Just finished my AIO Web Design Diploma with straight A's, thank-u very much! My place for my design work is Katabolic Designs. Go ahead, visit... And then gimme some work! Referrals are also welcome.
Been trying to keep a fair Xmas spri even if collectors kept calling up demanding payment and implying I'm an irresponsible lazy excuse-maker. It is my fault that I have no job, after all. Knowing absolutely nothing about what happenned, and not caring to know anyway, stupidity reigns rampantly and the debt collectors keep on as the Repo-man of our lousy times. How you pay when you don't HAVE cash to pay? Lovely calls on Xmas week... Well, no matter what you say, no matter the tales of realism or fiction, the point is that there is no job, there is no money, there is a terminally ill child with 24/7 care involved, and there is no further help. Luckily the child has everything she needs as the government takes care of it, but us parents are left playing jugglers while tightrope walking... There is no empathy or pity towards us, because we are considered irresponsible for not working and for not paying debts... No matter that we were forced to leave our lives behing to save a life, no matter that I've been in contact with all debt companies sending them letters and not hiding any fact from them, no matter how good and truthful I have been about every detail... Merry Xmas.
I hope I can go bankrupt soon. I need a lawyer... I know no one here, and things are not looking good back home. Nevertheless, I need a lawyer to at least have the paper to defend myself against so much stupidity and senselessness. Problem is I can't pay a lawyer... If I could, I may not be behing in anything as a matter of fact...
Well, despair should bring no fruits, so I leave with these wishes:
May I get all I have been working hard for
May I finally achieve the dreams I've always dream of
May I keep happiness and peace and love, while everything else happens and afterwards
May I have the right tools to face the challenges ahead, and come out a winner
Courage, faith, belief... May these gifts come to us all this Xmas.
10-4
Monday, December 21, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
REÍR LLORANDO
Viendo a Garrik —actor de la Inglaterra—
el pueblo al aplaudirle le decía:
«Eres el mas gracioso de la tierra
y el más feliz...»
Y el cómico reía.
Víctimas del spleen, los altos lores,
en sus noches más negras y pesadas,
iban a ver al rey de los actores
y cambiaban su spleen en carcajadas.
Una vez, ante un médico famoso,
llegóse un hombre de mirar sombrío:
«Sufro —le dijo—, un mal tan espantoso
como esta palidez del rostro mío.
»Nada me causa encanto ni atractivo;
no me importan mi nombre ni mi suerte
en un eterno spleen muriendo vivo,
y es mi única ilusión, la de la muerte».
—Viajad y os distraeréis.
— ¡Tanto he viajado!
—Las lecturas buscad.
—¡Tanto he leído!
—Que os ame una mujer.
—¡Si soy amado!
—¡Un título adquirid!
—¡Noble he nacido!
—¿Pobre seréis quizá?
—Tengo riquezas
—¿De lisonjas gustáis?
—¡Tantas escucho!
—¿Que tenéis de familia?
— Mis tristezas
—¿Vais a los cementerios?
— Mucho... mucho...
—¿De vuestra vida actual, tenéis testigos?
—Sí, mas no dejo que me impongan yugos;
yo les llamo a los muertos mis amigos;
y les llamo a los vivos mis verdugos.
—Me deja —agrega el médico— perplejo
vuestro mal y no debo acobardaros;
Tomad hoy por receta este consejo:
sólo viendo a Garrik, podréis curaros.
— ¿A Garrik?
—Sí, a Garrik... La más remisa
y austera sociedad le busca ansiosa;
todo aquél que lo ve, muere de risa:
tiene una gracia artística asombrosa.
— ¿Y a mí, me hará reír?
—¡Ah!, sí, os lo juro,
él sí y nadie más que él; mas... ¿qué os inquieta?
—Así —dijo el enfermo— no me curo;
¡Yo soy Garrik!... Cambiadme la receta.
¡Cuántos hay que, cansados de la vida,
enfermos de pesar, muertos de tedio,
hacen reír como el actor suicida,
sin encontrar para su mal remedio!
¡Ay! ¡Cuántas veces al reír se llora!
¡Nadie en lo alegre de la risa fíe,
porque en los seres que el dolor devora,
el alma gime cuando el rostro ríe!
Si se muere la fe, si huye la calma,
si sólo abrojos nuestra planta pisa,
lanza a la faz la tempestad del alma,
un relámpago triste: la sonrisa.
El carnaval del mundo engaña tanto,
que las vidas son breves mascaradas;
aquí aprendemos a reír con llanto
y también a llorar con carcajadas.
Juan de Dios Peza
el pueblo al aplaudirle le decía:
«Eres el mas gracioso de la tierra
y el más feliz...»
Y el cómico reía.
Víctimas del spleen, los altos lores,
en sus noches más negras y pesadas,
iban a ver al rey de los actores
y cambiaban su spleen en carcajadas.
Una vez, ante un médico famoso,
llegóse un hombre de mirar sombrío:
«Sufro —le dijo—, un mal tan espantoso
como esta palidez del rostro mío.
»Nada me causa encanto ni atractivo;
no me importan mi nombre ni mi suerte
en un eterno spleen muriendo vivo,
y es mi única ilusión, la de la muerte».
—Viajad y os distraeréis.
— ¡Tanto he viajado!
—Las lecturas buscad.
—¡Tanto he leído!
—Que os ame una mujer.
—¡Si soy amado!
—¡Un título adquirid!
—¡Noble he nacido!
—¿Pobre seréis quizá?
—Tengo riquezas
—¿De lisonjas gustáis?
—¡Tantas escucho!
—¿Que tenéis de familia?
— Mis tristezas
—¿Vais a los cementerios?
— Mucho... mucho...
—¿De vuestra vida actual, tenéis testigos?
—Sí, mas no dejo que me impongan yugos;
yo les llamo a los muertos mis amigos;
y les llamo a los vivos mis verdugos.
—Me deja —agrega el médico— perplejo
vuestro mal y no debo acobardaros;
Tomad hoy por receta este consejo:
sólo viendo a Garrik, podréis curaros.
— ¿A Garrik?
—Sí, a Garrik... La más remisa
y austera sociedad le busca ansiosa;
todo aquél que lo ve, muere de risa:
tiene una gracia artística asombrosa.
— ¿Y a mí, me hará reír?
—¡Ah!, sí, os lo juro,
él sí y nadie más que él; mas... ¿qué os inquieta?
—Así —dijo el enfermo— no me curo;
¡Yo soy Garrik!... Cambiadme la receta.
¡Cuántos hay que, cansados de la vida,
enfermos de pesar, muertos de tedio,
hacen reír como el actor suicida,
sin encontrar para su mal remedio!
¡Ay! ¡Cuántas veces al reír se llora!
¡Nadie en lo alegre de la risa fíe,
porque en los seres que el dolor devora,
el alma gime cuando el rostro ríe!
Si se muere la fe, si huye la calma,
si sólo abrojos nuestra planta pisa,
lanza a la faz la tempestad del alma,
un relámpago triste: la sonrisa.
El carnaval del mundo engaña tanto,
que las vidas son breves mascaradas;
aquí aprendemos a reír con llanto
y también a llorar con carcajadas.
Juan de Dios Peza
Monday, November 09, 2009
HAPPY PEOPLE ON PIANO STAIRS
Wouldn't it be nice if things like this were done on a daily basis?
10-4
Saturday, November 07, 2009
FILIPINO INMATES TRIBUTE to QUEEN
When productive efforts actually pays off. They did it again. :)
And for those who have not seen their original "Thriller" dance that made them famous, here it is:
Many prisons around the world should copy this.
10-4
Monday, November 02, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
PARO 24 HORAS OCTUBRE 15 EN PR
Here goes, just because I got the letter that takes me off my job too:
This is something... I was in a family leave, they were not even paying me anything, and still I got axed! More than 16,o00 were left without a job... The island needs change, but cutting out the people that are left in there and that need the money to survive is just too much. Then they wonder why so many outstanding people and professionals are leaving the island, looking for a brighter future.
Que nos pasa, PR?
~V~
This is something... I was in a family leave, they were not even paying me anything, and still I got axed! More than 16,o00 were left without a job... The island needs change, but cutting out the people that are left in there and that need the money to survive is just too much. Then they wonder why so many outstanding people and professionals are leaving the island, looking for a brighter future.
Que nos pasa, PR?
~V~
The 1st Space Tourist!
It's supposed to be this year that Xavier Gabriel will visit space as a tourist. His website is HERE. He wanted to be the first non-astronaut visitor to space, since as he says no one remembers the secon or third. :P He is from Spain. By now, he completed basic space training and is ready to go before the year is over.
Monday, October 12, 2009
CLOWDY with a chance of MEATBALLS
Wanna see Mr.T and Bruce Campbell in a hilarious animation? Go see this, a family movie that rocks.
Friday, October 09, 2009
Friday, October 02, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
HOUSE STILL 4 SALE
Well, for what it's worth, it is still 4 sale and I would not sell it if I could somehow pay for it... I'll always like the idea of what I wanted this house to become...
Monday, September 28, 2009
Migraine & ear pain ...
Well, for the last week and a half I have been enduring migraine and ear pain thank you very much... It has been quite anoying, with a peak on Sat and Sun when I had to render myself unconscious and let medicines do their magic. Today the pain is there but is a bit more bearable... The doctor's appointment is for Friday (gee, now that's fast...) so hopefully by then it will get better enough for me to actually walk the walk to the doctor's haven.
Finished the Database2 class, with a high A of course. This one went fast and smoothly. I hope that the next two go the same way. Just a digital design class and a portfolio class... so I get the Web design degree. Yay! The year went really, REALLY fast. Gathering pictures to see if I can complete the scrapbook from 2007... Looking back is like these last two years went with a flash. I can't believe the fast-forward to now... Everything changed in every way imaginable! Hopefully for the best.
Moviewise, well... saw Jennifer's Body and Nostradamus 2012.
JENNIFER's BODY: Well. if you go with a teen mind, it is not so bad. It was short and sweet. People critique nailed it... but gee, no one nailed Transformers or GIJoe and now THAT was BAD scripting! I liked the idea of the movie, it was ok, taking into account the new vampire/werewolf/supernatural craze. Right there with pther corny movies, but watchable.
NOSTRADAMUS 2012: Nice documentary to make your fatalistic fetishes come to life. Yup, we are near the end of the Mayan calendar, and I suspect that on 2012 there will be the same craze as in the big Y2K thinguie... But watching it is a bit eerie, as we all know where we are heading with the pole meltdown, the broken ozone layer and the deforestation. We are in to many big catastrophies... that is VERY certain. This movie plus reading the FATIMA profecies, will leave you pretty mind-f&#*@d-up.
Yesterday night revisited GIJane as it was showing on TNT... I had not noted Vigo Mortenssen in there! Oh, my! LOL Something good out of that movie?
Family being funny. Seems there is a bad case of siblings rivalry or something. I feel like a referee where people go to complain... Este es el centro de quejas del negocio, puede quejarse en paz!. Come on, people... We are dealing with a situation that is a big thing and you are battling for the prune juice war? Gosh... Where are the priorities!
Really... they come to us telling us these daily mundane stories that are so irrelevant and ironic in their own way. We smile and answer and offer our advise... while dealing with our set of big problems that no one can help solve. You got it bad because you need to give shots of insulin? We need to give MissDD therapies twice a day or more that takes more than 4 hours when added up... if there are no complications. An insulin injection is peachy compared to this... That you don't have prune juice? Well... at least your grocery store is right there, at 5 minutes distance. Ours takes more than 1/2 hour to get there. If we can get there, as we are very homebound. It's all funny... when you see things from the inside of the looking glass, and get to appreciate how mundane life was back at home... so simple, uneventful, day by day that actually was blissful even with all the bothers. So... Family is really funny. Who needs drama? Ours is filled with that and a bit of comedy too.
Hubby tried doing sweet plantain on the weekend, and it came out quite good (amarillo en dulce). Today we gave the Pillsbury muffins a try, but 8 minutes in the microwave oven makes the pieces turn to stone... literally! You can hurt someone with those! LOL So, 4 minutes still leave them in a dangerous state. The perfect time for the muffins is 1 minute. Fill up with orange or grapes or honey and it is a nice dessert.
Today was a busy day, MissDD had an appointment with the physician, and my head was completelly in pain. Tomorrow will be another eventful day... Hope I get some restful sleep.
10-4
Finished the Database2 class, with a high A of course. This one went fast and smoothly. I hope that the next two go the same way. Just a digital design class and a portfolio class... so I get the Web design degree. Yay! The year went really, REALLY fast. Gathering pictures to see if I can complete the scrapbook from 2007... Looking back is like these last two years went with a flash. I can't believe the fast-forward to now... Everything changed in every way imaginable! Hopefully for the best.
Moviewise, well... saw Jennifer's Body and Nostradamus 2012.
