing up for Halloween? Yeah, think about it now so you actually do so when the week arrives. I wanna do something... Next year I hope I can finally go to the Horror Nights! Even as a weekend horror getaway...
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
Letter to an insect
...
It is funny when insects try to make comebacks to bite, and they don't really have much arguments.
Lady Death:
You live in EL CARAJO, so spare me your drama. Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one. You don't like mine, don't read it. Your lazy ass gave me enough proof of what to expect from you, who you are and how small your mind and aspirations are. You wanted a man to carry YOU around as a little pampered princess, you got him and that's great... Just beware of showing off your true colors so easily, life has a nice way of coming back at you.
Spare me your martyr speech: You have made no sacrifices, you make choices based on convenience. This from the same person that vented of how much she cared about her brother, about how she would take care of him no matter what... It was easy saying that when he was in a hospital, with your family as an audience. But it has been me all this time who has taken care of him, because I care. You gave a roof because your family gave you no other choice... And the roof is not yours anyway... thanks to your mother's disability you got a good apartment, and absentmindedly let go of it. Now the roof which is not your house, really, belongs to someone on whom you depend for everything... So much for being so independent, so much for venting so much brain, so much skill, so much smarts...
You waste youth, you waste a degree that you got for nothing (as you are not even interested in working), and in the shit you are in you drag your mother and Steve without taking them into account in anything. Bravo! It will be interesting to see when you wake up an smell the coffee...
Steve is a burden for you? He has never been a burden for me. He is family to me. While you gave blah blah, I did many sacrifices for him. And still do. I offered my house, it is HIM who has a problem with Anthony and so HE declined, so you know what to do with your words. If you have PMS or are having a bad day, take your shit on someone else, not on someone who even helped you giving you shelter, food, good advice, and even clothing... and you dared to bite badly. For hating hypocrites, you are damn good at being one.
La-la-la
It is funny when insects try to make comebacks to bite, and they don't really have much arguments.
Lady Death:
You live in EL CARAJO, so spare me your drama. Opinions are like assholes, everyone has one. You don't like mine, don't read it. Your lazy ass gave me enough proof of what to expect from you, who you are and how small your mind and aspirations are. You wanted a man to carry YOU around as a little pampered princess, you got him and that's great... Just beware of showing off your true colors so easily, life has a nice way of coming back at you.
Spare me your martyr speech: You have made no sacrifices, you make choices based on convenience. This from the same person that vented of how much she cared about her brother, about how she would take care of him no matter what... It was easy saying that when he was in a hospital, with your family as an audience. But it has been me all this time who has taken care of him, because I care. You gave a roof because your family gave you no other choice... And the roof is not yours anyway... thanks to your mother's disability you got a good apartment, and absentmindedly let go of it. Now the roof which is not your house, really, belongs to someone on whom you depend for everything... So much for being so independent, so much for venting so much brain, so much skill, so much smarts...
You waste youth, you waste a degree that you got for nothing (as you are not even interested in working), and in the shit you are in you drag your mother and Steve without taking them into account in anything. Bravo! It will be interesting to see when you wake up an smell the coffee...
Steve is a burden for you? He has never been a burden for me. He is family to me. While you gave blah blah, I did many sacrifices for him. And still do. I offered my house, it is HIM who has a problem with Anthony and so HE declined, so you know what to do with your words. If you have PMS or are having a bad day, take your shit on someone else, not on someone who even helped you giving you shelter, food, good advice, and even clothing... and you dared to bite badly. For hating hypocrites, you are damn good at being one.
La-la-la
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Tales from Anthill
...
Wednesday had my first official drive alone with Deedee... Went to visit Groundel at the far away place that holds his new dwelling... And I mean it, it's far away! How to screw up someone's life... Lovely...
Thursday spent the whole day at home, felt too tired... the usual.
Friday had a visit from my sister. She's 33 weeks pregnant, expecting by Nov 1. she's gonna have a lottle witch, the irony! That date would have been perfect for Deedee... Oh, well...
Contractor still in the making of the bathroom... Las baterías Energizer duran, y duran...
Don't know if there will be a first game this weekend. I just know that tomorrow is Coriolis birthday, so WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Happy B-day, kbronzote! :P
Y la aldea sigue ahí...
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Wednesday had my first official drive alone with Deedee... Went to visit Groundel at the far away place that holds his new dwelling... And I mean it, it's far away! How to screw up someone's life... Lovely...
Thursday spent the whole day at home, felt too tired... the usual.
Friday had a visit from my sister. She's 33 weeks pregnant, expecting by Nov 1. she's gonna have a lottle witch, the irony! That date would have been perfect for Deedee... Oh, well...
Contractor still in the making of the bathroom... Las baterías Energizer duran, y duran...
Don't know if there will be a first game this weekend. I just know that tomorrow is Coriolis birthday, so WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! Happy B-day, kbronzote! :P
Y la aldea sigue ahí...
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Monday, September 10, 2007
In & Out
...
Hectic days, chaotic nights, days flying by, some frustration, some awe, some elation, some marvel... The week in rock:
- May baptize Deedee next Saturday, if all stars align properly
- RoseRed still under construction. Thanks to that I'm with constant allergy and runny nose. Hoping it's not a cold, but it adds up badly to my feeling-loke-crap status
- Not much time to do anything, just help Deedee, and try sleeping in the breaks
- Grandmothers very happy in the end
- Groundel still grounded somewhere in City-of-Hills... Being trying to call him to no avail...
- Coriolis got a roof done, still not satisfied (duh)...
- The Mage starts working today... That's great financially speaking. And it's the pits for me, he seems to be a great calming factor on Deedee... Let's hope I survive this crashing-in week
- The Mage also has a Statistics test tomorrow, please send good karma his way!
- Me... Just being me. Same old same old, with high stress factors and lack of rest... Dont need to be at my lovely job to keep up the feeling... But underneath the grumpyness and curses, it is all fuzzy and blisful at least within. Home is where the heart is, and turns out that between the Mage and Deedee it is a perfect home. It is all a constant clash of thoughts, and I do miss my old way of living (you can take the mistress out of the darkness but you can't take the darkness out of the mistress)... I wish the mage would get into the darkside, but that's not him. And I respect his ways even if they bother me. Me, I wish I could have a way to share my line of thought without being dramatic, but that's me... The show goes on.
10-4
Hectic days, chaotic nights, days flying by, some frustration, some awe, some elation, some marvel... The week in rock:
- May baptize Deedee next Saturday, if all stars align properly
- RoseRed still under construction. Thanks to that I'm with constant allergy and runny nose. Hoping it's not a cold, but it adds up badly to my feeling-loke-crap status
- Not much time to do anything, just help Deedee, and try sleeping in the breaks
- Grandmothers very happy in the end
- Groundel still grounded somewhere in City-of-Hills... Being trying to call him to no avail...
- Coriolis got a roof done, still not satisfied (duh)...
- The Mage starts working today... That's great financially speaking. And it's the pits for me, he seems to be a great calming factor on Deedee... Let's hope I survive this crashing-in week
- The Mage also has a Statistics test tomorrow, please send good karma his way!
- Me... Just being me. Same old same old, with high stress factors and lack of rest... Dont need to be at my lovely job to keep up the feeling... But underneath the grumpyness and curses, it is all fuzzy and blisful at least within. Home is where the heart is, and turns out that between the Mage and Deedee it is a perfect home. It is all a constant clash of thoughts, and I do miss my old way of living (you can take the mistress out of the darkness but you can't take the darkness out of the mistress)... I wish the mage would get into the darkside, but that's not him. And I respect his ways even if they bother me. Me, I wish I could have a way to share my line of thought without being dramatic, but that's me... The show goes on.
10-4
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Lightspeed...
zoom in, zoom out
Days pass faster than a speeding bullet... In the meanwhile, the day passes slowly at night and so-so when the sun is burning. Updates:
FAMILY
Auntie going back to her basic bipolar self... One day she hates me, and the next she loves me. Whatever. We lasted one week under her roof after the Cesarean... I don't know what was so irritating: Me, the baby, the mage, a combination of all... Whatever. So When the second week began we moved to Anthill, which is istill under construction but... well... better to go up and down stairs than to be screamed at 24/7... Visited auntie during the week and she seemed happy. Ok... Who's filming this movie? Hmph?
Mommy's b-day was on the 24th, so we passed by for some minutes to say hi and show Deirdre off. During last week she left a little gift for Deedee at auntie's, she passed by the same day we left home. We may pass by today to give her a wedding picture that FINALLY arrived.
The Mage: As a daddy he is thrilled, happy and very busy, facing sleepless nights and busy days. My hero! :X Trying to keep college classes at bay, but still looking for a statistics calculator... He needs one for his Statistics II class, desperately!