JENNIFER's BODY: Well. if you go with a teen mind, it is not so bad. It was short and sweet. People critique nailed it... but gee, no one nailed Transformers or GIJoe and now THAT was BAD scripting! I liked the idea of the movie, it was ok, taking into account the new vampire/werewolf/supernatural craze. Right there with pther corny movies, but watchable.
NOSTRADAMUS 2012: Nice documentary to make your fatalistic fetishes come to life. Yup, we are near the end of the Mayan calendar, and I suspect that on 2012 there will be the same craze as in the big Y2K thinguie... But watching it is a bit eerie, as we all know where we are heading with the pole meltdown, the broken ozone layer and the deforestation. We are in to many big catastrophies... that is VERY certain. This movie plus reading the FATIMA profecies, will leave you pretty mind-f&#*@d-up.
Yesterday night revisited GIJane as it was showing on TNT... I had not noted Vigo Mortenssen in there! Oh, my! LOL Something good out of that movie?
Family being funny. Seems there is a bad case of siblings rivalry or something. I feel like a referee where people go to complain... Este es el centro de quejas del negocio, puede quejarse en paz!. Come on, people... We are dealing with a situation that is a big thing and you are battling for the prune juice war? Gosh... Where are the priorities!
Really... they come to us telling us these daily mundane stories that are so irrelevant and ironic in their own way. We smile and answer and offer our advise... while dealing with our set of big problems that no one can help solve. You got it bad because you need to give shots of insulin? We need to give MissDD therapies twice a day or more that takes more than 4 hours when added up... if there are no complications. An insulin injection is peachy compared to this... That you don't have prune juice? Well... at least your grocery store is right there, at 5 minutes distance. Ours takes more than 1/2 hour to get there. If we can get there, as we are very homebound. It's all funny... when you see things from the inside of the looking glass, and get to appreciate how mundane life was back at home... so simple, uneventful, day by day that actually was blissful even with all the bothers. So... Family is really funny. Who needs drama? Ours is filled with that and a bit of comedy too.
Hubby tried doing sweet plantain on the weekend, and it came out quite good (amarillo en dulce). Today we gave the Pillsbury muffins a try, but 8 minutes in the microwave oven makes the pieces turn to stone... literally! You can hurt someone with those! LOL So, 4 minutes still leave them in a dangerous state. The perfect time for the muffins is 1 minute. Fill up with orange or grapes or honey and it is a nice dessert.
Today was a busy day, MissDD had an appointment with the physician, and my head was completelly in pain. Tomorrow will be another eventful day... Hope I get some restful sleep.
10-4
Saturday, September 19, 2009
SHORTS, GAMER, and then some
SHORTS: I really liked this movie. It is very entertaining and fun, love how all the "shorts" were tied together. Of course, it is from Robert Rodriguez... Need I say more?
GAMER: It was ok, eye candy... Another rendition of virtual meets real... The fun world was very much like the Sims gone wrong LOL At least it has been much better than the so called summer blockbusters...
HALLOWEEN2, Rod Zombie version: Ok, so my dear hubby made me watch this piece of s**t. 'nuff said.
I still think that the best movie so far is District 9. I really REALLY liked this movie... Maybe it was the coming out of just watching GIJOE or something...
Besides this... in TV the comedy of the moment is L.A.Ink. The big mistery as of why Aubrey keeps being there is what brings on the drama... pathetic drama but drama nevertheless. The Jon&Kate drama is beyond a joke, and it can only be followed online. The chapters lack charm and are going from bad to worst. The new season of ANTM is ok, but features the same drama stereotypes only that this time the girls really behave as if all were in high-school... The beautiful life comes just after ANTM, so it is a smart hook... and watching models at each other's throats is always fun. Vampire Diaries seem more interesting than Twilight so far... (who knows, maybe the second Twilight movie may change my opinion about it... TEAM JACOB!... Now, where did that came from? Lack of sleep, lack of sleep...).
Last week we watched the complete ROAR tv series (a lonesome Season 1). It was ok... the last chapter kinda was completely out of context, but all in all the series delivered. I really liked the concept of the villain being the 400 year old centurion-mummy looking for the Spear so he could die...
And the week before that we finished watching Carnivale Season2. Finally, I saw the end! But really... the end? Why, why, why? The series was written for 6 seasons... This was a big mistake... All the characters were left with completely loose ends begging for knots. Leaving the Omega resurrecting the evil Father and then Jonesy who may have been hit or not... Oh, that was truly EVIL.
~
GAMER: It was ok, eye candy... Another rendition of virtual meets real... The fun world was very much like the Sims gone wrong LOL At least it has been much better than the so called summer blockbusters...
HALLOWEEN2, Rod Zombie version: Ok, so my dear hubby made me watch this piece of s**t. 'nuff said.
I still think that the best movie so far is District 9. I really REALLY liked this movie... Maybe it was the coming out of just watching GIJOE or something...
Besides this... in TV the comedy of the moment is L.A.Ink. The big mistery as of why Aubrey keeps being there is what brings on the drama... pathetic drama but drama nevertheless. The Jon&Kate drama is beyond a joke, and it can only be followed online. The chapters lack charm and are going from bad to worst. The new season of ANTM is ok, but features the same drama stereotypes only that this time the girls really behave as if all were in high-school... The beautiful life comes just after ANTM, so it is a smart hook... and watching models at each other's throats is always fun. Vampire Diaries seem more interesting than Twilight so far... (who knows, maybe the second Twilight movie may change my opinion about it... TEAM JACOB!... Now, where did that came from? Lack of sleep, lack of sleep...).
Last week we watched the complete ROAR tv series (a lonesome Season 1). It was ok... the last chapter kinda was completely out of context, but all in all the series delivered. I really liked the concept of the villain being the 400 year old centurion-mummy looking for the Spear so he could die...
And the week before that we finished watching Carnivale Season2. Finally, I saw the end! But really... the end? Why, why, why? The series was written for 6 seasons... This was a big mistake... All the characters were left with completely loose ends begging for knots. Leaving the Omega resurrecting the evil Father and then Jonesy who may have been hit or not... Oh, that was truly EVIL.
~
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
What's New
FAMILY: Well, family and friends gathered on Aug 16th to celebrate my baby girl turning 2 years old. Even if we were not physically in PR, at least we solved part of the dilemma via teleconference. That was fun, and the theme was Wonderpets of course! We really wished we could be back in the isle, to celebrate together so many holidays... Hopefully that will happen sooner than we know...
UNIVERSITY: Taking Web Design2. And only Digital Imaging and Portfolio to actually finish the Web Design diploma. It all ends on December. After that, on to a new project.
JOB: Still hunting. Internships not offering enough... nothing shows up... Hopefully a payed project will appear soon. Cannot complain too much, after all God has provided us with what we need.
LIFE: Sad about being isolated from everyone. Sad that people don't call up more often. Sometimes face-mail is even more important that e-mail, you know? But what can we do... By now we know that here in the US our friends will always be limited to the SMA chat as there is no way to meet anyone else in person... and the so-called family in the US is lost to us. Out of more than 50 nurses, only one has actually opened up. And of all therapists and other professionals, only one goes beyond her duty. Our situation needs support, we have iron will but we also bleed. Things are not as easy or as good or as stable as people may perceive. The only certainty is that we go on thanks to our deep love. As long as we are united, nothing will stop us. God leads the way. We follow.
10-4
UNIVERSITY: Taking Web Design2. And only Digital Imaging and Portfolio to actually finish the Web Design diploma. It all ends on December. After that, on to a new project.
JOB: Still hunting. Internships not offering enough... nothing shows up... Hopefully a payed project will appear soon. Cannot complain too much, after all God has provided us with what we need.
LIFE: Sad about being isolated from everyone. Sad that people don't call up more often. Sometimes face-mail is even more important that e-mail, you know? But what can we do... By now we know that here in the US our friends will always be limited to the SMA chat as there is no way to meet anyone else in person... and the so-called family in the US is lost to us. Out of more than 50 nurses, only one has actually opened up. And of all therapists and other professionals, only one goes beyond her duty. Our situation needs support, we have iron will but we also bleed. Things are not as easy or as good or as stable as people may perceive. The only certainty is that we go on thanks to our deep love. As long as we are united, nothing will stop us. God leads the way. We follow.
10-4
Thursday, August 06, 2009
Puerto Rico Horror Film Fest 2009
Puerto Rico Horror Film Fest 2009
October 22, 2009 - October 26, 2009
El festival de cine fantástico, horror, bizarro y terrorífico Puerto Rico Horror Film Fest convoca a realizadores que quieran mostrar sus películas. La llamada apunta a corto, medio y largometrajes encuadrables dentro de los géneros fantástico, bizarro, ciencia ficción y terror.
El Puerto Rico Horror Film Fest ya es un referente para la producción hispanoamericana de ciencia ficción, terror y fantasía, además es una puerta de entrada para películas que muy difícilmente se pueden ver en Puerto Rico por lo especializado de su género. Esta muestra irá creciendo edición tras edición, en lo que respecta a programación, repercusión periodística y, fundamentalmente su público.
Esta muestra es un espacio fundamental para un tipo de cine que tradicionalmente es olvidado pero de gran aceptación en las audiencias.
El Puerto Rico Horror Film Fest, festeja su segundo año de sangre, terror, irreverencia, humor negro y lo más "indie" del cine de terror.
October 22, 2009 - October 26, 2009
El festival de cine fantástico, horror, bizarro y terrorífico Puerto Rico Horror Film Fest convoca a realizadores que quieran mostrar sus películas. La llamada apunta a corto, medio y largometrajes encuadrables dentro de los géneros fantástico, bizarro, ciencia ficción y terror.
El Puerto Rico Horror Film Fest ya es un referente para la producción hispanoamericana de ciencia ficción, terror y fantasía, además es una puerta de entrada para películas que muy difícilmente se pueden ver en Puerto Rico por lo especializado de su género. Esta muestra irá creciendo edición tras edición, en lo que respecta a programación, repercusión periodística y, fundamentalmente su público.
Esta muestra es un espacio fundamental para un tipo de cine que tradicionalmente es olvidado pero de gran aceptación en las audiencias.
El Puerto Rico Horror Film Fest, festeja su segundo año de sangre, terror, irreverencia, humor negro y lo más "indie" del cine de terror.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Buzzy Bee
Yup, class began and I've been reading a lot, doing assignments... dealing with the green guy and trying to be positive that things will work out... dealing with some bitching in the current class... dealing with dissapointment as I expected a special outing today that couldnt be because of time constraints... dealing with prospect customer... dealing with a project that I will do because i feel like it (non-class related mind you)... And tired of movies that simply suck (Bruno anyone?).
And just because I'm bored:
Bitch Slap Anyone?
Cheshire... He's odd...
HarryPotter vs Voldemort... (for old rapper Steve)
Uplifting Conan advise...
About 300...
Yup... That bored...
10-4
And just because I'm bored:
Bitch Slap Anyone?
Cheshire... He's odd...
HarryPotter vs Voldemort... (for old rapper Steve)
Uplifting Conan advise...
About 300...
Yup... That bored...
10-4
Monday, July 20, 2009
Here and There
Movies watched in the past days:
HARRY POTTER & the Half-Blood Prince: A bit dissapointing, I think this movie should not have been divided in two... It left it open to too much slow action. I almost fall asleep. I know, they are just focusing on the changes in the teens but come on... Love Snape, though. And hated seeing so little of Bellatrix.
KNOWING: Surprisingly one of the best movies of late... and still, it is just entertaining... not a wow... It has too much of scenes we have seen in many other movies. That ending reminded me of the big wave coming over the lady hugging her father in front of the lighthouse... after the asteroid crash... Same thing, different element (this time, a devastating sun beam).
ICE AGE 3: Amen. Smart & funny. A MUST see! Can you believe it, much better than anything else playing right now!
This summer has been awful for movies... Lack of "punch" and creativity. Well, what can you expect... If the masses acclaim awful mindless things as Transformers 2, of course there will be a long run with Twilight... Ugh! And no Bitch Slap on sight...
Classes began last week, so that explains my lack of writing everywhere. This is Flash2:Actionscript3.0. Although it doesn't seem too difficult, it is VERY time consuming and little things becomes a nightmare. Now starts week 2, and it means that this week we get to do everything we did in Flash1, in 7 days. Have mercy!
I keep sending out resumes... Up, up, and awayyyyy!!! Nothing so far. Frustrating. And thanks to no job, we couldnt even get to file the adoption papers for the training... So that project is also stuck. No job, everything is stuck... Everything.
Summer finally arrived, and the heat is awful. the cold is terrible, and then the heat is unbearable. You get everything related to heatstroke... EVERYTHING.
Hubby is trying to get the paperwork together to start classes in August, and baby has been misbehaving with the nurses (it is becoming quite obvious she wants just two people to take care of her: mommy and daddy... period).
Update over...
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HARRY POTTER & the Half-Blood Prince: A bit dissapointing, I think this movie should not have been divided in two... It left it open to too much slow action. I almost fall asleep. I know, they are just focusing on the changes in the teens but come on... Love Snape, though. And hated seeing so little of Bellatrix.
KNOWING: Surprisingly one of the best movies of late... and still, it is just entertaining... not a wow... It has too much of scenes we have seen in many other movies. That ending reminded me of the big wave coming over the lady hugging her father in front of the lighthouse... after the asteroid crash... Same thing, different element (this time, a devastating sun beam).
ICE AGE 3: Amen. Smart & funny. A MUST see! Can you believe it, much better than anything else playing right now!
This summer has been awful for movies... Lack of "punch" and creativity. Well, what can you expect... If the masses acclaim awful mindless things as Transformers 2, of course there will be a long run with Twilight... Ugh! And no Bitch Slap on sight...
Classes began last week, so that explains my lack of writing everywhere. This is Flash2:Actionscript3.0. Although it doesn't seem too difficult, it is VERY time consuming and little things becomes a nightmare. Now starts week 2, and it means that this week we get to do everything we did in Flash1, in 7 days. Have mercy!
I keep sending out resumes... Up, up, and awayyyyy!!! Nothing so far. Frustrating. And thanks to no job, we couldnt even get to file the adoption papers for the training... So that project is also stuck. No job, everything is stuck... Everything.
Summer finally arrived, and the heat is awful. the cold is terrible, and then the heat is unbearable. You get everything related to heatstroke... EVERYTHING.
Hubby is trying to get the paperwork together to start classes in August, and baby has been misbehaving with the nurses (it is becoming quite obvious she wants just two people to take care of her: mommy and daddy... period).
Update over...
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Wednesday, July 08, 2009
A WISH FADES AWAY
We LOVE our homeland. Yes, many people are VERY anoying, but we LOVE our homeland. I LOVE my little island of wonders and enchantment. I want to go back, so we can have a choice in our everyday life when it comes to having fun, leisure... beaches, forests, caverns... You name it, we have it. At an easy reach. Friends and family are there, good and bad... but they are there. We are tired and jaded and we really need to see familiar faces, and maybe even get into a familiar routine but more into our own 'coqui' tunes...
This weekend we realized we can't go back. Not a realization... Well, it is something that was in the back of our heads, and we were trying to accomodate, and make true... But we knew better, we had hypothesis of how we could cope, how we could make things happen... We have many plans, A-B-C, all leading towards our surprising and triumphant return. We were proven wrong. Everything collapsed.
During the weekend i was contacted by another SMA family, it was peculiar that they were from PR, and they are still there. They have a boy that has a tracheostomy, and for whom they are literally "pasando el Niagara en bicicleta". At least they accomplished one important thing: They took the kid to Santo Domingo and did phase 1 of a stem cells treatment (they are 3 phases). That was no easy task, as each treatment's phase is $30,000, out of pocket, as no insurance covers it. And they began witnessing the fast improvements in their kid thanks to the risk they took. This is uplifting and brings much needed hope.
Now, to the bad part of the story...
PR and it's stupid political/economical/health system. They have the same insurance I did when I worked in the government agency... They must pay deductible of 20% that makes monthly expenses reach $3,5000(equipment, mandatory maintenance supplies, special food, etc). Think about it... In my not so perfect job I earned $2500... which paid all debts leaving just $50 in my bank account. Yes, I foresee our situation really well... Forcing the kid off the plan so la Reforma covers it cuts all services in half, as la Reforma is not accepted everywhere and doesn't cover EVERYTHING. Right now if we go back, Deedee would have to go with it as no insurance will allow her in the plan because of SMA being a fatal congenital illness...
Plus there are NO doctors seeing these kids. The only pulmonologist involved with them is trying not to see them so he pushes the Health department to do something... Gee, that solves everything... Health department don't care about 300 expendable kids on vents. Service providers literally don't have a heart, and if you don't pay they take everything away (thus the cases of dead kids...).
Living off the system won't help either as you would be forced to keep the kid under the very basics, reusing all stuff you are supposed to dispose of, making the food last by thinning it... you name it. And we are talking helping the kid survive... If Deedee has no tracheostomy when we go back, at the first emergency they will do one. PR don't want to handle NIV (non-invasive) even if proof of its benefits is there. And it is funny, because they dont handle well kids with tracheostomy (most end up in eternal hospital stays, getting medicines given by nurses and not seeing by the doctors that prescribes them...)... Until they die.
And SSI seems to be a distant alternative for us too. We have it here, I wonder if they would take it away because they don't want to give it in the island. Disturbing, as last year if you read Social Security notices, SSI is mandatory and of fast processing when fatal cases come into play, and SMA is listed on those exceptional cases. But you must belong to a state... And PR is a commonwealth... Funny, because I know some people get SSI. It is all selective aid.
So... until there is Medicaid, a respiratory center, doctors willing to have these kids in their offices, an ER willing to work with NIV and emphatic medical supply business... there is no going back. No salty weather... no blissful wind... no mango trees... no winter sun... Because Deedee must be there, must live and grow... Must have a true chance... And who knows, maybe even the stem cells will work a miracle if they are finally made accessible... They work with Cerebral Palsy. Hopefully they will work with SMA. And so we must stay until then...
Now what.
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This weekend we realized we can't go back. Not a realization... Well, it is something that was in the back of our heads, and we were trying to accomodate, and make true... But we knew better, we had hypothesis of how we could cope, how we could make things happen... We have many plans, A-B-C, all leading towards our surprising and triumphant return. We were proven wrong. Everything collapsed.
During the weekend i was contacted by another SMA family, it was peculiar that they were from PR, and they are still there. They have a boy that has a tracheostomy, and for whom they are literally "pasando el Niagara en bicicleta". At least they accomplished one important thing: They took the kid to Santo Domingo and did phase 1 of a stem cells treatment (they are 3 phases). That was no easy task, as each treatment's phase is $30,000, out of pocket, as no insurance covers it. And they began witnessing the fast improvements in their kid thanks to the risk they took. This is uplifting and brings much needed hope.
Now, to the bad part of the story...
PR and it's stupid political/economical/health system. They have the same insurance I did when I worked in the government agency... They must pay deductible of 20% that makes monthly expenses reach $3,5000(equipment, mandatory maintenance supplies, special food, etc). Think about it... In my not so perfect job I earned $2500... which paid all debts leaving just $50 in my bank account. Yes, I foresee our situation really well... Forcing the kid off the plan so la Reforma covers it cuts all services in half, as la Reforma is not accepted everywhere and doesn't cover EVERYTHING. Right now if we go back, Deedee would have to go with it as no insurance will allow her in the plan because of SMA being a fatal congenital illness...
Plus there are NO doctors seeing these kids. The only pulmonologist involved with them is trying not to see them so he pushes the Health department to do something... Gee, that solves everything... Health department don't care about 300 expendable kids on vents. Service providers literally don't have a heart, and if you don't pay they take everything away (thus the cases of dead kids...).
Living off the system won't help either as you would be forced to keep the kid under the very basics, reusing all stuff you are supposed to dispose of, making the food last by thinning it... you name it. And we are talking helping the kid survive... If Deedee has no tracheostomy when we go back, at the first emergency they will do one. PR don't want to handle NIV (non-invasive) even if proof of its benefits is there. And it is funny, because they dont handle well kids with tracheostomy (most end up in eternal hospital stays, getting medicines given by nurses and not seeing by the doctors that prescribes them...)... Until they die.
And SSI seems to be a distant alternative for us too. We have it here, I wonder if they would take it away because they don't want to give it in the island. Disturbing, as last year if you read Social Security notices, SSI is mandatory and of fast processing when fatal cases come into play, and SMA is listed on those exceptional cases. But you must belong to a state... And PR is a commonwealth... Funny, because I know some people get SSI. It is all selective aid.
So... until there is Medicaid, a respiratory center, doctors willing to have these kids in their offices, an ER willing to work with NIV and emphatic medical supply business... there is no going back. No salty weather... no blissful wind... no mango trees... no winter sun... Because Deedee must be there, must live and grow... Must have a true chance... And who knows, maybe even the stem cells will work a miracle if they are finally made accessible... They work with Cerebral Palsy. Hopefully they will work with SMA. And so we must stay until then...
Now what.
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Saturday, June 27, 2009
Transformers2, Pelham123, Audition, One Missed Call
Transformers2... Eye candy, but a definitive dissapointment in dialogue/script/story. Gosh... Where are the good writers? Why I didn't became one, and save us all from so much crap? It's so sad... I can't tolerate the stupid way they make the Decepticons. Really... I could bear things if only just Megatron looked as himself... not as a spiked thinguie out of a Giger picture... Ugh!
The Taking of Pelham 123... It was ok. Not wow, too slow in some parts... but at least it was a bit interesting. A good weekend rental.
Audition... The beginning and the middle of it all... a long, LOOONG foreshadowing of the characters, thier specific circumstances, how they meet, how the relationship blooms... And then you see the sack moving behind the phone that rings, and the lovely smile in the girl's face. Well, it is a typical asian horror storyline... but gotta love the last 15 minutes of the movie. It makes the whole longeleer of time that you feel you are falling asleep make it worth the pain... The girl irradiates gullible lovely innocense while cutting the guy's feet... with such delicate demeanors... Granted, the rest of the movie sucked... but those last 15 minutes... Priceless.
One missed call... the american version... It was ok. A bit slow, but at least you keep some interest. Still, can't get over the fact that original is better, no matter how you put it. This movie goes fast, real fast! I found interesting the death in front of everybody leaving people not able to do anything to help, and then the hard candy (jawbreaker?) falling out from the mouth. Nice touch. But really, all the movies must have something related to a hospital in the beginning, middle or end? Come on!
Me: Reading some, creating some, figuring out the latest gifts. In the middle of the chaos and the request to free Toto in PR, life IS good.
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The Taking of Pelham 123... It was ok. Not wow, too slow in some parts... but at least it was a bit interesting. A good weekend rental.
Audition... The beginning and the middle of it all... a long, LOOONG foreshadowing of the characters, thier specific circumstances, how they meet, how the relationship blooms... And then you see the sack moving behind the phone that rings, and the lovely smile in the girl's face. Well, it is a typical asian horror storyline... but gotta love the last 15 minutes of the movie. It makes the whole longeleer of time that you feel you are falling asleep make it worth the pain... The girl irradiates gullible lovely innocense while cutting the guy's feet... with such delicate demeanors... Granted, the rest of the movie sucked... but those last 15 minutes... Priceless.
One missed call... the american version... It was ok. A bit slow, but at least you keep some interest. Still, can't get over the fact that original is better, no matter how you put it. This movie goes fast, real fast! I found interesting the death in front of everybody leaving people not able to do anything to help, and then the hard candy (jawbreaker?) falling out from the mouth. Nice touch. But really, all the movies must have something related to a hospital in the beginning, middle or end? Come on!
Me: Reading some, creating some, figuring out the latest gifts. In the middle of the chaos and the request to free Toto in PR, life IS good.
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Tuesday, June 23, 2009
And the latest movies that I liked...
Liked? No... REALLY liked. Up and Taken.
Up: Bitter-sweet, very nicely done. The idea of completing a dream, the voyage of a character through conflicts and the big adventure of life... Priceless. Loved how they tackled the relationships, loyalty, loss, grief, friendship and what is the real meaning of life. Ellie did not went to South America, physically, but had her adventure with the man she loved. And was with him through everything, although invisible. In the end, she actually helps complete the task of not leaving her hubby alone... Loved this movie. A MUST SEE and a MUST BUY.
Taken: Just by that line in the trailer, you know it is a hunt, and the bad guys are going to get it. I loved the hunt. We watched this on Father's day, very appropriate for the day. Enough action, enough reality... Nice message. This is a good entertaining rental.
Still waiting for BitchSlap!
Up: Bitter-sweet, very nicely done. The idea of completing a dream, the voyage of a character through conflicts and the big adventure of life... Priceless. Loved how they tackled the relationships, loyalty, loss, grief, friendship and what is the real meaning of life. Ellie did not went to South America, physically, but had her adventure with the man she loved. And was with him through everything, although invisible. In the end, she actually helps complete the task of not leaving her hubby alone... Loved this movie. A MUST SEE and a MUST BUY.
Taken: Just by that line in the trailer, you know it is a hunt, and the bad guys are going to get it. I loved the hunt. We watched this on Father's day, very appropriate for the day. Enough action, enough reality... Nice message. This is a good entertaining rental.
Still waiting for BitchSlap!
Exploring possibilities
So what is new in my world? Hmm... Let's see...
Studies: Finished the DB class, perfect score thank-u-very-much. For the summer round I'll have two killer classes from July 13 to August 15. Those will be Advanced Flash and Advanced Web Design. So I foresee very busy days, staying up all night... The usual love-hate-love that I love-hate-love.