Deedee: Little Deirdre sleeps almost each 4 hours, enjoys keeping us awake at 1:00 am and at 4:30 am... Got her ears poerced last Wednesday, so now she has red laser beams on the sides. Sporty onesies on weekdays, Sunday dressed as a DIVA! Yay!
FRIENDS
Coriolis still climbing the corporate ladder at least in theory... Friends in high places (make it impressed friends) may turn the tide for him... Fingers crossed, he busts his ass at work, so he deserves the cash. He has been the voice of the real world all these days. At least someone besides the mage brightens my day!
Groundel lost in translation in the Ciudad de las Lomas... His new dwelling has crappy celular reception and so we are facing serious communication woes. Hopefully I'll be able to pass by when I get better and I can actually drive.
LightShadow sending disturbing news about spiders invading texas, o algo. LOL Working girl is the main Fantastic Four female of honor. Yay!
Cook's birthday was last Wednesday, and I knew nothing about it. Gotta figure out what to do for her, she's been too nice and helpful. today she is in the capital, so whatever has to wait for a weekday.
HOME
RoseRed still has a bathroom in the making... All tiles are down, now only to wait for the guy to put them up. Finally got the white toilet, and we figured out the cistern throws water upstairs, only to the shower. Also, the water from the A/C somehow is getting to the first floor, and it damaged a bit one of the diningroom's chairs... Gotta get some barnish polythinguie to fix the damage... The ceiling fans are FINALLY up, ome of the antique chandelliers is up, only the kitchen rack, and addition, and the outdoor lights to go. Whee o algo.
ME
Feeling isolated from reality and the world. Sad about not having Groundel around, missing him terribly. All these days have been for visiting doctors, getting paperwork done, and staying at home trying to keep up with baby. Tired, grumpy, frustrated, achy. The C-section scar is healing well outside, but giving some pains from the inside... Slowly going back to my old self, amen. Angry at times, mad almost 24/7... The usual. Maybe it all has an enhancement of the so-called "baby blues"...
The mage has been on charge of most things... taking care of me, of Deedee, of house chores, of food... He looks exhausted most of the time. His help is deeply appreciated. Not every male in this island would do all he has been doing ever since Deedee arrived... and even before. I am glad he is at my side, even if sometimes his over-protective mature gets to independent me... Love is true.
So... Clouds arrived as usual, thunder is heard and heralds heavy rain (as it happens everyday in the afternoon here in Anthill). So that also means i must leave the cyber-realm once more because I don't want to fry the PC. So... Later, kiddies!
10-4
Days pass faster than a speeding bullet... In the meanwhile, the day passes slowly at night and so-so when the sun is burning. Updates:
FAMILY
Auntie going back to her basic bipolar self... One day she hates me, and the next she loves me. Whatever. We lasted one week under her roof after the Cesarean... I don't know what was so irritating: Me, the baby, the mage, a combination of all... Whatever. So When the second week began we moved to Anthill, which is istill under construction but... well... better to go up and down stairs than to be screamed at 24/7... Visited auntie during the week and she seemed happy. Ok... Who's filming this movie? Hmph?
Mommy's b-day was on the 24th, so we passed by for some minutes to say hi and show Deirdre off. During last week she left a little gift for Deedee at auntie's, she passed by the same day we left home. We may pass by today to give her a wedding picture that FINALLY arrived.
The Mage: As a daddy he is thrilled, happy and very busy, facing sleepless nights and busy days. My hero! :X Trying to keep college classes at bay, but still looking for a statistics calculator... He needs one for his Statistics II class, desperately!
Deedee: Little Deirdre sleeps almost each 4 hours, enjoys keeping us awake at 1:00 am and at 4:30 am... Got her ears poerced last Wednesday, so now she has red laser beams on the sides. Sporty onesies on weekdays, Sunday dressed as a DIVA! Yay!
FRIENDS
Coriolis still climbing the corporate ladder at least in theory... Friends in high places (make it impressed friends) may turn the tide for him... Fingers crossed, he busts his ass at work, so he deserves the cash. He has been the voice of the real world all these days. At least someone besides the mage brightens my day!
Groundel lost in translation in the Ciudad de las Lomas... His new dwelling has crappy celular reception and so we are facing serious communication woes. Hopefully I'll be able to pass by when I get better and I can actually drive.
LightShadow sending disturbing news about spiders invading texas, o algo. LOL Working girl is the main Fantastic Four female of honor. Yay!
Cook's birthday was last Wednesday, and I knew nothing about it. Gotta figure out what to do for her, she's been too nice and helpful. today she is in the capital, so whatever has to wait for a weekday.
HOME
RoseRed still has a bathroom in the making... All tiles are down, now only to wait for the guy to put them up. Finally got the white toilet, and we figured out the cistern throws water upstairs, only to the shower. Also, the water from the A/C somehow is getting to the first floor, and it damaged a bit one of the diningroom's chairs... Gotta get some barnish polythinguie to fix the damage... The ceiling fans are FINALLY up, ome of the antique chandelliers is up, only the kitchen rack, and addition, and the outdoor lights to go. Whee o algo.
ME
Feeling isolated from reality and the world. Sad about not having Groundel around, missing him terribly. All these days have been for visiting doctors, getting paperwork done, and staying at home trying to keep up with baby. Tired, grumpy, frustrated, achy. The C-section scar is healing well outside, but giving some pains from the inside... Slowly going back to my old self, amen. Angry at times, mad almost 24/7... The usual. Maybe it all has an enhancement of the so-called "baby blues"...
The mage has been on charge of most things... taking care of me, of Deedee, of house chores, of food... He looks exhausted most of the time. His help is deeply appreciated. Not every male in this island would do all he has been doing ever since Deedee arrived... and even before. I am glad he is at my side, even if sometimes his over-protective mature gets to independent me... Love is true.
So... Clouds arrived as usual, thunder is heard and heralds heavy rain (as it happens everyday in the afternoon here in Anthill). So that also means i must leave the cyber-realm once more because I don't want to fry the PC. So... Later, kiddies!
10-4
Friday, August 24, 2007
BIRTH...
a week later...
Been out of my house, with no internet, no connection with the world... And will be that way until perhaps next weekend. It all depends on what is achieved in RoseRed during next week, and how the gash in my belly heals.
Well, last Friday I had the Cesarean that brought Deirdre, the NEW DIVA, into this world. Stayed in the hospital until Monday, when they finally released me... Been confined to a crowded room at Auntie's, at least the A/C and pillows have been cozy... Actually it's more like the mage has made it all cozy and bearable... Little deirdre is not so little... She didnt look like a larva when she came into the world, but as a 4 weeks baby... so imagine... No wrinkles, no weird shapes... She came out as you see babies been born in movies. So, the girl definitively looks very much like mommy, that's quite spooky! No, I didn't clone me! Up until now her eyes look greyish, let's see to what color they turn after a few more weeks... She's lovely, and already has become more atuned with daddy...
Have seen most of my lovely crewmates, with some unexpected additions. Groundel, Lightshadow & Coriolis went to visit me in the hospital. The mage's mom & sisters went by, as well as my mother and auntie. And Cook 7 Cook, two coworkers, visited on Sunday. During the week Coriolis have kept me entertained by phone, Groundel has tried to make contact with the few minutes he has, LS visited yeaterday and even my sister appeared on Wednesday night. Got a card from Vangie and a card from my father (A babyshower card... erm... a bit late? Oh, whatever, not that Deedee had one anyway...). And today finally finished the baby's inscription.
So... Next Monday got a gyn appointment to take away the stitches, gotta go to WIC and my medical plan, and gotta visit the pediatrician on Wednesday. In the house, the bathroom upstairs is in process... and the electrician is suppossed to go on Monday to start his work. My car also misbehaved last week, so had to repair some of it yesterday... Money came in, money went away as easily... The usual...
Tomorrow is the mage's Confirmation at 7pm. Gotta find out when are baptisms performed.
Baby is happy, locking, not letting daddy sleep at nights, not letting mommy rest by day, and utilizing charming spells to get her way... Me... Feeling quite crappy after the whole experience, but at the same time quite happy because me, the mage, and little Deirdre all together make a beautiful mix for a happy and blissful family and home.
Thanks to all of you who have been the supporting cast for so long, and still keep on standing at our side!
10-4
Been out of my house, with no internet, no connection with the world... And will be that way until perhaps next weekend. It all depends on what is achieved in RoseRed during next week, and how the gash in my belly heals.
Well, last Friday I had the Cesarean that brought Deirdre, the NEW DIVA, into this world. Stayed in the hospital until Monday, when they finally released me... Been confined to a crowded room at Auntie's, at least the A/C and pillows have been cozy... Actually it's more like the mage has made it all cozy and bearable... Little deirdre is not so little... She didnt look like a larva when she came into the world, but as a 4 weeks baby... so imagine... No wrinkles, no weird shapes... She came out as you see babies been born in movies. So, the girl definitively looks very much like mommy, that's quite spooky! No, I didn't clone me! Up until now her eyes look greyish, let's see to what color they turn after a few more weeks... She's lovely, and already has become more atuned with daddy...