Exploring Studies: Been reading from different universities for Rehab Counseling, Special Ed Teaching... and the more I read the more i know I should just do the Media Design & Animation thinguie even if it seems long (3yrs)... simply because it is what I like from the bottom of my heart. Who knows... If the stars align themselves so I can do this... by getting a job...
Jobwise: Well, right now I am a Freelance Graphic/Web Designer for a company. Yup, got the offer and filled up paperwork, but until my first paycheck wont say it is official. It is more like an exploration experiment to see if I really like this... It has all I wanted: Work at Home, login, get the job, get it done, upload, get approved, get paid, next! No fuss, everything online. So I can supervise nurses job, MissD. and study. Let's watch what happens... At the same time the ex-boss who was sort of a boss is back, this time including my hubby in the offer. Let's see what happens in that one as well... I won't commit to anything until my classes from the Web Design diploma are over (September, just 3 more classes to go). After that, and after the experience as being freelance, we'll see what is best.
Exploring family: Well, opening up the home to alternatives of fostering or adopting, more biased towards adoption. It is a lifetime commitment that seems very right, as we have no family tailing us, and it would be a nice thing to have that touch in the house. Not looking for babies, not looking for younglings, focusing on teens and one special case that is 7 years old and drew our attention. But first, we have to pass the study/tests so we get certified for it. It is all a 90 days process. After that, then the state decides if we can do it. Let's watch what happens.
Days flying away, real fast... Many things to do, a few dreams to reach, and just the right amount of time to do it all.
Can't say we have no excitement.
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Studies: Finished the DB class, perfect score thank-u-very-much. For the summer round I'll have two killer classes from July 13 to August 15. Those will be Advanced Flash and Advanced Web Design. So I foresee very busy days, staying up all night... The usual love-hate-love that I love-hate-love.
Exploring Studies: Been reading from different universities for Rehab Counseling, Special Ed Teaching... and the more I read the more i know I should just do the Media Design & Animation thinguie even if it seems long (3yrs)... simply because it is what I like from the bottom of my heart. Who knows... If the stars align themselves so I can do this... by getting a job...
Jobwise: Well, right now I am a Freelance Graphic/Web Designer for a company. Yup, got the offer and filled up paperwork, but until my first paycheck wont say it is official. It is more like an exploration experiment to see if I really like this... It has all I wanted: Work at Home, login, get the job, get it done, upload, get approved, get paid, next! No fuss, everything online. So I can supervise nurses job, MissD. and study. Let's watch what happens... At the same time the ex-boss who was sort of a boss is back, this time including my hubby in the offer. Let's see what happens in that one as well... I won't commit to anything until my classes from the Web Design diploma are over (September, just 3 more classes to go). After that, and after the experience as being freelance, we'll see what is best.
Exploring family: Well, opening up the home to alternatives of fostering or adopting, more biased towards adoption. It is a lifetime commitment that seems very right, as we have no family tailing us, and it would be a nice thing to have that touch in the house. Not looking for babies, not looking for younglings, focusing on teens and one special case that is 7 years old and drew our attention. But first, we have to pass the study/tests so we get certified for it. It is all a 90 days process. After that, then the state decides if we can do it. Let's watch what happens.
Days flying away, real fast... Many things to do, a few dreams to reach, and just the right amount of time to do it all.
Can't say we have no excitement.
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Sunday, June 14, 2009
Ash's new collar & latest events
So, Ash now has a new pink collar so the whole world knows that she is a female. Good intentions, but not so appreciated by kitty, who kept fussing over the jingle bell and tossing and turning for almost an hour.
Yesterday saw Coraline & He's not that into you...
CORALINE: Of course I LOVED Coraline. That's a must get video. Interesting concept about the buttons. Loved the allegories on everything. And it may even motivate me to dye my hair blue... Who knows, let's see if I get that bored...
HE's NOT THAT INTO YOU... not so bad for a Jen Anniston movie (sorry, she'll always be Rachel no matter what she does...). This is more like a rebound of The Breakup... with a happy ending. Loved seeing Drew Barrymore, though. Big fan of her. But this is a once seen barely remembered movie... Too much of same clichés...
FRIDAY THE 13th... I tried. I honestly tried. But couldn't get ANY interest after the first 5 minutes. Sorry. I rather stick to the original.
Well, besides this, just a week and a half more to finish the DB class. Yay! Just 3 more to go... but I'll have a small "vacation" of 2 weeks. That's cool. I will try to get my license over here, and also to work on two websites: One for my landlord's church/community center, and one for Groundel who will soon loose his space in geocities as it is closing. Still job-hunting, and still information-hunting for the next studying project... So far being a Special Ed. teacher is winning over the Rehab Counseling... Let's see what else I find out...
Hubby is excited about something that may bring on the light at the end of the tunnel. Send good karma his way. :)
Thanks to Coriolis for the latest key to making school a happier place. :) Now, don't forget the bank thinguie!
And that's that for the last couple of days...
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Tuesday, June 09, 2009
The weekly news, or something...
Lets see...
Looking up information on two themes for studying:
Ms in Rehabilitation Counseling
Teaching certification for Special Education
So far, the RC is winning based on what I already know and what I should be able to do in the near future. But who knows... I may change my mind based on time and place and grants. For both there are grants. Let's wait and see. First, need to finish this diploma. Next, only time will tell.
Looking up information to be a foster parent. That would actually allow us to survive a bit longer, plus it would give us the opportunity to make a difference for someone else. Only time will tell.
Little Miss D. is in process for the three main stuff she needs: wheelchair, bed and stander. Only time will tell...
Hubby is trying to complete re-admission paperwork for the online INTER curriculum, to finish his degree. Only time will tell...
I've been in contact with some of my people from work and it has been uplifting. At least I know that I made a difference in some people's life. That's always good. It's also good to know that you are not forgotten, and that people actually acknowledge your efforts. It's a feel good thing. Hey, it's good to feel good. Not everything has to be depressing and sad and hard.
I would like to be able to go for at least a weekend over to the isle, too checkup on Auntie and see old faces. But that is a wish. Right now, no money no bologni.
Moviewise, these are my latests exploits:
The Unborn. Liked it. Same repetitive stuff from Asian films, you know she is pregnant (duh)... Reminded me of The Eye 2, many copied ideas.
Ghosts of Girlfriends Past. Well, knock me over, sedate me, make me watch it... in my sleep so i appreciate it... Bad attempt to do a romantic comedy that rocks... Good idea, bad execution? Watching the wedding version of Scrooged... literally... ain't funny.
Looking forward to Harry Potter, Transformers2, GIJOE... Still thinking that Bitch Slap is an April fool's day joke... Still pondering: Why a Saw VI? Then again, why a remake of Short Circuit?
And that's exactly how it happened...
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Looking up information on two themes for studying:
Ms in Rehabilitation Counseling
Teaching certification for Special Education
So far, the RC is winning based on what I already know and what I should be able to do in the near future. But who knows... I may change my mind based on time and place and grants. For both there are grants. Let's wait and see. First, need to finish this diploma. Next, only time will tell.
Looking up information to be a foster parent. That would actually allow us to survive a bit longer, plus it would give us the opportunity to make a difference for someone else. Only time will tell.
Little Miss D. is in process for the three main stuff she needs: wheelchair, bed and stander. Only time will tell...
Hubby is trying to complete re-admission paperwork for the online INTER curriculum, to finish his degree. Only time will tell...
I've been in contact with some of my people from work and it has been uplifting. At least I know that I made a difference in some people's life. That's always good. It's also good to know that you are not forgotten, and that people actually acknowledge your efforts. It's a feel good thing. Hey, it's good to feel good. Not everything has to be depressing and sad and hard.
I would like to be able to go for at least a weekend over to the isle, too checkup on Auntie and see old faces. But that is a wish. Right now, no money no bologni.
Moviewise, these are my latests exploits:
The Unborn. Liked it. Same repetitive stuff from Asian films, you know she is pregnant (duh)... Reminded me of The Eye 2, many copied ideas.
Ghosts of Girlfriends Past. Well, knock me over, sedate me, make me watch it... in my sleep so i appreciate it... Bad attempt to do a romantic comedy that rocks... Good idea, bad execution? Watching the wedding version of Scrooged... literally... ain't funny.
Looking forward to Harry Potter, Transformers2, GIJOE... Still thinking that Bitch Slap is an April fool's day joke... Still pondering: Why a Saw VI? Then again, why a remake of Short Circuit?
And that's exactly how it happened...
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Saturday, June 06, 2009
Monday, June 01, 2009
The Daily Picks
Well... Lately we've been watching at least one movie per day to battle off some depressive awareness of life. The latest have been:
Terminator 4:Salvation. Wow. I expected a really bad sequel, but no... It was actually good. Predictable (a big trend for some time now), but I liked the machine giving out his heart to save the human... one of the most human thing to do: self-sacrifice. Enjoyed this one a-lot. From the summer blockbusters, I'll have to say this one is by far my favorite, followed by eye-candy Star Trek (who gets a second place in my list for being a re-make). The new John Connor is more believable than the gleaming hero stereotype he had before. I like this one better. Much more tangible. Skynet... I couldnt help but be transported to the T2 attraction at Universal. They really nailed the corporate Umbrella-like thing.
Wanted. Well, I must say that I thought it would be crap, and I disliked the Matrix-like scenes, but I liked the ending. It was obvious that the hunter was the father, so there... But the ending was ok for this type of movie.
Mirrors. Anoher remake of an Asian movie... But ok, granted, it was bearable. I really liked the concept and the execution was not catastrophic. It actually was entertaining... Predictable, but keeps your attention with the mirror effects. Loved the nun turned devil.
Besides these, been busy with class (duh). So far it's been an easy ride. I know the next two classes will be a pain in the whoohoo... Actionscript3 (Advanced Flash) and advanced PHP. More programming... I'll ask if I can take Illustrator, after all that is the part for which I wanted design on the first place...
Miss D has been doing great, so things have been routine and happy. Wonder Pets galore! And us doing some job hunting. I completed my potfolio site. Since geocities will be goine soon, I'm taking away all the bits I can and revamping the rest. Created a new Artiste & Techie site. Go check it out if you want to see my art and designs. Critiques are welcome.
So... Kitty has been a pain, hubby has been checking up college stuff, I am checking up jobs and college stuff too, and we are all keeping ourselves busy while keeping sanity and taking care of our Deeva. La-la-la.
PS: Friends are welcome. In the last past months we have noticesd that our friends are getting very lazy on us... No phone calls, no messages, no returning messages or calls... Come on, people... This is the only way we can actually feel we have a "social life". Being isolated within 4 walls is NOT easy. Trying to conquer the world behind a computer is fun, but is MORE fun if it's shared. This, in the NOW, is where we need you. We need your support, your being there, your insight as stupid as it can be. Yup, even listening to your daily crap is good, so we take a small break from our situation... We are in for a lifetime. We need to go on. And we need your support or presence or daily crappy babbling to at least have a good laugh a day. Is that so hard?
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Terminator 4:Salvation. Wow. I expected a really bad sequel, but no... It was actually good. Predictable (a big trend for some time now), but I liked the machine giving out his heart to save the human... one of the most human thing to do: self-sacrifice. Enjoyed this one a-lot. From the summer blockbusters, I'll have to say this one is by far my favorite, followed by eye-candy Star Trek (who gets a second place in my list for being a re-make). The new John Connor is more believable than the gleaming hero stereotype he had before. I like this one better. Much more tangible. Skynet... I couldnt help but be transported to the T2 attraction at Universal. They really nailed the corporate Umbrella-like thing.
Wanted. Well, I must say that I thought it would be crap, and I disliked the Matrix-like scenes, but I liked the ending. It was obvious that the hunter was the father, so there... But the ending was ok for this type of movie.
Mirrors. Anoher remake of an Asian movie... But ok, granted, it was bearable. I really liked the concept and the execution was not catastrophic. It actually was entertaining... Predictable, but keeps your attention with the mirror effects. Loved the nun turned devil.
Besides these, been busy with class (duh). So far it's been an easy ride. I know the next two classes will be a pain in the whoohoo... Actionscript3 (Advanced Flash) and advanced PHP. More programming... I'll ask if I can take Illustrator, after all that is the part for which I wanted design on the first place...
Miss D has been doing great, so things have been routine and happy. Wonder Pets galore! And us doing some job hunting. I completed my potfolio site. Since geocities will be goine soon, I'm taking away all the bits I can and revamping the rest. Created a new Artiste & Techie site. Go check it out if you want to see my art and designs. Critiques are welcome.
So... Kitty has been a pain, hubby has been checking up college stuff, I am checking up jobs and college stuff too, and we are all keeping ourselves busy while keeping sanity and taking care of our Deeva. La-la-la.
PS: Friends are welcome. In the last past months we have noticesd that our friends are getting very lazy on us... No phone calls, no messages, no returning messages or calls... Come on, people... This is the only way we can actually feel we have a "social life". Being isolated within 4 walls is NOT easy. Trying to conquer the world behind a computer is fun, but is MORE fun if it's shared. This, in the NOW, is where we need you. We need your support, your being there, your insight as stupid as it can be. Yup, even listening to your daily crap is good, so we take a small break from our situation... We are in for a lifetime. We need to go on. And we need your support or presence or daily crappy babbling to at least have a good laugh a day. Is that so hard?
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Friday, May 29, 2009
Movies... School... Diva... Movies...
Wolverine... Didn't met any expectation whatsoever (thank heaven I had none for it). Entertaining adamantite... Loved Gambit. Still hate Scott. Xavier looked so fake...
Night at the Museum 2... Didn't met any expectation whatsoever (thank heaven I had none for it). Sucked. Will never be remembered anyway. Nothing like the first one.
Star Trek... Didn't met any expectation whatsoever (thank heaven I had none for it, because I actually liked it). This movie actually went way over my expectations (I had none). Kirk was Kirk in every gesture and sentence... I cant get over the thrill of Ceasar being McCoy... And Spock was perfect, Spock Prime even better. Uhura at least had brains... And the website is almost as good as Michelin's website. Very nice. Reminded me of the Andromeda Ascendant.
A Haunting in Connecticut... It was ok... entertaining. Next!
Watchmen... Eye candy. Expected much more... Too long, too few bangs... Didn't like it at all.
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button... The story that feels like a mix of Big Fish and Forest Gump... The story that the movie trailers said nothing about... Blew me away. It is always the movie that you underestimate the most... This one really got to me. Gotta have it. Up there with Moulin Rouge and Chicago (although it is not a musical... just a ticking)...
Between this, the Jon & Kate plus 8 fake drama, Wonderpets, House, and re-runs of America's Next top Model... And the weekly dosis of Legend of the Seeker... This is the survivor kit... Sort of...
Taking Database class... I don't get WHY I did not get this one convalidated... Hello!!!! I have a BSBA in IT!!!! But, ok... bearing with it... 3 more classes to get the sheep's skin. Just three more classes...
And maybe then I'll go for the BS Media Design & Animation... Shhhhhhh I said Maybe.
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Night at the Museum 2... Didn't met any expectation whatsoever (thank heaven I had none for it). Sucked. Will never be remembered anyway. Nothing like the first one.
Star Trek... Didn't met any expectation whatsoever (thank heaven I had none for it, because I actually liked it). This movie actually went way over my expectations (I had none). Kirk was Kirk in every gesture and sentence... I cant get over the thrill of Ceasar being McCoy... And Spock was perfect, Spock Prime even better. Uhura at least had brains... And the website is almost as good as Michelin's website. Very nice. Reminded me of the Andromeda Ascendant.
A Haunting in Connecticut... It was ok... entertaining. Next!
Watchmen... Eye candy. Expected much more... Too long, too few bangs... Didn't like it at all.
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button... The story that feels like a mix of Big Fish and Forest Gump... The story that the movie trailers said nothing about... Blew me away. It is always the movie that you underestimate the most... This one really got to me. Gotta have it. Up there with Moulin Rouge and Chicago (although it is not a musical... just a ticking)...
Between this, the Jon & Kate plus 8 fake drama, Wonderpets, House, and re-runs of America's Next top Model... And the weekly dosis of Legend of the Seeker... This is the survivor kit... Sort of...
Taking Database class... I don't get WHY I did not get this one convalidated... Hello!!!! I have a BSBA in IT!!!! But, ok... bearing with it... 3 more classes to get the sheep's skin. Just three more classes...
And maybe then I'll go for the BS Media Design & Animation... Shhhhhhh I said Maybe.
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Sunday, May 17, 2009
Remakes: Conan the Barbarian & Red Sonja & StarTrek
Just found these...
Red Sonja (in pre-production) , will be played by RoseMcGowan... At least the cover/poster rocks! Red should be released by 2010...
Conan is in pre-production...
And BitchSlap is coming... Next week on the Cannes festival...
The geek in me had to come out, and pleads you to visit the Star Trek Movie site if you have not done so already... It has the wow factor.
Yup. This was the excitement of the morning.
Monday, May 11, 2009
MOVIES: RSVP? or more RIP?
Yup, that should be for the next good movie coming up... if that ever happens. Three people have been complaining about the latest outrage: Wolverine. Well, yeah... Stan lee had joined George Lucas into betraying the true storylines for money. How strange. It is sad that the newest breed, or as I call them "younglings", become so excited above movies and characters that have been butchered. Wolverine's story was changed, not to the best of his interest... And once again the creative liberties with other characters have achieved atrocities. I love Gambit. I always will love Gambit. But not the Gambit of the movie. And is the same with Wolvie, I will always love Wolvie! The one that is in my comic-book vault... So many Weapon-X comics, so many spotlights... Classic X-men, graphic novels... Every story different yet all of them threaded so a bigger plot would prevail. All got screwed when Cable and so many others appeared.
It is the death of the icing of the cake, as now they just give generic SaraLee cakes... And younglings seem to love those generic cakes... If only they knew that the best cakes were done by old ladies in their homes!
Take Twilight... I still don't understand the big deal about it. The old 90210 had more drama and deep storylines than the stupid storyline that it presents... The movie lacks EVERYTHING, and yet all these younglings throw themselves at the cast and look forward to more Twilight... Nothing like Interview with the Vampire. Even Queen of the Damned (the movie) is better than Twilight (and for me to say that... because QotD really, really sucked... the bad way).
Originality at the movies seems extinct... This is now remake land... Or "bring back the 80s" not understanding that you may mimic anything but it will never be the same. What about creating a different era? Big problem when there is such a big lack of true talent. The only good young actors of note right now is Johny Depp... Now, there's someone who do original work. Besides him... I really can't think of anyone else. The good old ones are getting too old and dying. It is scary, when you think about it...
I look forward to Transformers just to see what else they can do with it. They already screwed the original characters... GIJOE is eye candy in red white and blue, an ode to fighting terrorism... and I only want to see it because of the Baroness. Terminator... I am curious to see what else can they milk from that storyline and how can they succeed without Cali's governor. Remake-land will butcher poor Jason on the next Friday the 13th... And will grant Star Trek's captain Kirk a second chance (maybe this time the actor will actually... act...). It's going to be quite a year... Of more blah... I don't expect anything amazing or original from any of these films. Now is the moment of eye-candy and effects with no stories... That is the food of the new generation.
In the middle of so much blah it is good to find something like Legend of the Seeker. One may think it is like Herc or Xena, but no... The stories are well written and they are not just about the main characters. And they have lots of creativity on them. I'm definitively moved towards reading the books that the series are based upon. Yup, a TV series gives many kicks and blasts to all hype movies currently showing on the theater... talk about saving bucks!
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It is the death of the icing of the cake, as now they just give generic SaraLee cakes... And younglings seem to love those generic cakes... If only they knew that the best cakes were done by old ladies in their homes!
Take Twilight... I still don't understand the big deal about it. The old 90210 had more drama and deep storylines than the stupid storyline that it presents... The movie lacks EVERYTHING, and yet all these younglings throw themselves at the cast and look forward to more Twilight... Nothing like Interview with the Vampire. Even Queen of the Damned (the movie) is better than Twilight (and for me to say that... because QotD really, really sucked... the bad way).
Originality at the movies seems extinct... This is now remake land... Or "bring back the 80s" not understanding that you may mimic anything but it will never be the same. What about creating a different era? Big problem when there is such a big lack of true talent. The only good young actors of note right now is Johny Depp... Now, there's someone who do original work. Besides him... I really can't think of anyone else. The good old ones are getting too old and dying. It is scary, when you think about it...
I look forward to Transformers just to see what else they can do with it. They already screwed the original characters... GIJOE is eye candy in red white and blue, an ode to fighting terrorism... and I only want to see it because of the Baroness. Terminator... I am curious to see what else can they milk from that storyline and how can they succeed without Cali's governor. Remake-land will butcher poor Jason on the next Friday the 13th... And will grant Star Trek's captain Kirk a second chance (maybe this time the actor will actually... act...). It's going to be quite a year... Of more blah... I don't expect anything amazing or original from any of these films. Now is the moment of eye-candy and effects with no stories... That is the food of the new generation.
In the middle of so much blah it is good to find something like Legend of the Seeker. One may think it is like Herc or Xena, but no... The stories are well written and they are not just about the main characters. And they have lots of creativity on them. I'm definitively moved towards reading the books that the series are based upon. Yup, a TV series gives many kicks and blasts to all hype movies currently showing on the theater... talk about saving bucks!
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Saturday, May 09, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
SLEEP KEEPS ON BEING OVERRATED
For some days now it's like I go to sleep at 5am and wake up around 10am... If it's not one thing it's the other... Monday baby had an appointment, Tue & Wed had class mean assignments, today baby had another appointment... Weekend and afternoons have been nurse-less, and Wed&Thu hubby sent day nurse home as she seemed sick... as in ill, people. So... The sleepless drama keeps on. Happy happy joy joy...
Class is ok... could be better if it actually felt there is further interest from the teacher to teach... (what a concept!) The comments made to my classmates and myself are very simple and do not add much to the learning process... Come on, there's only so much you can actually discuss in a forum! What happens when everyone is stuck? And... joys of joys... next course is about db... I need to find out with the counselor if I really have to keep this track courses, as there is another track focused on design and I dont know if in the end we have to take 2 tracks or a choice between them... I didn't get to choose, so... So far, yes, I'm pretty miserable. I hate programming. I'll whine about it through it, and after its over. I HATE PROGRAMMING. I'll get over it, but... I HATE PROGRAMMING. 'nuff said.
I hope this will be all over in August. I want the diploma to actually go in-depth into job search, working at home version... or a hybrid of 2 days in the workplace and the rest at home. I know the right job fit is for me out there. But I need a focus that with classes and baby I simply can't have.
Seacacus was a fiasco. they have same issues as here: Housing list is closed and overcrowded, so we can't get in the waiting list, so our contact can't help us getting priority, so it's all stuck.
The wheelchair and medical bed drama continues... I hope it all can get a happy resolution tomorrow... erm... today?
I FINALLY filed up my Income Tax 2008. Yes, I'm VERY late, especially for someone who doesn't have to pay... I completely forgot about it, the pressure to fill it up in here is not a constant bombardment as in Puerto Rico. But, finally filled it up and will send Saturday. Cannot say Friday as I have a nasty class assignment for Friday...
So this is it for now.
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Class is ok... could be better if it actually felt there is further interest from the teacher to teach... (what a concept!) The comments made to my classmates and myself are very simple and do not add much to the learning process... Come on, there's only so much you can actually discuss in a forum! What happens when everyone is stuck? And... joys of joys... next course is about db... I need to find out with the counselor if I really have to keep this track courses, as there is another track focused on design and I dont know if in the end we have to take 2 tracks or a choice between them... I didn't get to choose, so... So far, yes, I'm pretty miserable. I hate programming. I'll whine about it through it, and after its over. I HATE PROGRAMMING. I'll get over it, but... I HATE PROGRAMMING. 'nuff said.
I hope this will be all over in August. I want the diploma to actually go in-depth into job search, working at home version... or a hybrid of 2 days in the workplace and the rest at home. I know the right job fit is for me out there. But I need a focus that with classes and baby I simply can't have.
Seacacus was a fiasco. they have same issues as here: Housing list is closed and overcrowded, so we can't get in the waiting list, so our contact can't help us getting priority, so it's all stuck.
The wheelchair and medical bed drama continues... I hope it all can get a happy resolution tomorrow... erm... today?
I FINALLY filed up my Income Tax 2008. Yes, I'm VERY late, especially for someone who doesn't have to pay... I completely forgot about it, the pressure to fill it up in here is not a constant bombardment as in Puerto Rico. But, finally filled it up and will send Saturday. Cannot say Friday as I have a nasty class assignment for Friday...
So this is it for now.
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Saturday, April 18, 2009
What's going on so far
It's Star Wars weekend, and so we are chained to re-runs of the first 3 movies and then the three real movies of the 6-part saga. It's both good and bad. Hate the newest version... What were they thinking? Such a character like Darth Vader with such a lame background... ugh!
Well, back to me.
Home: For now things are on track. Some expenses will still be covered by gov aids (amen) and so we can keep focus on caring for baby. Besides that, looking for housing options to see if we can actually qualify somewhere else for Section 8.
Class: Second week of sucky PHP course, almost over! I don't see any learning experience here... all I see is loud mouth people and no comments from the teacher... Don't know what else to expect. Will try to keep on reading and keep on trying to learn by myself. Did I mention I hate programming? Just checking.