Have seen most of my lovely crewmates, with some unexpected additions. Groundel, Lightshadow & Coriolis went to visit me in the hospital. The mage's mom & sisters went by, as well as my mother and auntie. And Cook 7 Cook, two coworkers, visited on Sunday. During the week Coriolis have kept me entertained by phone, Groundel has tried to make contact with the few minutes he has, LS visited yeaterday and even my sister appeared on Wednesday night. Got a card from Vangie and a card from my father (A babyshower card... erm... a bit late? Oh, whatever, not that Deedee had one anyway...). And today finally finished the baby's inscription.
So... Next Monday got a gyn appointment to take away the stitches, gotta go to WIC and my medical plan, and gotta visit the pediatrician on Wednesday. In the house, the bathroom upstairs is in process... and the electrician is suppossed to go on Monday to start his work. My car also misbehaved last week, so had to repair some of it yesterday... Money came in, money went away as easily... The usual...
Tomorrow is the mage's Confirmation at 7pm. Gotta find out when are baptisms performed.
Baby is happy, locking, not letting daddy sleep at nights, not letting mommy rest by day, and utilizing charming spells to get her way... Me... Feeling quite crappy after the whole experience, but at the same time quite happy because me, the mage, and little Deirdre all together make a beautiful mix for a happy and blissful family and home.
Thanks to all of you who have been the supporting cast for so long, and still keep on standing at our side!
10-4
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Storm in the horizon...
and Deirdre's birth NEXT FRIDAY! (2 days from NOW)
Yup... Will hybernate at the Concepción Hospital on Friday 17th so Deirdre's birth can be induced, hopefully without a Cesarean (the place is located at the famed Ciudad de las Lomas. Lovely! That's one of my favorite cities within Macondo). Up until now, everything is fine, just the doctor thinking it's time to bring Deirdre into this world because of the high-risk yadda yadda. Don't want a humongous baby that will force an operation, wanna give it a chance to come into the world naturally... If possible. So... Expect baby Deirdre by Friday night or Saturday... Yay! A Leo! I love it when a plan comes together!
A storm-hurricane-whatever is in view, so there is also a storm watch in the isle... It is expected to pass by the South of the isle on Saturday... Happy happy joy joy... Deirdre had to bring chaos nearby... Sheesh! Hopefully we will only get some rain, but those things are unpredictable... so everyone must prepare for a hurricane (and the news said it is cathegory 2).
I wanted to see Stardust... Oh, well...
The mage is quite excited and quite nervous. I am glad that in 2 days I'll be able to actually breathe! Everything is going fast... as usual with us. Gotta fasten the seatbelts!
10-4
Yup... Will hybernate at the Concepción Hospital on Friday 17th so Deirdre's birth can be induced, hopefully without a Cesarean (the place is located at the famed Ciudad de las Lomas. Lovely! That's one of my favorite cities within Macondo). Up until now, everything is fine, just the doctor thinking it's time to bring Deirdre into this world because of the high-risk yadda yadda. Don't want a humongous baby that will force an operation, wanna give it a chance to come into the world naturally... If possible. So... Expect baby Deirdre by Friday night or Saturday... Yay! A Leo! I love it when a plan comes together!
A storm-hurricane-whatever is in view, so there is also a storm watch in the isle... It is expected to pass by the South of the isle on Saturday... Happy happy joy joy... Deirdre had to bring chaos nearby... Sheesh! Hopefully we will only get some rain, but those things are unpredictable... so everyone must prepare for a hurricane (and the news said it is cathegory 2).
I wanted to see Stardust... Oh, well...
The mage is quite excited and quite nervous. I am glad that in 2 days I'll be able to actually breathe! Everything is going fast... as usual with us. Gotta fasten the seatbelts!
10-4
Monday, August 13, 2007
Rough edges
...
Crappy slow weekend. Friday was entertaining, at least. Went with Groundel and LightShadow to eat at a local pizza place, indulging myself with a nice mofongo with real meat and veggie soup. Yummy! Went to bed as soon as I got home. The mage woke me up after midnight, so I caught a glimpse of WhatNotToWear and AModelLife.
On Saturday the windows guy appeared and finished up issues with concrete and other windows problems. Went with the mage to eat out, to my favorite grilled chicken place. After a hearty lunch, we went to see Rush Hour 3. (Umm, a nice rental... really). I foresee this shall be my last movie outing, didn't felt too well afterwards. Nauseous, tired and very drained. Waited in the car while the mage got some necessary kitty stuff. Called Groundel and then organized the cel's contact list... We finally arrived home after 8pm. Watched Bone Collector… sort of… I found it was boring enough to make me very sleepy.
On Sunday I was feeling bad enough, and didn't felt like getting out of the house. So, it was basically a “be a couch potato” day. The mage brought the munchkin for a while, then delivered her home. We had dinner while watching First Contact, and then to bed.
Today, getting up was beyond being a drag… Arrived a bit late at work, not that anyone minded… Not much to do here, anyway… Entertained myself trying to see if an interesting job post appears… but no luck on that matter. I’ll seriously start a job hunt in September. I would prefer changing the agency so I don’t loose the time that I’ve been working in government, but… chances, chances… And if I get a nice job offer from the private sector, enhanced by a career change, then c’est la vie! I need to get experience supervising or being a manager. Either that, or getting a work-at-home job.
Coriolis should be moving his kabooze in Las Vegas. Well, actually he should be enjoying a training, and maybe moving his kabooze at night. LOL Whatever. Hope he survives the heat.
LightShadow began her new job today, hopefully her eye thing will get better in the process. That one needs a week in a zen spa on the Far East, disconnected from civilization, family and cats so she gets total and complete rejuvanation. Well, at least she has an Italy thing around the corner, that should count as a retreat of sorts... :P
Groundel will stay for another week "home alone", sort of... He'll soon be moving with everyone else to San Germán. He finally got his medical card, but needs to get an updated ID to get the food card... So that's a new story... He needed to find a way to get to BellaVista for completing his foot treatment, but has found no way to get there... no car, no money... so, "la aldea sigue ahí"... And with me in my current situation, my taxi services cannot be utilized for the next 2 months at least... I warned him to get things done fast, but he got sluggish. Now, more time has to pass...
Feeling: Very tired, a bit sad, a bit concerned, a bit worried, very sleepy, somewhat annoyed. Stupid remarks from people, stupid obvious observations… I just want Friday to be here! Oh, the beauty of being out of this place for 4 months! I know I won’t be bored at home, new challenges lay ahead. Now, if only I could stop being driven mad by circunstance and some people being scatterbrained... I am completely hessitant and even scared of having to rely on some to do things I know I better do myself for peace of mind... The lack of common sense is a sickness that spreads far and wide. Being forced to trust simply because I cannot do things is quite unnerving... I feel I'm in a straightjacket, inside a sealed room surrounded by water, in a capsule inside a cavern that lays under an active volcano. So much for the ideal of feeling warm and fuzzy and thrilled and protected... Surprise, surprise...
What a carnivale...
10-4
Crappy slow weekend. Friday was entertaining, at least. Went with Groundel and LightShadow to eat at a local pizza place, indulging myself with a nice mofongo with real meat and veggie soup. Yummy! Went to bed as soon as I got home. The mage woke me up after midnight, so I caught a glimpse of WhatNotToWear and AModelLife.
On Saturday the windows guy appeared and finished up issues with concrete and other windows problems. Went with the mage to eat out, to my favorite grilled chicken place. After a hearty lunch, we went to see Rush Hour 3. (Umm, a nice rental... really). I foresee this shall be my last movie outing, didn't felt too well afterwards. Nauseous, tired and very drained. Waited in the car while the mage got some necessary kitty stuff. Called Groundel and then organized the cel's contact list... We finally arrived home after 8pm. Watched Bone Collector… sort of… I found it was boring enough to make me very sleepy.
On Sunday I was feeling bad enough, and didn't felt like getting out of the house. So, it was basically a “be a couch potato” day. The mage brought the munchkin for a while, then delivered her home. We had dinner while watching First Contact, and then to bed.
Today, getting up was beyond being a drag… Arrived a bit late at work, not that anyone minded… Not much to do here, anyway… Entertained myself trying to see if an interesting job post appears… but no luck on that matter. I’ll seriously start a job hunt in September. I would prefer changing the agency so I don’t loose the time that I’ve been working in government, but… chances, chances… And if I get a nice job offer from the private sector, enhanced by a career change, then c’est la vie! I need to get experience supervising or being a manager. Either that, or getting a work-at-home job.
Coriolis should be moving his kabooze in Las Vegas. Well, actually he should be enjoying a training, and maybe moving his kabooze at night. LOL Whatever. Hope he survives the heat.