Well... building up a class site for my dream of doing a SMA chapter in Puerto Rico. You may go there and browse and critique if you feel like it (it is a work in progress, made the basics in CSS and must apply some php to the forms... This is the 2nd week, so don't expect fireworks... It was a "design a site"week... Next week real programming begins. Wish me good luck).Anyway, hope that this truly ends in August. After getting the diploma I may go forth and do a bachelors in multimedia or graphic design. But that is another story... One thing is certain, so far this was a really good idea. Besides keeping me "sharp" it has also validated my desire for a career change. I REALLY like webdesign. And if I am able to do something about Motion Animation I will be in heaven. I REALLY like motion animation... Hopefully the stars will align and I will be able to get into that trail, follow it, and succeed. I have wasted so many years doing network work... But maybe now the new era has begun.
Friends: Groundel has been busy straightening up parts of his life (yay), Coriolis has been busy with animals and plants and then some computers... (yay?), and Carlos managed calling up and saying hello (yay!). To the surprise of everyone I keep up with everything about beloved little Paradise City, and even got to find this lovely link to savor Puerto Rico in all its splendor! Visit Eye Tour Puerto Rico and you'll see what I'm talking about. They even have a video of my favorite place, Los Morrillos Lighthouse!
Life: Getting summer clothing for little miss D., trying to keep up with the class, caring for miss D., and job hunting, house hunting, services hunting. There's never a dull moment.
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Well, back to me.
Home: For now things are on track. Some expenses will still be covered by gov aids (amen) and so we can keep focus on caring for baby. Besides that, looking for housing options to see if we can actually qualify somewhere else for Section 8.
Class: Second week of sucky PHP course, almost over! I don't see any learning experience here... all I see is loud mouth people and no comments from the teacher... Don't know what else to expect. Will try to keep on reading and keep on trying to learn by myself. Did I mention I hate programming? Just checking.
Well... building up a class site for my dream of doing a SMA chapter in Puerto Rico. You may go there and browse and critique if you feel like it (it is a work in progress, made the basics in CSS and must apply some php to the forms... This is the 2nd week, so don't expect fireworks... It was a "design a site"week... Next week real programming begins. Wish me good luck).Anyway, hope that this truly ends in August. After getting the diploma I may go forth and do a bachelors in multimedia or graphic design. But that is another story... One thing is certain, so far this was a really good idea. Besides keeping me "sharp" it has also validated my desire for a career change. I REALLY like webdesign. And if I am able to do something about Motion Animation I will be in heaven. I REALLY like motion animation... Hopefully the stars will align and I will be able to get into that trail, follow it, and succeed. I have wasted so many years doing network work... But maybe now the new era has begun.
Friends: Groundel has been busy straightening up parts of his life (yay), Coriolis has been busy with animals and plants and then some computers... (yay?), and Carlos managed calling up and saying hello (yay!). To the surprise of everyone I keep up with everything about beloved little Paradise City, and even got to find this lovely link to savor Puerto Rico in all its splendor! Visit Eye Tour Puerto Rico and you'll see what I'm talking about. They even have a video of my favorite place, Los Morrillos Lighthouse!
Life: Getting summer clothing for little miss D., trying to keep up with the class, caring for miss D., and job hunting, house hunting, services hunting. There's never a dull moment.
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Monday, April 13, 2009
Weird Groundel Post below
Since videos did not show in his site, I posted them here just so they are there. Enjoy or something. :P
Friday, April 10, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!!!
Yup, on April 8th I turned a year older... and somewhat wiser... The day was not so bad at all. Got phone calls from the right people, and hubby hit jackpot with a lovely victorian-goth dress that really surprised me. And the cherry on top of the sunday: Deedee has been doing great so far, so the three of us were at home. It's as good as it can get. :)
This week my new course began... Introduction to Programming. Not so thrilled about it, as I'm trying to actually run away from programming, but I know it is a necessary evil. This course teaches PHP, which seems to be in vogue. We'll see what happens... I should do good, it is not my first programming course and I dealt with some Oracle and ASP.net... It's just annoying.
And that's what sums all up, for now. I'm feeling very tired and sleepy... Ge, I wonder why...
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This week my new course began... Introduction to Programming. Not so thrilled about it, as I'm trying to actually run away from programming, but I know it is a necessary evil. This course teaches PHP, which seems to be in vogue. We'll see what happens... I should do good, it is not my first programming course and I dealt with some Oracle and ASP.net... It's just annoying.
And that's what sums all up, for now. I'm feeling very tired and sleepy... Ge, I wonder why...
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Sunday, March 29, 2009
CLASSES OVER, AMEN!
This was torture! But finally made it... Created Deirdre's Official website. Visit it and spread the word!
Friday, March 27, 2009
Busy, busy
One site down, one to go... Just 2 more days for this to be over... Gosh, no more double classes, no more!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
TIRED
Stressed, tired, overworked, tired, many things to do, tired... Tired, tired, tired...
Back at home, after a whole month... Tired... And Deeva beeping all the time... No rest for the wicked.
Back at home, after a whole month... Tired... And Deeva beeping all the time... No rest for the wicked.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
SURVIVING WITH FLYING COLORS!
(exhausted? well... duh!)
Classes: Made it to my second week, keeping all my grades at a 100. Yes, people, I am very picky with my grades, especially in the starting weeks (those points will be needed when you are reaching the end). So far, LOVE the Flash course. The manual is refresing the little things I never understood well (hey, I took a Flash4 5-day training back in 2002, bear with me!). Who knows, maybe Foamy will have a competitor soon... LOL For the Dreamweaver course, the dice were rolled, and I will try to build Deedee's website in 4 weeks. If that turns out (I know it will, I have been postponing that project for long), I will get a domain so she has her own adress, to make things even better.
Deeva: Infection out, antibiotics ended today, and plans to come back home stand for tomorrow (today) at 2pm. YAY!!!!! Daddy is in the hospital in double duty, as he has been very supportive of me getting the assignments done. Yeah, we all know the classes are fun but they cost and I better take full advantage of them. Deedee will have her share of fame when I am done with both. After all, this is all for her. Anyway, fingers crossed that we all will finally be together soon. Being in the hospital for so long really sucks!
Everything else has been on hold. Family, friends, postings... I've been in working-production mode and I am really tired and need lots of catching Zs. We'll see how that turns out... Got assignments for everyday, and I dont foresee we will have nurses for the weekend. Well, at least Daddy takes care of business really well. He's been rising SMA awareness at the hospital among the nursing students telling them about it, what to do, and what a client expects. Fun stuff. They also liked our manual, they say we should publish it. Who knows... Maybe when we are extremely desperate?
Running out of fuel...
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Classes: Made it to my second week, keeping all my grades at a 100. Yes, people, I am very picky with my grades, especially in the starting weeks (those points will be needed when you are reaching the end). So far, LOVE the Flash course. The manual is refresing the little things I never understood well (hey, I took a Flash4 5-day training back in 2002, bear with me!). Who knows, maybe Foamy will have a competitor soon... LOL For the Dreamweaver course, the dice were rolled, and I will try to build Deedee's website in 4 weeks. If that turns out (I know it will, I have been postponing that project for long), I will get a domain so she has her own adress, to make things even better.
Deeva: Infection out, antibiotics ended today, and plans to come back home stand for tomorrow (today) at 2pm. YAY!!!!! Daddy is in the hospital in double duty, as he has been very supportive of me getting the assignments done. Yeah, we all know the classes are fun but they cost and I better take full advantage of them. Deedee will have her share of fame when I am done with both. After all, this is all for her. Anyway, fingers crossed that we all will finally be together soon. Being in the hospital for so long really sucks!
Everything else has been on hold. Family, friends, postings... I've been in working-production mode and I am really tired and need lots of catching Zs. We'll see how that turns out... Got assignments for everyday, and I dont foresee we will have nurses for the weekend. Well, at least Daddy takes care of business really well. He's been rising SMA awareness at the hospital among the nursing students telling them about it, what to do, and what a client expects. Fun stuff. They also liked our manual, they say we should publish it. Who knows... Maybe when we are extremely desperate?
Running out of fuel...
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Saturday, February 21, 2009
BETWEEN HOSPITAL & CLASSES
... ermmm... Can I sleep?
So... February has been an interesting mess so far. Never a moment to catch your breath! No way! Action!
Deeva: Got pneumonia and gave us quite a scare early in the week. We had to take her to the hospital on Tuesday, and so far she has been responding to the antibiotics. From dark green brownish icky mucus to crystal clear alien acid, baby improved a lot in just 4 days. Hopefully we'll be home by next Friday. Fingers crossed.
Classes: Well, since I couldnt take Flash in January, now i have to take Flash and Dreamweaver. Got the two hit combo, smashing 5 weeks that will definitively take a lot from me. But since I have so much masochism in me, I know that I will enjoy the high stress. Just for today I need to complete a storyboard, blueprint, two questions... all for one class... and a tutorial and questions for another class. And need to start a gif for tomorrow when I'm done with that, and a storyboard for the other class... All smashed into a nice long night that is just ahead of me. Gotta do that, so I can go take care of my hospital shift tomorrow in the afternoon. Wish me luck.
I was actually gona leave the classes, thinking I couldnt handle that and the hospitalization of baby... Slept on that decision and woke up with the right energy to say "Fuck it, I'm doing it". Reality is that baby will be in the hospital many times, and we need to accept that as our daily bread. We have to adjust things, being positive about it, believing she will respond and be better. There is no space for thinking negative, as those what if's do not improve any situation and actually simply drown us in sadness and depression. We cannot let ourselves drown. We have many things to do, many plans ahead of us, and we must believe that things happen because in a way they fascilitate other roads and makes us stronger.
We travel daily through the road less taken, discovering many paths that have not been walked before. Definitively not the easy road... But you know what? It is the most fullfilling.
So... Just taking a break between assignments to let the world know that yes, I'm alive... I'm still kicking... I've not given up... And the best is yet to come.
Now... Remember Legend of the Seeker...9pm, PIX (Ch11). Hey, it's the only interesting thing on TV right now, gotta milk it!
And kids: I'm not a caller. You wanna talk to me, you gotta call or drop an email. Moodiness keeping the people skills away, focusing on production line mode... Nothing personal. Ok?
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So... February has been an interesting mess so far. Never a moment to catch your breath! No way! Action!
Deeva: Got pneumonia and gave us quite a scare early in the week. We had to take her to the hospital on Tuesday, and so far she has been responding to the antibiotics. From dark green brownish icky mucus to crystal clear alien acid, baby improved a lot in just 4 days. Hopefully we'll be home by next Friday. Fingers crossed.
Classes: Well, since I couldnt take Flash in January, now i have to take Flash and Dreamweaver. Got the two hit combo, smashing 5 weeks that will definitively take a lot from me. But since I have so much masochism in me, I know that I will enjoy the high stress. Just for today I need to complete a storyboard, blueprint, two questions... all for one class... and a tutorial and questions for another class. And need to start a gif for tomorrow when I'm done with that, and a storyboard for the other class... All smashed into a nice long night that is just ahead of me. Gotta do that, so I can go take care of my hospital shift tomorrow in the afternoon. Wish me luck.
I was actually gona leave the classes, thinking I couldnt handle that and the hospitalization of baby... Slept on that decision and woke up with the right energy to say "Fuck it, I'm doing it". Reality is that baby will be in the hospital many times, and we need to accept that as our daily bread. We have to adjust things, being positive about it, believing she will respond and be better. There is no space for thinking negative, as those what if's do not improve any situation and actually simply drown us in sadness and depression. We cannot let ourselves drown. We have many things to do, many plans ahead of us, and we must believe that things happen because in a way they fascilitate other roads and makes us stronger.
We travel daily through the road less taken, discovering many paths that have not been walked before. Definitively not the easy road... But you know what? It is the most fullfilling.
So... Just taking a break between assignments to let the world know that yes, I'm alive... I'm still kicking... I've not given up... And the best is yet to come.
Now... Remember Legend of the Seeker...9pm, PIX (Ch11). Hey, it's the only interesting thing on TV right now, gotta milk it!
And kids: I'm not a caller. You wanna talk to me, you gotta call or drop an email. Moodiness keeping the people skills away, focusing on production line mode... Nothing personal. Ok?
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Monday, February 16, 2009
Plans...
of action, of inaction, of thought, of not...
Finally found a dentist on Saturday (AMEN!). Had a cavity digged under a silver plate, so that's what the problem was. It was a funny visit,well... seems the whole day was about "amateurs". The doctor is an "amatuer"painting artist, and has a fruit bowl painted in a canvas, in the client service room. I asked why the painting had no signature. Then he asked what I thought of it... I just thought it was something done by a daughter, so I said it's good for a beginner. Oh, dear... He smiled and said he had done it, but he didnt like the outcome so he didn't signed it. Umm... I kept thinking of that and it just tickles me. Gosh, at least I didnt say it was crap! He went on to say he used to have a mountains painting that became the topic of conversation with a client... who later on he married, and that it's been 10 years since then. That was a nice Valentine's story. Still, on my way back to the apartment, I kept giggling at my response of "Not bag for an amateur". Artists...
I arrived home, and after a while the girl who took Deedee's pics arrived. I was telling the tale of the dentist and the painting, and we were all merry (mostly my dear hubby and her were merry and baffled because I had a laughing spell). Funny thing is that the girl ended up joking that the pictures were "not bad for an amateur". God, it kinda make me burst even further in laughter... Sometimes truth is weirder and funnier than fiction. Especially when it comes out innocently, and somehow without notice. Oh, the laughing episode grew worst after she went away because... well... in Deedee's case... It is kinda true... I have taken baffling pictures of her spellbinding eyes (which somehow didn't came out in the pictures the girl took... Baby didn't smile and didn't cooperate with her at all).
That's the merry part of it all. The down part: I REALLY felt that drill in my tooth. It was awful. It's been 3 days and I still have the sore side. And I have another appointment for the tooth with temporary filling... Ugh!
A family gave the idea of considering moving to another state. We can't go down as services are absent there... We thought about Madison, isconsin. It had been our first choice when we were to transfer but we had to surrender to NJ due to lack of Medicaid. Perhaps now it would be more feasible... I know that's a very cold place, but quality of life and employment is more than 50% better than Newark. So we will try to see the options over there, and it it all points that way then we will go ahead and do it. We are also finding out of how things are in Secaucus and Jersey City as it seems there are more job offers over there that could mean opportunity for me in particular... So, still in hunting mode.
Courses begin in Thursday, this time will be 2: Dreamweaver and Flash, together. Hopefully won't be a hassle, after all I know the old ways with both. Crossing fingers on not going nuts with so many assignments!
And that is how things are in the land of Far Far Away.
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Finally found a dentist on Saturday (AMEN!). Had a cavity digged under a silver plate, so that's what the problem was. It was a funny visit,well... seems the whole day was about "amateurs". The doctor is an "amatuer"painting artist, and has a fruit bowl painted in a canvas, in the client service room. I asked why the painting had no signature. Then he asked what I thought of it... I just thought it was something done by a daughter, so I said it's good for a beginner. Oh, dear... He smiled and said he had done it, but he didnt like the outcome so he didn't signed it. Umm... I kept thinking of that and it just tickles me. Gosh, at least I didnt say it was crap! He went on to say he used to have a mountains painting that became the topic of conversation with a client... who later on he married, and that it's been 10 years since then. That was a nice Valentine's story. Still, on my way back to the apartment, I kept giggling at my response of "Not bag for an amateur". Artists...
I arrived home, and after a while the girl who took Deedee's pics arrived. I was telling the tale of the dentist and the painting, and we were all merry (mostly my dear hubby and her were merry and baffled because I had a laughing spell). Funny thing is that the girl ended up joking that the pictures were "not bad for an amateur". God, it kinda make me burst even further in laughter... Sometimes truth is weirder and funnier than fiction. Especially when it comes out innocently, and somehow without notice. Oh, the laughing episode grew worst after she went away because... well... in Deedee's case... It is kinda true... I have taken baffling pictures of her spellbinding eyes (which somehow didn't came out in the pictures the girl took... Baby didn't smile and didn't cooperate with her at all).
That's the merry part of it all. The down part: I REALLY felt that drill in my tooth. It was awful. It's been 3 days and I still have the sore side. And I have another appointment for the tooth with temporary filling... Ugh!
A family gave the idea of considering moving to another state. We can't go down as services are absent there... We thought about Madison, isconsin. It had been our first choice when we were to transfer but we had to surrender to NJ due to lack of Medicaid. Perhaps now it would be more feasible... I know that's a very cold place, but quality of life and employment is more than 50% better than Newark. So we will try to see the options over there, and it it all points that way then we will go ahead and do it. We are also finding out of how things are in Secaucus and Jersey City as it seems there are more job offers over there that could mean opportunity for me in particular... So, still in hunting mode.
Courses begin in Thursday, this time will be 2: Dreamweaver and Flash, together. Hopefully won't be a hassle, after all I know the old ways with both. Crossing fingers on not going nuts with so many assignments!
And that is how things are in the land of Far Far Away.
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Saturday, February 14, 2009
HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!!
Friendship day, lovers day... o algo...
Me, I have a terrible tooth pain that is driving me insane. Since things are not so easy in this lovely place, I got a date for March 20th... WTF? What am I suppossed to do in the meanwhile? Well... Gotta get some diabetic pills before I actually go to emergency and try solving the issue... I can't wait so long.
Just saw some kitty videos. THANK YOU GROUNDEL!!! I see my babies are big and gorgeous! Prrrrrr!!!
Happy happy joy joy!
Me, I have a terrible tooth pain that is driving me insane. Since things are not so easy in this lovely place, I got a date for March 20th... WTF? What am I suppossed to do in the meanwhile? Well... Gotta get some diabetic pills before I actually go to emergency and try solving the issue... I can't wait so long.
Just saw some kitty videos. THANK YOU GROUNDEL!!! I see my babies are big and gorgeous! Prrrrrr!!!
Happy happy joy joy!
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Dissapointed...
One more time? Yup... Actually several times...
As usual, maybe our expectations go beyond the capabilities of the popele around us, or around our little one. Today it was a vendor-show-fitting to select a stupid wheelchair. We took the time to do the proper research, as usual, and had our preferred choice based on Deeva's necessities... The vendor's first attitude was frowning followed by a comment of how we went straight for the best. What? Our baby doesn't deserve the best? What's up with this guy? We'll see about the outcome. The chair is not what we expect, and only do tilting/reclining. The padding should allow her to be straight at least fro an hour. Besides the chair we had the stander info, but that won't be touched until we have an actual hip x-ray that tells them Deeva can use it. Contrary to the doc who just said "have them call me". Whatever...
What bothers? Attitude, attitude, attitude. The people explaining things as if we didn't understand, as if we didn't know implications, and worst: not taking into account Deeva's needs and growth for the next 8 months. Insistence on ordering without taking into account the next 8 months can lead to trouble, as the chair will actually arrive within 7 months... (Next Christmas?)... We will see how useful can that be for her by then... Another thing is the stander thing that is not taken too seriously and other SMA kids have as important part of their thrapy. That and aqwua therapy. They have started as early as 9-10 months. Deeva is 1.5 yrs old, and I dont see why the insistence on putting boundaries that we know she don't have. We have a staff filled with "low impact" people that is NOT cutting edge, dont really think outside the box, and honestly are not doing their job properly or as I expect. And of all people, I can expect because I witness services where i used to work, Vocational Rehabilitation Admin... So I know what is out there, what can be done. And it is the main factor that is so frustrating. If I were an imbecile or ignorant I would be dazzled by everything because everything would seem so magical and right. But I'm not, because of my witnessing things, because of my research on what to do to make Deeva reach her full potential... because we are not average, I am not average... Ugh! And getting comments that leads you to get the point of "why bother? they dont have the money, and is not like the kid can do much" is beyond enraging.
That's about the wheelchair fitting... Now about the nursing company. We are wondering which other company is out there can actully do the job... If that is actually a human target. I mean, we have a stupid manual of care for our baby, we explain everything in a heartbeat, her care is more about being consistent, follow a routine and be aware. No hocus-pocus, no hidden surprises... Well, now we have a star nurse that wont knock and wont call when she arrives because I guess she fears she would break the force field around our house or that it will desintegrate her. Its a big WTF. She comes, ists closed (duh) so she goes. WTF!!! Last week she was annoyed because we sent her home as she was coughing all morning and she seemed sick (gee, excuse us for looking towards Deeva's health). Besides her, no other nurse for no other shift appeared, even if they were scheduled for Friday, Sat and Sun... So, what's up with service? What's up with everything? We asked for our old reliable nurse, and they just did what they wanted (putting her into a case for the night shift) as the opportunity for that came when Deeva fell in the hospital... So they took our nurse to put her in another case... Lovely... I guess they pay more. Its the only reasonable explanation I can think of. They tell us she doesnt want our case anymore. Funny, because I talked to her last week and she sounded quite the opposite when I asked her why she had not come back, that we missed her. The company sucks. That's all i can say about it. They lie to their teeth. And we are getting to the fed-up part. So the drama of the nurses from hell continues... We asked for something, they seemed to hear, and today in the night we have a "meet and greet"with a nurse that, ok at least she showed up, but she is the same as the others that didnt work out... And we wonder, is this it? Its horrible. Its unnerving. Its stressing.
Wheelchair done, nurses done... Getting to the services in matters of therapy. Everything sucks about it. We get the "we will show so you do"and what we think it should be is consistent 3 times a week of coming and doing the actual therapy. We do our part, but somehow we are not impress with the services as it were things we have been done ever since we got all the info and the what to do back a year ago. The only one that contributes something is the communications specialist and we suspect it is because since she works in cerebral parlsey she is exposed to more things related to Deeva's condition... Everyone else is a supporting cast that is good only for keeping us a bit sane with social face to face interaction, that is all. But who knows... Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe they DO something, it is just that I'm so used to things (one of my friends is a top physical rehab therapist and she couched me since this started..., maybe that's why I dont see the razzle-dazzle about them.
Maybe it's me, maybe it's us... I keep thinking it must be us, it cannot be that everything is so lame. It cannot be that we actually do a better job at everything we do. We dont have a certificate for the skills as PT, RT, OT, speech, communications, or as doctors... But we DO have beyond the skill and knowledge of these so called professionals, and somehow instead of boosting our confidence it actually depresses us. Yipeee, we know and can do everything... So... How can others help if they suck at everything they are suppossed to be specialized into?
Tonight, after the morning arguing with the nurse agency, after the afternoon at the stupid fitting, after the dumb meet and greet, after having to take a long nap as I was completely out and drained... I woke up, it's 1am, and I just wrote all this... How I feel? Honestly I feel defeated. I feel depressed. I feel sad. I feel we are wasting out time, our lives. Deeva dont have the quality of service we expect, and seems that no matter what we do if we dont do things ourselves it all just sucks. We dont really have a professional supporting staff that is actually interested in going the extra mile and actually tailoring things for Deeva's skill improvement. There are no friends or family to rely on, at least to give us a bit of energy or just to listen to us. No friendly faces at any given moment of the day. It's just us: mommy, daddy, baby. Oh, and kitty. And it is alright, we accept our fate... But when you see goals and purpose bent towards the will of a flaw system and stupid people serving in the system, you start to wonder what is best.
How can we move on to a level where we can actually make our own decisions if we dont get a job? And gosh, NO ONE would hire us! We have tried EVERYTHING! And then when we think we can balance outside job with Deeva's caring, something happens that requires both of us juggling life. And the more days that passes the more certain it is that raising Deeva requires both of us simply because services are there but are just a mirage, a mental placebo. Sure, a helper may appear, but we actually do all the job so it is done RIGHT.
Somehow the opportunities are faded, the outlook on where to go from here is tied up to getting a job, moving where the job is, getting a new supporting cast for services. Problem: It goes in that order, days keep passing and it all seems a neverending story. Staying here in NJ was imposed on us, and we hate it. We want to go back home and we cant. And the ease of people being two face all around us is really heart-breaking... whoever is nice to you has an alterior motive.
Dissapointed... There are no other words to put how we are, how we feel, how things are turning out. In our microcosmos, we stand and we prevail... The trouble is the rest of the world.
As usual, maybe our expectations go beyond the capabilities of the popele around us, or around our little one. Today it was a vendor-show-fitting to select a stupid wheelchair. We took the time to do the proper research, as usual, and had our preferred choice based on Deeva's necessities... The vendor's first attitude was frowning followed by a comment of how we went straight for the best. What? Our baby doesn't deserve the best? What's up with this guy? We'll see about the outcome. The chair is not what we expect, and only do tilting/reclining. The padding should allow her to be straight at least fro an hour. Besides the chair we had the stander info, but that won't be touched until we have an actual hip x-ray that tells them Deeva can use it. Contrary to the doc who just said "have them call me". Whatever...
What bothers? Attitude, attitude, attitude. The people explaining things as if we didn't understand, as if we didn't know implications, and worst: not taking into account Deeva's needs and growth for the next 8 months. Insistence on ordering without taking into account the next 8 months can lead to trouble, as the chair will actually arrive within 7 months... (Next Christmas?)... We will see how useful can that be for her by then... Another thing is the stander thing that is not taken too seriously and other SMA kids have as important part of their thrapy. That and aqwua therapy. They have started as early as 9-10 months. Deeva is 1.5 yrs old, and I dont see why the insistence on putting boundaries that we know she don't have. We have a staff filled with "low impact" people that is NOT cutting edge, dont really think outside the box, and honestly are not doing their job properly or as I expect. And of all people, I can expect because I witness services where i used to work, Vocational Rehabilitation Admin... So I know what is out there, what can be done. And it is the main factor that is so frustrating. If I were an imbecile or ignorant I would be dazzled by everything because everything would seem so magical and right. But I'm not, because of my witnessing things, because of my research on what to do to make Deeva reach her full potential... because we are not average, I am not average... Ugh! And getting comments that leads you to get the point of "why bother? they dont have the money, and is not like the kid can do much" is beyond enraging.