LightShadow began her new job today, hopefully her eye thing will get better in the process. That one needs a week in a zen spa on the Far East, disconnected from civilization, family and cats so she gets total and complete rejuvanation. Well, at least she has an Italy thing around the corner, that should count as a retreat of sorts... :P
Groundel will stay for another week "home alone", sort of... He'll soon be moving with everyone else to San Germán. He finally got his medical card, but needs to get an updated ID to get the food card... So that's a new story... He needed to find a way to get to BellaVista for completing his foot treatment, but has found no way to get there... no car, no money... so, "la aldea sigue ahí"... And with me in my current situation, my taxi services cannot be utilized for the next 2 months at least... I warned him to get things done fast, but he got sluggish. Now, more time has to pass...
Feeling: Very tired, a bit sad, a bit concerned, a bit worried, very sleepy, somewhat annoyed. Stupid remarks from people, stupid obvious observations… I just want Friday to be here! Oh, the beauty of being out of this place for 4 months! I know I won’t be bored at home, new challenges lay ahead. Now, if only I could stop being driven mad by circunstance and some people being scatterbrained... I am completely hessitant and even scared of having to rely on some to do things I know I better do myself for peace of mind... The lack of common sense is a sickness that spreads far and wide. Being forced to trust simply because I cannot do things is quite unnerving... I feel I'm in a straightjacket, inside a sealed room surrounded by water, in a capsule inside a cavern that lays under an active volcano. So much for the ideal of feeling warm and fuzzy and thrilled and protected... Surprise, surprise...
What a carnivale...
10-4
Friday, August 10, 2007
Is there a ghast in the house?
Free energy drains!
At RoseRed... Completely drained and tired. Yesterday couldn’t attend work because I had a mild fever, plus the last three nights have been sleepless thanks to the little one’s weight and movements. I made it to the office today, but I feel crappy-er by the second. The weather will also be quite bad, so the afternoon will be invaded by more rain… Just as the past days. Not too good if you are on the road…
During the late afternoon LightShadow & Groundel passed by, bringing Monthy Python… Ok, so at least they were entertained. It’s common knowledge I don’t like it, so I just ignore it and do something else. I was already scrapbooking when they arrived, so kept on with that while they laughed their pants off. At least it was fun having some human interaction. With each day that passes it is less that I can actually move, driving is becoming quite a drag, and all I feel like doing is being in bed sleeping. Deirdre’s weight kills me whenever I stand. God… And two more weeks to go… no wonder the doctor wants me to work until one more… It is now and I cannot handle it well… Sheesh! Kitties are not misbehaving much. Soon they will be free to roam the house, I need the room to setup the nursery. But… the window must be finished, I need to get a pet door and the kitty fence outside must be secured. Soon enough…
Coriolis called, and as usual he has the most unique anecdotes… This time, circumstance made him meet Daddy Yankee’s production staff. Thanks to giving directions, he ended up meeting some people even from Primer Impacto. He was surprised that Daddy Yankee had no bouncers, and was actually traveling with his brother and sister. He was asked if he wanted to take a picture with DY, of course he declined. Party Pooper! LOL Oh, well… Fans should send letters to Coriolis so he actually agrees to be in a video, going “hasta abajo”. :P
The Mage got two classes for this semester. Seems that all the credits update left him with 6 classes that he must take (because of so many curriculum changes). Let’s see how he handles those two… If he is successful, he should try taking the other four next semester to get it all over with. But THAT is another story…
So… Let’s see just how much I stand being here in the office… Already feeling crappy and nauseous… Ugh!
10-4
At RoseRed... Completely drained and tired. Yesterday couldn’t attend work because I had a mild fever, plus the last three nights have been sleepless thanks to the little one’s weight and movements. I made it to the office today, but I feel crappy-er by the second. The weather will also be quite bad, so the afternoon will be invaded by more rain… Just as the past days. Not too good if you are on the road…
During the late afternoon LightShadow & Groundel passed by, bringing Monthy Python… Ok, so at least they were entertained. It’s common knowledge I don’t like it, so I just ignore it and do something else. I was already scrapbooking when they arrived, so kept on with that while they laughed their pants off. At least it was fun having some human interaction. With each day that passes it is less that I can actually move, driving is becoming quite a drag, and all I feel like doing is being in bed sleeping. Deirdre’s weight kills me whenever I stand. God… And two more weeks to go… no wonder the doctor wants me to work until one more… It is now and I cannot handle it well… Sheesh! Kitties are not misbehaving much. Soon they will be free to roam the house, I need the room to setup the nursery. But… the window must be finished, I need to get a pet door and the kitty fence outside must be secured. Soon enough…
Coriolis called, and as usual he has the most unique anecdotes… This time, circumstance made him meet Daddy Yankee’s production staff. Thanks to giving directions, he ended up meeting some people even from Primer Impacto. He was surprised that Daddy Yankee had no bouncers, and was actually traveling with his brother and sister. He was asked if he wanted to take a picture with DY, of course he declined. Party Pooper! LOL Oh, well… Fans should send letters to Coriolis so he actually agrees to be in a video, going “hasta abajo”. :P
The Mage got two classes for this semester. Seems that all the credits update left him with 6 classes that he must take (because of so many curriculum changes). Let’s see how he handles those two… If he is successful, he should try taking the other four next semester to get it all over with. But THAT is another story…
So… Let’s see just how much I stand being here in the office… Already feeling crappy and nauseous… Ugh!
10-4
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
The Latest Briefing...
decoded...
Saturday: The windows-A/C guy came in at 8:15am…so up we went… The mage helped him and so around 1pm all was mostly done. The mage also took the ceiling fan down so we could go exchange it. We actually FINALLY got out of the house around 4pm, under the rain. We made it on time to the hardware store, exchanged the fan to see if it really had a motor failure and went to eat at the Chinese place… MOFONGO RULES! Coriolis called, burning off some steam about the last hours of his lovely family vacation… Oh well, either they screw up at the beginning, at the middle or in the end… Families do that as a rule of thumb. Anyway… All the while I had not been feeling well, woke up with nausea and dizziness that lasted the whole day… So, the mage picked up some movies and off we went… home. Sort of watched Music & Lyrics, and Norbit. I say sort off, because I was just laying there in the reclining chair, traveling through dimensions and coming back to follow the plot, sort of. Yup, lousy beginning, lousy ending… I just wanted to sleep. Amen.
Sunday: Went to check out some necessary goodies at Capri, and heavy rain kept me stranded until mid-afternoon. Tried reaching the mage but his cel was dead… So, improvised an umbrella and off I went to the car, and to auntie’s. And here is where the common sense woes begin… at least for me…
Auntie was upset because she had almost nothing in her fridge, even no food for the lovebirds. My mother now just passes by to deliver her monthly social security check, and leaves without taking her anywhere because she has “things to do”. Things to do… She retired years ago, and all she does is follow up constantly a stupid family tree project, hoard newspapers from anyone she knows and taking her new hubby to the mall, to eat and to the midnight hospital stroll. She doesn’t REALLY do much… She would go insane with actual work and chores. And it is quite a big bother that she cannot take two hours of her precious time to take auntie to get her groceries… I’ve told auntie MANY times (a constant fight) why she doesn’t simply call me? She says she doesn’t want to bother me, because she knows I have obligations and too much to do. Geesh! Like watching her starve to death will make me feel better! I get so mad at it… instead of waiting for my mother she should just call me. All I ask is that she does a day ahead, so I can actually accommodate things… If I make time to take Groundel to his appointments, damn, I think I can do the same for her. Isn’t that logical? Ugh! COMMON SENSE! No rocket science, mind you…
So… When rain was over, went back home. I looked in the back of the house to check if by any chance Raven had left the window screens she owed me… Yup, they were there… along with other things that were soaked to the core. Ermm… Along with the house key. I have no idea when she left all that stuff in there (Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Sunday?), but I don’t know… I think common sense once again took a vacation o algo… If you have a key, and items that maybe shouldn’t get wet, maybe you should have opened the house (no rottweilers yet!) leave things inside, close the door and slip the key under the door… But ok, let’s say for the sake of argument that someone was REALLY in a hurry… Was it so hard to make a quick call and say “ I left some things plus the screens in the back. Check them.”. No need to talk too much, just to the point. But, the same problem comes back as usual, it is too difficult to communicate or to dial a number. I can get stupid chain messages, but no time to send messages about real important stuff. Brain damage? The consequences of midlife crisis? Hunger? I don’t know… But the lack of common sense strikes back… Why it is SO difficult to do what should be done, period? COMMON SENSE! Not rocket science! Again! (Sight).
So… The mage arrived at 7pm, as I had foreseen, and after trying to communicate some issues, we finally simply watched Dejavu. Another sort-of-watched… That kind of movie doesn’t interest me too much, plus it was predictable, cliché, and I was too tired. Thank God for a nice windy climate… Sleep was instant and a bliss.
Monday: Had fetal monitoring in the morning, gathering of a lab test, and gynecologist appointment. Everything is ok, no contractions showed up, lab was negative. The doctor told me, though, that since I’m high risk he can’t let me work after week 39 begins, so that means next week is my last week before starting the maternity leave. I wanted to stay until the last minute, but I guess it’s for the best. It is a hassle to get to work on time, during mornings I just want to sleep… Went to the dollar store to check the issue about the ATM double charge, and that was solved. Weeeeee! Finally, headed home to wait for the windows guy so he would keep working. Afterwards wanted to scrapbook some, but there was a light outage so... stayed resting on the couch… thinking how to solve so many mazes… At 9pm the light came back, so I just took a bath and went to sleep…
Today: At work. Still in filling frenzy, want to leave everything clear and neat. The morning is slowly passing away, and making me quite drwsy and sleepy in the process… Maybe it is best to actually accept the doctor’s decision without fighting it, being here is starting to be quite a drag... Got a mild headache that seems to be increasing, and cannot bend to lay down my head for a small nap. Just feel like sleeping, period. Gotta take auntie to the supermarket after work… will stop at the finance place to pay and then head to her place. Hopefully it all will be done by 6pm, I just wanna go take a bath and hibernate in bed… The draining process increases by the minute.
So… The good, the bad and the ugly keep being the same in Neverland. RoseRed has been quiet as it seems she likes the attention… I feel sad about so many things… but I know the answers will be thrown at my feet… and the new destiny that will come from it all shall be the best stage in the movie about my life. Laugh even if your heart breaks, there is no use for tears within Macondo… And make things happen.
10-4
Saturday: The windows-A/C guy came in at 8:15am…so up we went… The mage helped him and so around 1pm all was mostly done. The mage also took the ceiling fan down so we could go exchange it. We actually FINALLY got out of the house around 4pm, under the rain. We made it on time to the hardware store, exchanged the fan to see if it really had a motor failure and went to eat at the Chinese place… MOFONGO RULES! Coriolis called, burning off some steam about the last hours of his lovely family vacation… Oh well, either they screw up at the beginning, at the middle or in the end… Families do that as a rule of thumb. Anyway… All the while I had not been feeling well, woke up with nausea and dizziness that lasted the whole day… So, the mage picked up some movies and off we went… home. Sort of watched Music & Lyrics, and Norbit. I say sort off, because I was just laying there in the reclining chair, traveling through dimensions and coming back to follow the plot, sort of. Yup, lousy beginning, lousy ending… I just wanted to sleep. Amen.
Sunday: Went to check out some necessary goodies at Capri, and heavy rain kept me stranded until mid-afternoon. Tried reaching the mage but his cel was dead… So, improvised an umbrella and off I went to the car, and to auntie’s. And here is where the common sense woes begin… at least for me…
Auntie was upset because she had almost nothing in her fridge, even no food for the lovebirds. My mother now just passes by to deliver her monthly social security check, and leaves without taking her anywhere because she has “things to do”. Things to do… She retired years ago, and all she does is follow up constantly a stupid family tree project, hoard newspapers from anyone she knows and taking her new hubby to the mall, to eat and to the midnight hospital stroll. She doesn’t REALLY do much… She would go insane with actual work and chores. And it is quite a big bother that she cannot take two hours of her precious time to take auntie to get her groceries… I’ve told auntie MANY times (a constant fight) why she doesn’t simply call me? She says she doesn’t want to bother me, because she knows I have obligations and too much to do. Geesh! Like watching her starve to death will make me feel better! I get so mad at it… instead of waiting for my mother she should just call me. All I ask is that she does a day ahead, so I can actually accommodate things… If I make time to take Groundel to his appointments, damn, I think I can do the same for her. Isn’t that logical? Ugh! COMMON SENSE! No rocket science, mind you…
So… When rain was over, went back home. I looked in the back of the house to check if by any chance Raven had left the window screens she owed me… Yup, they were there… along with other things that were soaked to the core. Ermm… Along with the house key. I have no idea when she left all that stuff in there (Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Sunday?), but I don’t know… I think common sense once again took a vacation o algo… If you have a key, and items that maybe shouldn’t get wet, maybe you should have opened the house (no rottweilers yet!) leave things inside, close the door and slip the key under the door… But ok, let’s say for the sake of argument that someone was REALLY in a hurry… Was it so hard to make a quick call and say “ I left some things plus the screens in the back. Check them.”. No need to talk too much, just to the point. But, the same problem comes back as usual, it is too difficult to communicate or to dial a number. I can get stupid chain messages, but no time to send messages about real important stuff. Brain damage? The consequences of midlife crisis? Hunger? I don’t know… But the lack of common sense strikes back… Why it is SO difficult to do what should be done, period? COMMON SENSE! Not rocket science! Again! (Sight).
So… The mage arrived at 7pm, as I had foreseen, and after trying to communicate some issues, we finally simply watched Dejavu. Another sort-of-watched… That kind of movie doesn’t interest me too much, plus it was predictable, cliché, and I was too tired. Thank God for a nice windy climate… Sleep was instant and a bliss.
Monday: Had fetal monitoring in the morning, gathering of a lab test, and gynecologist appointment. Everything is ok, no contractions showed up, lab was negative. The doctor told me, though, that since I’m high risk he can’t let me work after week 39 begins, so that means next week is my last week before starting the maternity leave. I wanted to stay until the last minute, but I guess it’s for the best. It is a hassle to get to work on time, during mornings I just want to sleep… Went to the dollar store to check the issue about the ATM double charge, and that was solved. Weeeeee! Finally, headed home to wait for the windows guy so he would keep working. Afterwards wanted to scrapbook some, but there was a light outage so... stayed resting on the couch… thinking how to solve so many mazes… At 9pm the light came back, so I just took a bath and went to sleep…
Today: At work. Still in filling frenzy, want to leave everything clear and neat. The morning is slowly passing away, and making me quite drwsy and sleepy in the process… Maybe it is best to actually accept the doctor’s decision without fighting it, being here is starting to be quite a drag... Got a mild headache that seems to be increasing, and cannot bend to lay down my head for a small nap. Just feel like sleeping, period. Gotta take auntie to the supermarket after work… will stop at the finance place to pay and then head to her place. Hopefully it all will be done by 6pm, I just wanna go take a bath and hibernate in bed… The draining process increases by the minute.
So… The good, the bad and the ugly keep being the same in Neverland. RoseRed has been quiet as it seems she likes the attention… I feel sad about so many things… but I know the answers will be thrown at my feet… and the new destiny that will come from it all shall be the best stage in the movie about my life. Laugh even if your heart breaks, there is no use for tears within Macondo… And make things happen.
10-4
Friday, August 03, 2007
Friday!
I'm in love...
Last night completed the first page of a new scrapbook: Our Story. Many blank pages ahead, but all will be filled slowly and thoughtfully. Been a long while since my last scrapbooking frenzy, when I completed the albums for Groundel. Still, now I should make a few additions that include his hospital pictures. That will come soon enough. In the meantime, focusing on the one gathering the story of The Mage & The Witch. It should be a warmup for making the Wedding & Honeymoon album, followed by Deirdre's album. Step by step... One by one...
Today is a very special day. Half a year has passed since The Mage & the Witch said I do... Many things have happenned, but one truth remains certain: We belong.
Work has been quite dull. Still getting gifts from people who couldn't make it to the baby shower (erm, what shower?). Some forgot, others were confused about the date, others were told of a change of place, everyone expected to be called for RSVP. Well... Shit happens.
Maybe after the birth I will have some will to at least summon a gathering to celebrate Deirdre. Maybe. Probably by October, though... I've been planning on celebrating Halloween forever, and always something happens... Last year we were to dress up, then Groundel's hospitalization happenned. So, I'll say no more so the date is not jinxed.
Nauseous... tired... sleepy... Wanting to do much, but with no will to do so. Maybe tomorrow while the A/C is placed in a rightful place I will actually try doing the stuffing for the furniture down below... Long story. So at least that looks done.
Gotta figure many things out...
I'll skip work on Monday due to the prenatal monitoring, and a gyn appointment. Hopefully he'll give me the letter I need for the maternity leave. I'll be in Week 37, so paperwork and preparations must be made.
Coriolis will be back from his travel tomorrow... roasted. LOL Oh, at his work they will force him to go in a business trip to Las Vegas after next week. Damn, the poor guy... So many sacrifices for the sake of business... He should not complain, he somehow leads a lucky life.