That's about the wheelchair fitting... Now about the nursing company. We are wondering which other company is out there can actully do the job... If that is actually a human target. I mean, we have a stupid manual of care for our baby, we explain everything in a heartbeat, her care is more about being consistent, follow a routine and be aware. No hocus-pocus, no hidden surprises... Well, now we have a star nurse that wont knock and wont call when she arrives because I guess she fears she would break the force field around our house or that it will desintegrate her. Its a big WTF. She comes, ists closed (duh) so she goes. WTF!!! Last week she was annoyed because we sent her home as she was coughing all morning and she seemed sick (gee, excuse us for looking towards Deeva's health). Besides her, no other nurse for no other shift appeared, even if they were scheduled for Friday, Sat and Sun... So, what's up with service? What's up with everything? We asked for our old reliable nurse, and they just did what they wanted (putting her into a case for the night shift) as the opportunity for that came when Deeva fell in the hospital... So they took our nurse to put her in another case... Lovely... I guess they pay more. Its the only reasonable explanation I can think of. They tell us she doesnt want our case anymore. Funny, because I talked to her last week and she sounded quite the opposite when I asked her why she had not come back, that we missed her. The company sucks. That's all i can say about it. They lie to their teeth. And we are getting to the fed-up part. So the drama of the nurses from hell continues... We asked for something, they seemed to hear, and today in the night we have a "meet and greet"with a nurse that, ok at least she showed up, but she is the same as the others that didnt work out... And we wonder, is this it? Its horrible. Its unnerving. Its stressing.
Wheelchair done, nurses done... Getting to the services in matters of therapy. Everything sucks about it. We get the "we will show so you do"and what we think it should be is consistent 3 times a week of coming and doing the actual therapy. We do our part, but somehow we are not impress with the services as it were things we have been done ever since we got all the info and the what to do back a year ago. The only one that contributes something is the communications specialist and we suspect it is because since she works in cerebral parlsey she is exposed to more things related to Deeva's condition... Everyone else is a supporting cast that is good only for keeping us a bit sane with social face to face interaction, that is all. But who knows... Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe they DO something, it is just that I'm so used to things (one of my friends is a top physical rehab therapist and she couched me since this started..., maybe that's why I dont see the razzle-dazzle about them.
Maybe it's me, maybe it's us... I keep thinking it must be us, it cannot be that everything is so lame. It cannot be that we actually do a better job at everything we do. We dont have a certificate for the skills as PT, RT, OT, speech, communications, or as doctors... But we DO have beyond the skill and knowledge of these so called professionals, and somehow instead of boosting our confidence it actually depresses us. Yipeee, we know and can do everything... So... How can others help if they suck at everything they are suppossed to be specialized into?
Tonight, after the morning arguing with the nurse agency, after the afternoon at the stupid fitting, after the dumb meet and greet, after having to take a long nap as I was completely out and drained... I woke up, it's 1am, and I just wrote all this... How I feel? Honestly I feel defeated. I feel depressed. I feel sad. I feel we are wasting out time, our lives. Deeva dont have the quality of service we expect, and seems that no matter what we do if we dont do things ourselves it all just sucks. We dont really have a professional supporting staff that is actually interested in going the extra mile and actually tailoring things for Deeva's skill improvement. There are no friends or family to rely on, at least to give us a bit of energy or just to listen to us. No friendly faces at any given moment of the day. It's just us: mommy, daddy, baby. Oh, and kitty. And it is alright, we accept our fate... But when you see goals and purpose bent towards the will of a flaw system and stupid people serving in the system, you start to wonder what is best.
How can we move on to a level where we can actually make our own decisions if we dont get a job? And gosh, NO ONE would hire us! We have tried EVERYTHING! And then when we think we can balance outside job with Deeva's caring, something happens that requires both of us juggling life. And the more days that passes the more certain it is that raising Deeva requires both of us simply because services are there but are just a mirage, a mental placebo. Sure, a helper may appear, but we actually do all the job so it is done RIGHT.
Somehow the opportunities are faded, the outlook on where to go from here is tied up to getting a job, moving where the job is, getting a new supporting cast for services. Problem: It goes in that order, days keep passing and it all seems a neverending story. Staying here in NJ was imposed on us, and we hate it. We want to go back home and we cant. And the ease of people being two face all around us is really heart-breaking... whoever is nice to you has an alterior motive.
Dissapointed... There are no other words to put how we are, how we feel, how things are turning out. In our microcosmos, we stand and we prevail... The trouble is the rest of the world.
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
HAPPY 2nd ANNIVERSARY to US!!!!
Just a reminder to the world: Two years ago the Witch and the Mage said "I DO"... And for so many non-believers, well, here we are. The amazing journey has taken many unexpected turns, but still has been the best thing in both our lives.
I LOVE YOU, ZORDAK! "til the end of time.
XOXOXO
I LOVE YOU, ZORDAK! "til the end of time.
XOXOXO
LEGEND OF THE SEEKER
magic-fights-more magic
Ok, Last week I was obssessed with Michael Hurst, finding all the info I could about his wherabouts... Well, he directed episode 10 of this series. Looked it up, HULU-ed it... Well... If you thirst for something reminiscing of Xena and Herc, look no further. Filmed in NewZealand and featuring a cast that you will recognized for those old series, you will enjoy this new series. Finally, a breath of old-fresh air! Music by LoDuca, of course, and executive producers RobTapert and SamReimi. A nice break from so much TV trash! (You know, the only watchable thing right now is House... so this gives another selection to the daily menu). So... Go check out Legend of the Seeker. It's worth it.
Ok, Last week I was obssessed with Michael Hurst, finding all the info I could about his wherabouts... Well, he directed episode 10 of this series. Looked it up, HULU-ed it... Well... If you thirst for something reminiscing of Xena and Herc, look no further. Filmed in NewZealand and featuring a cast that you will recognized for those old series, you will enjoy this new series. Finally, a breath of old-fresh air! Music by LoDuca, of course, and executive producers RobTapert and SamReimi. A nice break from so much TV trash! (You know, the only watchable thing right now is House... so this gives another selection to the daily menu). So... Go check out Legend of the Seeker. It's worth it.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
VISUALS 101
Well, not that I have changed alot. Still the same old twisted happy goth. Loved my layout, but since I was forced to update decided to change from all red/black to a bit of purrrrrrrrrrple in the mix.
Anyway... Found many unexpected things today, 70s and 80s of course. At least today I was not doing anything sewious. Just strangling time.
Anyway... Found many unexpected things today, 70s and 80s of course. At least today I was not doing anything sewious. Just strangling time.
Glamour & Glitter, Fashion and Fame!
And then some...
Gotta get me the complete series... Hmph!
Just for some kicks...
Gotta get me the complete series... Hmph!
Just for some kicks...
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
So many losses...
what a way to start the new year...
I just read that an SMA baby, Cornelious, died on Saturday... He was 10 months and 10 days. Many SMA kids have been VERY sick, and when we got to PICU we found Israel, who has been there for 3 weeks and counting. The weather takes no one for granted.
Last week a friend who was to turn 21 on Jan 13 died, after she was healing and doing well from her transplant the doctor arranged a liver check up, which ended up in malpractice as an artery was broken and no one noticed until everything inside her got paralized. Imagine that...
We are sad. Nothing you do can change the fact that the only ones who take good care of SMA kids are their parents. Everyone else makes stupid mistakes out of carelessness and stupidity. It is so unnerving, as whenever you meet people or doctors, they say "oh, but you have nursing care, right?". Like that settles the issue of bein stress free, free to work, free to do whatever... How? The high anxiety and stress of what a stranger can or cant do is beyond belief. If I count all emergencies that have happened... all have been due to a small stupidity moment of someone else... not us, not our baby... To top things, you go to a hospital and there you find the same... nurses and RTs that shouldn't be there because they barely do their jobs and are lazy... and still getting paid. What is the difference from here and our island? The doctors having a broader knowledge, and more availability of services. Everything else is the same crap: malpractice due to stupidity, malpractice due to laziness, malpractice due to overwork (most work 2 shifts, not that it includes quality of service!).
Its all tiresome, and very very draining. We have no one to turn to, and we know that situation would be the same for us anywhere in the planet... due to our limited family and our limited friends. Groundel,LS and Coriolis are always there, and have been of BIG support, but beyond them... Well, beyond them is all the perfect beautiful familiar strangers on the SMA Support group that have been "virtually" there all the way... and they know how things are and why we have this ongoing desire to live each second to the fullest. Without them, I dont think we would be here at all... I dont think Deedee would be here, period.
Besides this, both Mark & me had to cancel our classes, as they started yesterday and obviously we wont be able to attend until Deedee is back home... which may take up to 2 more weeks if things go well. A small drawback, but our main reason for being here is Deedee, so she is the priority. Mark is more obligued, as he must get a RN (registered nurse) degree for Deedee's own well being. Me, the diploma I'm completing is for keeping sanity and having a real world stress, I need it so I wont go insane being between 4 walls all of the time, and it is not so critical. I'll take classes next month, no problem.
Mark may have a prospect job, but as every other offer it is far... We will see if it is worth it or not. But that has to wait until Deedee is home as well, and they may fill the spot by then... Whatever happens, hope things will fall in place little by little.
Me... I'm fed up with some people, both friends and foes. I'm making sure they get their own "mandá pal carajo" at the right time. I'm tired of bearing the sign of "Pendeja a bordo" or something... That's how it feels. Being good and nice doesnt mean being "pendeja". High stress, high anxiety, high everything... Including high belief in things working out and getting better.
Sing along:
"You take the good, you take the bad,
you mix them both and then you have
the Facts of Life, the Facts of Life..."
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I just read that an SMA baby, Cornelious, died on Saturday... He was 10 months and 10 days. Many SMA kids have been VERY sick, and when we got to PICU we found Israel, who has been there for 3 weeks and counting. The weather takes no one for granted.
Last week a friend who was to turn 21 on Jan 13 died, after she was healing and doing well from her transplant the doctor arranged a liver check up, which ended up in malpractice as an artery was broken and no one noticed until everything inside her got paralized. Imagine that...
We are sad. Nothing you do can change the fact that the only ones who take good care of SMA kids are their parents. Everyone else makes stupid mistakes out of carelessness and stupidity. It is so unnerving, as whenever you meet people or doctors, they say "oh, but you have nursing care, right?". Like that settles the issue of bein stress free, free to work, free to do whatever... How? The high anxiety and stress of what a stranger can or cant do is beyond belief. If I count all emergencies that have happened... all have been due to a small stupidity moment of someone else... not us, not our baby... To top things, you go to a hospital and there you find the same... nurses and RTs that shouldn't be there because they barely do their jobs and are lazy... and still getting paid. What is the difference from here and our island? The doctors having a broader knowledge, and more availability of services. Everything else is the same crap: malpractice due to stupidity, malpractice due to laziness, malpractice due to overwork (most work 2 shifts, not that it includes quality of service!).
Its all tiresome, and very very draining. We have no one to turn to, and we know that situation would be the same for us anywhere in the planet... due to our limited family and our limited friends. Groundel,LS and Coriolis are always there, and have been of BIG support, but beyond them... Well, beyond them is all the perfect beautiful familiar strangers on the SMA Support group that have been "virtually" there all the way... and they know how things are and why we have this ongoing desire to live each second to the fullest. Without them, I dont think we would be here at all... I dont think Deedee would be here, period.
Besides this, both Mark & me had to cancel our classes, as they started yesterday and obviously we wont be able to attend until Deedee is back home... which may take up to 2 more weeks if things go well. A small drawback, but our main reason for being here is Deedee, so she is the priority. Mark is more obligued, as he must get a RN (registered nurse) degree for Deedee's own well being. Me, the diploma I'm completing is for keeping sanity and having a real world stress, I need it so I wont go insane being between 4 walls all of the time, and it is not so critical. I'll take classes next month, no problem.
Mark may have a prospect job, but as every other offer it is far... We will see if it is worth it or not. But that has to wait until Deedee is home as well, and they may fill the spot by then... Whatever happens, hope things will fall in place little by little.
Me... I'm fed up with some people, both friends and foes. I'm making sure they get their own "mandá pal carajo" at the right time. I'm tired of bearing the sign of "Pendeja a bordo" or something... That's how it feels. Being good and nice doesnt mean being "pendeja". High stress, high anxiety, high everything... Including high belief in things working out and getting better.
Sing along:
"You take the good, you take the bad,
you mix them both and then you have
the Facts of Life, the Facts of Life..."
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