Me... I am lucky in the Spiritual Plane. Prime material is always playing jokes on me... Or making things too difficult, or too stressful, or too uphill. It would be nice if change hit me with good fortune for a change... Take RoseRed. I thought actually being able to get it was a blessing, but after two years of struggling to fix all its bad things it is very obvious it was a bad decition to buy it. I'm not convinced I should stick with it... Maybe selling is the best option after all... I had many ideas and plans for RoseRed, but having no one to help completing the projects and knowing no good contractors has taken away all the home improvement charm. I've becomed quite indebted thanks to trying to fix things, and it all seems fruitless and not worth it. If things could get done, if at least I could see the basic things finished! I guess an apartment with 4 rooms would have made me happier... if I had only known...
No point on whinning too much about it right now... Maybe in two years the nightmarish den will actually become a nice, warm home. Maybe something good will happen in the end... I wanted to have basic things done by Deirdre's arrival, but that is definitively out of the question. And I know how complicated things will get... How can one enjoy the ride with such stormy weather? (Sight...) Well... At least I know that the Mage and I feed our souls constantly. We live a good life, caring for everyone that surrounds us. We do have many blessings, there are so many without half of what we have... or with much material gain but an empty life. We are not empty. We have goals, dreams, inspiration and will. Plus we have each other. It should count for something. I just wish we could smell the roses more often... All work and no play is a complete waste of life.
Anyway... It's Friday... Don't feel like doing much, just wanna breeze a bit...
10-4
I don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday I don't care about you
it's friday I'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday I'm in love
Saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...
I don't care if monday's black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it's friday I'm in love
Monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it's friday I'm in love
Saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...
Dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you eat in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's friday
I'm in love
-The Cure, Friday I'm in Love
Last night completed the first page of a new scrapbook: Our Story. Many blank pages ahead, but all will be filled slowly and thoughtfully. Been a long while since my last scrapbooking frenzy, when I completed the albums for Groundel. Still, now I should make a few additions that include his hospital pictures. That will come soon enough. In the meantime, focusing on the one gathering the story of The Mage & The Witch. It should be a warmup for making the Wedding & Honeymoon album, followed by Deirdre's album. Step by step... One by one...
Today is a very special day. Half a year has passed since The Mage & the Witch said I do... Many things have happenned, but one truth remains certain: We belong.
Work has been quite dull. Still getting gifts from people who couldn't make it to the baby shower (erm, what shower?). Some forgot, others were confused about the date, others were told of a change of place, everyone expected to be called for RSVP. Well... Shit happens.
Maybe after the birth I will have some will to at least summon a gathering to celebrate Deirdre. Maybe. Probably by October, though... I've been planning on celebrating Halloween forever, and always something happens... Last year we were to dress up, then Groundel's hospitalization happenned. So, I'll say no more so the date is not jinxed.
Nauseous... tired... sleepy... Wanting to do much, but with no will to do so. Maybe tomorrow while the A/C is placed in a rightful place I will actually try doing the stuffing for the furniture down below... Long story. So at least that looks done.
Gotta figure many things out...
I'll skip work on Monday due to the prenatal monitoring, and a gyn appointment. Hopefully he'll give me the letter I need for the maternity leave. I'll be in Week 37, so paperwork and preparations must be made.
Coriolis will be back from his travel tomorrow... roasted. LOL Oh, at his work they will force him to go in a business trip to Las Vegas after next week. Damn, the poor guy... So many sacrifices for the sake of business... He should not complain, he somehow leads a lucky life.
Me... I am lucky in the Spiritual Plane. Prime material is always playing jokes on me... Or making things too difficult, or too stressful, or too uphill. It would be nice if change hit me with good fortune for a change... Take RoseRed. I thought actually being able to get it was a blessing, but after two years of struggling to fix all its bad things it is very obvious it was a bad decition to buy it. I'm not convinced I should stick with it... Maybe selling is the best option after all... I had many ideas and plans for RoseRed, but having no one to help completing the projects and knowing no good contractors has taken away all the home improvement charm. I've becomed quite indebted thanks to trying to fix things, and it all seems fruitless and not worth it. If things could get done, if at least I could see the basic things finished! I guess an apartment with 4 rooms would have made me happier... if I had only known...
No point on whinning too much about it right now... Maybe in two years the nightmarish den will actually become a nice, warm home. Maybe something good will happen in the end... I wanted to have basic things done by Deirdre's arrival, but that is definitively out of the question. And I know how complicated things will get... How can one enjoy the ride with such stormy weather? (Sight...) Well... At least I know that the Mage and I feed our souls constantly. We live a good life, caring for everyone that surrounds us. We do have many blessings, there are so many without half of what we have... or with much material gain but an empty life. We are not empty. We have goals, dreams, inspiration and will. Plus we have each other. It should count for something. I just wish we could smell the roses more often... All work and no play is a complete waste of life.
Anyway... It's Friday... Don't feel like doing much, just wanna breeze a bit...
10-4
I don't care if monday's blue
tuesday's grey and wednesday too
thursday I don't care about you
it's friday I'm in love
Monday you can fall apart
tuesday wednesday break my heart
thursday doesn't even start
it's friday I'm in love
Saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...
I don't care if monday's black
tuesday wednesday heart attack
thursday never looking back
it's friday I'm in love
Monday you can hold your head
tuesday wednesday stay in bed
or thursday watch the walls instead
it's friday I'm in love
Saturday wait
and sunday always comes too late
but friday never hesitate...
Dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you eat in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's friday
I'm in love
-The Cure, Friday I'm in Love
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Loony days
... (Misty nights)
Monday & Tuesday were long days at work… Seating in a non-ergonomic chair, not being able to bend for a nap even if I’m falling to pieces is the pits… Not having much to do is completely boring… Wednesday didn’t make it. Got up late, and then couldn’t walk much because of sleeping on my right side… it hinders my right leg… So the “penguin”walk was short and uneasy. Put in order the pictures that arrived a week ago, and gathered the scrapbooking stuff to begin a Witch & Mage scrapbook. At sunset LightShadow and Groundel teleported to my den, bringing both company and a movie, The Machinist. The mage arrived at his usual almost-witching hour, this time with another gift from a co-worker, an electric/battery operated breast pump. It was nice to feel happy vibes from him at such end of day hours… I wish I could stay awake to actually share more thoughts and words with him, but… our schedules are the pits. We will survive, though... It is true, things COULD be worst…
WORK: Now they did something at the Source that leaves the satellite supporting cast without any administrator rights… So my only question is: What the HELL are we supposed to do now in the frickin office? I mean… The little things we could do is the little things we can no longer do… I foresee a centralization of the support at the Source, and that’s gonna be so lovely… I need to change from this department, I am tired of the crap. Either that, or start fresh elsewhere. I guess we all know what I’ll be doing during my maternity leave…
HOME: Still a WIP with the completion of basic construction… Hopefully A/C and kitty window will be completed on Saturday. Hopefully… No word from the electrician… So downstairs got only 2 working lights, a fan to be dismounted so it can be changed, a fan to be tubed and wired, a chandelier mocking me and a kitchen rack eating dust… And upper bath still untouched and still in the process of being a bigger mess. At least the front jungle of weeds has been poisoned, needs a second hand on that matter… As well as the back needs some dosis of weedkiller as well. Need to do the holes for the palmitas, and to get some flowesr to liven things up… but that is another story…
FRIENDS: Hopefully Coriolis finally got his messages… he hasn’t called so I guess so. Groundel still has not been able to go to Bellavista and should attend doctor’s appointment tomorrow… LS will start her new job very soon, so positive karma sent her way. Cook got a car transmission scare, Cock still bothering with his Xbox woes… Raven got her money and have not resurrected ever since.
The MAGE: Still trying to get a complete evaluation of his transcript. The curriculum changed, and based on it he only has to take one class… and another one if he wants to get rid off an F (which I strongly advise he does…). All in all, I don’t think he’ll have a problem graduating next May. It will be fun to celebrate that. And then, hopefully, he can actually find a job with better pay and better working hours! It’s the best way to get back quality time, and make true memories. These days have been a rollercoaster in the emotions department, but it is always refreshing to see how he gets up and smiles again… always the positive elf… And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
The WITCH: Bothered to the core by what’s going on with the work thing, bothered to the core by the penguin walking, bothered by the belly pressure, slightly bothered by nausea… Gravity is showing its power, making me too tired, period. I don’t feel I’ll be able to keep up coming to work after next week… Moving and walking bothers too much. But I can’t simply stay at home… better be bothered in the office where anyone could take me to a hospital if needed, than alone at home where if I start birthing symptoms I have to wait for the Mage to arrive from wherever… Honestly I think that is the only worry I have about the whole birthing thing… Everything else I know will be fine.
So… The mists of Ravenloft keep wrapping Anthill every afternoon, displaying a beautiful full moon at night… Listen to the children of the night… They howl for you!
10-4
Monday & Tuesday were long days at work… Seating in a non-ergonomic chair, not being able to bend for a nap even if I’m falling to pieces is the pits… Not having much to do is completely boring… Wednesday didn’t make it. Got up late, and then couldn’t walk much because of sleeping on my right side… it hinders my right leg… So the “penguin”walk was short and uneasy. Put in order the pictures that arrived a week ago, and gathered the scrapbooking stuff to begin a Witch & Mage scrapbook. At sunset LightShadow and Groundel teleported to my den, bringing both company and a movie, The Machinist. The mage arrived at his usual almost-witching hour, this time with another gift from a co-worker, an electric/battery operated breast pump. It was nice to feel happy vibes from him at such end of day hours… I wish I could stay awake to actually share more thoughts and words with him, but… our schedules are the pits. We will survive, though... It is true, things COULD be worst…
WORK: Now they did something at the Source that leaves the satellite supporting cast without any administrator rights… So my only question is: What the HELL are we supposed to do now in the frickin office? I mean… The little things we could do is the little things we can no longer do… I foresee a centralization of the support at the Source, and that’s gonna be so lovely… I need to change from this department, I am tired of the crap. Either that, or start fresh elsewhere. I guess we all know what I’ll be doing during my maternity leave…
HOME: Still a WIP with the completion of basic construction… Hopefully A/C and kitty window will be completed on Saturday. Hopefully… No word from the electrician… So downstairs got only 2 working lights, a fan to be dismounted so it can be changed, a fan to be tubed and wired, a chandelier mocking me and a kitchen rack eating dust… And upper bath still untouched and still in the process of being a bigger mess. At least the front jungle of weeds has been poisoned, needs a second hand on that matter… As well as the back needs some dosis of weedkiller as well. Need to do the holes for the palmitas, and to get some flowesr to liven things up… but that is another story…
FRIENDS: Hopefully Coriolis finally got his messages… he hasn’t called so I guess so. Groundel still has not been able to go to Bellavista and should attend doctor’s appointment tomorrow… LS will start her new job very soon, so positive karma sent her way. Cook got a car transmission scare, Cock still bothering with his Xbox woes… Raven got her money and have not resurrected ever since.
The MAGE: Still trying to get a complete evaluation of his transcript. The curriculum changed, and based on it he only has to take one class… and another one if he wants to get rid off an F (which I strongly advise he does…). All in all, I don’t think he’ll have a problem graduating next May. It will be fun to celebrate that. And then, hopefully, he can actually find a job with better pay and better working hours! It’s the best way to get back quality time, and make true memories. These days have been a rollercoaster in the emotions department, but it is always refreshing to see how he gets up and smiles again… always the positive elf… And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
The WITCH: Bothered to the core by what’s going on with the work thing, bothered to the core by the penguin walking, bothered by the belly pressure, slightly bothered by nausea… Gravity is showing its power, making me too tired, period. I don’t feel I’ll be able to keep up coming to work after next week… Moving and walking bothers too much. But I can’t simply stay at home… better be bothered in the office where anyone could take me to a hospital if needed, than alone at home where if I start birthing symptoms I have to wait for the Mage to arrive from wherever… Honestly I think that is the only worry I have about the whole birthing thing… Everything else I know will be fine.
So… The mists of Ravenloft keep wrapping Anthill every afternoon, displaying a beautiful full moon at night… Listen to the children of the night… They howl for you!
10-4
Monday, July 30, 2007
WAITING GAME
... (seated, just in case)
A whole week passed away, rotting, dying… some was done, much was not… People have a knack of not appearing when they say they will even knowing that they are offering a service and you will pay… Ugh! I am so sick of all the house hauntings! I thought that during my free week I would be able to get all main things done, but no… Everything turns out as a big disappointment and I am fed up with so much stress about it. Entering the phase of “I don’t care”… well, at least in a fathomless way, since there is nothing I can actually do to change things…
The windows/A/C guy said he would pass by on Wednesday to complete his shares… We’ll see. The electrician shines because of his absence… and he left his job quite incomplete, meaning I only have two working lights downstairs… The breaking of the upper bathroom tiles is indefinite limbo… Everything is a mess, bundles here and there… Kitties upset and meowing constantly… I just wanted to put things together to at least be able to have some decent spaces and not have to worry about anything else but the labor ahead… but all must be stressful… It is my curse…
The mage should try getting his classes before the 1st of August. Hope he does, he needs to put his stuff together to help the “moving forward” process in life…
Coriolis seems to be having a good time at the Dominican Republic. At least someone is having fun. He is luckier than he visualizes… Half of what he’s got could make my life so easy… But, no one sees the wonders they have, just the bad things and the flaws on everyday life. Human nature.
Raven still flying around but making no sound landings. She called on Friday because Coriolis left her a message indicating his leaving her stuff at my house… The window screens were a good excuse to start a limited conversation, but don’t think that I’m at ease with everything. Just accept consequences gracefully because like it or not YOU were the one in charge so it all was YOUR responsability! Running away and avoiding people is a repeating behavior that is not acceptable from an adult.I don't work on assumptions. Actions speak louder than good intentions, and an honest apology goes a long way. I'm still waiting for the one that belongs to the godmother being an hour late for my wedding...
Groundel has been chilling… Seems content with his fate of living at the City of Hills with his lovely family. I hope that at least his having a sound definitive space helps his stability issues, as well as his healing issues. He still needs to focus a bit more on what he needs to do, about the cupones and about healing his foot. My taxi service is coming to an end soon, so the next two weeks will be his last chances for getting my help… After I go into labor, things will be very difficult in that matter for at least a whole month. So I hope the half-orc gets the point and moves his ass!
Last week saw The SIMPSONS… Laughed a little, but it lacked some things I expected, such as more irony and more references to other movies… It is a definitive rental, not worthy of the big screen… But these days, where so many crappy movies make it… Well, enough said!
Look for STARDUST, seems a good movie… along with the GOLDEN COMPASS, and the sequel of Elizabeth… ELIZABETH: GOLDEN AGE. Oh, and of course, RESIDENT EVIL: EXTINCTION.
So... The whole world is at an end, I keep playing the waiting game even if I hate it, and life goes on... How do I feel? Tired... Very tired. I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but the problem is a tunnel with no end... That is so common in the Underdark! Reality keeps biting badly, there is some hope for gaming weekends after labor, but for now that is just gossip... Me, vomiting everything (still), feeling dazed and overheated... Not sleeping soundly thanks to a heavy watermelon stuck in my belly... And everything making me sick. At least WNtW and the mage's TLC soothe the bitterness...
10-4
A whole week passed away, rotting, dying… some was done, much was not… People have a knack of not appearing when they say they will even knowing that they are offering a service and you will pay… Ugh! I am so sick of all the house hauntings! I thought that during my free week I would be able to get all main things done, but no… Everything turns out as a big disappointment and I am fed up with so much stress about it. Entering the phase of “I don’t care”… well, at least in a fathomless way, since there is nothing I can actually do to change things…
The windows/A/C guy said he would pass by on Wednesday to complete his shares… We’ll see. The electrician shines because of his absence… and he left his job quite incomplete, meaning I only have two working lights downstairs… The breaking of the upper bathroom tiles is indefinite limbo… Everything is a mess, bundles here and there… Kitties upset and meowing constantly… I just wanted to put things together to at least be able to have some decent spaces and not have to worry about anything else but the labor ahead… but all must be stressful… It is my curse…
The mage should try getting his classes before the 1st of August. Hope he does, he needs to put his stuff together to help the “moving forward” process in life…
Coriolis seems to be having a good time at the Dominican Republic. At least someone is having fun. He is luckier than he visualizes… Half of what he’s got could make my life so easy… But, no one sees the wonders they have, just the bad things and the flaws on everyday life. Human nature.
Raven still flying around but making no sound landings. She called on Friday because Coriolis left her a message indicating his leaving her stuff at my house… The window screens were a good excuse to start a limited conversation, but don’t think that I’m at ease with everything. Just accept consequences gracefully because like it or not YOU were the one in charge so it all was YOUR responsability! Running away and avoiding people is a repeating behavior that is not acceptable from an adult.I don't work on assumptions. Actions speak louder than good intentions, and an honest apology goes a long way. I'm still waiting for the one that belongs to the godmother being an hour late for my wedding...
Groundel has been chilling… Seems content with his fate of living at the City of Hills with his lovely family. I hope that at least his having a sound definitive space helps his stability issues, as well as his healing issues. He still needs to focus a bit more on what he needs to do, about the cupones and about healing his foot. My taxi service is coming to an end soon, so the next two weeks will be his last chances for getting my help… After I go into labor, things will be very difficult in that matter for at least a whole month. So I hope the half-orc gets the point and moves his ass!
Last week saw The SIMPSONS… Laughed a little, but it lacked some things I expected, such as more irony and more references to other movies… It is a definitive rental, not worthy of the big screen… But these days, where so many crappy movies make it… Well, enough said!
Look for STARDUST, seems a good movie… along with the GOLDEN COMPASS, and the sequel of Elizabeth… ELIZABETH: GOLDEN AGE. Oh, and of course, RESIDENT EVIL: EXTINCTION.
So... The whole world is at an end, I keep playing the waiting game even if I hate it, and life goes on... How do I feel? Tired... Very tired. I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but the problem is a tunnel with no end... That is so common in the Underdark! Reality keeps biting badly, there is some hope for gaming weekends after labor, but for now that is just gossip... Me, vomiting everything (still), feeling dazed and overheated... Not sleeping soundly thanks to a heavy watermelon stuck in my belly... And everything making me sick. At least WNtW and the mage's TLC soothe the bitterness...
10-4
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Communications interrupted...
the endless joys...
Oh, it's so nice from the systems... Something happenned and there has been no cel or phone communication for the whole afternoon... Couldn't do the fetal monitoring because I needed an original pescription from the doctor... Last week I was told I didn't need it... So yes, the week is getting lousier by the second... Came home... the window guy appeared and I have ben going up and down the stairs getting things for him... since he brought no materials to work. Did I mentioned I'm supposed to be resting in peace and quiet? Now my back hurts, a cat bit me because she got scared and I feel nauseous and drained. Things get better by the second...
Groundel's b-day is tomorrow, so in case I don't see him: Happy B-day!!!! Coriolis being ilumminated, Raven been mising in action, LightShadow sailing through new seas. The mage will work tonight beyond midnight... Happy happy joy joy... Me... the crappyness never ends.
10-4
Oh, it's so nice from the systems... Something happenned and there has been no cel or phone communication for the whole afternoon... Couldn't do the fetal monitoring because I needed an original pescription from the doctor... Last week I was told I didn't need it... So yes, the week is getting lousier by the second... Came home... the window guy appeared and I have ben going up and down the stairs getting things for him... since he brought no materials to work. Did I mentioned I'm supposed to be resting in peace and quiet? Now my back hurts, a cat bit me because she got scared and I feel nauseous and drained. Things get better by the second...
Groundel's b-day is tomorrow, so in case I don't see him: Happy B-day!!!! Coriolis being ilumminated, Raven been mising in action, LightShadow sailing through new seas. The mage will work tonight beyond midnight... Happy happy joy joy... Me... the crappyness never ends.
10-4
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Pissed? Me? Nah!
(what a concept)
So... It is Sunday. The sun came out to shine over my wicked house, and peace and harmony strike back as they should… But the series of unfortunate events from the last week has left a bitter aftertaste. One thing is having emotional flips due to pregnancy raging hormone changes, another thing is when the emotional flips come from people’s lack of consideration. I should be at a blissful, loving home, surrounded by serenity and loving support. Rip off that mask. My life has never been about bliss or happiness or even being contempt. Every rose has not one but many thorns. And do not get me wrong, I would give my life for my roses… but damn, they sting so hard! And there is so much one can take…
About yesterday's baby shower... It didn't happen. Details here... Rosered: A place for a Baby Shower flop.
Beneath my rage and anger and disappointment there is no contempt, there is no settling for puny pieces of what should be… Why is it that the simple things are the ones I cannot have? One moment of joy seems the prize of an endless ethereal quest. It is ok, I can handle anything… I am a fearless warrioress after all… But what happens when the deepest wounds come from the close friends you have… because they carelessly toss your heart to the floor and feast on its blood? I don’t know what to think… how to feel… I value actions over intentions, truth over white lies. I know what lays beneath the flesh and bones of my few acquaintances… And it is quite hurtful that it seems they know nothing about me, about what makes me happy, about what is important to me. No one and nothing makes me cry, but yesterday I did. Yesterday was for me one of the darkest days in many years… Everyone, willingly or carelessly or unknowingly, sunk me deeper in a pit of thorns. Why? It shall remain a mystery.
There are no answers given to me… I guess that was the big surprise after all… You don’t do things like that. People over 30 years old cannot do what a group of teenagers can? People over 30 cannot put aside their differences and work together without egos, being responsible for accepting doing something? Gimme a break. Adults… Right. But it certainly was not one person’s fault. It was everyone’s fault. Each one showed off their Achiles talon. And in the end, it was also my fault for not doing what I always do when I want something… simply doing it myself.
These last days have been a journey that revealed many things… About life, about people, about friends… Everyone is eager to put blames but no one takes responsibility for the broken glass… Groundel mentioned to me today that I should have expected what happened yesterday because I know all the people involved… and they did what they always do. So it was my fault for believing pigs could fly… Loving, encouraging Groundel… always being himself. But he has a point after all. Coriolis will always be himself, Raven will always be herself, and LightShadow will be herself too. Of this trio, the less selfish is LighShadow, who is always trying her best to keeps things happy, always the mediator… But Coriolis and Raven… and even Groundel (sight)… I rather make no comments…
A scorpion asked a swan to take him across a lake for he needed to reach the other side and couldn’t swim. Other animals had said no, but the swan saw no threat in helping him since she figured out that he would not harm her as he needed the ride. And so, the scorpion got on the swan, and she began swimming across the lake… A few moments later, as the swan made a sudden movement to avoid entangling herself in some vines, the scorpion sting her. The swan’s last words were “What have you done? I was helping you cross the lake! Now we will both drown!”. And the scorpion answered “I am sorry, I didn’t mean it. It’s what I do”.
My deepest sympathies to the mage, for he was the target of many attacks in the last couple of days… Some he REALLY deserved, but some he did not. I am truly sorry... I know it all has also been very VERY stressful to you too... And still, you are there for me. Thank you, for everything. I love you, always.
10-4
So... It is Sunday. The sun came out to shine over my wicked house, and peace and harmony strike back as they should… But the series of unfortunate events from the last week has left a bitter aftertaste. One thing is having emotional flips due to pregnancy raging hormone changes, another thing is when the emotional flips come from people’s lack of consideration. I should be at a blissful, loving home, surrounded by serenity and loving support. Rip off that mask. My life has never been about bliss or happiness or even being contempt. Every rose has not one but many thorns. And do not get me wrong, I would give my life for my roses… but damn, they sting so hard! And there is so much one can take…
About yesterday's baby shower... It didn't happen. Details here... Rosered: A place for a Baby Shower flop.
Beneath my rage and anger and disappointment there is no contempt, there is no settling for puny pieces of what should be… Why is it that the simple things are the ones I cannot have? One moment of joy seems the prize of an endless ethereal quest. It is ok, I can handle anything… I am a fearless warrioress after all… But what happens when the deepest wounds come from the close friends you have… because they carelessly toss your heart to the floor and feast on its blood? I don’t know what to think… how to feel… I value actions over intentions, truth over white lies. I know what lays beneath the flesh and bones of my few acquaintances… And it is quite hurtful that it seems they know nothing about me, about what makes me happy, about what is important to me. No one and nothing makes me cry, but yesterday I did. Yesterday was for me one of the darkest days in many years… Everyone, willingly or carelessly or unknowingly, sunk me deeper in a pit of thorns. Why? It shall remain a mystery.
There are no answers given to me… I guess that was the big surprise after all… You don’t do things like that. People over 30 years old cannot do what a group of teenagers can? People over 30 cannot put aside their differences and work together without egos, being responsible for accepting doing something? Gimme a break. Adults… Right. But it certainly was not one person’s fault. It was everyone’s fault. Each one showed off their Achiles talon. And in the end, it was also my fault for not doing what I always do when I want something… simply doing it myself.
These last days have been a journey that revealed many things… About life, about people, about friends… Everyone is eager to put blames but no one takes responsibility for the broken glass… Groundel mentioned to me today that I should have expected what happened yesterday because I know all the people involved… and they did what they always do. So it was my fault for believing pigs could fly… Loving, encouraging Groundel… always being himself. But he has a point after all. Coriolis will always be himself, Raven will always be herself, and LightShadow will be herself too. Of this trio, the less selfish is LighShadow, who is always trying her best to keeps things happy, always the mediator… But Coriolis and Raven… and even Groundel (sight)… I rather make no comments…
A scorpion asked a swan to take him across a lake for he needed to reach the other side and couldn’t swim. Other animals had said no, but the swan saw no threat in helping him since she figured out that he would not harm her as he needed the ride. And so, the scorpion got on the swan, and she began swimming across the lake… A few moments later, as the swan made a sudden movement to avoid entangling herself in some vines, the scorpion sting her. The swan’s last words were “What have you done? I was helping you cross the lake! Now we will both drown!”. And the scorpion answered “I am sorry, I didn’t mean it. It’s what I do”.
My deepest sympathies to the mage, for he was the target of many attacks in the last couple of days… Some he REALLY deserved, but some he did not. I am truly sorry... I know it all has also been very VERY stressful to you too... And still, you are there for me. Thank you, for everything. I love you, always.
10-4
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